WARNING: Scenes of a SEXUAL NATURE. Sections between these **** are flash backs.
Telling The Truth Isn't Always Easy.
Since Gwen and Toshiko had left the range, Phoenix had stayed there. She had no desire to bump into Jack after the question he had asked during dinner. She was so angry with him. Why did he have to ask that question and in front of everyone? In the end, as long as she did her job, protected the team, averted the danger, what did it have to do with him what it would cost her? He had moved on and was happy with Ianto. It was her who was all alone.
Her hands began to glow, she could feel the anger starting to affect her, it always did when she felt strong emotions. She needed to vent her anger in the only way she knew how. She held her hands out in front of herself, small balls of energy started to form in the palms of her hands. She closed her eyes and starts to channel the anger into energy and the small balls grew larger and larger in her palms until they were the size of gala melons and then she opened her eyes.
One at a time, she hurled the energy balls at the Weevil targets, each one crashing against the target, making the wooden targets shudder as every energy ball hits it, scorching the paper target. After hurling about 10 energy balls, Phoenix felt the anger subsiding and a few more later, she felt back to her usual self. The glowing had dissipated from her hands and she didn't feeling the tingling feeling anymore. She straightened out the weapons on the table and then left the range and grabbed her coat out of her room.
She made her way back to the main hub where everyone was working, Toshiko and Gwen at their desks, Owen in the autopsy room and Ianto fluttering around like he usually did. Jack was nowhere to be seen which Phoenix was happy about as she headed for the cog door. As the cage opened and the cog door rolled back, Jack appeared.
"Where are you going Phoenix?" he asks her standing at the workstations looking down to her.
"Out," she tells him not looking at him and slipping out of the cog door, closing it the cog door behind herself.
She stood leaning against the bay wall, the breeze on her face, her eyes closed as the spray of the sea hitting the bay wall splashed her face. She liked the sea. It brought memories for her but most of them had Jack in them.
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The night was warm and the sun was setting. It was the most beautiful sight she had ever sea. The bluest sea ended with the brightest red sky. The sun was the brightest yellow setting into the sea. They were sat on the beach, the sand was almost pure white. Jack was sat at the back with Phoenix sat in front of him and in between his legs and she leant back against him.
"I think this is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen," Phoenix tells him as she watches the sun slowly disappearing beneath the horizon.
"It isn't the most beautiful thing I have seen. You are," Jack whispers in her ear, his arms around her waist, holding her close to him as they watch the sun set.
"Don't even Harkness. You should know me better than that. I don't fall for that kind of thing," she tells him as he kisses her neck.
"I am being honest. You are beautiful and I don't think that you realise what you do to men," Jack tells her, continuing to kiss her neck and then her shoulder and then she turns to him.
"Don't say things like that Jack. You know I don't like you saying things like that," she tells him looking deep into his eyes.
"I don't care if you don't like to hear it. You are beautiful and you know I think you are. I love you Phoenix," Jack tells her and he kisses her gently.
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Phoenix looked at her watch and saw that it was a little after 8 in the evening so Phoenix knew that it would be safe to go back to the hub as the team would have gone home by now and Jack would be occupied with Ianto. She made her way slowly back to the hub and it was just after 8:30 when she walked in through the cog door. The lights were off in the hub except the office were Phoenix assumed Ianto and Jack were.
She went over to Toshiko's computer and turned it on. Toshiko had pass worded it but it wasn't anything that Phoenix couldn't handle as she put her hand on the screen. Screens opened and shut as Phoenix manipulated Tosh's to make it think that she was Tosh. Then she found what she was looking for. Phoenix began righting the program that she had gotten so that the hub's computer could scan for the signs of the entity's arrival as she wanted warning as soon as possible. Once the program was written and hidden, Phoenix shut down the computer and went back to her room.
She got her shower things together and her shorts and vest top as she was dying for another shower. While she had been travelling, the closest she came to getting a shower was a waterfall if she was lucky so she was taking full advantage of the shower while she had there. She hung her coat up and took her boots off. She picked her things up and took them to the shower. She gets undressed and then jumps into the shower. She spent a while in there, most of it was spent simply stand up the shower, letting the hot flow over all of herself.
She shaved her legs, washed her hair and did everything she needed to do and then got out, got dried and then got dressed. She took her dirty clothes and wet towel apart from the one she had around her head back to her room. She opened the door and walked in, dropping the clothes and towel by the door as she rubs her hair with the towel. She turns to her bed to see Jack sat on her bed.
"What are you doing here?" Phoenix asks him, pulling the towel off of her head and dropping it with the other things by the door.
"I think we need to talk Phoenix," he tells her, still sitting on the bed.
"I don't. Isn't Ianto wondering where you are?" she asks him as she grabs her brush and starts brushing her wet hair.
"Ianto went home. He told me he had on or two things to take care of at home and that he would be back in the morning so we are alone to talk," Jack tells her as she looks at him in the mirror.
"Well I don't know what you are doing here as I have nothing to say to you after dinner time," she tells him returning her gaze to the mirror as she puts her hair up.
"I need to know Phoenix. I need to know if protecting us could kill you?" he asks her getting up off of the bed.
"Yes Jack, it could. I have to use massive amounts of energy and I haven't summoned that since the last time and we both know what happened last time. Does knowing make you feel better Jack?" she asks him, annoyed with herself that she backed down and told him but she always did with him.
