WARNING: Some swearing.
Don't Feel Sorry For Me.
Toshiko and Phoenix walk into the hub and Phoenix lets go for her hand straight away, shutting the Vortex down behind them and putting up her stoney, cold exterior that she had let drop on the dead planet.
"You weren't joking when you said that you were only going to be a minute, "Owen tells them as Phoenix starts to head to the range.
"Phoenix, don't go back to the range. Stay here with us for a little while," Toshiko tells Phoenix, feeling sorry for her after what she had seen.
"Don't feel sorry for me Toshiko. There is no need too," Phoenix tells her as she makes her way out of the main hub area and to the range.
"Where the hell have you been? I didn't ok you to leave with Phoenix in a Vortex," Jack tells her leaning against the doorframe of his office.
"Sorry Jack. I was comfortable in the range and Phoenix asked me why so I told her I wasn't comfortable with killing so she showed me what this entity and it's foot soldiers do. You won't believe what I saw and now I know why Phoenix is so determined to destroy the entity. Didn't you see it Jack?" Toshiko asks him and the rest of the team turns to Jack.
"What do you mean didn't I see it?" he asks her.
"You did go to where she is living at the moment?" Toshiko asks him and he gets up off of the doorframe.
"Yes but it was just a deserted planet," Jack tells her as Phoenix hadn't shown him.
"She didn't show you. She didn't show you the cemetery," Toshiko tells him not sure whether she should feel honoured or not.
"I think you had better tell us exactly what she showed you and what she said," Jack insists as Ianto arrives in the main hub with a coffee for Toshiko.
Toshiko sits down with the coffee that Ianto had brought her and she takes a sip. Toshiko tells the entire team everything from the moment that she stepped through the Vortex and onto the planet to the second that she arrived back at the hub. She told them that Phoenix had been on the dead planet for 6 months already, all the graves that she had dug and everything including the three photo's. She could see it in everyone's eyes, they didn't know what to say, what to do.
"Poor cow. No wonder she is so determined and so cold. I can't imagine doing what she has done," Owen replies.
"So she lives in a broken down hut with a makeshift bed and a broken set of drawers and nothing else? Just that?" Gwen asks her.
"There is nothing else there. I think that all she does when she is there is think, remember and maybe a little sleep. She is so lonely but she won't tell anyone. She doesn't want anyone feeling sorry for her," Toshiko tells everyone just as Phoenix comes into the main hub.
"When you have all stopped talking about me, Ianto, range," Phoenix tells them and goes back down to the range.
Ianto makes his way down to the range and finds Phoenix sat on the table waiting for him. He enters the door and she gets off of the table with her weapon in her hand. Ianto goes to the table and retrieves his weapon and then joins her.
"Is it true what Tosh said?" he asks him.
"Why? Do you want to see so you can feel even more sorry for me?" she asks him, swinging the sword to loosen up her wrist.
"No. It just explains a thing or two that's all," he tells her as he gets familiar with the sword again.
"What does it explain? Why I am such a cold hearted bitch? Don't feel sorry for me Ianto. I don't need your pity," she tells him and he stops.
"I don't pity you and your not a cold hearted bitch. You act like this and that is what it is, an act because you don't want to get close to anyone," he tells her and puts his hand on her shoulder.
"We are here to train Ianto and not to debate on whether my being an ice queen is an act or not. Am I wasting my time or are we going to train?" she demands.
"As you wish Phoenix," he tells her and he raises his weapon.
Phoenix does exactly what she had done with the others and walks Ianto through attacks and defence moves and his is the best progress though Phoenix sees that he is holding back, afraid to let go. Once their hour is done, Ianto puts his sword down and Phoenix collects it up and puts it in the bag and slides it under the table.
"I suppose you are going back home now?" Ianto asks her and she looks at him.
"I have something else to do first and then yes, I am going home not that it has anything to do with you," she tells him almost sending a shiver down his spine with how cold she was being.
"I just thought that you might want to spend some time with us? Some human contact. Something decent to eat, something warm and filling, I don't know, not be alone for once," Ianto tells her and she looks at him with a strange mixture of anger and confusion.
"And why would I want to do that? So people can sit and watch me with pity for the strange creature who was all alone in time because that's what I am, a strange creature. Not fully human but not fully god either, I'm somewhere trapped in the middle. I get all the crap that comes with being human and the strength of a god, the responsibilities that comes with such strength and power and wanting none of it, just wanting to be normal," Phoenix tells him as she leaves the range.
Ianto thinks a moment about what Phoenix had just said and then follows her.
"You purposely make yourself alone? Why? So you don't have to lose people or so you can't get hurt again. It's all part of being human Phoenix, we all have to deal with it," he shouts after and she stops dead in her tracks as she feels the anger burning inside her, the tingling feeling coming back to her hands, spreading up her arms.
"Do you kill everyone around you Ianto? Do you endanger everyone around you, people you care about and love? No you don't so you have no idea what the hell you are talking about. You have no idea who I am, what I am really capable of. I am Princess Adina, last of the Avalonian's. Others know me as "The Key To Worlds". You have no idea what I have to carry around with me, the devastation that I can cause and have caused so don't tell me that you all have to go through it. The worst thing that has happened to you pales in comparison to what I have to deal with everyday Ianto Jones so keep your pity, I really don't want it," she tells him standing in the centre of the corridor, Phoenix surrounded by blinding bright white light, the corridor illuminated by her blazing light.
She continues to the main hub area and the team can see her coming before she arrives, the light around her illuminating the hub. The team watches as an almost ghostly Phoenix, shining as bright as the sun walks into the main hub area.
"What's happened?" Jack asks looking up from Toshiko's computer screen, having to squint but she doesn't reply.
"Adina. What has happened?" he asks Phoenix as he walks towards her.
"Don't call me Adina. Somehow I don't think that you want Adina here. Keep your boyfriend under control Jack when he has no idea of what his talking about. Like any of your losses could compare to mine, what a joke. I think you should tell them the truth about who they are dealing with Jack," Phoenix tells him as a Vortex appears without the help of the Vortex Manipulator, stepping through it, the vision of her and the light she was producing only disappearing once the Vortex closes, just as Ianto walked into the hub.
"Who the hell is Adina Jack?" Gwen looks at him very lost.