"Cant believe its already time to say bye to everyone…" I said, mostly to myself, but Brock was listening to me ramble as we packed our stuff in our hotel room.
"I know… I think it's sadder leavin your family than it is leavin mine." I smiled, sadly. "So, where does this leave you and Roy? I mean, you guys get along great without Melissa around, but when we all went to your parents house for dinner last night Melissa stayed the whole time and you guys seemed kinda… I don't know, awkward." I shrugged and continued folding the shirt I was folding.
"I don't know. We'll probably call and check in on each other every once in a while, but I don't think we can ever go back to normal until she's out of his life."
"Well, its gotta be hard to just up and leave somebody."
"She cheats on him!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah, but still… If he really loves her, its gotta be hard. I mean, put yourself in his shoes. If I were to ever- which I wont… ever- cheat on you, do you think it'll be easy to just get rid of me?" I shrugged.
"I don't know, I guess we'll find out when ya do." He rolled his eyes at my sarcastic remark. "Our marriage and relationship is different than theirs."
"How so?"
"We're… well, we- we… I don't know how to explain it, but we are." I paused. "How come everything always has to be an argument with you?" He walked over and set some things in the suitcase, then watched me put more junk in it.
"I just don't want you to get your hopes up in thinkin that his marriage is gonna end soon and you'll get your brother back, cuz that might not be the case. I sighed and nodded.
"I know…" He kissed the corner of my mouth quickly, then went into the bathroom. We finished packing, taking our time, and checked out around 8 at night. We weren't scheduled to leave until tomorrow afternoon, but we both said we'd rather leave at night, that way we could do a quick goodbye and get out of there. For some reason it was always so much harder leaving here than it is when they leave us and I was not looking forward to it. I drove to my parents house, going a little under the speed limit and when we pulled into the long driveway I saw Momma sittin on the porch swing and Daddy out in the barn… of course. I also saw my brothers truck… I took a deep breath and Brock patted my leg and gave me the best smile he could. I tried returning it, but it wasn't quite as convincing as his was. I sighed and opened the door to get out after Brock did. Momma already called Daddy and Roy over when I got out and they were all standing there, smiling sadly.
"My sister-in-law didn't come to say bye?" I asked with a laugh, trying to lighten the mood. Roy rolled his eyes and smirked, but Momma and Daddy didn't find it amusing. I sighed and walked up the few steps and stood right in front of them. I rose my arms at my sides, slightly and let them fall again, slapping the sides of my thighs. "Well, we gotta get goin…" none of them spoke. "I really wish one of you would talk before I lose it!" I couldn't stand seeing their sad faces. "Either say bye or go away and let me leave." Of course it would sound mean to any normal person, but they knew what I meant. The whole family was this way when it came to goodbyes, so we made them short and sweet or said nothing at all, just to make it easier. I was about to lose control of the lump in my throat and I almost turned around to get in the truck, but I heard Daddy clear his throat. I looked up towards him and clenched my teeth, trying to regain my control.
"Wish you coulda stayed longer. You know you can come home whenever you want." I smiled sadly and hugged his neck, leaving a little peck on his cheek before he started off towards the barn. I didn't dare turn around to watch him walk away. He didn't even bother saying bye to Brock, he just patted him on the shoulder as he walked by without any words. I looked down and I felt my mommas eyes on me. I also felt her wrap me in a quick hug and she simply just whispered. "We'll visit soon, I love you." I sighed and hugged her back.
"Love you too Momma." Then I pulled away from her and she turned to walk into the house. Before I even had time to look at Roy I felt him wrap me in a tight hug. I sighed and lost control…
"Damn it, Roy…" I said, angry at myself, really. I closed my eyes and felt a few tears escape and roll off my cheek, onto his shoulder. I took a deep breath and slowly let it out, along with a few tears.
"I'm gonna go say bye to your mom…" Brock said, then walked into the house.
"I know you hate goodbyes like this, but, Lord only knows the next time I'm gonna see you… it might be another 5 years for all we know." I just nodded and hugged a little tighter before backing up, forcing him away from me. I looked down and quickly wiped my face, then shrugged and tried smiling. "But you are my sister, no matter what, and I do love you." I let out a long and loud sigh, then looked at him and nodded again.
"I love you too, Roy. Call me every now and then."
"I will."
"And I really hope everything works out the way you want it to with Melissa."
"Thank you." Brock walked out and stood bye me.
"Well, I'll talk to you soon." I said and he nodded. I patted his arm and quickly got out of there. I heard him and Brock swap goodbyes, then I heard his footsteps on the gravel behind me.