"Of course it doesn't make me feel better. You could die protecting us. How do you think that makes me feel? I can't lose you again Phoenix," he tells her standing right behind her.
"I'm not yours to lose. You didn't lose me last time either, you abandoned me," she tells him looking down onto the dressing table.
"I was afraid Phoenix. I couldn't watch you die. I couldn't see the woman I loved, die. When I came back for you, you had gone and I looked for you but I couldn't find. Since that day, I have thought of you, remembered you, dreamt about the times we shared. When I saw you in the hub as the Dark Avenger, how I first met you, all my feelings came back for you. Since you came back, I have wanted to kiss you, hold you close to me, make love to you and I know it's wrong because I am with Ianto but you were my first real love. You were the first person I ever imagined settling down with Phoenix," Jack confesses to her.
"Don't say things like that Jack. It hurts too much to hear them," she tells him turning away from the mirror and walks away from him.
"It's true. I still love you and always will. You are such a beautiful and amazing woman," he tells her turning to her.
"Please don't make me love you Jack. It hurts. It hurts knowing that there is a good chance that I have to leave soon a never come back. I don't want to love you Jack knowing that you are with someone else and I can't have you. You need to let me go," she tells him and tears run down her face.
"I can't let you go and yes, I am with Ianto and I love him but I love you too. I don't want you to sacrifice yourself. I don't want to lose you again," Jack tell her and he turns her around to see the tears streaming down your face.
"Please Jack. I can't do this. I am trying to keep as far away from you as I can because you are close enough to touch but not close enough to have and it is tearing me apart. I didn't want to come here in the first place but when I heard what would happen if I didn't, I knew I had too," she tells him as he wipes the tears away.
"Don't cry Phoenix. It's breaking my heart to see you cry," he tells her and he put his arm around her waist and holds her close to him.
"I thought my anger about you abandoning me would help me through this but it faded too quickly," she tells him and he strokes her back.
"I'm torn between you and Ianto. I love you both. You both mean so much to me and I love you both with all my heart. I know that if anything happens between us it is going to devastated Ianto but I want you, I want you so much," Jack tells her and she pulls away from him.
"Please Jack. I can't deal with what I feel for you," she tells him as she heads to the door but just as she opens it, Jack puts his hand on the door and shuts it.
"Please don't leave Phoenix," he tells her and she turns around.
He leans into her and kisses her gently on the lips. She fights the temptation to kiss him back but there is no use and she kisses him back. Their kisses become harder quickly and then they tease and massage each others tongues. She puts her arms around his neck and runs her fingers through the bottom of Jack's hair. Jack pulls her bobble out of her hair, letting her still wet hair drop against her back as he pushes her against the door. She runs her fingers down Jack's back and while one of her hands rests in the small of his back, the other goes down to Jack's butt, squeezing it gently.
Jack moves his hands to Phoenix's butt and then picks her up and onto his waist and she wraps her legs around him. Jack carries her over to the bed and kneeling on it, he lays her down and then he lays down next to her. They begin kissing again, Phoenix laying on her back and Jack on his side. Jack's hand that was on the side of Phoenix's face, slowly moves down her throat and down her chest. As his hand moves gently over her breast, her nipple hardens under his touch. Their breathing becomes harder as Jack's hand moves down her body until he finds the end of her vest top and gently slides his hand underneath it. He moves his hand up under the vest top slowly until he finds her large, firm, naked breast.
As his thumb runs over her nipple, Phoenix can't hold it in anymore and she moans out, mostly into Jack's mouth. They were both becoming more and more aroused. After Jack had massaged her breast for a minute or so, his kisses move from her lips and down her throat as his hand pulled up her vest top. Jack revealed her firm breasts and both her nipples were rock solid and then his kisses meet her breasts. As Jack's tongue touches her nipple, she moans out and arches her back as she has an orgasm, the first since before Jack abandoned her.
His kisses soon returns to her lips as his hand massages her breasts in turn. Phoenix can feel how aroused Jack is as he presses his erection against her hip. They were both becoming lost in each other, not thinking about anything but each other. Phoenix runs her hand down his chest, over his shirt and all the way down past his belt and to his groin. As she rubs her hand against his erection, Jack moans out.
"Phoenix," he moans as she rubs his erection.
His hand moves from her breast and down her toned abdomen and as he did, she flinches and it takes Jack by surprise and she moves her hand away from his groin.
"What's wrong?" he asks her taking his lips away from hers.
"Please Jack. Please go. I need you to go," she tells him sitting up and then moving off of the bed.
"What have I done wrong? Why did you jump when I touched your stomach?" he asks her and she walks to the door and opens it.
"Please Jack. Just go or I will have to make you and I don't want that," she tells him as he gets off of the bed.
"Your hiding something from me again Phoenix. What is it?" he asks her walking to her and he tries to put his hand on her face but she puts her hand up and makes a barrier around herself.
"Go Jack!" she tells him and he can see hurt in her eyes.
He walks through the door and she closes it as he turns back. She puts her hand over the door handle and creates a seal on the door. She goes over to her bed and lays on it on her side. She puts her hand on her stomach and the tears begin to fall. She moves her hand off of her stomach and buries her head in her pillow as she sobs. Jack stands on the other side of the door, hearing her cry and he can't bare it. He tries the door handle but it won't move. He puts his hand on the door and two tears fall from his eyes. He knew that she was hurting but he didn't know why and it was breaking his heart.