Come dawn the next morning I had packed all my belongings in big suitcases and hid them away underneath massive bed that Sasuke had bought for me. Had I known it would be this hard for me to leave I would have told my grandmother I was leaving some where else. That could probably live with a friend, but I chose to live with Sasuke thinking that I would never ever fall in love with him. I had fallen into a world that I thought could never exist. I had fallen into a world where it was only him and I together acting and living like real people and faking our personalities. We fight, we laugh, and maybe even fallen in love. I was a foolish girl for dreaming that I could spend my life with Sasuke. I was a fool for believing that I could have a family with him, grow old with him, and die next to him as my life long partner. However, as I placed my hands on top of the black thick suitcase, I buried my head in between my arms, my head resting on the suitcases. I cried silently. I had come to the realization that I had to wake up, I had to force my self to wake up and leave that fairy tale world that I had come to love so much in so little time. I had to force myself to leave the man my heart had grown so fond of. Its shame at how fast time seemed to pass by. Because it seemed like just yesterday I had just met him. I had just met Sasuke.

"Damn it's packed today."

Sasuke…..I walked over to the window on the far end of the room, my left palm rested upon the cold class of the window. Sasuke was outside talking with his mother. The gentle breeze passed through his hair, and his eyes seemed so much gentler then what they were before. My gaze soften, and frown was placed on my face as more of the memories of our first meeting came back, as if it had just happened yesterday. I could still remember it so clearly, so clearly in that shop, in that small little coffee shop where Sasuke's and My own fate was sealed.

"Excuse me?" "It's packed today."

"Oh ha-ha this place is always packed on Thursdays, Which is why sometimes I go to R.T.G.C place on Thursdays."

"That's why I hate Thursdays, what is R.T. something"

"R.T.G.C stands for "ready to go coffee' ha-ha there coffee is just like this place but a little better and quieter I suppose. And why do you hate Thursdays? There's absolutely nothing to hate about it. A day is just a day, just with a different title on it, but it doesn't change the fact that's it a day…just a new one. So don't hate it because it's a 'Thursday" love it because your living. Love it because you get the honor of seeing a new day where as someone that doesn't."

"Vanilla Latte Tall" "This is fantastic, gets better each day thank you…" "It was nice talking to you, see you later.

If I had known, if only I had known that Sasuke was going to be there I wouldn't have gone it. I would never spoken to him, so that I would never have had the opportunity of falling with him. Sai is a wonderful, sometimes a little full of himself, and sometimes he can be a little cruel to me. However, because I was so nice, I gave myself to him because of his illness. I never loved Sai, I loved him as friend, but I could never give him the love I had shown for Sasuke, the love I will now have to burry deep inside my heart, and carry it secretly for years that I would have to spend along side Sai. My love for Sasuke will be my only press to survive, my only reason for continuing on. What shame, for when I leave this house and go to Sai, I will never be able to argue with Sasuke again. I will never be able to touch his face, kiss those lips, and hug that body that gave me security again.

My heart nearly stopped beating when Sasuke turned his body around and faced the window that I was by. His dark eyes locked with mine, and he showed me that smirk, as if telling me "Do you like what you see?" I laughed inwardly and pushed myself away from window while shaking my head. If only, If only I had met Sasuke before I met Sai all those years ago. I looked my suitcases that were on my bed, walked over to them, my hands grabbing at the sides and pushing them to floor underneath my bed. Tonight when everyone is asleep I will take my leave, and leave everyone behind.

YOU need a real MAN

CHAPTER 10

Good bye Sasuke…

If you knew what it was like…

You'd feel it inside…

I stood waiting patiently for the elevator door to open, and once it did I was met with the maid Abby. Her blond hair was pulled back into a ballerina bun, and her blue and white collared maid outfit was cleaner than the others. "Abby you scared me." I laughed out, Abby smiled at me.

"Lady Sakura I was just on my way to go get you. Master Sasuke wishes to dine with you for breakfast, along side with the Lady of the house." Abby replied in a gentle voice, she moved to the side to let me pass and led me to where Sasuke was.

"This is strange." I spoke out loud, the hallways to the dinning areas in Sasuke house was really long, and it took awhile to get to the dinning area, due to all the room he had put in. Though Sasuke is not prince or King, living in his house I felt like I was princess.

