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Two month later Lunia stood with the Arishok are her feet. Bleeding heavily from wounds all over her body, her speed in battle had been the only thing that had kept her alive against the behemoth. Finally the Qunari threat was done. She looked at her friends and gave a tired smile. As cheer erupted with the nobles, dizziness hit her. Fenris grabbed her before she fell. What was wrong with her? She had been worse off than this. She cried out when prain wracked her stomach. 'NO!' was the last thought she had before her world went dark.
"Blondie!" Varric yelled watching as Lunia's eyes closed. He saw the grab she made to her stomach. Damn and double damn! Not this! Not after she was just named Champion. She and Fenris had just moved back into an easy friendship. The fates it seemed were not kind to Hawke. Varric watched as Fenris picked her up and carried her in the direction of the barracks, Aveline leading the way.
Anders worked his magic, but it wasn't enough, the babe was gone. Too many movements, loss of blood and too much stress on a babe barely into the second trimester. Varric noticed Fenris staring at his down trodden face.
"What is wrong with you dwarf? The mage said she will live did he not?"
"Not for me to say Broody. Just watch her the next few days."
"Why? What are you hiding from me," Fenris growled as his marking began to light.
"No light show please Fenris," came the voice of the new Champion of Kirkwall as she sat up. Her fingers lighted to her stomach and she looked at Varric and his sorrow filled face. She then turned to Anders, panic stricken. Ander shook his head. Fenris on the other hand was staring at them all like they were crazy.
Lunia hung her head, "so you got your wish Anders," anger began to fill her voice.
"Not like this Hawke," he tried to sooth her.
"It doesn't matter how it happened! You got what you wanted. Why the hell aren't you jumping for joy?"
"Hawke calm down…"Varric tried as he saw Fenris' bewildered look.
"How can I be calm after what that bastard did to me?"
"But Hawke, you have suffered far worse in battle. What are you talking about Anders' wish?" Fenris asked. Hawke looked at him; she had forgotten that he sat there. Now she would have to tell him, before he could even celebrate, he would have to grieve.
"Please leave us; I need to speak to Fenris alone." She waited till the others were out the door. "I should have told you sooner. I meant to tell you, but I was too afraid." She watched his face begin to contort into anger.
"What have you kept from me Hawke?"
"I was pregnant…" sorrow filled her voice as tears began to flow. "I didn't know how to tell you it was yours. You ran from me after that night. I didn't know if you would run from me and the baby, and quite frankly I couldn't bear the thought of you running from me a second time."
"You were with child? Venhedis woman! How long were you going to wait to tell me? Once the child entered this world with elven features? Or would you deny it then to out of shame?" He shouted pacing back and forth.
"Damn you! Why would I not tell you it was yours when it was born? I was going to tell you soon. I wanted the Qunari mess out of the way first. But can you really blame me Fenris? You left me to pick up the pieces of my broken heart! Plus why would I chain you to something else when you are working to break free of the chains of your past?"
"You never gave me a chance to decide for myself!" Fenris turned to face her then. He face turned into something ugly and fearful. Yet he looked at Lunia's sorrow filled eyes and he saw all the regret and pain in them. It brought his anger down and he sat beside her on the bed she had been healed on. "I would not run from my own offspring. I would have wanted my child to have a happy life, one that I did not have. For what it is worth, I would have been there…for both of you."
"Fenris… I'm sorry I took that choice from you. Nothing will ever replace what we lost, but I don't see why we can't try again in the future. I can understand if you don't want to though." Lunia hair hung in her face. She couldn't look at him. It would hurt to see him turn away again. Instead she felt the warm metal of his gauntlet under her chin making her look in his eyes. She saw his soul in that moment, more than any other time she had ever looked into those moss green eyes. She saw pain, fear, weakness strength and she thought she saw love but she was not sure. It gave her beaten heart a little more hope.
"Give me time Lunia. I am not worthy of the caring you have given me. Let me be a free man first. Just give me a little longer."
"Fenris I can only give you so much time. If I find somebody, I will take a chance at finding a measure of happiness."
Sorrow filled his eyes, "I understand."
"But know this; I'd rather have the happiness with you because I know it would be complete. My heart is yours, just please, don't take too long," she pleases softly and leaned into the hand that had moved to her cheek.