Sorry about this cahpter. I was thrown of by a review while i was righting it.
Devastation.
Phoenix awakes the next morning to find the room a complete mess. The whole room was all over the place. Phoenix got off of the bed and unseal the door. As she made her way to the main hub area, she sees that it wasn't just her room that was a mess. Every room, every corridor was a mess. She appeared in the main hub area in her shorts and vest top and she saw Ianto and Jack cleaning up the main hub which was a disaster.
"What happened here?" Phoenix asks them, having no idea at all.
Ianto looked at Jack but Jack didn't look up so Ianto took the lead. He walked over to where Phoenix was stood.
"This was you Phoenix. You fell asleep last night and the hub just shook. The shaking got worse and worse and no matter how hard Jack tried to get in your room, you had put a force field up but I don't think you knew it," Ianto tells her and she looks around.
"I did all this?" she asks looking at Jack and by the look on Jack's face, she knew the answer but there was more.
"The whole of Cardiff felt it Phoenix. There was a sever change in weather and an earthquake in Cardiff," Ianto tells her and she is horrified.
She turned away from them and then went back to her room. She gathered all her things together and laid them on the bed. She got out of her shorts just as Ianto arrived at the door and he quickly averted his eyes.
"What's going on Phoenix? I know there is something worrying you. By what Jack said, it must be something big," Ianto asks her with his back to the door.
"And what did Jack tell you?" Phoenix tells him sliding her trousers on.
"He told me that he came to talk to you and you throw him out and then all this happened," Ianto tells her as she puts her things in the bag.
"I'm dressed so you can turn around now," she tells him getting the last things off of the side and putting them in her bag.
"Why are you packing your things up?" Ianto asks her coming into the room and standing behind her.
"It's not safe for anyone that I am here. I will come back for training but for the rest of the time, I have to be somewhere else. It isn't safe while I am here," Phoenix tells him as she grabs her coat and puts it on.
"What is going on Phoenix? Talk to me. None of us want to see you go," Ianto tells her and he sit on the bed next to the bag.
"I have too many personal things going on Ianto. If it wasn't bad enough, seeing Jack brings back memories that I had pushed away, some painful memories but the nightmares, the nightmares I have cause people trouble and could injury someone and I can't let that happen Ianto," she tells him as she slides the weapons belts around her and grabs her helmet.
She picks up the bag and Ianto doesn't say anything to her because she was like Jack. When her mind was made, it would take a lot to change it. He followed her down to the main hub area where Jack was getting things straight again as she enters, her boots banging in the hub floor and he looks up. He looks at Ianto who is stood next to her and Ianto shakes his head.
"Where are you going Phoenix?" he asks her, the confusion event on his face.
"Away. I will be back for training," she tells him and she slides her helmet on.
She accesses her Vortex Manipulator and creates a Vortex in the centre of the hub. As she steps into the Vortex, Jack comes down to her.
"Please don't leave. Whatever I did last night, I didn't mean to," he tells her thinking it was all him.
"It's me Jack. I'm not safe to be around and I can't be around you. You remind me of too many things I want to forget," she tells him through the visor and she then moves through, closing the Vortex behind her.
Phoenix arrives on the there side of the Vortex and looks around. Nothing had changed. It was still the same dead planet that she left behind. It had once looked like Earth. Green trees and plants, animals, populations and all that was left was death. No plants just dried out dead trees, skeletons of animals that had once lived on the planet. Ruined buildings and huts where the population of the planet had once lived and the graves of those who had died.
Phoenix had been here before, both before and after it had died. The dark entity had already been here and drained everything of life, everything had died so there was no-one here to endanger. Phoenix found her way to the hut that she had created last time she was here. She lifted the material that was the door and went inside. Her make shift bed was where she had left it and she set her bag down on the ground.
She took her helmet off and lay it on the ground and then sat on her bed and lay back. She thought about the night before. Lay in bed with Jack, his hands on her, her hands on him, their kisses. And then he put his hand on her abdomen. That had frightened her, scared her. She wasn't ready for that. That was her secret, a secret she had kept for so long. Jack deserved to know but how would she tell him. It was so long ago and this would devastate him. How would she tell him that she was pregnant with his son when they faced there last battle and he abandoned her. She woke up in a strange place and found out that she wasn't pregnant anymore. She sensed it before she was told.
