YOU NEED A

REAL MAN!

Chapter nine-

-You dance over me…

while I'm unaware, you sing all around,

but I still don't hear the sound-

I felt my heart immediately freeze when her name rolled off his tongue and spilled out into the wild of silent world before us. I didn't know why but my arm clung to his, as if I was afraid he'd immediate leave me. I could only stare at him with a worried expression, and steal he refused to look to me. I glanced over to that girl, that very girl who held his heart all those years ago.

"It's been along time baby"

Those words rolled around in my mind, as if they never wanted to flee, I was in my very own horror movie, and she was the murder who will kill me in the end. The air between them was so intense, and no matter how hard I will or could try, there's a space I could never enter.

"Aren't you field with a warm welcome Sasuke-kun?" Her voice was so soft, her eyes held an innocence, but I can tell behind those dark purple eyes of hers was a vile lie that's concealing. I held on to Sasuke tighter for I could feel that he was trying to so hard to restrain himself from doing something.

Don't…Don't say his name…

You lost that right years ago…

Don't…Don't ...Say… his… name.

"Sasuke…you know I" My instincts immediately kicked in, I didn't know what had come over me, but I had stepped foot in front him, holding my arms out. I glared at her, and she turn. I felt like I was in a battle, I battle that I should have never have started, but I will not let some other girl, hurt him.

"I don't know who you are, but I don't really care, when he is alone you can talk to him, but when I'm with him, you can't even get in eye rang of him do you understand?" I spoke in a clear authority like vice to this woman. I don't know how Sasuke looks right now, but I honestly don't want to know. I don't even want to see my own ugly face right now.

"Oh?" She said then smiled a wicked smile to me, her eyes went up to meet Sasuke's "Is She your girlfriend Sasuke?" She asked coldly and walked closer and closer to us. Sasuke's hands went up to my shoulders, gripping them tightly. My heart instantly froze, and with one skipped beat of my heart we both turned around to show our backs to that woman.

I thought he was going to say something to her, but he replied to her in only muted words, no words were exchanged as we both began to step away from her. Leaving her in the darkness of the night. "Sasuke…I'm sorry…I" I was hushed when Sasuke bought hand to my mouth covering it, making my words come out jumbled.

"That woman, was Kanami, the one I'm sure you know of by now. She left me years ago…so I wonder why she's back here?" His voice was so cold that if were words could freeze, I'd be in a ice block. He feels so distant from me today, I want him to smile.

"Hey Sasuke…come with me." Immediately I grabbed him by his hand and pulled him in to a running pace. I know exactly what to, to make him smile. I'll protect that rare smile, I will never allow someone to hurt him again.

-love is patient- love is kind- even with those that were left behind-

Sasuke sat there on top of a rock, and I smiled. I bought to that park I always go to and look at the lake. "What are we doing here Sakura?" He asked me in that cold voice again, I smiled and just began to sing.

You dance over me…While I'm unaware

You sing all around, but I still can not hear the sounds…

You look down, wondering why you have that frown?

You are amazing, the way you stare out to the clouds.

Still you sing but I still cannot here the sounds…

You smile every once in awhile

And I'd run a thousand miles just to see that smile

You laugh, but I still cannot hear the joy

You dance over me…while I'm unaware

I dreamt of you, even though its forbidden

I dreamt of you, when the time comes for you to return

Smile, won't you smile…just one more time…

You sing all around, but I can not hear any sounds…

Can I reach out to you now?

Will you let me in? Will cast me out? Will you give me anything to doubt?

Honey clover its not over

Honey can't you SEEE?I want you…To be with Me?

You dance over me, while I'm unaware…

You sing all around, but I can't hear the sound…

When I thought that song wouldn't make him smile. I thought he'd just get up and walk away so that was why I sang to him with my back turned to him. However what had caught me off guard was that he walked over to me, and wrapped his arms around me. One of his arms went around my shoulders, and another around my waste.

I felt my heart instantly stop beating for a moment, the arm that was around my shoulders when up to my face turning it to face his intense one. I gulped and before I had a chance to say what I wanted to say. Sasuke's lips met with mine. I was trapped in a sin, I know for sure I'm going to hell…I fell in love with another man, kissed another man, trapped in a warm human embrace by another man, when I still belong to someone else.

