"You better make it a night I'll never forget Uchiha or I'll kill you."
"You better make it a night I'll never forget Uchiha or I'll kill you."
You better make it…
Make it….
A night I'll never forget….
never forget….
Her words repeated over and over in head. It was like a video that kept pausing and playing in slow motion because of the scratches on the disc. I didn't leave the room Sakura staying in since the moment I walked by in to this house. It was the first time in my life since the day Kanami first left me that I truly felt alone. Not needed. This feeling I was feeling inside, was foreign to me. I couldn't tell if it was hurting or not? I couldn't deviser what I was feeling. I felt cold, abandoned and for the first time ever in life I felt devastated. The letter in my hand was crumbled, the words that were written by her hand was smudged. If I had known, if I had just paid a little more attention to her actions, maybe I could have prevented her from leaving. I could have locked her up like a dog and keep her away from anyone who dared to take her away. Those eyes that I had wanted to look only at me since the first time I laid eyes on her in that coffee shop, those lips that I only wanted to touch mine and no one else's, those hands I wanted to intertwine with mine, and mine alone, I wanted to be the one to protect her. I wanted to be the one to shower her with anything her heart desired as long as she stayed beside me.
I'll never…..
I could have had any girl I wanted with in the snap of my finger, but I had chosen to be with her. A girl who wants the world to believe that she is a strong woman, when in reality she has all the flaws of a normal girl. She's a girl who pretended to be in love with the man of her choosing when in reality she committed a sin, and broke all the rules in her book. I was certain t hat she would never leave my side, I was certain that she was going to stay here argue with me, laugh with me, and just be next to me. However, I overestimated my self. She left me, she abandoned me, she dug my grave and buried me in. No girl has ever made that much of an impact on my life like she had.
Forget….
To think that yesterday morning was the last time I was going to be able to see her face; those emerald green jaded eyes, her smooth skin, her rosy glossy lips. To think that I would never be able to see her face any longer, I could never hold her again, talk with her about anything and everything. To look at her and feel a peace in side my body that I could never feel again runs me empty. She was sent here to destroy me, that was it. I know it, she was sent her to torment me because of all the wrongs that I have done to many people. That was my punishment, bringing me a girl, making me feel at peace, making me feel like I was loved, the stripping everything away.
I always learn from my mistakes, so Sakura taught me a life long lesson. I'm an Uchiha, and if its one thing about an Uchiha is that they never let anyone get the best of them. Not matter who it is. Sakura made her choice in leaving me, so I'll make the choice and honor her decision by closing up this room, and erasing every little detail about Sakura. I'll turn this room into a storage, get new furniture, and get a new elevator. Everything, every little thing that Sakura touched I'll erase it all.
I'll erase her presence from this house, my mind, and my life just like she had erased me from hers. I got up from the bed that she laid in, walked over to the window. My hand clutched onto the fabric that hung down hard. My mother was down there in the garden with some of the maids, giving them directions or something. The image of yesterday where I had met eyes with Sakura and smirked at her popped into my mind. So this is probably what she saw yesterday when I was down there with my mother yesterday.
"Sasuke, you know…its okay to smile once in awhile it can do wonders."
It was all a lie. She tricked me, she was a snake nothing like a snake, she was just like all the other woman out there. She was a and is a liar beyond all the liars. She can live life, she can go back to the life she always wanted now, I wont stop her, I don't want to be with her any longer. I rather be alone that feel burdened to take care of someone.
YOU need a real MAN
CHAPTER
Eleven
There's a perfectly good explanation
As to why I'm hiding behind this smile
I didn't know how much time had passed by since I last saw Sakura. Time seemed freeze, and the world that I had known all to well had just for a fraction of a second halted and turned black on me. I could and didn't want to image myself coming back home from work and be met without a warm welcoming greeting from Sakura. Getting a greeting from my mother was different from the greetings I'd get when Sakura was here. There were days where I remember it was full of sarcasm, but then as time went on it changed to warm welcoming greeting. She would even greet even when we both would enter the house at the same time. No matter how many time I thought it over I couldn't understand it, I couldn't wrap my mind around it, as to why she left.