She lay with her hand on her abdomen and she cried, cried as loud as she wanted, there was nowhere there to hear her, no-one there to care if she changed the weather.
Some time later, Phoenix sees what time it is and that she was late back to the hub. She left her things where they were and created a Vortex outside the hut. She stepped through and within seconds, she was stepping out into the hub. Gwen was at her desk and so was Toshiko, both of them briefly looking at her and then looking away. Phoenix could sense it, everyone being uncomfortable with her being there. She made her way to the office and knocked on the door.
"Come in," was Jack's reply so Phoenix opened the door and stuck her head around.
"I'm ready for the first session of training," she tells Jack and sees Ianto sat on the edge of the desk.
"Can we have a second?" Jack asks her and Ianto smiles at her.
"I really don't think there is anything to say. I will pay for all repairs and I will only be in the hub while training. I think that's better all round," she tells Jack looking him straight in the eyes and then leaves the office, shutting the door behind her.
She walked past everyone, not saying a thing as she sensed their fear. She wasn't wanted there and she knew it. She just wanted to get through the training and then get out of there. She was more than alone now. She reached the range and sat on the end of the table, her elbows on her knees and her head in her hands. She didn't even notice anyone come into the range.
"Phoenix," Ianto says and Phoenix almost jumps.
"It's ok. I'm here for training," he tells her as she gets off of the table.
"Fine. Pick up your weapon," she tells him snapping at him and he does.
"Is everything ok Phoenix?" Ianto asks her as he takes up position.
"I'm here to train you, nothing else," she replies pushing Ianto away as she didn't want anyone close to her.
Ianto's face slips from the smile he had before and as he watches Phoenix as she shows him what to do, he sees the sadness in her eyes. She shows him various strokes and trusts with the sword and then Ianto repeats it. Putting them all together, Phoenix tells Ianto to come for her and he hesitates.
"I am to train you Ianto so when I say come for me, you come for me," she tells him with authority in her voice.
Ianto comes at Phoenix with the moves that she had shown him but he was hesitant and she knew it. After 15 minutes, she had decided that this wasn't working. He was too afraid of her, he didn't trust himself and there was too much in the way.
"Put your weapon down Ianto. This isn't working so what's the point," she tells him and she starts to move all the weapons together and she puts the bag she had brought them in on the table.
"What are you doing?" Ianto asks her putting his hand on hers to stop him but she pulls hers away.
"What does it look like. No-one wants me here, they are not interested in doing this so why should I waste my time. I will take on the entity alone," she tells him and packs the weapons up.
"You are wanted here. Why would you say that?" he asks her trying to get in between her and the bag.
"I can sense the fear. It's best if I leave and come back to Cardiff when the entity arrives and I will take it from there," she tells him with a stoney look on her face.
She reaches over to get the bag and pulls it off of the table and starts to walk away.
"And what about Jack?" Ianto asks her following her.
"What about Jack? He's yours. He means nothing to me," Phoenix tells him, her heart breaking but all she was doing was for the best.
"But he does and you mean something to him. I know you both care about each other," he tells her as he followed her to the main hub.
"You are wrong Ianto. If he cared about me, why did he abandon me and let me die when I was pregnant with his son," she tells him and in that instant, regrets saying it.
As she quickens her pace, Ianto almost runs ahead of her into the main hub.
"Jack. You need to get out here now," Ianto shouts and as Phoenix enters the main hub, Jack arrives at the door of the office.
"What is it Ianto?" he asks as Ianto comes towards him.
"Phoenix is leaving, for good. She is going to take the entity on herself," he tells Jack as Phoenix puts her bag down and starts to create a Vortex.
"You can't do this Phoenix. You can't go and you can't take the entity on yourself," Jack tells her coming down from the office.
"Don't presume to tell me what to do Jack. I don't orders from you. What should I stay here for Jack? Tell me that," she asks him as the Vortex appears.
"Did you know Jack? Did you know she was having your son?" Ianto asks Jack as he arrives next to him.
"My son?" he asks him and then looks at Phoenix and her face says it all as she picks up the bag.
She heads into the Vortex before Jack can say anything else and the Vortex closes behind her. She reaches the other side and as the Vortex closes, the bag drops to the floor and she drops to her knees. There was no way she could go back now and the tears began to fall.