It has been three long intense weeks since my near death accident during the long and very painful weekend. I can remember that weekend very clearly like it has been etched into my usually forgetful memory with a blunt razorblade etching the memory that I know so well deeper every time I watched it in my mind. Every word, feeling, action clear in my mind as if it was happening right in front of my eyes. Although it hurts me every time I think of it I still go on hoping the etch will heal along with the pieces of my shattered heart like the cut now on my wrist it will scar but at least it would be healed.

I walked in to my room dumping my bag beside the door pulling out my I-pod and turning it on putting the earphones in my ears as I laid own turning the sound up as loud as it would allow me to as I searched through my play list stopping on the song I have been listening to for three weeks straight I started to sing the lyrics under my breath to the song Beautiful Lie by 30 Seconds To Mars blaring through my ears I got up off m bed and walked over to the window and looked out of it staring through the rain in the direction of the forest edge my hopes rising I was hoping I would see my mystery man but as usual my hopes went crashing down as I saw nothing not even the giant reddish-brown wolf that I swear I've hiding behind the trees.

The wolfs fur reminded me of the man that once stood there after id woken up from two days of being knocked out from my fall down the stairs. At least I hoped he was I didn't know if he was real or just a dream but I couldn't get him out of my head both my mystery man and Edward in my head I haven't spoken to either well not for a while my last conversation with Edward was about me falling down the stairs as a suicidal act.

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I walked through the hallway to my locker opening it when I turned and there he was "what do you want" I spat at him "no need to get bitchy just because your suicidal plan didn't work " I sneered "what suicidal plan" "oh you know what I'm talking about Bella don't play dumb" 'no Edward I don't know what your talking about" "oh come on you don't think I'm gonna believe you fell down the stairs do you" "what you think I faked falling down he stairs do you" "please Bella you and I both know you made yourself fall down the stairs hoping that you would die" "what is your problem I'm not going to try and end my life over your fridget actions" ''so I'm a fridget just because I didn't want your slaggy hands on me" "fuck you asshole" "Bella for the last time if I wanted to fuck you I would have done it when you offered"

"I wasn't offering anything to you just then so can you just piss off" "only if you promise you won't be an idiot and try to commit suicide" I growled "I'm not suicidal get it through your head" "if your not suicidal then why do you have this cut on your wrist" he grabbed my wrist I winced and he pulled the sleeve of my jumper up showing the fresh gash on my wrist that I put there last night I pulled my arm away sliding the arm of my jumper back over the gash I looked away "what does it matter to you whether I die or not" "it doesn't matter to me but I'm pretty sure Charlie wouldn't like it if you did" "why do you care about Charlie all of a sudden" "because he is my fathers friend" "you mean Carlisle" "yes I mean Carlisle" "are you finished" "no you still need to promise for Charlie's sake that you wont do any stupid suicidal acts" "why just because you don't want it to be blame on you" "pretty much yeah"

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I jumped someone's hand tapped me on the shoulder I quickly turned to see who it was, the music blaring in my ears again it was only Charlie I looked at him he was saying something but I couldn't hear him and I wasn't concentrating enough to be able to read his lips so I turned my I-pod off taking the earphones out o my ears "umm sorry Charl-dad what did you say" he huffed at the fact that he had to repeat himself "I was telling you that you didn't have to cook dinner tonight I'm ordering pizza" "uh sure ok but why" "uh Billy and Jacob are coming over to watch the game so I thought I would give you a break from cooking" "uh ok cool" I replied not knowing at all who he was talking about he walked over to the door and opened it leaving the room and closing the door behind him.

I realised that I was still in the same soaked clothes I was wearing when I came home from school my hair still dripping down my back from the rain which I don't pay attention to any more. I walked over to my drawers placing my I-pod beside my laptop opening my second draw o pull out a grey long sleeve shirt throwing it on the bed before closing the draw and opening up the next draw and took out a pair of black track pants closing the draw and opening the top draw and picked out a blue lace thong and the bra that matched it closing he draw. I picked up my shirt off my bed and walked out of my room across the hall into the bathroom.

I placed my clothes in the cupboard under the sink where the towels sat so that they wouldn't get wet taking a towel out and hanging it on the towel rail before crossing the room to close the door before turning the hot water on which immediately steaming the room up. I began to strip down to m underwear hearing a loud knock on the front door and heard Charlie open it I assumed it was the pizza man so I ignored it and took the rest of my clothes off and stepped into the boiling hot water beating down upon my skin it felt nice against my freezing cold skin. I shivered as the warmth took over washing all the coldness away leaving my skin red with heat from where the water was hitting me. The heat of the water increased for a couple of seconds I jumped and let out a small shriek but no one could hear it not even I could hear my own shriek.

