-Emily's POV-

"Are we really over?" She almost whispered the last word.

I would be lying if I said I wanted us to be over. I would be lying if I say I was happy. Letting her go is the most painful thing I've ever felt. When I lost Ali & Maya I thought I never could love again but then I fell for Hanna. I loved Paige but it was nothing like how I felt for Hanna.

I wasn't sure how long we would've last but I was hoping for forever. I think she deserved a better happy ending.

"We will never be over Han. We're the best of friends but for now we have to stay there." Between Hanna and me, I know I'm more rational.

"But I don't want to?" I can see the tears forming in her

"Do you really want to put our friendship at risk because of our toxic relationship? Have you seen us? We're always arguing and bickering like what we're doing now"

"but we always make up in the end"

"Han please don't make this harder than it already is."

I remember the day we broke up. It wasn't full of scream and anger it was exactly like this, the only thing you'd hear is the sound of our sobs. Hanna and I cried for what felt like hours

"If being a friend is what takes to have you forever then I'll be a friend even if I love you more than that" she said when she finally calms down.

"I will always love you Han." I held her hand

"Dry your tears Catherine" she was the only one who called me by my middle name

"I will if stop calling me that"

"okay Emmybear. Do you remember when we were making out at my house and Spencer almost walked on us?"

"good thing she knocked before opening the door." We both laughed recalling

"How bout when we skipped class and went to Delaware?" I can't believe Hanna had a good memory

"One of the best adventures ever. Do you remember how you barked on Paige when we first came out at school as a couple?" she shook her head laughing

"Is this what you left me for Em?" she pushed me to my locker "GET YOUR FILTHY HANDS OFF MY GIRL!" Hanna said shoving Paige away from me. Everyone around were in shock of how Hanna was. Aria and Spencer stood in front of me. "Oh yeah, I see. You four girls got each other's back even if your best friend is stealing someone's cheating girlfriend." "Just back off Paige!" "You deserve each other, the bitch and the whore" if we didn't pull Hanna away Paige would have kissed her fist. "Just let it go Han" I kissed Hanna to make Paige go away.

-Hanna's POV-

How could I forget that day? I never thought coming out was that easy.

Emily and I went on with our trip down memory lane. We recalled our good times together. How we told the girls, our first date, our make out stories, how well accepted I was to her mom and her to mine. Our relationship was perfect or at least at the start. We go to school together, we ditch Aria and Spencer to have our moment alone at lunch, we're just flirting around like we don't about the world. But just like any other relationships we had our fights, arguments, misunderstandings.

As the months had gone by Emily and I argue most of the time over little things. She was always jealous and I always failed to make her feel secure because I too always had doubt on her. Who could blame me after I got played? I know she still loves me and I still want her but we also know we were just gonna hurt each other.

We were in my room and Emily had been playing with her phone all night long.

"Hey. What's wrong?" I asked

"You tell me"

"Why don't you ask siri. She might know"

"Hey siri what was Travis doing here?" she said looking at me

"I told you he was here because my mom invited him over to thank him for telling the police the truth"

"Do you really have to be that cozy?"

"We were not"

"Yes you were"

"Ugh! Why do people have to be so narrow minded?"

"Are you playing with me Hanna?"

"Wow that really had to came from you. Look who's talking"

She sighed and laid her back on my bed with half her body still on the floor. She kept quite.

"Don't you think we need a break?" she broke the silence

"What do you mean?"

"I mean space. Things are getting messed up between us and it's affecting our friendship. The least thing I would want is losing my best friend."

I lay beside her.

"What's gonna happen to us?"

"We'll find a way."

"Then tell when you make up your mind" I intertwine our fingers together and I close my eyes. We seized the moment.

"I should get going" she said standing up

I walked her to the door and we shared a lingering passionate kiss and there goes the love of my life out of the door.

When I woke up the next morning my mom handed me a letter. "This was in mailbox today" I instantly recognized Emily's handwriting. "Thanks mom." She left the room.

Dear Hanna,

I'm writing this because I can't find the words to say in person. I guess the best thing for the both of us is to let go. If only I could, I wouldn't let you go but I know I should. I didn't notice how far we got. It was the best relationship I ever had but I can't risk our friendship. It's better to lose this relationship than lose our respect for each other.

We will never be broken, maybe we're not together but you will always have me. I'm sorry I played with you before, if I didn't we wouldn't have to deal with this now but I don't regret anything. I'm sorry for being always jealous. I will love oyu forever Hanna Marin.

Emily

I had to read her letter over and over again to make myself believe that it was real. I wanted to beg her to stay. I need her not just a friend but more. I want to hear her to tell me she loves me for one last time.

We had a weeklong vacation, she left for Texas with her mom and I stayed at home listening to all the sad music on my playlist. She was right, we needed our time to think, we needed space. We didn't talk since she left.

"Hannakins it's late you should get going" she said patting my thighs. She walked me to the front door. "I hope we get more nights like this again" she laughed at how it sounded "oh I don't mean 'that' just us having our long talks" I clarified before she might get the wrong idea. "Sure. I hope so too. Bye Han" I was about to get out when I pulled her wrist. "Em. Can I please stay." She turned to me "Do you want to?" I nodded "I'll call mom and tell her that I'm staying over and that I'd call her before going to school". I closed the door and we both went up to her room. We lay to her bed and I had my arms wrapped around her. I missed this feeling. "Good night Hannakins" she kissed my forehead. "Good night Emmy".

Even if she's just my best friend now I'm glad I didn't make the same mistake twice. I didn't walk away like how I allowed her to, before. I was the one who was leaving and she's the one who's not stopping me though I know she wanted me to...and so I did. I have her with me, in my arms. Indeed this was a good night.