Acceptance Chapter 20: No control EPOV, a twilight fanfic

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Chapter 20 – No control

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The stupid leader of the dogs is lucky I didn't rip his head off. I would not normally be impolite but his arrival at my house made it certain that I had to spend seconds away from my Bella.

His smell hit Rosalie first and I heard her snarl from the door. I removed myself slowly and quietly from Bella's warm body and ran to the bottom of the stairs.

Why is this dog here Edward? We have not broken OUR side of the treaty.

Rosalie's thoughts made the memories vital to this discussion resurface.

Carlisle arrived seconds after me to ensure no violence would take place. He calmly walked in front of Rosalie and held out his hand.

"Good afternoon Sam Uley, how may we help you?" His voice, always so calm but his thoughts thought o the possible dangers that faced his family. Sam shook Carlisle's hand but there was discomfort etched onto his face.

"I am here, unfortunately, to discuss the treaty we are bound by" There was sadness and worry in his thoughts, worry for what he foresaw...was Bella's future heartbreak.

"I know you can see my thoughts mind reader. Let me explain them to you."

"Please come in" I was interested in this creature. He was not as...ill-tempered, as the others. He was polite, like Seth, who always had Bella's interests at heart. After their time together in La Push, he had come to see her as a sister and he would do anything to protect her. I motioned Sam towards the couch and he sat, ready to tell us his tale.

"My fears are what you saw but you must be confused as to why that is one of them. I shall start at the beginning." He took a deep breath and his thoughts showed guilt for having to replay this to me...I knew what he was going to say but I wanted to hear it from his point of view.

"Hours after you had all left...Billy Black received a frantic telephone call from Charlie Swan. Saying Bella had not returned home. It was the early hours of the morning. He had searched for her but to no avail. Jacob was worried that she had been taken but he did not know of our...situation back then."

My jaw clenched at his name and I suppressed a growl.

"So I volunteered to search for her. I phased to look for the girl and caught your scent in the woods surrounding her house. I am ashamed to admit that I had believed you had...taken her"

"She was no PET to us dog! We left for her!" I was surprised that it was Rosalie that came out with this outburst and noticed that the rest of my family had congregated into the living room.

"Rosalie! Please carry on Sam" Esme was kind as usual, wondering what state we had left Bella in. Unlike me, she had not heard about this.

"As I said, I caught your scent and then...I was the one to find her. I do not wish to cause you pain but from my experience...it...it was the most disturbing memory of my life. It still haunts me. I shall explain why later. I found her at 1:20 in the morning, lying on the wet forest floor soaked through."

His eyes seemed distant and I could see it in his head as he remembered it.

"She was led clutching her hands to her chest where her heart is. I honestly thought she was dead...she...looked dead. I woke her and carried her back to her father. She whispered, "He's gone", over and over. I had never met the girl who loved the cold ones but it broke my heart to see her so...broken."

His memory tore at my mind, tearing it at the seams and screaming at me in all its vivid colour and intensity. I wished it to go away but I could not move my body. I was frozen in the depths of his memories, dying from what I saw. I had seen this from Jacob...but it was much worse because this was not shown from Jacob's smugness; but from Sam's sympathy and pain.

"I apologise for what you see but you must understand. The reason why I was so distraught from her pain is...I trust you have heard of imprinting?" I managed to look up at him and nod.

What could this possibly have to do with Bella? Alice was confused as to why this werewolf trend had affected Bella.

"Well, through imprinted I found my soul mate Emily and...one day...she got...hurt" He looked to my eyes and showed me his memory. I could understand why it was hard for him to talk about. He had hurt the one he loved and I could relate to his fears perfectly.

"When that happened, I ran away from my problems; being away from her pulled at the cables that attached me to her. It hurt so much but it hurt me more that I had caused her pain."

I felt for this dog. We had more in common than I thought. He had left the one he loved because he had hurt her. He had suffered but returned to her. Then I felt more guilt than ever before because I had not hurt Bella. I just assumed that I would so I left her alone in those woods. I should have made sure she was safe!

"That night I found Bella, her reaction shocked me. I have never heard of imprinting within the vampire race but...her reaction to losing the one she loved was worse than I had ever felt being away from my Emily. I found out from Billy and Jacob that for months she did not eat, talk or do...anything. She was a walking zombie. She shut down; just doing basic human actions in order to survive. But it was different, it was like she had not survived; she just lived in a shell. Even after she started coming to La Push and getting better...she looked dead. I was confused as to how a human could bond so...purely, to a vampire. I know you have your mates butI did not realise it was in a true love way. I believe that you are her soul mate mind reader."

I nodded to him in thanks as this was all I could manage to do. It killed me that I had left her in such a state but I knew that I had been no better. I had believed her love for me to be superficial, she was human and she would get over me. I now realised that neither of us would have reacted the same way if this was true.

Esme was distraught that we had left her in that way; Carlisle was comforting her but his thoughts showed nothing but remorse. Esme was dry sobbing onto his shirt and mumbling, "My poor Bella, why her?"

Alice's eyes were full of tears she would never shed and she clung to Jasper for dear life.

It was my fault, I never said goodbye. Maybe she would have been better if I had said goodbye.

I looked to her and shook my head. She pouted and nodded; Bella would still have broken down.

Emmett was the strangest I had ever seen him, no jokes, he just stood there behind Rosalie trying to contain himself.

How does this relate to the treaty? Rosalie was getting impatient with Sam and I turned to warn her to keep her mouth shut.

"I apologise again for that Edward." He took a deep breath and continued. "My fear Edward, is that you are her true love and she will never let you leave again as you all know how stubborn she can be"

Alice smiled at this and I chuckled a little. Yes, we did know but we would not leave her again.

"I do not want her to go through that again but that is not the only problem we have. Jacob despises you with a passion for leaving her and because she loves you the way she cannot love him. He will do anything to win her back and he will not stop if he gets to you Edward. I saw it in his mind; if you are out of the way he believes that he can get to Bella. He is not as selfless as you mind reader, so I feel that it is time to refresh the treaty. Seeing as though it was Jacob that originally broke the treaty by telling Bella what you are, this may work in your favour." He looked up confidently and straight to Carlisle.

"What did you have in mind Sam?" By this time I already knew.

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