"What is strange Lady Sakura?" All the maids in the house got use to calling me Lady Sakura even though I had told them over and over again to just call me by Sakura. They would never listen for they believed, they let themselves believe that I was going to be married to Sasuke, the Master of this house. I glanced over to Abby who on my right side.

"A maid coming for me, for the whole time that I was here, he never sent a maid to come get me." I replied softly, Abby looked up at me and smiled. Abby was one of the few maids that was kind to me, the others would always avoid or ignore me. It didn't matter to me, they were jealous because I was friends with Sasuke.

"Lady Sakura, do you love Master Sasuke?" She asked me, she asked me such a private important question. I knew the answer, the answer was yes. Yes I loved him. I loved his good side, his bad side, I loved everything about him, but the me that loved him resided only in a fairy tale. If I remembered correctly I was taking myself out of the fairy tale and going back into reality.

"Abby. I don't think you and the other maids understand the situation that I currently in. I don't love Sasuke, I'm engaged to be married really soon. My fiancée is coming back, and I will leave." Abby must have seen through my lie, because all she did was grab onto my elbow, and give me one of those looks. The look that tells a person "Quit your shit and tell me the truth" type of stare.

"Sakura, I'm thirty years old. I'm a mother, I'm an Aunt, and I'm a wife. You can't fool me dear. I seen the way you look at Sasuke. I see the way you would stare at him through window when he's outside, and you think no one is watching you look at him. I see the way you argue with him, and your eyes no matter how hard you make them, there's still that little glitter of love in them. I see the way you tease him, talk to him. And when he's around other girls, I see the look face and how its turns into sadness. You may be engaged to be married to another man my dear, but your heart does lay in that man's hands. I don't think you realize that you use your fiancée to get you out of trouble. You disguise yourself no one will know that your heart really belongs to Sasuke. It may not be my place to tell you this, but from a wife, mother, and fellow female. I could tell you right now you'll be making a huge mistake in marrying the man your engaged to. Why? Because once your married there's no going back. It's a job my dear, you can't just quit. Once that ring is on your finger your in it, and you will never be able to see Sasuke again. Being married is a job, the ring is a symbol of a contract, a life commitment to one man, and one man only. Be it love, or be it hate, once your married that's it."

"There's always a divorce." I whispered out.

"Divorce is only an excuse, no man is going to want sloppy seconds from a girl that had already been used. Go on now Sasuke is waiting for you behind those doors." I looked at Abby for a few seconds before continuing walking on. The few steps I took toward those huge dark wooden doors awaiting me to push open felt like they were moving further and further away from me. My heart was pounding with every step I took because I knew that the one person awaiting me on the other end, will be the only person I will never be able to see after today.

My hand shot forward wrapping around the gold doorknob, I closed my eyes to savor the moment, gathering courage I twisted the small doorknob and pushed the door open. Just like I predicted there sitting down at the head of the large dark glass table, with twenty-five chairs on each side, and one large black cushioned chair at each head sat Sasuke. He sat there with one of his arms resting on the table, and his left hand carrying a small wine glass half way filled with red wine. On his right side sat his mother, dressed in a small white summer dress, with white three inch heals, and sparkling diamond bracelets. Sasuke's eyes met mine, he didn't smirk, nor smile, just looked me as if I wasn't really there.

He's a figment of my imagination.

"Sasuke you really surprised me. I didn't really think you would send someone to come get me in order to request I have breakfast with you." I spoke in a teasing voice. I wanted the last few hours I have with him to be something I would never forget. I want our last moments to be a moment that I could take with me to live on when I leave this place behind. Just for today, let me a savor Sasuke even for a just a few hours.

"I surprise many people Sakura you know that. I had Abby call for you, so that I knew you were still here." Sasuke's cold voice echoed through my ears. Nothing could ever get passed Sasuke, he's to smart to be fooled, screwed over, tricked, or manipulated. But I wasn't doing any of them. I wasn't trying to fool him, screw him over, trick him, or manipulate him. I just want him to know that he's cared for, even if its just for a short time.

"Did you think I was going somewhere?" I asked walking over to him taking my seat on the left side. Our eyes met, and I felt like I was falling more and more in love with him. It needed to stop, I had to ended it now, cause I know that if I don't end it now, I will never be able to.

