Sixth Chapter is up! This chapter reflects on how I've been feeling lately. I'm a bit frustrated with this girl I love… I don't know why I'm spilling my heart out to people that don't really know me at all, so just R&R please?

When Luna and I returned to the sitting room, Ron had his arms around Hermione and was kissing her softly. They were alone. Anger frothed and built up inside of me so quickly that I might have felt a tremor throughout my body. I wanted to hurt him, physically harm him, rip her off of him and scream bloody murder at the both of them. I wanted to let her know that if she knew how badly she's hurt me, she'd never be able to look me in the eye again. Instead, I cleared my throat. They jumped apart, alarmed. They probably thought that I was mum.

"Just me," I said, trying to mask the hurt and rage inside of me. Hermione knew. She always knew.

"Ginny…"

"Yes?" I said sweetly, masking my fury well.

Luna noticed. So did Hermione. They always did. They both frowned.

"Ginny, I um… I want you to be here when I drink the potion," Hermione told me softly.

I raised an eyebrow curiously. "All right, then."

Hermione gently pushed Ron away and sat up slowly, weakly. Ron handed her the potion. She uncorked it and took a sip. She began to gag and clapped a hand over her mouth, turning pale.

"Come on, Hermione, you have to drink it. Please, drink it," I pleaded with her.

Hermione seemed to have swallowed the bile in her throat and gulped down the potion as quickly as she could. Immediately she began to regain normal color in her face. The profuse sweating stopped and she looked like she had gained strength. She pushed herself off of the couch and stood up, but she looked a bit woozy still.

"So…"

"So…" I replied, beginning to get nervous. I grasped Luna's hand anxiously.

"Um… So, thanks for coming back to visit while I was ill…"

"Yes, you're welcome. Glad to see you're feeling better," I said, swallowing apprehensively.

"Are… are you going back to Luna's then?"

I looked at Luna. She looked back at me. Her silver eyes spoke to me. They told me to do what I felt was right in my heart. However, what my heart was telling me wasn't suitable for anyone's eyes. I felt like ripping Ron apart and screaming until my throat bled and no sound came out. I felt like telling her how I feel about her, how I loved her, how I longed for her, how I wanted her in my arms, I wanted her to be mine. I wanted to tell her how everything I had ever done right in my life was always for her. I passed my classes because she helped me study… not that we studied too much. I passed because I was motivated, because I wanted to make her proud, because I loved her and I hoped that if I made her proud enough, she would come out and we would officially be together. I hoped and dreamed so many things and everything went wrong.

"Ginny?"

I looked up to see everyone staring at me. Now, mum, dad and Charlie were in the room. I might have said what I hoped out loud.

"Are you all right?" Hermione asked softly.

"Nothing's ever a sure thing," I replied quietly, and headed out of the room. I went up the stairs slowly 'til I was in my room. I curled up in my bed, Luna close behind me, and cuddled against her.

"Nothing's ever a sure thing. People come and they go, lives are taken and created, and friendships fade. Love doesn't exist and relationships always end. Nothing lasts forever and fairy tales aren't real. I thought I loved her, I thought she loved me; I thought we would last forever but I was wrong. I was dead wrong. And now look at me, 17 years old, in my seventh year at school and I'm miserable. Miserable because I lost out on the one I truly love, because I'm not my brother."

"That's rather deep," Luna told me softly, rubbing my arms.

I shrugged a bit, not to shrug her off but to show I didn't really care. Luna knew I did. She always knew.

"Do you want to go back to my place?" Luna asked me.

I nodded silently. There was a knock on the door. Hermione poked her head in.

"Can I come in and chat with you about something, Gin?"

I gave Luna a look, asking her to leave us. She got up, kissed me on my cheek and left. Hermione came in and sat beside me. We sat in awkward silence for quite a long minute before she lifted my face by my chin gently.

"I um… So thanks for being there when I drank the potion," she said awkwardly.

"Why did you really come in here?" I asked.

"I was just wondering if… well, if you still felt the same way… you know, about me."

What was she getting at?

"Of course I do. This doesn't just go away overnight."

"And um… what about Luna?"

"What about her? She's my best friend."

"Nothing more, then?"

"Hermione, what are you getting at?"

"I just… Look, Ginny, I do remember. I remember all the days and nights we spent together, hiding away from everyone like outcasts. But I just wanted to make sure you're okay with Ron and me."

Great. She was just making sure. And here I was with a bit of hope.

"Sure. Great. I'm just bloody great with you guys. Luna!"I yelled.

"Ginny, I know you're not fine with us being together. I know you're not, I can tell by the way you tried to kill him today."

"Oh, that obvious then?" I said, voice dripping with sarcasm.

"Just a bit."

Hermione tried to force a smile as Luna walked in.

"You called?" Luna asked.

"Yeah, can we just… I don't know. Can we lay here for a bit?"

"Sure, love," Luna said softly, crawling into bed with me.

A look of jealousy flashed in Hermione's eyes for just a second before it disappeared. She got up from the bed. "All right, well, I'll be off then…. Thanks again, Ginny."

"Sure thing," I said, shaking my head. Hermione walked out, closing the door behind her and I curled up against Luna.

"What was all that about, then?"

"She said she remembered and she wanted to make sure I was okay with her and Ron being together."

"And of course, you're not and she knows that. Am I right?"

I nodded and closed my eyes.

"Want to take a nap, love?"

I nodded again. Luna slid her arms around my waist and I cuddled into her, quickly falling asleep.

Hermione suddenly appeared. She was sick, very sick. A mixture of sweat and tears rolled down her pale face. She was disappearing slowly, and I tried to grab onto her. Her body was vanishing in my own hands and I screamed out her name. I begged her to come back, but soon she was completely gone and I roared in anguish.

"Ginny? Ginny?"

"Ginny?" a voice said worriedly.

"HERMIONE!" I screamed, sitting up quickly. I felt dizzy.

"Shhh, love, relax. Hermione is fine. Please, relax."

"L-Luna?" I asked, panting for breath.

"You had a nightmare."

Luna was brushing my hair away from my sweaty face gently.

"Everything is fine. Hermione is okay. She's downstairs."

"She's… That was horrible… She was disappearing before my very own eyes, and I tried to grab for her but she just vanished…" I said, beginning to cry.

"It's all right love, it was just a dream," Luna said soothingly, rubbing my back softly.

I sniffled and quickly finished crying but I let myself be held and comforted by Luna. She rocked me slowly as we lay down.

"Everything is okay," she whispered one last time before the door creaked open. There stood mum.

"Oh… I'm sorry."

Mum turned bright red as if she had walked in on something that she should be embarrassed about.

"We weren't doing anything, mum."

"Of course, dear. Is everything all right? I heard shouting."

"I just had a nightmare, mum. Everything's fine."

"Are you sure? You don't look too well, dear."

"I'm fine, mum. Just a little shaken up."

"All right. Well, it's time for dinner, if you'd like to come down and join us."

"Dinner, already?"

"Yes, dear."

"All right, we'll be down soon."

Mum nodded and walked out, closing the door behind her. Luna and I got up slowly, still holding onto each other.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Luna asked.

She sounded as if she was asking if I wanted to throw myself off of the Astronomy tower.

"I'm sure," I smiled.

Hand in hand, we walked downstairs to the dining room.