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I OWN NOTHING. MEYERS OWN TWILIGHT AND THE SONGS I USE ARE OWN BY THE ARTIST NOT ME.
EPOV
To say that I was shocked to see Bella's choice of clothing would be an understatement. Bella was wearing a black and white leather corset with a black mini leather skirt. Her figure had changed a lot since the last time I saw her; her body was curvier in all the right ways, her bust was much lager from a small b cup six years ago to now lovely d cup. Her hips were wider giving, her more of an hour glass frame. Her beautiful long legs were covered in black leather thigh high heal boots. Her long wavy hair was curled and flowing down her back; her once pale skin had a sun kiss glow to it. She looked absolutely mouth watering. If I thought she was beautiful when she was 17, she was even more stunning now at 23. Damn, I'm an idiot. Why did I leave? I was so engrossed in her appearance that I almost missed her performance.
"Hey guys, do you like the look?!" she asked the audience receiving Screams of yes and cat calls; it was very hard to choke back the growl rumbling in my chest. "Well guys, its now my time to shine now unlike Nick I'm gonna perform four songs off my solo album 'Stripped' so if your ready I'd like to call out my good friend REDMAN" the last part she shouted. It was me again that paused concert receiving groans, growls, and a few profanities form my family.
"Why did you pause?" Rosalie spoke out loud for the first time tonight.
"I was just gonna ask who is this Red Menn." I was curious as to who he could be and was he a possible lover of my Bella.
"First" that is Emmet looking annoyed and ready to pounce, "The name is Redman. Secondly, he is a rapper who usually raps with his friend Method Man; he acts in movies like 'How High' and he was in 'Seed of Chucky' now if you don't mind I would like to see the performance." With that I turned back to the performance.
Dirty by Christina Aguilera
(Redman)
Ah, dirrty (dirrty)
Filthy (filthy)
Nasty you nasty (yeah)
Too dirrty to clean my act up
If you ain't dirrty
You ain't here to party (woo!)
Men in cut up black and white shirts came on staged and started dancing with Bella in ways I haven't
(Bella)
Ladies (move)
Gentlemen (move)
Somebody ring the alarm
A fire on the roof
Ring the alarm (and I'm throwin' elbows) 7x
Uh- Lemme loose
Oh, I'm overdue
Give me some room
I'm comin through
Paid my dues
In the mood
Me and the girls gonna shake the room
DJ's spinning (show your hands)
Let's get dirrty (that's my jam)
I need that, uh, to get me off
Sweat until my clothes come off
It's explosive, speakers are pumping (oh)
Still jumping, six in the morning
Table dancing, glasses are smashing (oh)
No question, time for some action
Temperature's up (can you feel it)
About to erupt
Gonna get my girls
Get your boys
Gonna make some noise
The way she was swaying her hips was getting me very excited; usually I was disgusted by this from other people, but when Bella did it Damn I'm really an idiot for leaving.
Wanna get rowdy
Gonna get a little unruly
Get it fired up in a hurry
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time that I came to start the party
Sweat dripping over my body
Dancing getting just a little naughty
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time for my arrival
Ah, heat is up
So ladies, fellas
Drop your cups
Body's hot
Front to back
Now move your ass
I like that
Tight hip huggers (low for sure)
Shake a little somethin' (on the floor)
I need that, uh, to get me off
Sweat until my clothes come off
When she dropped it like it was hot my mouth hit the floor and I was so turned on by her performance Jasper was sending me glares
'Hey dammit that's my little sister and I really don't want to get ripped to shreds by Alice for lusting after Bella so if you don't mind cut the shit Edward' his thoughts rung in my head and I nodded apologetically
Let's get open, cause a commotion (ooh oh)
We're still going, eight in the morning
There's no stopping, we keep it popping (oh)
Hot rocking, everyone's talking
'Guess Little Bell's isn't so innocent after all. Gotta give the girl her props for singing and dressing the way she is right now', that was the nicest' thing Rosalie ever thought about Bella
Give all you got (give it to me)
Just hit the spot
Gonna get my girls
Get your boys
Gonna make some noise
'Wow I never thought my daughter could talk like that, but if it makes her happy I won't say anything. But I most see if I could get her to introduce me to P Diddy, if she knows him, he's always been a favorite of mine and just think If I could decorate his home for him' Esme's thoughts trailed off to all the ways she would decorate P Diddy homes. Again, I'm shocked my mother knows about Hip Hop and P Diddy.