She was engaged to be married I know that. What I don't know is that if she doesn't even love the guy why? Why did she leave me to go back to him? Why couldn't she just disappear from that guys life and just remain here with me? I don't understand her. I don't know what she's thinking, I can't read her like the other girls, why is she so damn difficult. I was taken out of my thoughts when a knock to my bedroom door was heard from the other side. I sat up straight and placing on a stoic facial expression. I would not look weak, I'm not weak, I wont allow my self to be beaten by a girl. I moved my eyes to the right side where my thick black doors slowly started to open.
"Who is it?" I hissed emotionally, icily, demonically. I wanted to be left alone. When my doors are closed and I am inside no one is to disturb me. All the maids in this household know this for a fact. My bedroom lights were off so I didn't see who had foolishly just opened my doors with out addressing me from behind first. Who ever had the guts to commit such an act and disobey my orders will be fired. When I got no answer from my question I narrowed my eyes to the side of the blended in figure.
"You are to answer my question when I demand an answer. You have a huge amount of courage to enter with out addressing yourself from outside, and state why you are here." I stood up at this point, and walked over to the wall near by. At fast speed I flicked the light on, only to be met with the last person I thought would ever be in my room.
There leaning against the wall beside my door, with a sinister smirk on his face, a dark eye piercing glare. Wearing dark black pants, a black long sleeved business shirt, and a dark navy blue tie around his neck, was no one other than my older brother.
"Itachi" I spatted out.
[With Sakura]
I was already back home with my grandmother, told her everything. Just like grandma to keep telling me over and over again that I'm making a huge mistake. I know I am, but this is the way things are. Sasuke belongs to another world, I belong in this one. I can't break Sai's heart with everything that man has gone through how can I even dare think about leaving him in such a state. Through my grandmother is disappointed in me, I have to go through with it.
"Grandma I'm back." Sakura spoke up with as much happiness as she could. She walked through the halls and into the kitchen, smiling when she saw her grandmother sitting at that handmade kitchen table.
"My, My Sakura dear, I didn't expect you to come back my dear. Did you and Sasuke have a fight?" Her grandmother replied placing her cup of tea on the table. She turned to look at her granddaughter smiling at her in such a loving way.
"No grandma, Sai is back." And she could have sworn she heard her grandmothers heart stop for a just a brief moment. A second later her grandmothers favorite tea cup fell to the ground shatter on the tiled floor.
"Oh, I'm getting to old for this child. Please tell me your not planning to go back with that monstrosity are you?" Her grandmother asked tiredly, but all Sakura could do was stand there with a small smile, telling her grandmother that she wasn't going to leave her fiancée.
"Sakura dear, your making a huge mistake, Sai isn't the one for you. You'll be miserable, there's no sense in marrying someone whom you do not love. A person needs love to grow my dear, not pity. If you do not love Sai, then he'll never grow to be the man you hope he'll become. Sai doesn't love you dear, and you do not love him. I may be old, but I know what it is like to be with someone whom you do not love. Don't fall in my path my dear, because all you'll get is misery."
"Grandma…" Sakura whispered. "Sai loves me."
"But your heart doesn't want Sai…I just want your happiness Sakura that is all."
My grandmother has always been a wise woman. She was like my mother in place of my actual mother. She gave me motherly advice, and fatherly advice. She was not only like my mother, but she was also like my father. She gave the wisdom that a woman would give their daughter, and the strength that a father would give there child. I know that I should take my grandmothers advice, I know it all to well. I just can't I'm not strong enough.
It was night time, Sai should be here already. He wanted me to go meet with him, so regrettably I did. I got on Sai's favorite outfit that he loved me wearing all the time. It was red tank top that revealed my belly button, with loose light blue skirt that went up to my knees with lace on the ends. My shoes were brown sandals that tied up to up along my legs. My hair was done in curls just the way he liked it. He said this outfit makes every man jealous, but its such a simple outfit. Honestly I don't think anyone would get jealous over a girl wearing a simple outfit.