But if loving, truly loving a man means I'm going to hell, then I'll welcome it, I'll welcome it with open arms. Sadly I looked down at the pair of arms that held on to my body tightly, how I yearn so much for these arms to never leave me, but I know one day…I'll have to give them back to the girl this embrace rightfully belongs to. I closed my eyes and savored the moment, it was at that moment Sai's image appeared in my mind. Sasuke…we could never be together. Let me drown in sin for just one day.

Three days had passed, since a run with Kanami, I avoided Sasuke at all cost. I couldn't bare to see him today, or any other day. The shame was just to much, that day I'll never forget, but to relish the fact that I could never be with him, I placed the ring that held the symbol of me being claimed back on my index finger.

Slowly I walked out of the elevator and attempted to walk into the kitchen until some voices on the inside stopped me. "I came back to make amends Sasuke, the least you could do is make me feel welcome" It was that same voice that I heard before, that same soft voice.

It's been along time Sasuke-kun

Why is she here? I don't get it? What could she want from him now? I felt a sting in my chest area where my heart is suppose to be. I can 't be jealous can I? its impossible, why? This wrong, I'm in the wrong. I shouldn't keep him from her if he still loves her. After all they are in a world of their own, and I'm in my own with someone else. I didn't want to hear their conversation, it'd be wrong to listen into the words that should never pass through my hearing. So I did what I could do best, I walked away, muting myself from Sasuke.

And I have wonder, All that you DO? Can it be for her or only you?

(Sasuke P.O.V)

I was surprised when I saw Kanami sitting down at my kitchen table so early in the morning. I could only thank God that Sakura was still in bed. "What are you doing here Kanami? Who let you in?" I asked her in a demanding voice. She sat there just looking at me with that small smile of hers, she hasn't changed a bit since I last saw her.

"It's been a long time Sasuke, can't I make amends for the things that I've done in the past?" I gave her a hard stare, before taking a seat on the other side of my black dining room table. We sat in silence, she had a glass in her hands and her fingers would tap it as if she was waiting for the right time to say something.

"If you have something to say then say it." I hissed narrowing my eyes at her, why was I on guard so much with her? An image of Sakura's smile appeared in my mind, around her I can be my self some of the time like I used to with Kanami, but now I'm being rude to the girl I used to love.

"You don't have to be so cold. It's been years, but you never treated me so coldly for…" Her voice sounded disappointed, sounded hurt, Heh it's nothing compared to feeling she gave me when she left me. The memories were so fresh my head, I told myself over and over again that she was dead to me. And here we are having tea, talking, and me feeling like I'm going to go crazy once again.

"That was before you left me." I responded coldly, she looked up with wide eyes.

"I was so young back then Sasuke, I was unsure, I was stupid, I was naïve, I didn't know if you loved me, and I-" She rambled on and on, and I didn't want to hear her excuses, so I interrupted.

"Left me, so you left so you can better yourself, make yourself stronger, so that one day when I manage my father's business and become even wealthier, you can come back to me and start over. Well Kanami am I correct?" I spoke in a monotone type of voice. I must have right since her mouth stayed shut, and her eyes wide. I could tell her grip on her tea cup tightened, then her eyes had casted downward.

"That's unfair Sasuke. I want to start over, I want to be your wife. Like you promised all those years ago, I'll be waiting at Le Soju for you. If you come then, that means you accept me. " She spoke in a sad voice, got up from seat and began to walk out the way that she came in. I didn't spare her a second glance, she didn't deserve it, she never did. I wasn't going to lie to myself though, the feeling hurt, it resembled the one from the day she first walked on me. And the only one who got rid of it for me, was the girl residing in the room that used to be Kanami's. It was Sakura…I'm sure of it, I'm sure that even though I vowed to never fall again, I was falling for that pinked girl. However, there was one thing that I had to think a bout. Either go, or not go…what am I going to do?

I got up from my chair, and walked out of the kitchen just in time to see Sakura enter the elevator, her eyes were closed, and her mouth was in a frown. Fuck. She saw. Damn it all. Just what I need more drama. I waited a couple of minutes just watching as glow from each number symbolizing the floors she passed shinned, before taking the electronic stair case up to her floor.

Something bad, is going to happen. God damn it.

(Sakura P.O.V)

When I reached my room I ran toward the dressers, and just started to throw all my cloths out of the dark shelves. I officially want nothing to do with Sasuke Uchiha. I should have never allowed my self to be near him. He's just a man, just another one of those men out there, only he is housing and supporting me, until my fiancée returns. There is no chemistry between us. I can't…I just can't…I have to stop this now, before it gets out of hand.

