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"It seems I am not meant to have the people I love. First Father, then Carver, Bethany, Fenris and now you Mother. Wait with Father and the others. I will join you soon," Lunia whispered to what was left of her mother. Nobody hear her save for a white haired elf who's eyes went wide. She got up and looked at them. There was no life in her eyes. Varric walked up to her first.

"Lunia, do you want me to walk you home?" concern written all over his face.

"No thanks you Varric. I need to be alone…" and she walked away from the place that had taken her last bit of family, this tiny pocket of the Void that would stay in everybody's mind forever.

Varric watch her walk away. It had been a month since Fenris had left her. At least then there was feeling in her eyes, abet a bad feeling, but something. She had started to return to her old witty cheerful self. Now this had to happen.

"I'm following her", Fenris stated as he walked up to Varric.

"Didn't you hear Broody? She wants to be left alone…"

"I heard much more than you. I'm going to make sure that harm does not befall her."

"What do you mean?"

"I fear what this will do to her. Something she whispered…"

"Then go, and make damn sure she stays safe. I'll stay with Aveline to get this clean up."

Fenris ran to catch up with Hawke, yet staying back so she would not see. They had started to come to an understanding. He was to start coming to her house to learn once she found out this gap in his education. She had even given her a Book of Shartan, his second most treasured possession, the first being the red sash from their one night of passion. He saw her enter Amell Manor. After a short time he saw Gamilin leave, looking more angry than upset. Finally he plucked up his courage, having stood there in the square for an hour, he knocked on the door. Bohdan let him enter the foyer. Flashes of that one night flooded his mind. He shook his head; he needed to stay focused on the task at hand. So he climbed the stairs and knocked on her door. "Hawke… Lunia please, can I come in?"

No movement inside, no sound of any kind in the house save for Sun snoring by the fire. Urgency filled him as he turned the handle only to find it locked. This caused his to go into full panic mode and he started beating on the door, but to no avail. Seeing that one course of action would not work he used another. Letting his marking flare bright with anger and fear, he kicked down her door. Once he walked in and he saw her sitting in front of the fire place completely still, he relaxed a little at the sight. As he made his way over though he noticed she was sitting in a pool of blood. He took her up into his arms.

"Hawke NO! Stay with us!" he began checking her over. Long vertical cuts on the under part of her arms dripped with blood. He put his fingers to her neck, afraid that there would be nothing there to find. A pulse, faint weak, but still a pulse. He gathered her into his arms, she weighed next to nothing, not that she was heavy before but he could tell the difference. As he made for the cellar to take her to Ander's clinic, Bohdan had opened the door already.

"I'll inform Messere Varric and instruct Orana to prepare a large meal. I'm sure all her companions will wait here for news."

"Do that," was all Fenris could say. He prayed to every deity he could think of, praying that he had not been too late to save here.

Finally she was stable. Anders had spent hours healing her arms. As he pumped his healing magic into her, it increased her blood count, which began coming out of the long jagged cuts he was trying to heal. At long last he managed to get everything under control. Now time to examine the rest of her while he let his mana level recharge on its own. He has been so absorbed into the healing in her wrists and arms he hadn't checked on anything else. He moved from head to chest to abdomen and stopped. No it couldn't be! He checked again. No denying that tiny life force. He glared hatefully at the elf sleeping at the far wall. So the monster had gotten her pregnant. Anders finished his exam and went to his private room.

Justice was howling at him to forget the rogue. She was not helping their cause, only hindering Anders from all the things they could be doing. Anders sighed at Justice's ranting, Lunia didn't let them go or kill them she would send them back to the Circle. Yet he watched as she went to The Gallows and checked on them. She helped get letters out to friends and family that would not be checked by Templars, or would sneak in a treat for the children. She told him once that she was trying to help make The Circle what it should be, a school for people with magical abilities to learn and be watched over. They should be allowed to go home and see family. She knew what it meant to live in fear of Templars and demons because of her family. Now she was pregnant with the seed of a mage hater. It should have been him! She reminded him so much of the Queen of Fereldan, whom he had a soft spot for anyway. He had told Lunia he would end up hurting her. Maybe if he hadn't said that…. Oh well it was done. The least he could do was give her a way out. He pulled a vial of blue liquid from a locked chest. This would abort the baby, but it would free her from the elf. Sticking the vial in his pocket, he returned to the clinic.

Fenris had awoken and was by Hawke's sire when Anders reentered. Never looking up from her face he questioned the mage, "will she be alright?"

"Yes I want to keep her till this evening, and then she can return home. Go tell the others to get the house ready."

Fenris nodded and headed for the door. He kept his back to Anders but said over his shoulder," Thank you Anders, for saving her…"

"I would do anything for her. Although if you had not brought her when you did, she would have died."

Fenris nodded again and was out the door heading up the cellar entrance. When Anders turned around Hawke was beginning to stir. Her eye fluttered open and she saw Anders.

"Anders what… why am I here?"

"That… elf brought you here. He found you bleeding out."

"Maybe I wanted to!" Lunia replied, rolling over to her side.

"Lunia, you mustn't talk that way. You would leave us all?"

"So you all will leave me too? If you haven't noticed anybody I love disappears."

