Chapter 11: Car Crash
I'm wide awake and so alive
Ringing like a bell
Tell me this is paradise
And not some place I fell
My skin like scars
Cause I keep on falling down
Nate pov.
"Nate!" I hear Shane say quickly.
I turn around quietly and look at my brother.
"Nate.. We just wanted you to be back to the old Nate." Shane says while lifting his arm off of Mitchie's shoulder.
"You want to know what the real reason I became who I was?" I ask loudly.
Shane looks at me, unsure of what to say. I sigh and continue.
"Did you know mom and dad forgot my 10th birthday? They took you and Jason out for ice cream and left me at home. I was alone for five hours, Shane. I was always ignored. In fact, I'm still ignored to this day. You and Jason were and still are the favorites. " I manage to say calmly.
Shane's look of utter disbelief doesn't surprise me.
"Nate, I didn't know.." He says while shaking his head sadly.
"Yes you did! That day was the day your basketball team won the state finals! You managed to say happy birthday to me while getting in the car. Jason didn't even glance at me. Mom and Dad just waved to me. So, yeah. That's just one of countless examples as to why I wanted to become popular and if that involved me becoming a jerk, so what. It wasn't like mom and dad were going to notice anytime soon." I say with a bitter laugh and turn around.
I walk away quickly. I get in my car as fast as I can. I know I made a scene, but I think it was worth it. Shane, Mitchie, and Caitlyn are running after me. I start the car and turn the radio up as loud as it can go.
I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
Till I'm satisfied
I put the car in reverse and glace out the rearview mirror. Satisfied that I can turn around, I put it in drive and roll down a window.
"Caitlyn, do you think you can find a ride?" I ask politely.
Just because I'm angry, confused, and hurt, doesn't mean that I'm not going to be worried about Caitlyn's safety.
Caitlyn looks at me with tears in her eyes and says, "Yeah. Where are you-"
I drive off before I can hear the rest of her question. I bang the steering wheel angrily as I pull up to a red light.
I wanna feel the car crash
Cause I'm dying on the inside
I wanna let go and know that
I'll be all right,all right
I'm still stopped at the light, except it's green now. The cars honk behind me. I roll my eyes and press on the gas.
Push me till I have to fly
I've shed my skin, my scars
Take me deep out past the lights
Where nothing dims these stars
Nothing dims these stars
I look at the dark sky with the stars shining brightly. I hear a car's brake's squealing and I turn around to my left, just in time to see a huge truck coming this way. I try to move into the other lane before the impact, but it's no use. The truck hits my car and I can only feel my heartbeat in my chest.
I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
Til I'm satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
Cause I'm dying on the inside
I wanna let go and know that
I'll be alright, alright
AN: Hope it was alright review! Don't own Car Crash by Matt Nathanson