"Sakura." A voice called from behind me startling me, I took a quick breath and turned around knowing all to well at whose voice that belonged to. I smiled inwardly giving me some relief, giving me some sort of calmness. I turned around and greeted the person behind me with a warm welcome.
"Hey there stranger." I called out in a warm cheery voice.
[with Sasuke]
"What are you doing here?" I spatted at my brother glaring at him intensely. I kept my eyes on him as he smirked at me like usual. Typical of Itachi living his life without fearing anything, so of course he wouldn't care at how I looked at him. He walked around my room, looking at it as if he hadn't seen what my bedroom looked like.
"My, its just like you little brother. So simple. Tell me Sasuke if you don't like a lot of space, why have such a big house?" My brother questioned, still walking around my room. His hands moving over picture frames, shelves, books, any little object that he could get his greedy little paws on. My anger was boiling in side, just the sight of my brother was enough to make me want to burn down and destroy an entire nation.
"Quit fucking around. Tell me what you want. I got better things to do than waste my time on a traitor." It was then in a split second. I didn't even have time to blink, not even have a chance to mutter another word before I found my self pinned hard against the wall behind me. My back ached and burned at the rough compact that me and the wall had. Wearily I opened my eyes to meet deadly, sadistic, insane glare.
"I did what I had to do for the family Sasuke. I'm no traitor." My brother hissed squeezing his palm tight around my neck. I choked a few time, it felt as if he was digging into my neck to rip out my throat with his bare hands. I gulped but I showed my brother no fear.
"Y…y…ou….k…ki…lled…father" I muttered out in slow words. Itachi had loosened up his grip a bit, but he stared at me with those same deadly, killing, murdering eyes of his.
"Mother remarried didn't she. She's happier with him now after all he was her true love. I did mother and the family a favor by getting rid of him. Do you know what that bastard was going to do to you Sasuke?" Itachi hissed out, I paid no attention.
"I don't care what your reason is. He was still my father. You had no right! Damnit Itachi he was your father, you had his blood! You had his gene and yet you still killed him. And you had to kill him on my fucking birthday."
[With Sakura]
"Why are you out so late at night Sakura? Your grandmother must be worried sick about you." Pearl cloudy eyes looked straight at me. His hands dug into his pockets, and his once long chocolate colored hair was now short up to his ears. I gave out a small chuckle, making him raise an eye brow as a response.
"I'm sorry Neji, forgive me for laughing. I haven't seen you in so long and to see you with short hair is kind of shocking. I mean I never would have thought that you would cut your hair. I mean don't get me wrong it looks good. It looks really good I can actually take you serious now." I laughed once again, and Neji smirked.
"You haven't changed Sakura. I had no choice but to cut it, if I'm going to be working at a law enforcement one of the requirements is to have my hair short. Plus Ten-Ten nearly had a heart attack when she saw me walk in with short hair, she thought that it wasn't me and attacked. Could you believe that?" Neji replied sighing.
"Aw Neji, well besides the whole short hair thing, and being attacked by your wife how have you been?" I asked curiously. We were standing in front of an old looking building, it was night and I knew I had to wrap things up with Neji pretty fast. God only knows that Sai hates when I'm late, more importantly he hates when I talk to any of my guy friends. Well guys in general, but that was something he had to get used to seeing how I am a medical doctor. Dealing with men were just another part of the job.
"Things are going well, she doesn't want to start a family anytime soon though. That's something we want to wait for. Children are expensive now a days. You doctors are bleeding us dry." Neji laughed, and I had to admit I laughed as well. It had been forever since I had talked with Neji, I just wished it could have lasted a little bit longer.
"Well I have to get going Neji, my um…." I trailed off when I forgot how much Neji despised Sai, oh boy.
"Sakura…your not still with Sai are you?" Neji asked with narrowed eyes, I gave a nervous laugh. Took a few steps back with my hands in front of my face. This was not going to end well, I could literally feel Neji fuming.