"You drivin?"
"Nope." I answered, then quickly got into the passenger seat and buckled. He got in and eyed me for a second before pulling out.
"You okay?"
"Mhmm…" When he stopped at the next stop sign he took his hand off the wheel and looked at me.
"Do I have to tickle you or somethin?" I shook my head, looking straight ahead. "Well, c'mon… What happened to the happy Reba? We just had an awesome 2 weeks." I looked at him.
"I'm just gonna miss them…" He sighed and nodded.
"Yeah. But, they'll be down to visit in a couple months." He tried cheering me up. I smiled sadly and nodded, then went back to looking forward. He leaned over slowly and kissed my cheek. "Don't be sad, baby." He whispered against my cheek, then smothered me in a bunch of little pecks making a smile creep onto my face. Once he saw this he got back to his side of the truck. It started getting darker and darker out and he was doing anything and everything to try to keep my mind away from being sad. He was doin most of the talkin and I was just nodding not really paying attention.
"Honey..?" I turned and looked at him.
"Hmm?"
"Were you listening?" I shook my head and he sighed. "Are you hungry?"
"No."
"Okay, well lemme know if you start to get hungry."
"Are you?"
"I will be when you are."
"If you're hungry, stop somewhere."
"I can wait. I'd rather just wait for you rather than pull off, get somethin for me, then have to pull off 20 minutes later for you."
"I'm not hungry and I probably wont be for a while, get somethin to eat if you're hungry." I heard him take a deep breath through his nose and saw him shake his head out of the corner of my eye.
"I'll wait."
"Oh my gosh…" I whispered, annoyed. Now he didn't talk. "Tell me when you're ready for me to drive."
"K…" He sounded annoyed, upset and pissed. Although, I don't see why.
"Whats wrong with you?"
"Nothin." I rolled my eyes.
"Oh, come on… you've been talkin my ear off and now you're gonna give me that 'k' crap?" He didn't reply, he just switched to driving with his right hand and leaned away from me. I sighed. "And you wonder why I didn't want this to end, cuz I knew we were gonna go right back to our normal, stressed out life."
"Nobody's making it that way but you, Reba. I've been trying to keep you in your good mood, and I've been trying to talk and make you happy, but apparently I'm not enough. So, yeah. We will just go back to our normal, stressful life I guess, but you're choosing to do it."
"I just don't wanna go back."
"Yeah, Reba, I get that. You miss your family and I'm sorry. I wish we could move closer, I really do, but we cant. And could you not seem so bummed to go home? You make it sound like life there is terrible and considering I'm the only one living with you, how do you think it makes me feel? I can turn around and take you back if you want to stay with your parents, but I have to get back because I have school and a job to get to, to put a roof over our heads and food on the table for us." I rested my elbow on the door and put the palm of my hand into my temple. I closed my eyes and waited and sure enough, a few deep breaths later, he started talking again. "I'm sorry for blowing up on you, but I don't think you see how much it upsets me when you look so sad about coming home with me. I try really hard and work my butt off for us and I feel like I never do enough. I begged and begged to get 2 weeks off and saved up a lot of money to come here for you. I just…. I want you to be happy and I can never seem do that." I looked at him and felt my heart sink. I unbuckled and scooted over to him, then pulled his right hand off the steering wheel and wrapped my arms around his. I kissed his shoulder and rested my chin on his shoulder, making my face just barely a centimeter away from his neck. I watched him closely as I spoke.
"I'm sorry you feel that way. You really do make me the happiest woman in the world. I guess I just tend to take things for granted sometimes and I'm really sorry." I paused and sighed at my lack of words. I didn't really know what to say. What I had already said didn't sound very convincing, but I really did feel terrible. He works his butt off and I notice that I'm not very grateful. Even though right now I didn't mean to upset him, I just miss my family, I knew he needed to get it off his chest and I'm glad he finally did. I'm mad at myself, especially because I didn't know what I could say to make him feel better… so I didn't say anything. I slowly slid my hand down his chest and onto his leg, then kissed his jaw, under his chin, down his neck and onto his shoulder and collarbone. He was stiff, but I saw his jaw clenching and unclenching. He didn't take his eyes off the road once, which in a way impressed me, but also annoyed me. He didn't seem to want to give in so I slid my hand a little further up his inner thigh making him sit up a little straighter, but he still didn't respond in anyway.
I kept moving my hand up and I kissed a sensitive spot behind his ear, then nipped at it playfully. This made him pull off the interstate and I smiled to myself.