I heard a faint knock again but it sounded too soft for I to be the bathroom door so I continued to was the conditioner out of my hair when I turned the water off I felt a cool breeze flood the room wash over me I stepped out of the shower into the fog the cool air taking over me the door was opened I turned quickly slipping on the damp mat I quickly put my arms in front of me to break my fall I felt something heard a bang then I felt myself land with a loud bang but I wasn't the cool tiled floor had expected although it was as had but extremely warm. I looked up through the fog that was now thinned out but I could see perfectly there in front of me was a man who looked too young to be a man but was defiantly tall enough. I was laying on him my head on his chest I looked up into his face he looked familiar very familiar I tried to figure out whee I had seen him before when mystery man popped into my head you could see the resemblance the looked exactly the same besides the different lengths in hair the person I was laying on had much shorter hair but he still looked like him.

I laid there for almost a minute before the fog had fully disappeared I was staring into his eyes blinking to see if I was awake and sure enough I was awake I whispered "mystery man" without noticing what I was saying then I heard foot steps and there in the doorway was Charlie looking down at us in disbelief "Bella"? "Jacob"? "What are you doing" I looked at Jacob to Charlie and back to me and said looking back at Charlie "uh-uh I-I-I slipped and well um" I waved my hand trying to remember the name but Jacob cut in "Jacob" "uh yeah Jacob was in the way and I landed on him" "well what were you doing in here anyway Jacob" "uh well I came in to wash my hands because I just finished going to the toilet" so that was why the water suddenly became so hot that it burnt me "uh well didn't you knock or any thing" "Yes of course I knocked but nobody answered so I walked in the water wasn't running so I thought it would be ok to come it" "ok well I'm going so Bella can cover herself up" and he let closing the door. I felt around for the tiles lifting myself up I got up off of Jacob and waited for him to get up which he did quite quickly I stared at him he had a big wet spot where I had landed I smiled forgetting I was naked and he stared back his eyes nearly bulging out of his head before slapping his hands to his eyes turning around "uh umm sorry I'm just gonna leave" he felt around for the door handle I looked down I was still naked so I quickly wrapped the towel around my almost dry body grabbing my clothes out of the cupboard taking them and walking out across the hall and into the safety of my room I quickly changed and walked down the stairs into the lounge room where loud cheers were exploding from Charlie and a man in a wheel chair who I assumed was Billy I sat in the arm chair beside the flat screen and grabbed a piece of pizza quickly taking a bite. I looked over at Jacob who was sneaking glances at me through the corner of his eyes while my eyes were fixed on him. He smiled when our eyes met I blushed and smiled back my face turning bright red. We both burst out laughing Charlie jumped and so did Billy "oh shit Bella you scared me" "sorry" I said still giggling and slightly choking on the pizza in my mouth "it's okay just please give us some kind of warning if your gonna burst out laughing" "ill try" "well ok do you remember Billy" "uh no not really" "well its good to see you again" "you too" "and well you've already met Jacob' he growled lightly when he said Jacobs name I looked at Jacob who was still wet from hen I had fallen on him before Charlie continued "Billy here is Jacobs dad" I choked quickly swallowing "his dad" I exclaimed they all looked at me like I was a weirdo "yes Bella his dad" I quickly added to it saying to Billy " its just he looks to old to be your son" Jacob laughed out loudly "thanks Bella but I'm only sixteen" he laughed again "oh sorry" I said smiling "its ok it happens all the time" we laughed again and I grabbed another piece of pizza stuffing it in my mouth while Charlie and Billy stared at me and Jacob.

When the game was almost finished I got up to take the pizza boxes to the bin in the kitchen I took two boxes and put them in the bin going back to get the cans of coke. I came back into the kitchen with the cans in a bag in my right hand Jacob was walking back from putting the other two pizza boxes in the bin when he slipped on a cloth that was lying on the floor I felt my self fall on the hard ground with a bang my head ringing something heavy was laying on me. I looked up and saw Jacob on top of me the positioning was awkward my arms were pinned above my head with his hands my legs were sitting on the side of his waist. I remember I needed air so I said with all my might "cant breath' but he didn't move he jut stared into my eyes his face moving closer to mine before Charlie walked in "not again come off it" and Billy rolled in "what's going on here." I whispered again "Can't Breath." Jacob looked down at me I repeated with the last of my breath "can't breath." "oh." he jumped up off me standing up I stood up with him dusting my clothes off taking big gasps of air.

We stood there staring back at Billy and Charlie my head bowed slightly my face red with embarrassment from the events that had occurred tonight. Charlie looked at me and Jacob "well…its late you should probably get to bed." he said. I walked to the stair turning and looked at Jacob my hands gripping the bottom of my shirt "uh well ill see you later I guess." He looked back at me smiling "yeah I guess." I returned the smile and walked up stairs and curled up under my blankets and drifted into a dreamless slumber.