"Well yeah I am….were getting married in two weeks I believe." I gulped, Jesus holy Snapple's I swear Neji can really be creepy when he's angry. If there is one thing Neji hated the most besides his family, it was Sai….only because of that one day…
[Freshman year]
"FUCK YOU SAI!" Neji screamed slamming Sai against the green colored lockers. Everyone stopped and stared. Girls mumbled to one each other saying stuff like "Oh how could the gentle Neji be so cruel." However, Neji paid no attention. His eyes glared full of hatred at the pale blacked eyed man that was pinned.
"It has nothing to do with you Neji, why get yourself involved in something that doesn't even concern you." Sai retaliated, his eyes bore no emotion. Not an ounce of fear, he just stood there allowing himself to be pinned, his hands were at his sides and his feet planted on the ground.
"If it involves Sakura it fucking does involve me. You don't deserve a girl like her, who bleeds her self dry for you. You worthless piece of shit." Neji hissed, pulling Sai by the collar of his shirt that slamming him back against the locker hard. Again Sai showed no emotion of pain.
"Are you upset? It was one hit, it was nothing big." Sai let out a small sigh, Neji bit his lip, brought his right arm back up in the air, fist balled in to a fist and then let it collide with Sai's face.
"You placed her in the fucking hospital! Your broke her fucking cheek bone!" Neji hissed kicking Sai in the stomach once Sai had fell to the ground. People had gathered around trying to calm down Neji, but they only ended up with hits themselves.
"She deserved it!" Sai replied getting up from the ground then tackling Neji, bringing him against the lockers then slamming punches into Neji's abdominal area. Neji took a few blows but blocked most of them, he had used his feet to catch Sai off guard making him strip a little.
"Just because she was helping out an old man cross the fucking street!" Sai said nothing when Neji screamed that last part out, he kept punching and punching. Sai was able to block some of them, but was unable to block them all.
"Hurt her again…and I'll fucking kill you with my bare hands. I'll rip out your heart so fast that you'll still be able to hear it beating in front of your damn face. You hear me?" Neji hissed out.
[present]
"He's not right for you Sakura. You deserve someone better." Neji spoke out softly shocking me a little bit. I smiled, I smiled because I knew he cared about me and I knew that he was right. I did deserve better I always have, but if it wasn't for that promise, I would have left Sai all those years ago.
"Neji, I did. I found someone better." I told him, Neji must have been shocked because his eyes momentarily widen. He gave me that look that showed me his confusion which was a rare look, only because Neji was one of those men that doesn't like to show off his emotions all to often.
"Then what the hell are you still doing with Sai?" Neji snapped, of course I should have expected that reply to come from Neji. I gave Neji my best smile that I could possible offer, took in some air and with a proud voice I let loose my answer.
"For several reasons. One, I made a promise to Sai that I would stay with him no matter what, no matter if my heart belongs to someone else, I would always stay by his side. Second, the man that I'm in love with….we can't be together Neji. It just wouldn't work out, he's from a high class society, filled with all these magnificent things, I just don't look good next to him." I told him with a big smile, but I knew Neji could see right passed me.
"Listen. Stupid. Seriously, you must be stupid Sakura. It doesn't matter if a person is wealthy, rich, a king, a person or from a high or low society. If two people love each other, they'll do whatever it is they have to do to be together. Even if it means going up against the family, friends, jobs, even the Gods themselves. And you…you Sakura, your letting a promise. A fucking promise. Stand in the way of you and the person you truly love. Let me tell you Sakura. You were not put here on this plant to be some mother to a pitiful man who is so weak he has to bind you to him by a fucking promise. Let me tell you another thing Sakura…promise are not meant to be kept, there meant to be broken, but don't listen to me. While your in your misery I'll and everyone else will be living happily with our own husbands and wives."
Neji didn't even let me say another word before he turned around and started walking away from me. It was the first time in my life that I had felt Neji be so cold and distant toward me. Biting my lip I closed my eyes, swallowed my pride and started walking toward the station where Neji would be arriving.