So I packed my belongings, all of them. I don't know where I was going to go. My hands clenched the edge of the dresser, before calming myself down. "This is so stupid of me." I spoke out loud, and began to return all my cloths into the shelves. Its only for three months more months…only three, then I'll be able to walk out of here and let Sasuke do what he wants. I told myself.

I closed my eyes and pictured my grandmother holding me. Its times like these should embrace me in that hug of hers and tell me that everything was going to be ok. Suddenly my eyes snapped open when I realized that my grandmother was in the hospital. How…how could I? how could I have forgotten? UGH I'm so….I have to go see her.

I ran to the elevator door, and as soon as it opened, my heart sunk into the bottom pits of my stomach, I turned around and the first person I saw standing there. His hands in his pockets, a deep stare and a frown gracing his facial expression. "Where are you going?" He asked me in tone I could not read.

"I have to be with my grandmother, you do as you see fit Sasuke." I restored, I was about to enter the elevator, but a hand to my wrist prevented me from leaving. My heart was pounding, oh boy this isn't going to go well, I know it.

"I'll go with you." I wasn't expecting that reply, but I can't let him go any where near me or my grandmother, not until Sai comes back. Then I can smile again, I can smile when Sasuke isn't here…

"It's ok. I don't want you to be there." I didn't look at him, but I can feel his eyes were boring holes into the dept of my back, I thought he was going to snap at me, but instead, he let go slowly, and I walked away. Even when I entered the elevator I didn't turn around until the door automatically shut.

This is the way it has to be…Kanami's face appeared in my mind. My heart was aching, but this is way, I'm sorry Sasuke…You belong with your first love…and I belong with Sai…I'm sorry….I fell for you, but those words will never leave my lips. I'll seal them away, and they'll forgotten one day.

Slowly I made my way into the hospital walking down the many cold halls. Patients were in will chairs being pushed my nurses, there were those who just stood there in there hospital gowns staring with empty eyes and a faded glow of there lives. This was my home, I had almost forgotten that I lived here. I lived for the patients, I lived for making them better, how could I…in such a short time forget the oath that I stood by.

(14 year old Sakura)

"I am pleased to announce are youngest medical nurse, she has by far the only one who could meet the standards of the legendary medical doctor Tsunade. It is with great honor and a privilege to lay the lives of our patients in her hands. Now lets welcome our new head doctor Ms. Sakura Haruno."

The crowd cheered and applauded as a young pink haired girl with her hair tied back in a high pony tail, wearing a doctors uniform walked out on stage.

"I Haruno Sakura, will live for the people, I will lay my life on the line for the lives of others. I solemnly promise I will do all that is in my power to make the ill ones better. I promise to God and the people that nothing will get in my way of rescuing anyone that is ill or physically and mentally ill."

(present)

My hand wrapped around the silver knob turning it slightly, then pushed it open. I gulped before allowing myself to enter the room that held my grandmothers body. I never thought this day would come, when I'd see once again a family member one that I held close to me, in the hospital laying down….dying.

"Grandma" I spoke softly, my grandmother didn't move. "I'm sorry, I feel so useless" I added rubbing her wrinkled hand softly. Tears, salty, burning tears were trying to break free from me, but I tried my hardest to restrain them. I knew I wasn't going to go home tonight, and maybe just maybe grandma knew that as well.

(With Sasuke)

"Mother." I spoke out loud, knowing all to well that she was standing right behind me, with that sad full expression on her face. I know my mother all to well, probably even better than my own father.

"It seems I'm always placing a frown on your face mother." I added when she greeted me with the same silence as before when she said nothing when I called to her. I could feel her stare boring wholes into my back, but the burn was nothing compared to what I was feeling inside.

"Sasuke, as your mother I have to do my job and do what I can to keep you from making the wrong choice, but your all grown up now. However, your not that little boy anymore, you're a man, so all I can do is give you advice." Her voice was pained.

"I don't know what to do mother…" I looked to the side and saw my mother standing there with her long raven hair down passed her shoulders, her hands were holding on to each other in front of her, and her eyes were sadden.

"Sasuke, you have to choose…between the one that broke your heart, and the one that restored it. Remember Sasuke Kanami made you cold, but you loved her anyway, Sakura came out of nowhere and made you smile…you have this glow to you that Kanami could never give you. You already made your decision before you even knew yourself…so stop battling yourself. Go wherever your heart tells you to go. Who ever you choose, I'll support you on it. So what are you still doing here? Go."

