I woke up covered in sweat. I couldn't breathe. .

(Flashback)

He was holding me like he did every time I stayed the night. I was lying on his chest and all of a sudden I felt something wet on my face when I pulled back he had bleeding form his chest. And I looked at his face only to realize it was a corpse.

I just sat there crying for who knows how long. I hadn't even noticed the sun came up. I went into the bathroom. My face was red and puffy my hair was matted to the side of my face and I was completely pale.

I turned on the shower and sank down into the floor crying till the water ran cold. I wrapped my towel around me and walked to my bed not bothering to comb my hair. I grabbed the bible and flipped through. But, couldn't find what I was looking for. I threw it against the wall why didn't it have it? Why couldn't he tell me what to do when I was missing him? I needed something, I needed a release.

There had to be one around here. Fuck I threw all my razors away. That's when I noticed a paring knifed sitting on the counter.

Bella don't do it you promised. I thought to myself.

But, the other part of me was so mad.

He promised me too. That he would always be there for me but he broke that promise too.

I had the blade on my arm about to cut when I heard a knock at the door. It scared me and I nicked my arm.

"Fuck," I yelled.

I put on my robe and opened the door. Edward was standing there with a worried look on his face.

"Bella are you ok I been calling you all day?" he said truly concerned. "you look like you been crying" he said reaching out to touch my cheek. But I pulled back.

"I'm fine," I said not needing this right now. "Look Edward can we reschedule dinner for another time I'm not feeling good."

"Of course I..." he stopped grabbing my arm "why are you bleeding?" he said lifting my arm to see the fresh cut."

"Bella what happened? "He said with a pained look on his face.

I pulled my arm away "look I think you should leave!" I said turning to walk away but he followed behind me closing the door.

When I looked back at him He looked so hurt "don't do this Bella don't shut me out. I want to be here for you don't shut me out. Please?"

"Who the fuck asked you to be?"

"Bella please don't hurt yourself think of your promise!"

"Why should I promise something to someone who's dead huh Edward? Why? He broke his promise to me. He told me he would be there always? He lied to me he left me here in this fucked up place knowing I needed him. How could he just leave me? He just left and now I'm supposed to keep promises to a dead man Edward? He's fucking gone …he's gone… has gone and is never coming back." I said sinking to the floor crying hysterically

Epov

I dropped down wrapping her in my arms. I rocked her back and forth humming trying to calm her down. Eventually she calmed down enough where I could move her. I carried her to her bed, her arm was still bleeding. So I went to grab something to patch it up but, she grabbed my arm.

"No please Edward don't leave, please I'm sorry," she cried.

"Don't worry love, I'm just going to get something to patch you up I promise I won't leave," I said kissing her forehead.

I came back and cleaned her arm with alcohol and put on some ointment to help with the scar that would form, and then topped it with a bandage. I pulled Bella to my chest and stroked her hair while I hummed her to sleep. She fell out quickly.

I just couldn't help but think what if I was here a few minutes late. I slid from under her I needed to talk to someone.

"Hello Carlisle," I said

"Hey son are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine dad but, it's Bella. I don't know what to do I came to see her today and when I got here she was having a break down. She tried cutting herself again," I cried.

"oh my is she ok?"

"yes she's sleep now . I just don't know what to do?"

"Calm down Edward you went through this too the best thing is just to be there for her and talk to her. I would also suggest taking her to a grief counselor. "

"I don't know if she will go?"

"Offer to go with her it might help. But, other than that, just try to comfort her .I can tell you really care for this girl even though you have only know her for a little while," he said.

"I think I'm in love with her."

"I thought so but you have to know it may take her along time to feel the same, so be patient." he said "oh and Edward?"

"Yeah."

"I'm proud of you. you have come a long way."

"Thanks dad."

I hung up and went back to the room Bella was sitting there crying

"Bella I'm sorry I was just in the bathroom."

"I'm sorry Edward I ruined our night."

"Bella you didn't ruin anything. I'm just glad you're ok and my nights always perfect if I have you in it,"

"You're so cheesy," she said forcing a weak laugh.

"I mean it Bella. Just please don't scare me like that again, ok?"

She frowned, looking at the ground, "ok."

"Bella I really did mean it last night. I'm here for you always no matter what. If you need me don't hesitate to call me, and don't be afraid to ask me for anything ok?"

"Ok," she said and her stomach growled.

"Looks like some ones hungry?" he laughed kissing my fore head.

"Come 'on love, I'll make you some soup."

She followed me into the kitchen. And I made a bowl of chicken noodle soup. We watched a movie and she dosed off again. I carried her to her bed and she asked me to stay the night again and I was glad I wasn't sure if I was ready to, leave her alone just yet.

I pulled her back into my chest wrapping my arms around her and hummed my angel back to sleep.

A/N: so what do you think was it what you expected? Let me know.