Rowdy
Gonna get a little unruly
Get it fired up in a hurry
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time that I came to start the party
Ooh sweat dripping over my body
Dancing getting just a little naughty
Wanna get dirrty (oh, oh)
It's about time for my arrival
Here it comes, it's the one
You've been waiting on
Get up, get it up
Yup, that's what's up
Giving just what you want
To the maximum
Uh oh, here we go (here we go)
What to do when the music starts to drop
That's when we take it to the parking lot
And I bet you somebody's gonna call the cops
Uh oh's, here we go's (here we go)
Ohh ooh ohh, yeah yeah...
(Redman)
Yo, hot damn, Doc a jam like a summer show
I keep my car looking like a crash dummy drove
My gear look like the bank got my money froze
For dead presidents I pimp like Huddy roll
Doc the one that excite ya divas (ow!)
If the media shine
I'm shining with both of the sleeves up
Yo Christina, better hop in here
My block live and in color, likes Rodman hair (yeah)
The club is packed, the bar is filled
I'm waiting for sister to act, like Lauryn Hill
Frankly, it's a rap, no bargain deals
I drive a four wheel ride with foreign wheels
Throw it up
Baby it's brick city, you heard of that
We blessed, and hung low, like Bernie Mac
Dogs let 'em out, women, let 'em in
It's like I'm ODB, the way I'm freaking
(Bella)
Wanna get rowdy (rowdy, yeah)
Gonna get a little unruly (ruly)
Get it fired up in a hurry (hurry)
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time that I came to start the party (party)
Sweat dripping over my body (body)
Dancing getting just a little naughty
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time for my arrival
Bella dancing became more in sync with her back up dancers and the moves she was doing I was wondering if she was a vampire now with her doing all that with out falling.
Rowdy
Gonna get a little unruly
(Ooh oh)
Get it fired up in a hurry
(Ooh oh)
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time that I came to start the party
Ooh sweat dripping over my body
Dancing getting just a little naughty
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time for my arrival
Rowdy
Gonna get a little unruly
Get it fired up in a hurry
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time that I came to start the party
Sweat dripping over my body
Dance and getting just a little naughty
Wanna get dirrty
It's about time for my arrival
Uh, what
With the end of the song my mouth was still gaped open and only thing that popped into every mind is how did Bella become so Dirrty? As she put it.
"Hey guys I hope you liked that one my next song is for those that have been hurt and survived it.
Fighter
(After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end, I wanna thank you
'Cause you made me that much stronger)
Well I thought I knew you,
Thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust,
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there, by my side,
Always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mhm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know, just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Ooh, yeah, oh
Never saw it coming,
All of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realized your game
I heard you're going 'round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, mm
After all of the fights and the lies
Guess you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now
And never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it
Ok so the first verse didn't sound like it was meant for me but the second verse hit home.
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel?
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies,
Disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me
When she was singing the verse she on her knee's clutching her heart as if she it was breaking. Bella always saw the good in me, but now she probably sees me as a monster.
I am a fighter and I
(I'm a fighter)
I ain't gonna stop
(I ain't gonna stop)
There is no turning back
I've had enough
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Thought I would forget, but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I remember
Thought I would forget
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember
She remembers I thought her memories of me would fade but I was wrong she remembers everything and now I have to make this right.
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
At the end my family was giving me apologetic smiles and I was just sitting there taking it all in she remembers and she may hate me but I have to find out.
"Hey every one did you like that?" she asked her breath was ragged and her face and neck was flushed. "Well guys I have two more songs before the second interview so I hope you like it." With that said and done she walked off stage for a minute or two and came back on stage with a pair of jeans on, but still in that ravishing corset. A band came up from behind her but not any of her band mates, on the corner of the screen a little window popped up showing backstage. Bella band was sitting back stage, all of them in dressed casually in jeans and shirts that said words of inspiration. With them was a little girl that was know older that four with brown hair and Bella's eyes. Could she be Bella's daughter? Before I could pause to address my family the music started and I was drawn to my Bella's voice.
opens with music and an ahhhhh)
Lay your head on my pillow
Here you can be yourself
No one has to know what you are feeling
No one but me and you
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep your secrets
Just think of me as the pages in your diary
I feel such a connection
Even when you're far away, mhm
Ooooo baby, if there is anything that you fear (anything)
Call 489-4608 and I'll be here
Please God let that be her real number
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep your secrets
Just think of me as the pages in your diary
(yeah, mum, ayeah, you know what?)
