Living With Choices.
Jack walked back to the main hub and his office, his erection still strong, starting to hurt. He wanted so much to go to Phoenix's room and make love to her all night but she had pushed him away once already and he didn't want to be pushed away again. He walked into his office and turned to close the door again but before the door closed, he wavered. There was still time for him to Phoenix's room but the door seemed to close of it's own accord.
Jack took that as a sign and walked over to the hatch and quietly opened it. Ianto was still asleep inside and Jack slowly climbed down the ladder, closing the hatch behind himself. He walks over to the bed, seeing Ianto asleep exactly where Jack had left him. He erection was starting to cause him pain and Jack knew it wouldn't go away on it's own, not with the imagines of Phoenix naked still fresh in his mind. The sound of her moaning and heavy breathing still echoing in his mind.
Jack knew that he had to go to bed, try and sleep it off. As he got under the sheets and lay on his back, Ianto turns over and wraps his arm and leg around Jack.
"Where did you go?" Ianto asks him half asleep.
"I couldn't sleep so I sat in the office," Jack tells him as Ianto rubs his hand up and down Jack's body and touches the top of Jack's erection.
Ianto lifts his head off of the pillow and looks down and runs his hand further down stroking the whole of Jack's erection.
"Really Jack? Again?" Ianto asks Jack and he pauses before he answers, knowing it was Phoenix that caused the erection and not Ianto.
Ianto brings his head further towards Jack and kisses him and Jack kisses Ianto back as Ianto slides his hand under the sheets and into Jack's boxers, taking hold of his erection and stroking Jack. They made love for the second time that night, falling asleep in each others arms but Jack couldn't get Phoenix out of his mind even when he slept. He dreamt about her. Events from the past, times they made love in the past and he dreams that he had gone back to Phoenix's room and made lover to her all night. Jack wanted nothing more.
Phoenix wrapped in her towel, enters her room and closes the door. Still wet from the shower, she lays on her bed and curls up. Tears fill her eyes as she thinks about what just happened in the shower. She had been so close to giving in to him, so close to making love to Jack. She hadn't made love to anyone since Jack, he had been her last. After how he had abandoned her, she didn't want to get close to any other man. She still loved Jack more than she cared to imagine and it was hard for her to be close to him but she had to. She had to get on with training and ignore how she felt about Jack.
She could see that he hadn't changed, he was still confident, full of himself, arrogant but charming, handsome, gentle, tender and that was what she loved about him. She loved him but he was committed to someone else. Knowing what was coming, she wanted to be close to someone, be with someone, make love to someone, make love to him but she knew that he wanted her too and it was making it harder. She knew that she had to be out of the hub as much as possible. She couldn't be around Jack, it was too tempting. She had to get out of the hub.
The next morning, Jack awoke to find the bed empty and Ianto missing. He looked at his watch and saw that it was a little after eight in the morning. He got out of bed and made his way to the bathroom and get cleaned up and then got dressed. He leaves the office and then stands in the main hub. All was quiet, the quiet trickle of water down the water tower, the gentle hum of the hub's computer. No talking, no noise and then Ianto appeared with two cups in his hand.
"Morning Jack," Ianto says as he hands Jack a cup of coffee.
"Morning Yan. Anything to report?" Jack replied putting his boss head on straight away, feeling guilty for what happened the day before.
"Nothing to report. Everything is quiet. There is one thing tough. I went to Phoenix's room this morning to take her a coffee but she wasn't there. She isn't in the hub," Ianto tells him as he sips his coffee.
"Have her things gone?" Jack asks Ianto, concerned that she had left.
"Her things are still here. Those weapons are still in the range so I don't think she has gone far," Ianto tells him and they sit down in the sofa area.
Phoenix walks along the wall of the bay, her head down to the floor, the breeze from the bay blowing across her. Her hair bouncing in the breeze, swaying to one side. The sun shining down upon her. When she was far enough away from the hub, she came across some benches and sat down bringing her knees up to her chest, feet resting on the edge of the bench. She was so tired, felt so guilty that all she wanted to do was sleep and forget.
She had gone through time as the Dark Avenger, helping people but always in the back of her mind was, "Is Jack here?" Now she had found him, she wished she hadn't. It had brought old feelings and memories back to her. She didn't want them in her head, not now there was no chance of her being with him. Tears rolled down her face, knowing that she couldn't in anyway be with the man she had loved for so long.
She stayed on that bench, the salt air breeze sweeping across her face, stinging where the tears had been, watching the motion of the sea in the bay. People walking around and talking behind her. She felt so alone. She had travelled so far through time to help save earth and she felt so alone. She knew that there was a good chance the she would die feeling alone and as her tears fell, dark grey clouds drifted across the sky. The clouds getting darker and larger, filling with rain until they couldn't hold anymore and they almost irrupted. There was a sudden down pour, the change in weather now reflecting her feelings, dark, sad and alone.
Gwen, Toshiko and Owen entered the hub, dripping wet through, Toshiko shaking off her coat after taking it off.
"Is it raining outside?" Jack asks them confused.
"It came out of nowhere. One second the sun was shining and the next second, the sky was dark and it started throwing it down," Gwen tells him as she slipped her coat off and hung it on the back of her chair to dry.
"It came out of nowhere and took everyone by surprise. The weather forecast did say that it was going to be bright and sunny all day, no mention of rain," Toshiko adds.
"Yeh but did you feel the atmosphere outside as well. It was almost depressing, sad," Owen tells the team and everyone looks at him strange.
"Well it is. It's like the weather is someone's emotions, like someone out there is so sad, they turned the weather to how they felt," Owen admits and then realises that he actually sounded human and caring.
Jack turns away from the team and everyone looks at him.
"Did the weather change like this?" Jack asks and clicks his fingers.
"Yes Jack. What's going on?" Gwen asks him knowing that he knew more than he was saying.
"It's Phoenix," Jack simply replies giving no hint as to how it could be her.
"How could it be Phoenix? How can she control the weather?" Toshiko asks him as confused as the others.
"If she gets really sad or angry, the weather changes. It's just something that happens around her, she doesn't mean for it to happen. There is a lot that you don't know about Phoenix. You haven't seen half of what she is capable of," Jack tells them and goes back into his office.
"Is there something that we have missed Ianto?" Owen asks him, still confused as to what was going on.
"Jack and Phoenix used to be partners. They went on so missions together, did and saw things that we could never dream of. Then they became lovers too. Jack did something stupid and ran when she needed him the most but they still care about each other. There are things that I know that you don't know and there are things that I don't know but Phoenix is more than she seems," Ianto tells them as they all look at each other.
"What do you mean by that Ianto?" Gwen asks him as he turns around.
"That small like earthquake yesterday afternoon was Phoenix. She has the most horrific nightmares because of all that she has seen and done. She doesn't sleep because of these horrific nightmares but when she does fall asleep, she has the nightmares and they manifest themselves in Phoenix and she causes these earthquakes. At the moment, she hasn't slept properly in a long time and it's burning her out. This is just the start of what Phoenix is capable of," Ianto tells the others.