With a deep sigh of resignation, Olivia turns back to the woman she loves most in the world, her face still stern.
NATALIA (reading Olivia's face, nervously) : "Ok, you're mad. I get that. If I were you, I'd be mad at me, too." (pausing for a second) "If you want to yell at me, yell at me. I deserve it." (holding her breath) "Then, once you've gotten that off your chest, maybe you'll listen to what I want to tell you?"
Olivia shoots Natalia a you-can't-possibly-be-serious look.
NATALIA (pleading, voice cracking): "Please, Olivia. Do whatever you have to, call me whatever you want, curse me out, whatever, but please don't shut me out. Please talk to me."
Olivia's breathing becomes labored. Her eyes shift momentarily as she prepares to speak.
OLIVIA (angrily, but with a ring of pain): "We were happy, Natalia. I know not everything was perfect because Rafe was still having a problem with us being together… but we were really happy with each other." (eyes tearing) "I was on cloud 9. I could not wait to tell Emma about us, to show up at that barbecue with you on my arm and shout to the world that you and I are a couple. I was so proud. I wanted everyone to know that the smartest, funniest, most sensitive, most selfless, most caring, most beautiful woman in the world is mine… but you didn't come."(a sob escapes from her lips) "You didn't come, Natalia. And then Blake told me you didn't want to see me and I was so confused. All I wanted was to see you, just to talk to you so we could fix whatever the problem was together, but you disappeared for three weeks and I missed you so much and I was in so much pain... I couldn't understand. I just couldn't understand why you would leave without talking to me, without even saying goodbye. I thought I must have done something wrong, something to upset you for you to leave me like that and I was scared that you didn't feel anything for me anymore… or maybe that you never really did. And then I thought maybe I just don't deserve to be loved, that I'm not meant to have that kind of happiness…"(sobbing) "that you changed your mind and wanted to be with Frank after all. Lord knows he'd take you back in a heartbeat anytime…"
Olivia is unable to go on as, against her will, her throat constricts as she begins to cry in earnest. Natalia begins to cry as well, the reality of what she'd done to the love of her life causing her unbearable guilt. She quickly moves to Olivia, slips her arms around the older woman, holds her close, and rocks her soothingly.
NATALIA (voice full of regret): "I know how awful that was for you, baby, and I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, but you have to know that none of that is true. You didn't do anything wrong or upset me… and my feelings for you are real and they haven't gone anywhere. I swear, it's just that…" (struggling for words, sighing deeply) "Come here."
Natalia leads Olivia to the couch and then sits across from her on the coffee table. She takes Olivia's hands and begins her explanation.
NATALIA : "Sweetie… the day before the barbecue, I took a pregnancy test and it came up positive. It scared the life out of me. I didn't know what I was going to tell Frank or how he'd take it, and I certainly didn't know what to say to you. I was so afraid that you wouldn't want to be with me anymore because I'm carrying Frank's baby… and I was confused, too, about why this would happen now and what it all means. I couldn't think clearly and I figured if I just got away somewhere quiet for a little while, maybe, just maybe I could make some sense out of all this and figure out what was the right thing to do. But no matter how I looked at it, I kept coming back to one thing."
Natalia takes Olivia's face gently in her hands and stares adoringly into the older woman's jade eyes.
NATALIA : "I love you. And I want to be with you. I'll have to tell Frank about the baby and I'm sure he'll want to be a part of this baby's life, but I want to have this baby with you. I want to raise it with you. I want to raise Emma with you. And Rafe…" (bobbing her head comically) "well, Rafe's already been raised, but I want all of us, you, me, Rafe, Emma, and this baby to live together and to be a family. Maybe I'm crazy, but I want that so much." (regarding the older woman cautiously, uncertainly) "I figured that out, and now I need to know what you want. Now that you know about the baby, you have to figure out what your feelings are, whether you still want to be with me, especially since now being with me also means taking on the new baby."
Olivia leans back into the couch tiredly, slipping her hands out of the Latina's and looking away.
NATALIA (clearly reading Olivia's body language) : "Ok, um… I guess I can't ask you to sort through everything and make a decision right this second." (wiping her tears, speaking softly) "Take all the time you need. I'm not going anywhere."
With that, the raven-haired beauty stands, bends at the waist, and takes the older woman's face in her hands once again.
NATALIA (staring intently into jade eyes): "I'll respect whatever decision you make, but I had to let you know how I feel and where I stand on all of this." (slipping her arms around Olivia's neck to embrace her, whispering) "I love you."
And with a quick kiss to the hotelier's cheek, the Latina raises herself back up to a standing position, turns, and walks quietly out the door. The green eyes of the hotel-owner begin to tear again as she sinks back down to a lying position, curling arms and legs into herself protectively.
