A/N:
I'm sorry for late update of this story. I've been busy with my study and works.
"You show the good side of me behind this twisted and fake facade"
-Iliiya -
Chapter 5 – Sad
Lone figure sitting in front of glass table. A deem white light from nearby lamp lighten the office shadowing the figure. Rising to her feet, the figure clad in white rob raise a big black sheet and place it on the wall before switch on much brighter white light.
The figure sighs deeply after looking at the x-ray image in front of her. "still…nothing wrong with her. What could it be?" the figure said to no one in the room.
Shizuru stare long enough on the x-ray in front of her looking and examine every detail. This is so pathetic. I can't even figure out any of this. At the thought, she again crashes her tired body on the black leather couch. Pinching her nose bridge trying to clear her vision again, she reaches another file on the side table and read carefully on the information given.
Her patient, Kuga Natsuki seems to suffer a mysterious illness. Her hospital fees are fully paid by the insurance company. Hmm..in case of emergency….? Shizuru flip on the next page and on the next kin to contact area is….empty.
Empty? Is she an orphan? But there is no orphanage status on her. why…
"Calling for Doctor Fujino, please go to emergency unit now. Emergency unit"
Hissing, Shizuru immediately reach her stethoscope and run toward door, opening it hurriedly and run toward the emergency room.
As she reach her destination, her nurse already in scrub giving Shizuru a hint about the case behind the emergency door. "Status!' the doctor asks simply as she too now ready for surgery procedure. "Patient…Kuga Natsuki"
"Natsuki!?" she interrupt her nurse, shock in her voice.
"Doctor…another attack occurred at 21:15. Cardiac arrested."
"What! Why didn't you call me earlier.!" she hurriedly does the procedure and hastily walks to the surgery room. The body in front of her already strips off clothes and breathing aid machine busily working nearby.
"No. We won't do the open heart. Just give me the defibrillator!"
"Doctor, ready."
"1…2…3.. now!" the defibrillator hit the chest and electric surge run as the body on the surgery table raise and falls again onto the bed.
"Come on, Natsuki! Wake up!" Shizuru pump her hand on the heart area. Beads of sweat start to form on her forehead.
"Natsuki! Wake up!" Shizuru could feel tears start to well in her eyes. A flashback of the afternoon event comes to her mind.
...
"Woman!..."
"Doctor Fujino."
"Doctor…. Fujino. It seems you didn't listen to me just now."
"K..K…K…K…. YOU! WOMANNNNNN!"
...
"My Natsuki! Come to me!" as she desperately calling back her patient from unconsciousness, her hand push much harder until a nurse stopped her hand.
"Doctor, the heartbeat return normal…"
At the notice, she exhales the air she didn't even remember she was holding. A surge for relief runs through her.
Please, Kuga-san. Give me a chance to save you. I am your doctor and don't you dare die on me.
A grunt coming from the body that laid on the surgery table.
Touching her patient cheek, she close the distance and whisper "Hey, wake up"
"Urrggghhhh..too b-bright." another grunt from her patient.
Shizuru turn toward nearby nurse and order her nurse "Nurse, dimmed the light a little."
"Where am I?" her patient asked.
"You're in emergency room."
"W..why?..I was just sleeping.."
"Sleeping, ne…You have another attack before. So we brought you here in case we have to perform emergency surgery." She tried to coo smoothly toward her patient.
"Attack..?"
"Nats….Kuga-sensei. You had died the second time. Welcome back from underworld. You like underworld so much, do you?" she could feel relieve when looking at the shocked face of her patient.
"urrghh..quit the joke."
How should she tell her patient about her condition. She had failed to seek her patient's illness. How much longer she had left. Another attack might happen any moment and there's no guarantee that next time she could called back her patient like tonight. Shizuru sigh. "Kuga-sensei. I'm sorry to inform you, I haven't found the cause yet. From the diagnosis, all I see is you are fine in every way. There is nothing wrong with your heart. I also check your MRI and found nothing there. I have to ask you a few questions later"
"Aoi…Bring her back to her room." turning around she walk out leaving the nurse to proceed with the task.
….
Entering the patient room, Shizuru was greeting with a side look of her patient looking outside the windows. Somehow, the sitting figure on the bed looks so lonely and sad. Green eyes staring blankly without realizing the other present. The eyes then shift toward the doctor, now standing idle in the middle of the room.
"Doctor…."
"Ah! Urm..Natsuki-san, I have to ask a few questions regarding your medical history. This can help me to find your illness cause."
"Do what you need to do, tomorrow I want you to discharge me no matter what."
Shizuru sigh heavily. This patient is really hard to control. But she is so cute and…that lonely look on her is somehow…touching. Why am I thinking like this now? After all the love affair and flirting I have, now I become so melancholy about this all? Who am I kidding? Yare-yare…
"Now, where were we?" the doctor began. "Ara, yes. I have to ask a few question regarding your lifestyle, diet, activity and etc..etc..etc.. let see.." Shizuru take a seat near her patient and open the questionnaire file.
From the session, now Shizuru getting knows more of her grumpy patient. Such a grumpy patient she is..maybe it's because of her upbringing. She thought that would be the case, but what reveals later..it was just so sad, so pitiful. And yet, what can she do to help this child? This poor child named Natsuki. Her heart cried, bleeding for this child. What can she do?
Having no one to take care of her, living an empty lonely life..alone..this Natsuki giving all the grumpy and strong image outside to buried her loneliness and sadness inside her heart.
What can she do?
As a doctor, of course treat her patient accordingly would be the main priority. The illness of the physical body could be treat by medications. But what about her heart illness? It would kill this child eventually, from inside out. More than the physical illness inflicted.
It was then, that Shizuru had made her resolution. It's now or the chance would never appear again. She herself has to take care of this patient. She will cure her physical illness and at the same time, show this patient her bright happy future, giving hope and be her friend in need.
Therefore Shizuru had swear to herself and her patient, "I will take care of you. Trust me. Kuga-sensei.". This will be the start of her mission.
….
Shizuru slowly close the door behind her. Tears betrayed just a little try to well up in her eyes, but she had to be strong. No! don't weep. Don't cry. I must be strong for my patient. She still alive and as miserable as she is, someday her life will change. I will make this happen.
"I see you are interest in this patient, Shizuru-sensei" a masculine voice startles her.
"Ah! Reito-sensei. How long has you stand there?"
"Long enough to see that look on your face."
"Ara? What look?"
"That looks. The longing look as if you want to run and hug someone." Reito glance to the name plate on the door "Kuga Natsuki, ka? Hmm…Interesting."
"Don't ever think about it, Reito-sensei" Shizuru voice snare a threat.
"Ma-ma..Shizuru-sensei. I will not unfaithful to you." With that Reito slam his arms forward and trap Shizuru against the wall. "My offer to you still open.."
"You are quiet persistent, Reito-sensei"
"In love we must be persistent"
"I had told you, I'm not swing your way."
"How do you know when you didn't even give me chance. Say, we can go to any empty room and let's try having sex. I can guarantee you, once you feel….." a slap rang across Reito's face leaving the red marks. And with that, Shizuru push Reito far from her "Don't!" she gritted her teeth "..don't ever think you can touch me with your filthy hand, male!" with that she turns around to leave.
"Shizuru-sensei….If I can't get you then, that Natsuki will be mine.."
The words manage to stop in her track "I see. You are more filthy than animal, male!"
"I can see you are also interest in her as well…." Reito smile wickedly. "Now..let see who can get her first." Raising to his feet, Reito look straight at Shizuru before he walk leaving her behind to her thought.