Warning: Scene of a naked female shower with sexual references. Mention of male arousal. Sections between these **** are flash backs.
The Truth About The Nightmares.
Ianto and Jack are in the office and the rest of the team have gone home. Ianto slept at the hub most of the time. It was starting to get late as Ianto and Jack stood at the window of the office looking out across the hub.
"You know that she knows that she could die but that she is prepared to that don't you," Ianto tells Jack who is stood behind him with his arms around Ianto's waist and his chin on Ianto's shoulder.
"I know Yan," Jack tells him with sorrow in his voice and Ianto knew why and excepted it as he trusted Jack after all they had gone through.
They are about to turn away from the window until they see a shadow crossing the hub and then see Phoenix walking through the hub and making her way to the kitchenette.
"What is she doing?" Ianto asks Jack as he watches her disappear into the kitchenette.
"She is going to get coffee to stay awake. She will be going back and forth all night now," Jack explains to Ianto and he knows that he just doesn't understand.
"Why can't she sleep?" Ianto asks Jack and he turns around to face him.
"It's the nightmares. She has them every time she goes to sleep. They are the curse that comes with her abilities. She remembers every little bit of pain that she has ever felt whether it be physically or mentally. She has seen so many innocent people die, some many people she loved die. She carries all the pain with her and she has seen and felt more than you and I put together. She once shared small clips of her nightmares and I couldn't handle it. I didn't let her go for a week after that," Jack tells Ianto knowing that he would never truly understand how bad Phoenix's nightmares were.
"Are they really that bad Jack?" Ianto asks him looking out of the window again to see Phoenix leaving the kitchenette again with a huge cup of coffee.
"They are worse than anything you or I could imagine. As you saw in the range, when she has these nightmares, she feels the pain, hurt, anger with all of herself which means her abilities to. One of the worst nightmares on record was when she was at a U.N.I.T. facility, where she nearly brought all the buildings down and she even raise vehicles off of the ground including troop carriers. She doesn't just dream about the past, she dreams about the future too. She sometimes has the ability of foresight. No-one thought about Phoenix when they created her. She was designed to be the perfect warrior but every time she fights, every time she kills, she is destined to be haunted by it every time she closes her eyes," Jack tells Ianto and for Ianto, it finally sinks in.
"She has excepted death as that is the only way to escape her nightmares," Ianto tells Jack and a small, almost invisible tear runs down Jack's face.
"She as almost died twice and she did die once, for two months she was dead, no brain activity but then one morning, there was a massive storm and she bust out of the cryogenic unit she was in. Someone brought her back for some reason, not even she knows why," Jack tells Ianto.
"I understand now," Ianto tells him.
"I have something to confess Ianto. I spent the night with Phoenix last night but it wasn't anything like that. She is so tired and she had a nightmare, a rather bad one. The whole hub shook so I woke her up. I slept on top of the sheets and just held onto her for the night so that she wasn't on her own and if she had another bad nightmare, I could wake her up straight away. Nothing happened Yan, I swear. She just needed to sleep and she still does," Jack confesses to Ianto and at first he was naturally hurt but he knew Jack was telling him the truth.
"You were helping a friend Jack. How long hasn't she slept for?" Ianto asks Jack putting his arms around his waist and pulling him close.
"It's been too long. After the meeting I followed her to her room to find out what she was hiding and she looked really tired and then she fell asleep in the range. I sleep way more than she does and she is burning herself out. Soon she won't be able to stop herself falling asleep and it will be really hard to wake her again," Jack tells Ianto, not telling him all the things that happened when she had the nightmare that nearly took down a U.N.I.T facility.
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It was about 7am on a Sunday morning when the two U.N.I.T. warehouses began to shake. At first it wasn't so bad but then they shuck harder and harder, things falling and breaking inside. It was as though there was an earthquake right underneath them and it was getting stronger by the minute. As the U.N.I.T. troops gathered outside, there came a massive crashing sound and a white glowing Phoenix levitated through the roof of the adjoining warehouse.
Her eyes were shut and she was glowing from head to toe and it looked as though she was on fire. The U.N.I.T. vehicles in the motor pool and outside the warehouses started shaking and in front of everyone's eyes, they began lifting off of the ground, even the heaviest vehicle. The wind picked up and seemed to whirl around Phoenix, faster and faster. A U.N.I.T. Captain that knew Phoenix draw a side arm and tried to fire his weapon at her to wound her, to snap her out of the nightmare knowing that a bullet wound would heal extremely fast in Phoenix's case.
