[A/N] black

just a warning as GAMZEE FORCES HIMSELF ON NEPETA. PLEASE IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE PLEASE DON'T READ.

those voices

they kept on rambling in your head

'kill them... kill them all...'

you were suffering from withdrawal. you don't know when

but it was bad.

'they're all worthless... kill them.. KILL THEM..'

your breaths came in heavy rasps. you leaned against something trying to gather all your thoughts.

what happened? where are you anyways?

you checked your phone, the screen somehow cracked (never seen it before till now).

it was 3:14 in the morning.

what the hell?

on your screen were 30 unread messages.

most from Karat.

(11:00 PM) CG: WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU? ARE YOU OKAY?

(11:44 PM) CG: OKAY I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH YOU BUT TEXT ME I'M WORRIED.

(12:30 AM) CG: GAMZEE?

(1:15 AM) CG: LOOK EVERYTHING IS GOING TO SHIT AND I NEED TO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE

(1:50 AM) CG: GAMZEE? TEXT ME BACK THIS IS AN EMERGENCY. ERIDAN NEARLY KILLED FEF AND KNOCKED KANAYA OUT COLD.

(2:40 AM) CG: HAVE YOU SEEN EQUIUS?

that was the last message you've seen from the guy.

you had a headache and began rubbing your temples. there was something sticky and wet on the palms of your hands and it didn't take too long for everything to start coming together.

You were walking around, muttering to yourself and acting off. it was because of the withdrawal, and you were ready to lash out at anyone.

anyone

Equius was sent by Karkat to calm you down while he settled matters with Eridan and Feferi.

it was funny how Equius always treated you above others, even Eridan (though you didn't blame him, Eridan was a dick)

mostly it had to do with Equius's father who used to work under your dad, kinda like a bodyguard and protector when it came to dealing with undergrounds stuff.

Equius's dad had loyalties to your father, and it passed on to him having his loyalties to you, even though, hell

you'd careless.

you had to sit down and lean against a tree, as you tried to think through of what happened exactly.

you remember Equius, he was saying something to you. you can't exactly recall what, but it was some sort or reassurance for you to calm down and such.

everything was mumbled in your head as he spoke.

you couldn't handle it anymore.

the last thing you heard was a strangled gasp, and you gripping onto his neck.

there was a slight crack, you swore you felt it.

but everything was hazy after that.

you lied down on what felt like grass. it was soft and wet, probably from the sprinklers that usually go off around this time.

the sound of grass crunching caught your attention, but you stayed still, hoping whoever it was would go away.

the crunching got closer and seemed to coming fast.

you were getting annoyed, and felt your anger slowly rise, bubbling in your throat.

suddenly those footsteps stopped and the pressure around you got tight, nearly suffocating you.

"YOU." a sharp hiss stung at your ears. you turned to face a dark petite figure.

then it dawned onto you

"awe shit kitty lemme-" a sharp smack stopped you in your tracks.

even though you could barely make her face, you could tell she was fuming.

she left light scratches on your cheek, it was meant to be taken as a warning.

"HOW COULD YOU NEARLY KILL EQUIUS, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?"

"stop yell...ing..." you mumbled, feeling the anger climb it's way out of your throat

"I TRUSTED YOU! AND YOU WERE GOING TO KILL MY BEST FRIEND! YOU ASSHOL-"

she swung her arm towards you, going in for the kill

you gripped onto her wrist, and glared down at her, a smile stretching from ear to ear

'do it... kill her... kill..'

a ear splitting crack echoed, along with her shrieking. she kneeled over and held her now broken wrist.

part of you wanted to hold her and apologize, but it was pushed back.

you wrapped a hand around her neck and pulled her up to your eye level, glaring down and breathing heavily.

"lookat you, actin' so motherfuckin' high and mighty. makes me fuckin' laugh." you let out a loud chuckle, nearly sounding like a growl.

the look in her eyes could kill, and you knew she wasn't going to back down, she's always been a fighter.

with all the strength she had, she raised her hand and scratched you deeply across your face. you let go of her and stumbled back, taken back by her actions.

you heard her fall with a thud, her stumbling around to get on her feet. making sure she didn't have a chance to escape, you pinned her down and held down her arms.

She let out a whimper as you sat down on her stomach, preventing her from moving.

"now now... ain't gonna let you motherfuckin' spill from my fuckin' fingers... huh.." it was then you realized how helpless she is, with your entire body weight on top of her, pretty much crushing her.

she spat at you, hissing. it's funny, she always joked with you saying how she was the lioness of her own jungle.

drops of blood landed on her cheek, making her smirk at her handy work.

you hated it, the voices got louder.

you raised your fist and brought it down with a ear splitting crack. blood pooled on the side of her face.

"you just like all these motherfuckers." your voice dripped with venom, her eyes widening in horror.

your hands lingered near her chest, nearly groping her. she shuffled around uncomfortably, a dark blush raising on her face.

"don't tell me you still motherfuckin' actin' like a virgin." she glared at you, the blush still visible even in the dark. this time you were smirking, and roughly groped breasts.

"don't do that!" she half shouted half groaned.

"oh kitten you know you motherfuckin' loved this shit, don't be such a fucking prude." your eyes then lingered down lower. reaching behind you, you pressed up against the inside of her pants, causing her to even struggle more. you chuckled darkly at this, you knew her well to know her weaknesses.

and now you got her.

you held a hand on her throat, pretty much suffocating her as you groped roughly her with the other, kissing and biting on her collarbone.

"nnnggh... Gamzee! STOP!" her yells became strained as she could barely breathe. you bit down harder, drawing blood and taking some flesh.

if only they can see you now

may the great messiahs see you now.

the voices became increasingly loud, pretty much drowning out the sounds of the outside. nepeta's voice unable to reach you, as a new bloodlust arose in you.

a tiny crack killed those voices as you looked down at nepeta, blood dribbling down the side of her face as she glared at you, scratching at your clamped hands on her neck.

"y'unno, i liked you the best outta all 'em fuckers. i ain't fuckin' know what i did wrong." she bared her teeth at you, hissing

"YOU NEARLY KILLED EQUIUS. YOU JERK." the voices came again

just kill her

the grass crunched against your feet, as you walked to who knows where.

your phone went off again and you noticed it was 5 in the morning.

(5:03 AM) CG: GODDAMMIT GAMZEE FUCKING PICK UP. NO ONE IS FUCKING ANSWERING ME.

a small trickle of blood dribbled down your brow, you attempting to wipe it only caused it to smear across your face along with the blood that was already on your hands.

you felt your phone vibrate and before you even caught who sent you a message, you snapped it in half and threw it behind you.

so anyways this was just something to scribble down, i always wanted to catch the downfall of Gamzee and hope i caught it somewhat.

don't got much to say so thanks a bunch for reading :V