"Without me? Yes I believe you will take off and not take me with you." Sasuke looked at me in a way I thought was never possible. His eyes, they held an emotion that scared me.

"How about we go somewhere?" I asked, Sasuke just blinked a few times before narrowing those eyes of his. Narrowing them hard as if he was trying to figure out what it was that I was planning. I looked at him and smiled. I didn't know what I was doing until my left hand went up to right cheek, and touched it softly. I had to restrain myself from wanting to break down crying. I nearly had forgotten that his mother was there watching the whole scene.

"Just…lets go out Sasuke, no arguments. Just for today lets go out and have fun? Huh doesn't that sound good? We can go to the amusement park? Go fishing? Bowling? The park and have a picnic? Um movies? Dinner? Come on what do you say?" I was nearly begging. No. I was begging. I was begging to have one last date with Sasuke before the sun sets and my Cinderella dreams come to an end.

"Not today I have to work." That one sentence nearly broke me apart. There will be no tomorrow. There's only today, and he couldn't even give me one day. One last day to spend with him because he'll be at work. I removed my hand from his face, and I think he knew that I was disappointed, because he grabbed my hand and intertwined it with his. I looked up at him and he smirked at me. He held my hand in a way that only people in a relationship hold hands.

"How about tomorrow? I'll take you out for a night you will never forget hmm?" Sasuke tried to sound a little humane, but his voice still sounded with a hint of cold. Even though there was no tomorrow I gave him the little satisfaction he wanted. Because he sounded a little bit happy about going out tomorrow, I did the only thing I could possibly do.

"You better make it a night I'll never forget Uchiha or I'll kill you." I managed to speak out. I was disappointed, I was hurt, but I'll dwell on the memories. And I'll dream of what tomorrow will be even though they will only be a figment, I can at least pretend like tomorrow's date actually happened. I was officially a sinner. I was in love with a man who could never be my husband. In love with a man who only exist in a dream world. When I wake up the next morning Sasuke will not be there.

We ate in silence. His mother asked me questions, and Sasuke would just glance here and there at me. "So tell me Sasuke what time will you be coming back tonight?" His mother asked Sasuke, my heart pounded as I waited for the incoming answer.

"Probably around ten or eleven. Sakura will you still be up at that time?" He asked me directly.

"Yeah I'll be up why?" I asked taking a spoonful of grits and putting it in my mouth. The taste of grits burned my mouth from heat, but the taste was wonderful.

"I'm just wondering is all. And mother what about you?" Sasuke wasn't eating breakfast, his ideal breakfast is either reading the newspaper with a cup of coffee in his hands or having a glass of wine. I been telling him that it wasn't really healthy for him to start the morning off that way, but he would always blow it off and tell me that I don't know anything.

"I'm to old son. I'll be going to bed around seven. Did I forget to mention that your father will be coming home in few days?" My eyes widen, and Sasuke immediately clenched the wine glass to hard that cracks were beginning to form on the outer edge of the small glass.

"Why is that man coming here?" Sasuke hissed slamming his glass on the table. The sudden bang caused me to jump a bit, and wine spots were immediately seen throughout the glass table. I gulped, I never really liked Sasuke angry side.

"OH calm down, your brother is coming as well." Yeah at this moment I thought that Sasuke's mother really wanted to die. All she was doing was making Sasuke even more angrier than he already was. I could just imagine how Sasuke will look when he finds out that I'm leaving tonight.

"What the Fuck!?!? You know fuck it. I'm out. Sakura I'll see you tonight." He didn't even give me a chance to reply. He just got up and took off just like that. I sighed, I suddenly had just lost my appetite.

"AYE that boy." I looked over to see Sasuke's mom shaking her head with a small smile on her face. She placed a hand underneath her chin, looked over at me and smiled.

"If your planning on leaving my dear, I suggest you do it before Sasuke comes back home tonight." I blinked. How? What? Wait huh? I didn't really understand what Sasuke's mom had just told me. How could she have known? How I don't get it? I was sure that no one would know that I was planning on leaving tonight when everyone was sleeping?

"Are you surprised? Sakura you can't fool and Uchiha. I knew since yesterday that you were planning on leaving. You're a girl whose engaged to be married, and in love with a man that your not engaged to."

