Chapter 5

(The Dream)

Silent Forever

I ran away as quick as I could. Heading to my truck, which was still on the Cullen's driveway, I could feel heavy raindrops starting to drop from the sky.

Instantly, I saw lighting light up the entire gray sky up. This gave me another reason to hurry up and get to my truck. Once I finally reached my truck, I climbed inside and turned on the heater.

I noticed that I was all wet, and my clothes were clinging uncomfortably to me. I looked in the rearview mirror, and I saw that my face was also wet. I think that it was partially due to the fact that I have been crying.

I started my truck, and I began to drive back home.

I felt completely stupid right now. Looking back to what happened at Alice's house, I acted like a complete idiot.

To my surprise, I found myself still crying. Although I was deaf my whole life, the idea always bothered me. I felt so useless and powerless compared to other people who could hear.

Hearing Edward play like that didn't exactly upset me, but made me mad. No doubt, that he played amazingly. The way I saw his whole body move with the music, was breath taking. But this also made me realize that I will never be able to hear him play.

This frustrated me to no end. I looked up again in the mirror and I started laughing. My eyes were red and puffy and my nose was also red.

I hated the fact that my tear ducts were always linked to anger. Yes, I do cry when I am sad, but mostly when I am angry I start tearing up.

I could see that the storm had picked up and it was getting really hard to see through all the rain. My windshields were on the highest power, and I still had a hard time seeing anything with this rain.

Somehow, I had managed to arrive home in one piece. I had an umbrella in my trunk, but I thought that it was useless to open it up because I would still get soaked.

I took a deep breath, and I opened the door of my truck. As fast as I could manage without falling, I ran to the porch.

When I opened the door to the house, I could see some lights coming from the living room. I figured that Charlie was probably just watching some sports that were running on the TV.

I started making my way upstairs, so that I could change out of my already wet clothes, when I felt a hand on my back. I screamed and turned around, and saw Charlie smiling sheepishly at me.

Sorry Bells. He signed.

I started to work on calming down my breathing. It's fine, don't worry about it. I signed back.

Suddenly his facial expression slowly changed from a smile to a frown. Is there anything wrong? He asked.

Charlie didn't really know about my feelings of being deaf. He knew that I wasn't content with the idea, but he didn't know that I had big problems accepting the fact that I was deaf.

He has a lot of things to deal with at work anyway, so I didn't want my problem to be another thing that he has to deal with.

Dad, I'm fine. I'm just really tired. I think that it has something to do with the weather though. I signed.

So did you have fun at Alice's house? He asked.

It took me a moment to come up with my response. As I looked back on the afternoon, I realized that I did have fun, before seeing Edward on the piano.

I tried to put on my best smile that I could muster and I signed, Yeah, we had a lot of fun. We basically just hanged out in her room and read magazines.

Sounds like fun, I guess. Charlie signed. I wanted to laugh at his expression because he looked generally confused.

I guess Charlie didn't really understand that we girls have fun just by hanging out and reading magazines.

It only occurred to me now, that I still didn't make dinner and Charlie probably didn't eat yet.

I am so sorry. You didn't eat did you? I signed frantically.

Charlie's shoulders shook, so I took that as a sign that he was laughing.

Bells, don't worry about it. I ate some leftovers. He signed back.

I really wanted to eat right now, because I haven't eaten since lunch in school.

Ok, I'll go changed and I'll come downstairs and make dinner. Before he could sign anything, I signed, don't worry. I am also hungry.

I smiled, and I ran upstairs so that I could change.

I went to my closet and I picked out sweatpants and a t shirt. I really didn't want to dress up that much. After I finally managed to peel off the wet clothes off my body, I went to take a shower.

Feeling the hot water on my shoulders, immediately relaxed me. All the tension that built up today was unwinding and I began to feel in a way, calmer.

After a good 20 minutes, I got out of the shower and I changed into my sweat pants and the t shirt.

I later on went downstairs to start preparing dinner. I thought that I would make enchiladas, because it would keep me occupied. This was I wasn't going to have to think about this afternoon's events.

As I got busy in the kitchen, I realized another major thing. I have made a complete fool of myself back at Alice's house.

I could only imagine what Alice thought of me after I stormed out of her house. She probably won't want to even hang out with me tomorrow.

Making enchiladas didn't exactly make me stop thinking about those unfortunate events.

After an hour or so, I finally finished making the enchiladas. I went back to the living room, when I noticed Charlie waving his hands up frantically while watching a hockey game on the TV.

I immediately started laughing. I just didn't understand how he could be so into the game. For me, I never gave sports that much attention, but I guess Charlie likes it too much.

When Charlie noticed my presence, he turned off the TV and turned back to me.

Dinner's ready. I signed.

Thanks, Bella. Let's go eat.

While we were eating, we weren't signing that much. We weren't very verbose; we just kept a lot to ourselves.

After finishing eating and washing the dishes, I made my way upstairs.

I was so tired, that I didn't have a doubt that I would fall asleep immediately. Changing quickly into my pajamas, I finally fell asleep with the sound of rain and wind howling outside my window.

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I was walking inside the hallways of my old school in Phoenix. There were many people in the hall ways, so I didn't really stand out.

Although I really wasn't popular, people still knew me as the different deaf girl. I didn't have any friends because no one was willing to try and become friends with me.

As I was walking down the hall, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around I saw the one person that I could not stand. Tristan was tall and was apparently really strong. He was always pushing me around in school, and always appeared to be laughing at me. Although I wasn't sure what he was saying, I knew that they weren't nice things.

Suddenly no was in the hallway. It was only Tristan and me. He started physically pushing me around and when he was about to punch me in the stomach I tried to duck but it didn't work.

His fist was about to touch my face, when …

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Suddenly, I bolted up awake with sweat covering my whole entire face.

A/N:

Ok. So I just want to thank all the people that reviewed. Thank you sooo much.

This chapter is dedicated to: Julia!!!!!

I know that you are probably reading this, so this is for you! Good times in Ms. Luxenberg's class.

Anyway, I just want to say the updates will come more quicker, due to the fact that all the testing in my school is done. And I got a B+ on my Biology midterm so I was soo happy.

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