"Hawke some of us would never leave. We would follow you to the Void and back." Ander sat down on the cot next to her. "Now I have something to discuss with you," He handed her the blue vial. She turned and looked at him puzzled. "While examining you I discovered you were pregnant." He saw a face that had moments before been devoid of life brighten as her fingers fluttered to her stomach. Then the light left her eyes and sorrow was written all over her face.

"So that's the vial for? Does it help to make for an easier pregnancy? Her brows furrowed as she looked at it.

"It will cause you to abort – " was all he got out before she beamed him in the head with it. If her eyes were daggers, he would have already bled out from all the cuts.

" How DARE you! I just lost the only member of my family that I love so dearly and you DARE suggest that I kill the only chance I have at rebuilding a family? Even if Fenris doesn't want me… I still love him! I would never hurt something of his, much less something of mine! I would sooner cut my own heart out!" she continued to glare. "I will go home now Anders."

"Hawke you should be moved yet. Plus think about it…"

"There is nothing to think about and I don't want to be anywhere near you! Ah look, it's Varric! He will take me home. I have one knight in shining armor I can count on!"

Varric looked between the two of them. He had no clue what had happened but at least Lunia's eyes were no longer dead. Course pissed off wasn't a good emotion either, but at least it was something. He was itching to know what had transpired but it would have to wait. "If the Lady wishes to return home, it shall be so! Alas, I am too short and your legs too long for me to carry you away. At least I thought to bring a steed!"

Fenris entered the room and glared at Varric, "I am not a steed."

"No you ain't, but you can carry our princess here back to her chambers!"

"You are a funny little dwarf that is about to get into some serious pain," Fenris muttered as he picked up Lunia, who wrapped her arms around his neck. He then turned to Anders. "I don't know what you did, but if you ever upset her again, I'll rip your heart out abomination." Leaving Anders sputtering at him till he noticed Varric had not left.

"Now Blondie, how have you done gone and upset her? She wasn't awake that long!"

"None of your business Varric. She seems to want to do as she pleases. Let her ruin herself!"

"Ah no that's where you are wrong. If she is upset it's my job to find out. You heard her, I am her knight in shining armor."

"Ask her then!"

"But it is so much easier to ask you. Seeing as she just lost her mother. So tell me, or Bianca will have a word with you."

"Fine! You want to know! She is carrying thee spawn of that… rabid beast! I was just giving her a way out!"

"Then you deserve her anger," was all Varric said and he walked away, leaving Anders alone.

Fenris took her past all her companions and took her straight to her room. They would wait to hear from him. As he laid her in the bed, she looked up at him with such sad eyes.

"Do you wish to speak of what happened with the abomination?" he asked as he pulled the covers up to her chest.

"No," she turned her head from him.

"Do you wish to speak of anything?" He questioned as he poured some water for her and set it on her table.

"No…" she still would not look at him.

"Is there anything you need of me?" he asked as he went to move some of her hair back but stopped himself.

"No… but thank you Fenris," she whispered.

"Are you going to…?"

"No I won't harm myself again. I promise Fenris, you needn't worry."

"Lunia I…"

"No Fenris. I'm not ready to talk yet… Just go please. You can come back tomorrow and we will start your lessons if you wish. Good night."

Fenris wanted to stay, but she had given her dismissal. As he walked into the living room her nodded to the other, "She wishes to be left alone and promised not to hurt herself." With his instructions given, he walked out the door to get gloriously drunk, He had been through enough this day.

Varric came in as Fenris was walking out. He told the others to go home; he would stay here for the night. After letting them all out he went to Hawke's room. "Siren, we need to quit meeting like this," he said as he sat down on the edge of the bed.

"But Varric, it's the only way I get a closer look at your chest hair," she chuckled as she turned to face him. "All my chest hair aside, we need to talk. Of course you can keep on petting my male pride for a few minutes longer if you want."

"No get to the dirty stuff first, petting later. I already told Fenris I wouldn't hurt myself again. I just couldn't cope with losing the last member of my family. The last connection to my happy past is gone."

"Well you have Gamlin for whatever that's worth. You also have your band of misfits! Aveline is the bossy older sister. Daisy is the cousin that is confused all the time. Choir Boy is the super religious sibling that you just roll your eyes at. Riviani is the slutty aunt that speaks her mind. Blondie is the family member that tries to fit in and fails. Broody is the guard dog and I'm the favorite uncle."

"What does that make me?" she giggled.

"The matriarch of our rag tag family. Taking care of us and going nug shit crazy when somebody messes with us. But I digress, that wasn't what I wanted to talk to you about Siren."

"So… how did you get it out of him? Course I guess it doesn't matter now does it? I don't know Varric. I am so happy to become a mother. I don't know about Fenris though."

"You won't know till you tell him."

"Not yet Varric. Let me… think of how to tell him."

Varric grabber her hand, "take all the time you can. Just remember you will have to say something before long or you will begin to show."

"I know, I'm afraid though, that he will reject me again."

"Then he doesn't deserve either one of you."

"Thank you Varric for everything. You really are my knight in shining armor."

"At you service my Lady. Speaking of Broody, did you give him that book?"

"Yeah we should start our lessons tomorrow."

"Be careful Siren, that is all I can say. Now let's get back to the petting of my male ego." Varric was rewarded with her silvery laugh and they talked late into the night.