"OH I'm not in love with your son…"

Sasuke's mom laughed, and I sat there stupidly wondering how I was going to get out of this mess.

"You showed all the signs of leaving my dear. You arrived this morning wearing your engagement ring. You begged Sasuke for a date, and you looked disappointed when he told you he had to work. You can't fool me dear, your in love with my son. And I know my son is love with you too, so why don't you two start growing up, and realize it. You youngsters today are acting carelessly every day. I don't know this Sai person that your married too, but resources tell me that you don't and never had loved him. So why marry a man whom you do not love?"

And before I could reply, Sasuke's mom got up, and walked right out of the door behind her. She had full intentions of leaving me by myself to think about what I was getting into. I knew what I was getting myself into, I knew it all to well. I knew I was making the mistake of marry a man whom I did not love, I knew that it was a long time commitment, I knew that once its done I could never return to this place. I could never return to Sasuke. And once the sun sets, I could never touch him again. He'll be a chapter to a story that I wish I could read over and over again, but not all fairy tales have its happy endings. I'll treat what the little time I had with Sasuke as a little crush and that is it. It'll be done, I'll leave it all behind. Because there's no way love so strong can be built with a few months.

Sasuke….Goodbye…

I thought I'd never see it clear

Go a head && hide it somewhere Dark & private..

You're woven into me…

[Sasuke's p. o. v]

Night came fast, it was already ten thirty. Coming home always used to be a drag, but ever since Sakura been living at my house coming home had never been more welcoming. Even with those two weeks where she used to work with me and come home with me, those were the best times. I felt a little bad about how our morning went, but I'm sure I can make it up with a midnight dinner, probably a stroll around the garden. Sakura always loved to stroll around the gardens at night.

I walked through the doors, and the first thing I was met with was pure silence. There was not one maid in sight, my mother was probably in bed, and Sakura was probably reading in her room like usual. However, for some strange reason the house felt different. Though it was full of stuff, it felt like it was empty, and I didn't know why. I cast away all of my thoughts and went to the elevator by the stair way and pressed the floor that Sakura was residing in, one of the maids just so happened to pass by. Her eyes widen, and immediately she took off in the direction she came from once she spotted me.

What in the world?

The door closed, and slowly it moved up, my hands were in my pockets, and once the doors opened I stepped to be met with pure darkness.

"Sakura are you up?" I received no response. The room felt cold as if no one had been in this room in years. It felt empty, flipping on the switch by the wall the bright light instantly lit up the room. No one was there. Sakura wasn't there. Her bed had been untouched. Nothing. I gulped and ran to her closet to see that all the cloths that I had bought her were still there, but the cloths that she had bought her were gone. The expensive shoes where still there but the worn out ones were gone.

I was in panic mode, I didn't know what came over me, but I began to trash her room.

"WHY?!!!!" I yelled out. Throwing the laps across the room smashing them in to pieces. "WHAT THE HELL? WHY DID YOU FUCKING LEAVE WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE YOU DAMN BITCH!" I felt betrayed, I went out to the balcony and screamed out more.

"SAKURA!" I screamed, I screamed out loud. Just for her, I was screaming out her name, because I wanted her to come back. I wanted her to return to me. I want her back. So screamed, I screamed out to the town, I screamed out so late in the night. I screamed out Sakura's name.

"She won't be coming back son." My mothers voice was heard from behind me. She was dressed in her white silk gown, and her silver white silky robe draped around her body. Her make up was still in touch, and her hair was stringy. She stood there in front of me with her hands crossed under her breast area, looking at me in such a pity way.

"Why didn't she tell me she was leaving?" I hissed, my mother stayed silent.

"I don't know son, maybe she thought it was easier for you both. Maybe she didn't want to see your expression when she leaves. My son…she left this for you." My mother handed me a piece of paper, it was folded in half and held my name in cursive writing. I took it aggressively out of my mothers hands, sat down on the bed where Sakura used to sleep and began to read what she left me.

6:30pm that night. Four hours earlier.

[Sakura's p. o. v]

I sat on the balcony outside my bedroom, the outside breeze taking my hair. I sat on one of the cushioned chairs writing a letter to Sasuke on how I felt. This is the little I can do for him, the most I can do for him is tell him good bye in a little way possible. So he knows that I do actually care for him. I know when he walks in to find me gone he'll be angry, he'll be angry on so many levels, because I didn't say good bye to him in person.