"Forgive me?" I asked him. He still didn't look at me, he just shrugged.
"I'll let you know in a little bit." I laughed against his skin and saw goose bumps form on his neck.
"Where are we?"
"I have absolutely no idea…" I smirked and kissed his cheek.
"Where are we gonna go?
"I have absolutely no idea." he repeated. "Can I just pull over somewhere?" He asked, getting impatient, which made me smirk.
"As long as nobody comes near us." He finally turned and looked at me with big, confused eyes.
"Seriously?" I shrugged and nodded. I was trying to make him happy… He drove around the small, creepy, ghost-townish town until he found an abandoned dirt road that looked like it hadn't been driven on in years. He looked at me before turning down it and I shrugged again.
"Why not?" He smirked, slightly, and shook his head, turning down the road that looked more like a path that led into nothing but trees. He knew I wasn't messin around when I said 'as long as nobody comes near us' apparently. He stopped after he drove down if for a few minutes, turned off the truck and turned to look at me. I smiled and kissed, climbing into his lap, but he didn't touch me, he only pulled his head away and shook it.
"If you really want me to forgive you, I get control." I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms.
"Hm… Well, alright…" He rested his hands on my hips and laid me down on the long seat. "This is gonna be so uncomfortable." I said with a laugh as he kissed my neck.
"Spontaneous." he mumbled. I raised an eyebrow and nodded once.
"Good point." I felt his warm hands under my shirt as he slowly slid it off, then moved to unbutton my pants. I tried tugging at his shirt but he took over and threw it off by himself. He didn't let me do anything… Nothing. You'd think it'd be the other way around, but no. I just laid there as he stripped us both out of all of our clothing. He hovered his bare body over mine and I smiled and moved my hands up and down his stomach and chest. He was being so slow and gentle, almost to the point where he was just teasing me and I think he knew it. I rested my hands on his lower back and tried pushing him down, but he didn't move his lower body. He waited until just about every inch of my body was touched by his lips before he finally connected us. I took a deep breath and sighed, contently. He continued to kiss my neck as I trailed my fingertips anywhere my fingers decided they wanted to go on him. It was slow… Very intimate and personal which surprised me. I let him be completely in control, I didn't think he would have it this way. I figured it'd be more like after we had our ice cream/ roller skating date: fun and playful, but no. It was loving and simply amazing. I loved when he was fun and playful, but especially loved it when he was like this. Gentle and passionate.
"You're so beautiful…" He whispered against my lips. I kissed him and just moments later we both let soft sounds escape out lips and he collapsed onto me. We laid there, silent for a few minutes to get our breathing under control. I smiled and kissed the top of his head.
"Well, whatdya say? Am I forgiven?"
"Hmm… I'll have to think about it." I felt my jaw fall open slightly and I slapped his back. He laughed and kissed my shoulder. "Yeah, I guess I can forgive ya."
"You guess?" He pushed himself back up and hovered his face back over him.
"Okay… I can definitely forgive you." I smiled and nodded, feeling more satisfied with that answer.
"Good. Because that was one hell of a guilt trip… I felt terrible."
"Yeah, I'm good at that. Lots of practice." I rolled my eyes.
"Ha. Ha." He laughed and kissed me quickly before sitting up and handing me my clothing. We both our clothes back on and sighed at the same time.
"Not too uncomfortable."
"Yeah, not as bad as I thought."
"Comfortable enough for you to consider it again?" He asked with hopeful eyes. I laughed and put on my seat belt.
"Hmm… I'll have to think about it." I mocked. He smirked and shook his head and before we knew it we were on the interstate again, heading home.
Definitely not one of my favorites. It was short, and boring, I have to admit. But I wanted her saying goodbye to her family, especially Roy, emotional, and i wanted them to have an intimate moment after he got his thoughts out. i just got done reading a story that involved a lot of intimacy, but i feel like it might've helped me alot with the sex scenes. Anyway, sorry about this chapter. I'm not happy with it, oh well. We all have a few crappy chapters every now and then. i also realize that this is already chapter 20 and they've only been married 4 months. Lolol. I think I need to speed it up a bit if i want to fit in 3 kids and moving and jobs and blah blah blah. i warned people, its gonna be a long one. If it seems like I'm dragging it out (Which I so am) TELL ME! Plleeaassee review! I love getting good reviews, but dont be afraid to criticize and possibly give me some advise..? All reviews mean the world to me, but if its boring, or something TELL ME PLEASE. Okay, I'll quit rambling. Haha. Again, sorry about this shitty chapter. :/