Sasuke…I don't understand, why does my heart beat so much for you? Why is it so hard for me to let him go? I just don't understand…
My pain
Your pain
Our pain
Together we break
[With Sasuke]
"He was an eye sore Sasuke, that never appreciated you anyway. Besides you haven't grown in any shape or form, you still look that the weak little boy I left behind in this bedroom crying. Crying your little eyes out the day I killed your father." Itachi's grip on my neck tightened around my throat. His eyes softened all of a sudden, and when he released me that's what shocked me the most.
"I didn't come here to argue or fight. I came because our mom called, she sounded so happily that you finally got over that damn walking STD Kanami or whatever her name was." Itachi spatted. I looked at him weirdly as he backed away from me to lean against one of the bed polls.
"So where is this fabulous girl that mother kept rambling on and on about for hours to me on the phone saying to me. OHHH Itachi you have to meet her she's so beautiful, your little brother is so lucky, blah- blah-blah. Mother wouldn't let me hang up unless I agreed to come and meet your lover." Itachi told me, he sounded disgusted more than ever while he was talking.
"She's not here. She left yesterday morning when I wasn't here. She left to go back to that damn fiancée she doesn't even love." Snapped looking the other way.
Sigh….
I turned to look at Itachi when I heard a loud sigh coming from where he was at. He was scratching his head while shaking it in a disapproval way at the same time. A second later he opened his eyes, and gave me a smirk. A loud TCH escaped from his mouth.
"Why didn't you go after her?" It was starting to get a little weird for me at this point. I was actually having a conversation with my brother, without fighting or hitting, or bitching at each other. This was new even for me.
"I don't know, if this is what she wants, I have no right to stop her. If she wants to marry some guy she doesn't give to shits about then why should I care." I was caught of guard when I heard a loud groan come from Itachi, it was then I felt a sting to my right cheek. I let out a loud yell when his fist impacted my face randomly, I wasn't even expecting it to happen. What the fuck I thought we were having a moment.
"What the fuck Itachi?" I hissed holding my right cheek. Itachi only replied with a silent glare.
"You're a man aren't you? I think it's time you start acting like one Sasuke. It's time to get your head out of your ass and start acting like a man. Go get her, because God only knows that you'll regret it. Start being a man instead of a boy."
[With Sakura]
Walking with Sai felt weird, it felt odd, it felt cold, and I didn't like it. Sai hadn't changed a bit, he still looked the same over the months. I nearly forgot how look actually, images of Sasuke were all that flooded my mind. Maybe it was because for the past couple I was always with Sasuke and no one else.
"Sakura…." I heard Sai's dull and plain voice call out my name. There was a huge difference between the way Sasuke says my name and the way Sai says my name. The difference, when Sasuke calls out my name my heart nearly stops beating, but when Sai calls out my name I feel like I don't even want to respond to him.
"Yes?" I asked with a fake cheerful voice, Sai put a hand shoulder making stop walking. I looked at him weirdly, and he stared at me with those dull eyes of his.
"Do you recognize this place?" He asked. I turned to look around, I noticed that we were by the lake where Sasuke and I shared a kiss…the same place where I had realized that I was in love with him, but couldn't stay with him. I didn't reply to Sai.
"Sakura this is the place where you told me you'd always be with me remember? This is the day that you told me that no matter what, no matter who gets in the way you'll always stay with me." I smiled when Sai answered his own question. For some reason I couldn't remember if this was really the place where I made that promise, all I could remember was that this was the place where Sasuke and I shared a kiss.
"Oh yeah…your right." I lied….
Sasuke…
[With Sasuke]
"Go get her Sasuke…"
And with that I didn't even hesitate when Itachi had told me that one line it was as if my legs had a mind of its own and bolted out my bedroom, down the hall, and into the elevator.
I won't let you get away…not this time….where would you be….think Sasuke…think where would Sakura be….damn it it's already late. I'll go find her tomorrow but where would she be. Where would she be…
Didn't you know?
What you were missing.
Next time-
"I'm sorry she's not here. Apparently her fiancée wants to be married by the end of the week"
That's all no more clues ha-ha-ha. And I'm sad to say that there will probably be two more chapters left until the end of the story. So I have a good idea on how to end it, but I also want to hear some of your comments tell me how you guys would like me to give Sasuke and Sakura a good ending ha