Dear Sasuke,

By the time you get this…

[Sasuke's p. o. v]

….I'll be gone. Apparently your mother knew I was leaving. Sasuke Sai had returned home and wished that come and meet him. He'll be back late tomorrow, I left early because I thought it'd be easier. I don't know where my heart lies, but I can tell you that my heart doesn't lay in Sai's hands. The last few months I spent at your house was the best time I had ever had. I wish I could have stayed longer, but I was living In a fairytale and its time this Cinderella wakes up from her dreams. The only regret I'll ever have on leaving is that I could never ever be able to touch your face again. We live in different worlds, and its impossible for love to bloom so strongly in such little time. I'll think of it as a small crush and leave it at that…in this world to see what there is to be seen is so hard to do. So far everything that I been through with you has been worth it. But this is what you need Sasuke…

She meant she wasn't what I needed…that's what she meant that I didn't need her? Is that what she thought? I inwardly growled but continued to read on what she had written to me.

…I hope you find what ever it is that your looking for Sasuke…really I hope you find what your looking for. And once you find it hold on to it. Hold on to it so that no one can take it away from you. I'll always cherish the memories…Sasuke…Good bye…

6:45 p.m that night four hours earlier.

Sakura stood up on the balcony the wind blowing her hair, her green eyes scanning the area. A big bright smile shown on her face as she yelled. "SASUKE! I LOVE YOU" before turning around. In a sharp freezing position she turned around sharply, the winding taking her hair before she grabbed her suitcases and walked to the elevator.

"It's the only place here that meets my standards."

"I didn't know coffee had standards"

"My name is Sasuke, Uchiha Sasuke, and yours?"

"Sa…Sakura Ha…Haruno"

"I'm not a dog you know."

6:55p.m

Freezing moment, all the maids halting what they were doing watching Sakura walk down the halls with her suitcases, a big brown summer hat on top of her head, hiding her facial expression as she looks down. A sharp turn to out of the door. And she was gone, she was gone out of there house, and all the maids new at that moment that she would never return to the house.

'Walk off your desires? Is that why you're walking now? To walk off your desires?"

"This isn't a house, it a palace OMG Sasuke how could you afford this?"

"Sounds fun, and I suppose it wouldn't hurt to try something different. What would I be doing for two weeks?"

"Does it look ok? I didn't know how to dress since-"

"You clean up well, come."

"HA-HA oh my goodness Sasuke you scared me half to death."

"Now Sakura your not falling for me are you?"

"Falling for you? As if who would fall for a jerk like you?"

It was no mistake, I should apologize to you. I must be a vile person, kissing another person while engaged to another…I should be sorry Sasuke not you. Its not your fault…its"

[Sasuke's P. O. V]

"SAKURAAAA!!!! PLEASE" I yelled out through my hands. I tossed the letter to the ground. That's why she wanted to go out today. That's why she begged and I couldn't even give her what she wanted. I couldn't take one day, one day off to spend with her. If only I knew…If I had just known she was going to take off like that I would have, I would have spent it with her. I would have, damn you Sakura Damn you!

All that she left behind…was what she didn't take.

"It seems that Sai had come back already son." My mother spoke up, she was sitting on a chair on the far end of where I was sitting.

"He came back early." I replied coldly though my hands, I knew she was going to leave. She was already engaged so why would she pick me? Damn why was I so fucking stupid. I was fucking stupid for allowing my self to fall for girl who was already claimed by another man. What the fuck was I thinking.

"You can go get her you know?" My mother answered, she stood up and began walking towards the elevator to leave the room.

"She already engaged to begin with." I hissed glaring at my mother from where she was at.

"Yeah, but what's the point of loving a girl your not willing to fight for?" And with that my mother left the room.

Damn you Sakura….Damn you….because you let me fall in love with you.

You're the perfect Example

of The reasonswhy I don't expose myself

Next time...

"Sakura this is the place where you told me you'll always be with me remember?" -Sai

"Why is it so hard for me to let him go?" - Sakura

"IF this is what she wants I can't stop her!" -Sasuke

"Your a man aren't you? I think its time you start acting like one" -Itachi