My mother's voice changed to a serious tone, and all I could do was stare…I had already chosen, but I didn't know exactly who I chose…. "GO" I was taken back when my mother yelled, but at that exact moment I ran, I ran and I didn't know where I was going.

I ran my mind was blank, just fast images of Sakura were flashing through my mind, her smile, the day I first met her, the trip to pet land, the lake, our kiss…they were all just flooding. Sakura…but then images of Kanami also flashed through my mind…

When I reopened my eyes I found my self standing right in front of Le Soju, the place where Kanami said she'll wait for me at. I gulped, my heart was beating slowly, was Kanami the one I chose to be with? Was it her? I was taken out of my thoughts when cry of my name took me out of trance.

"SASUKE!!!!" My ears burned at the sound of my name, quickly I turned to left to see Kanami running to me. She was wearing a short blue jean skirt, with a white tank top, black high heelless boots with hair in curls. One word I could come up for her was. Slut.

"Kanami…what are…what are you wearing?" I asked disgustedly.

"Oh this is my uniform Sasuke" Uniform? It was then I knew what Le Soju really was, a fucking strip bar.

"You degraded yourself to being a stripper? Kanami that's disgusting." I hissed, Kanami just looked at me with innocent eyes, her grip on my shoulders tightened.

"I had to do what I had to do…with you being here it looks like you made your choice, it looks like you still love me baby, so we can be a family together." I was about to tell her no, but I was silenced when Kanami kissed me, she kissed me deeply, but I couldn't respond.

Now Sakura your not falling for me are you?" I teased, she blushed and splashed me with water. I splashed her back, and we both ended up laughing. Completely forgetting how we ended up in the water in the first place.

"Falling for you? As if who would fall for a jerk like you?"

It was then with Sakura in my mind that my heart began to race, how could I have been so stupid? It was her. It was Sakura. I don't know when it happened, but Sakura was the one…she was the one I was in love with. Roughly I pushed Kanami off of me, her eyes were wide, and her mouth was a in a frown.

"I apologize Kanami, but I have someone already." I plane out said it, Kanami's eyes glared, but I was unphased. I didn't wait for her to respond, so I ran again, as fast as I could to the hospital. Why did I not bring my car? Was unanswered, but I'd run a thousand miles for her. For Sakura.

(With Sakura)

-Ring…Ring---

"Hello?" I answered cheerfully, not knowing who was on the other line, the person on the other end didn't respond.

"Hello Sakura Haruno speaking?"

(Hey Sakura…)

My heart instantly dropped when I heard the voice on the other end. Right when I was about to respond, the opening of the door behind me caught my attention. Quickly I hung up my phone and placed it in my purse. Oh God not now…please not now.

"Sakura…" Why does he have to be here…I told him not to come damn it.

"I told you, you don't need to come Sasuke" I hissed standing up, showing him my back, but a rough grasp to my shoulders, forced me to look at him.

"Why are you avoiding me? You won't even look at me anymore." He was angry, but I had to keep this way…oh god.

"Is it about Kanami? Because I decided to not see her anymore Sakura. Does that make you happy? I'm not going to see her" My heart stopped when I heard Sasuke say that. No. He has to. He has to be with her, because if he doesn't, then my whole plan will be ruined.

"You have to be with her Sasuke." I could tell that Sasuke was pissed now, he was glaring. And I shut my eyes. I couldn't look at him, my heart would break, and I can't handle another one of these. God I love him, but his heart is not with me.

"What about us?"

"Us? THERE IS NO US SASUKE" I yelled, and he took a step back

"YOU can go back with her, I don't love you! In case you have forgotten I am ENGAGED" and I showed him the hand that held my engagement ring, he said nothing, but walked away. As soon as the door shut closed, I broke down and cried.

For give me…Sasuke…this is the only way…I can't give you what you want.

-Ring Ring-

It's too late…if only you had

Ring- ring

Come first.

"Hello Sakura Haruno Speaking"

"Sakura…I'm coming back next week"

My life with Sasuke…is now over.

I have to say good bye. Tears fell from my eyes and I cried the rest of the night right by my grandmother.

NEXT TIME ON YOU NEED A REAL MAN

OH BOY OH BOY

WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN SAKURA COMFRONTS SASUKE.

"Just…lets go out Sasuke, no arguments, just lets go out and have fun."

What happens when Sasuke gets a note from Sakura

"It seems that Sai had come back already…."

Will Sasuke let some one else be with the girl he loves?

"She was already engaged."

Next time on YOU need a REAL man

Chapter 10

Sai