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I woke up and I felt something hard and warm and I realized it was Edward. Then last night all came back to me. I tried to pull away but his grip tightened.

"Where do you think you're going?" he yawned.

"Bathroom," I said knowing he would let me go.

I walked in and quickly locked the door. He must think I'm a basket case. I can't believe he saw me like that. I thought to myself

But Bella he stayed so he must not care, that you're a basket case.

I looked in the mirror and was horrified. My hair was all over the place and my eyes were red. I ran some water on my face trying to wake myself up. I brushed my hair for what seemed like forever. Then I brushed my teeth. I pulled my hair in to a bun, I was stalling, doing anything to not have to go out and face Edward.

I finally mustered up enough courage. To face him. I opened the door but he wasn't there, then it hit me the smell of pancakes and coffee.

"Good morning, he said smiling but it didn't reach his eyes.

"Hey," I said sitting down at the bar.

"Coffee?"

"Sure," I smiled.

He poured me a cup. And continued making pancakes. There was tension in the air and I knew we had to talk about last night. He turned to set pancakes in front of me and then he grabbed his and sat next to me.

"Edward I think we should talk about last night," I sighed.

"You're probably right," he replied turn his full attention to me.

"I'm sorry I yelled at you," I said looking down at the floor.

"It's ok I'll be fine are you feeling better?"

"No it's not Edward. What I'm going through doesn't give me the right to treat you like shit. I'm so sorry for that," I said sincerely.

He frowned, "Bella stop apologizing. The only thing I care about is that you're ok. I'm not worried about you damaging my ego it's big enough to survive," he smiled.

I laughed a little. "Thank you for everything. I don't know how I'm going to get through this but, when I'm with you I feel like I can do it."

"Like I said last night anything no matter when it is, if you need me I'm here. Just please promise me you'll call me if you're ever having a day like that again?"

"I promise."

"There's something I wanted to ask you..." he said looking nervous.

"Anything," I smiled.

"You scared me last night Bella I was terrified Please don't be mad but I called my father. He's a doctor and well I told him what you were going through. He told me that I was doing crazy things too when I was dealing with the loss of my parents. He suggested that maybe you see a grief counselor." he said hesitantly, "I would go with you if you want me to."

I was so upset he told his father my secrets and I trusted him. But, at the same time I couldn't help but feel loved that he was so concerned. Then again my secrets weren't his to tell. How could he do that to me?
I could tell he was waiting for me to say something his look became more pained and he was getting anxious.

"You told my secrets?" was all I could get out.

"Bella I'm so sorry I was just so scared. He said and looked so pained at the thought of betraying my trust.

"How could you do that to me? I trusted you. Did you think I was crazy or something? What where you so scared of?"

"I could never think you're crazy. I been through this and I know, if you don't get help your grief is going to consume you. I don't want you to end up like I almost did. When I went through this, I got so bad. I just couldn't take it anymore and that's when I tried to end it and last night when I saw your arm I just freaked. I was so scared you were at that point. I was terrified of losing you. You already mean so much to me in the short time I've known you. I'm so sorry for betraying your trust, and I swear to you I will never do it again. Can you please forgive me Bella?" he said looking into my eyes so sincerely.

Just then a tear rolled down my cheek how he could care so much about me in such a short time. I could see he really cared. Edward was the only person I had I couldn't push him away. "I forgive you."

He let out a breath of relief and pulled me in for hug and he pressed a kiss on my fore head. Having him there made me so happy. He made the pain hurt less but, he couldn't be there all the time he had a life. When I was alone I couldn't take it. I had no idea how to fix my broken heart. I started to cry a little.

"What's wrong angel?"

"Edward I don't want to get to that point.." I paused, "will you go to the counselor with me?"

"Of course."

He held me much tighter rocking form side to side I never wanted him to let go. We booth jumped apart when Edwards phone rang.

EPOV

"Hello?"

"Oh, Edward your still alive I been calling you all night." Alice sighed.

"Have you seen Bella?"

"Yes I'm with her rite now why?"

"I haven't herd form her either and I was so worried," she sighed in relief again.

I smiled to myself Alice was so caring.

"I wanted to know if Bella's coming to your gig tonight?"

"Well I hadn't had a chance to ask her yet. But I will see and call you back."

"Ok bye" click

Bella had wandered into her bed room and put on some clothes she was just walking back out after I hung up.

"What's on the agenda today she smiled?"

"Well I was going to ask you yesterday. Me jasper and Emmett have a band kind of and well every couple weeks we play a few cover songs by different bands and some original stuff too. Anyway its tonight and I want to know if you wanted to go everyone will be there?"

"That sounds so awesome, I can't wait to hear you sing." she giggled

We were both off work so we decided to lounge around at her place till tonight. I knew Bella was emotionally drained and so was I. We both quickly fell asleep watching TV.

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