Before the bullet reached her or the whirl wind, it stopped in mid air, Phoenix holding her hand up and then it dropped to the floor. She began talking but that high up, she was now levitating over 60 ft in the air, no-one could understand a word of what she was saying and then came the highest, most gut wrenching scream you had ever heard and Phoenix's head flicks back and then nothing. The scream stops, the whirlwind stops, the glowing stops, nothing. Phoenix then falls the 60ft back into the warehouse landing across her bed, unconscious. Jack had been a witness to the latter part of this nightmare and it's effects on her so he knew what could happen.
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"You need to stop beating yourself up Jack. We will work something out, between us," Ianto tells him and he kisses Jack gently on the lips. Their kisses get harder and before long, they were giving each other a hand in the office, both half naked and both kissing each other hard.
Phoenix walks up to the office and opens the door forgetting completely to knock first and as she clears the doorway, she sees Jack and Ianto in the middle of making love.
"Um………um," Phoenix mutters as she sees what they are doing and she turns and leaves the office, closing the door behind her.
Jack and Ianto finish what they are doing and then Ianto goes off to clean up and Jack sits in his office, thinking about Phoenix. What she thought when she saw Ianto and him together? How she must have felt. He and Ianto were a couple. They were together and had fought hard to be together and Phoenix knew that but it didn't stop him having feelings for Phoenix. They had been through a lot of things together and they were about to go through something else but he still cared about her, loved her but not like he love Ianto.
Ianto and Jack spent a few more hours together in the bedroom and Ianto fell asleep. Jack couldn't sleep. He just lay there with Ianto next to him looking up at the ceiling. He couldn't get Phoenix out of his head. He needed to speak to her, see her, sort out whatever it was that was still between them. Jack slipped out of the sheets and made his way up the ladder, opened the hatch and climbed out, closing the hatch behind him quietly.
He made his way to the room where Phoenix was staying but he couldn't find her, she wasn't there and then he heard a shower so he want to the bathroom and steam was escaping the bathroom. He gently steps towards the bathroom and the popped his head around the door frame and saw a figure in the shower. He stepped a little closer and could see that it was Phoenix, who else would it be. She is stood in the shower with her arms in front of her, her hands braced on the shower wall in front of her. She had her head down and the water was running all over her body.
She takes her hands off of the wall and got hold of this strange looking, scrunched up thing and some shower gel, putting the shower gel on the scrunchy thing and puts the gel back. Starting against her throat, she gently rubs the scrunch along her collar bone to her shoulder and down her arm. The lather from the gel runs down her arm, the scrunchy moving back up her arm again, across her collar bone to her other shoulder and down her arm.
She comes back up her arm again and then down her chest. Jack watches her as she rubs the scrunchy over her breasts, circling them at first and then running it over her nipples, making them hard. Jack bits his bottom lip as he starts to feel aroused, getting an erection. Phoenix carries on cleaning herself and then to Jack's surprise though it shouldn't have been, she turns to him.
"Will you do my back Jack?" she asks him holding out the scrunchy from behind the shower curtain.
Jack steps forward and takes the scrunchy with one hand as he opens the curtain with the other. He puts the scrunchy at the top of Phoenix neck as her hair was tied up and moving in small circles, Jack moves down her neck and along her shoulders. He bit his lip harder, almost drawing blood until he can't resist it anymore. He puts his other hand on her back, running his fingers through the lather on her back. He steps a little closer to her so that his chest is almost touching her back. His teeth finally release his lip and he starts to breath heavier.
He moves the scrunchy lower, towards the middle of her back as his other hand traces it's path and then moves across her side and onto her stomach. His breathing gets harder and then hers does. The scrunchy now leaves Phoenix's back and moves across her waist and meeting his other hand as they move higher up her body towards her breasts.
"Why are we doing this Jack?" she asks him just as he clips the bottom of her breasts.
"We want each other. We need each other Phoenix," he tells her, moving his hands over her breasts, running over her already hard nipples.
"What about Ianto?" she asks him as he runs his hands down her breasts again taking her nipples between his fingers and thumbs, dropping the scrunchy.
"I love him, god knows I love him but we have history. We have long, deep history," he tells her as a small moan escapes her lips.
"If you love him, why are we doing this?" she asks him, her eyes closed.
"You were mine and then I messed up. If I hadn't have messed up, we would still be together. We fit together, we work together and we understand each other. Each others desires, each others needs, each others history," he tells her.
Phoenix pulls away from Jack's hands and turns around and looks right at him.
"I can't do this Jack. God I want to make love to you Jack but there is Ianto to think about. It's hard enough me being here in the first place without us sleeping together. I know we both want to, need to, I feel it in both of us but I don't want to rock the boat with Ianto," she tells him turning off the water and then grabbing a towel and running out of the bathroom before she changed her mind.
She left Jack stood there with his erection straining in his boxers and he has to make a decision. Did he follow Phoenix and make love to her or did he go back to his bed and a sleeping Ianto and help himself.