-Hanna's POV-

My body feels so numb and my heart is so heavy. I reach out to her side of the bed and she wasn't there. I grab her pillow and smell her scent on it; it smelled like a mix of strawberry and vanilla, it smelled like her. I held on it tighter and fresh tears began rolling again over the traces of dry tears on my face. Everything feels so unreal. I hear someone knocking on our apartment door. I didn't feel like opening it up but I heard who was outside I went out of bed and opened it. A woman with tanned skin, brown eyes, brunette hair and toned body looked at me with sympathy. "Oh Hanna" she said and pulled me in. I broke down on her arms. She just looks like her, she reminded me so much of the love of my life. I try to find comfort in my visitor, Pam Fields.

I've been crying for what seems hours on the couch. She consoles me but is also in tears. "It's my fault. If we didn't argue that night she wouldn't have left yesterday morning. She would've still been here" I blame myself as more tears fall down. "No honey don't say that. It's not your fault" she tried to make me feel better but nothing seems to work; no words, no actions, nothing. Only Emily could make me feel better, just her but now she's…gone.

"We're having this argument because?" Emily says annoyed of my constant jealousy. We moved to New York in college. I was into fashion design and she was in physical therapy. We lived under the same roof but we went to different colleges and it gets to me that Samara her ex girlfriend goes on the same school with her and not to mention many other girls who find her interesting, who doesn't?

"You know how much I hate it when I see you with someone else and I see these photos online? You were more than enjoying each other's company." I point at her photos with Samara and their friends.

"We were just hanging out Hanna. That's what friends do. Am I not allowed to hangout with anyone now? You get jealous of guys you get jealous of girls should I just be alone now?" she slammed the laptop close. She doesn't get angry that much and it is obvious she is now.

"I'm not saying the Emily. It's that photo you have with Samara. Have you seen how close you two were? It's like she was about to kiss you! Or maybe she did after taking that shot" the argument was so heated

"Whatever you say Hanna. You have your own close mind that doesn't believe anything I say. I had enough of your jealousy." she raised both her hands in defeat.

"Yeah right. This is too much. I think it's best if we just end things up Emily." I grab my keys and coat.

"What do you mean Hanna? Where are you going?" She was in tears. I hate to see her like that but I was too hurt to care.

I look at the silver band on my finger and take it off. I grab her hand and place it on her palm and closed it "Goodbye Emily" that was the last thing I told her before leaving out that door. I hear something smashing but I did not mind and kept walking away.

I drove around heading nowhere. My tears were unstoppable. I pulled over when I noticed I was about to exit the boundary between New York and New Jersey. I leaned on the stirring wheel and cried. I love her. I feel so stupid for walking out that door. Worst things have had happened in highschool and we made it but how come I gave up easily just because I was so jealous over a picture. When I came to my senses I turned my car on again and headed back to our apartment. I hope she didn't hurt herself.

I opened the door and our apartment was a mess. I found glass shatters and our broken picture frame lying on the floor. I saw her curled up beside the bed. I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her. She was as broken as me. "Don't say goodbye" that was the only words she managed to say.

"Never again" I tell her and place both my hands on her cheeks and kissed her. It started out slow. She didn't kiss me back but I kept my lips to hers. It took a minute after she responded. I deepened the kiss which she allowed my tongue on her mouth. We spent the night having our make up sex. Showing each other who we really belong to. I wish we just didn't stop. I wish the time should've just stop. The night was heaven with her but I woke up in the morning and it was hell without her.

I fell asleep crying on Pam's arms. When I woke up I saw her preparing a meal. "This will be done in a few. You need to eat something Hanna" I got up and sat on the table. She placed a smoking hot bowl of chicken soup in front of me and sat on the other side of the table. I look around the whole room and memories flooded on my mind. Everything here reminds me of Emily. "I know how it hurts Han. You're not the only one she left." Pam says as she notices me staring blankly on the food. "It's unfair you know" I was very emotional that every word comes with tears. I was too occupied by my own emotions that I didn't notice Pam crying. It was my turn to comfort her. "I'm still here. You still have a daughter. We'll have each other mom." I've been calling her mom for years now but now was the best time. "I know…but I don't know how we both could plan it…the funeral" Knowing she's gone was already painful but facing it and dealing with the funeral is harder.

"Where are you?" I sent her a text message when I woke up and found her nowhere.

"You're not supposed to wake up until I arrive. I want to make it up to you. Be there in 5. I love you" she replied in less than a minute

"I love you too" I texted back and went to sleep.

I heard someone on the door. I pretended to be asleep so she could wake me up with kisses. "Hanna get up" it wasn't the voice that I was expecting. I opened my eyes and see Noel standing on my bedside. He and Ali lived in an apartment in New York with Ely and they both go to the same school as Emily. Aria goes to Hollis and Spencer is at U-Penn. "Hey Noel. Why are…" he cut me off and pulled me out of bed. He got a coat on the rack and threw it to me. I didn't demand to know why he was here or where he's taking me but I was sure as hell nervous. I knew something was wrong. "Alison was out with Emily this morning. They went to buy flowers for you. I stayed at home with Ely and Jason. He's visiting us. I got a call informing me that they got into an accident. Jason went straight to the hospital and I went to pick you up" I fell silent on his car.

As soon as we got to the hospital I rushed to the desk "Emily Fields" I almost yelled at the nurse. "Hanna" Jason called my name. I saw him sitting with Ali who had bandages on her head and arm. I went to them. Their eyes were red puffed. My heart was about to explode in my chest. "Where is she?" I demanded "She's gone…Emily's gone" he sobbed and I stood frozen of the news. Noel placed his arm on my back trying to support me in case I pass out and his other arm on Ali's. "I already called Spencer and Aria. They're on the next flight" Ali said.

They slowly guided me to a room where Emily was lying on a bed. She had cuts with cleaned blood and bruises all over her. The biggest gash was on her head.

I held her cold hand to my cheek. I put my arms around her for a hug. I cried to her chest and I was missing the sound of her heart beat. "Baby open your eyes please. Don't do this to me Emmy. Wake up. Babe wake up for me" I said as I drown in my own tears. I can feel someone holding my shoulders pulling me away but I remained to where I was. "No! Emmy what would I do without you." I pumped her chest trying to do something to make her live. "Come on. Don't die on me Fields." Ali pulled me and I turned to her for comfort. I was in denial. Everything seems to come to a blur and I can hear faint sounds of someone calling my name and it turns black.

"Hanna. Hanna Wake up" the voice calling me became louder. I opened my eyes and saw a blurry face waking me up. I adjust my vision and saw Emily. "Emily!" her name came out as almost a shout. I grabbed her for a hug. "Oh Emmy. You're here." I said as I kept my embrace. "Yes baby. I never left. What happened? Is it a bad dream? Why are you crying in your sleep?" It was then that I noticed that I my eyes were wet of my tears. "It was just a dream?" I was like a child asking her. She pulled away and looked at me in the eyes "Yes it was. Whatever it was, it's only a dream" I kissed her to prove to myself that it was awake and this was the reality. "I lost you Em. You were gone. You left me behind. You were dead. It felt so real. I thought it was…" I said between my sobs. She leaned to the nightstand and pulled me closer to her. She rested me to her chest. I could hear her heartbeat and it brought so much joy to me. "I'm okay Hanna. Stop crying. I will never leave you…never" I closed my eyes once again and slumbered to sleep listening to Em's heartbeat.