Only we know what is talked about baby boy
I don't know how you can be driving me so crazy boy
Baby when you're in town, why don't you come around boy
I'll be the loyalty you need, you can trust me boy
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep (I will keep) your secrets (your secrets)
Just think of me as the pages in your diary
Everybody say wooooo (wooooo)
Lemme hear you say woooooo (woooooo)
Lemme hear you say woooooo (woooooo)
I'm saying woo-ooooo (woo-ooooo)
Lemme hear you say I won't tell (I won't tell)
I won't tell (I won't tell) I won't tell (I won't tell)
Ooooo, the secrets, break it down
(piano and murmurs of "secrets" until end)
This song threw me; does this mean I still have a chance to win back my love.
After the audience calmed down it was time for Bella last song and if God was listening to my plea Bella came up to the mic again to speak. "Hey guys these last two songs are from apart of my life when I was head over heals in love and though me and this person are now longer together, he will hold a piece of me forever, he will be the only one that can make my heart race and weak at the knees. So with the help of my band mate my last song will be 'Weak'." With that the music began and Nadine came back on stage
(Bella)
I don't know what it is that you've done to me
But it's caused me to act in such a crazy way
What ever it is that you do when you do what you're doing
It's a feeling I want to stay
Refrain:
Cause my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you.
Bella & Nadine:
I get so
Weak in the knees
I can hardly speak
I loose all control
And something takes over me
In a daze, it is so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me
By my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet
It knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain
Why you're lovin makes me weak
(Nadine)
Time after time after time
I try to fight it
But your love strong
It keeps on holding on
Resistance is down
When you're around
Cries fading
In my condition
I don't want to be alone
Refrain:
Cause my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you.
I get so
Weak in the knees
I can hardly speak
I loose all control
And something takes over me
In a daze, it is so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me
By my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet
It knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain
Why you're lovin makes me weak
Bridge:
I try hard to fight it
No way can I deny it
Your love so sweet
Knocks me off my feet
I get so
Weak in the knees
I can hardly speak
I loose all control
And something takes over me
In a daze, it is so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me
By my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet
It knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain
Why you're lovin makes me weak
(Bella)
I get so weak
Blood starts racing
Through my veins
(Nadine)
I get so weak-
Boy it's something
I can't explain
(Both)
I get so weak
Something bout the way ya do
The things you do-o-o it
Knock right off of my feet (off my feet)
Can't explain why your love
It makes me weak
(Both)
I get so
Weak in the knees
I can hardly speak
I loose all control
And something takes over me
In a daze, it is so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me
By my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet
It knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain
Why you're lovin makes me weak
The song ended with the chorus fading out. That song was now my all time favorite, it was true her heart did race, she always got weak at the knee's at one sweet kiss, and with her our love was powerful, it was so amazing and I was always in a daze after staring in to the eyes of my love. Bella is and always will be my mate, my heart, my soul, my other half. Without her I'm incomplete and to be whole again I have to be with her. After the concert I will track Bella down. I don't care if she makes me crawl to the Arctic and back, I will. I will beg her for forgiveness and one day and hopefully soon she will once again be mine, but this time it will be for all eternity.
AN: DID YOU LIKE MY MUSIC CHOICES IN ALL THE OTHER FANFIC'S I READ ABOUT BELLA BEING A SINGER THERE CHOICES WERE OVER USED ALOT. THE SONGS I USED DESCRIBE BELLA SHE IS NOW AFTER EVERYTHING THAT SHE HAS GONE THROUGH. I KNOW BELLA WAS SUPPOSE TO BE WEAK IN NEW MOON BUT I COT SO DAMN TIRED OF THAT I ALWAYS SAW THE POTENTIAL OF BELLA BEING A STRONGER PERSON SO THIS IS HOW SHE IS NOW SHE'S NOT AS WEAK AS BEFORE AND AFTER I POST THE SECOND INTERVIEW YOU WILL UNDERSTAND MY VERSION OF BELLA BETTER. THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN READING AND REVIEWING S.M.F. I AM STILL WRITING PART TWO AND I DON'T THINK I'M DOING A SEQUEL TO THAT ONE ANY WAY. THE SONGS I USED WERE 'SECRETS' BY Alica Keys, 'FIGHTER' AND 'DIRRTY' BY Christina Aquilera AND 'WEAK' BY SWV. THANKS AGAIN AND PLEASE REVIEW MORE.
s m Neal