Chapter Six – BPOV
"Lust's passion will be served; it demands, it militates, it tyrannizes."
– Marquis de Sade
I woke up with a frown on my face, tears in my eyes and a banging in my head.
Someone was banging on my door. I groaned and buried my head in my pillows.
"Get up Isabella!" Charlie shouted through the door in a flat voice. He hadn't looked at me since last night. "Jake will be here to make sure you go to school again." I stuck my finger up at the door and rolled over in bed completely covering myself. I didn't move until I heard the front door slam and Charlie's cruiser pull away.
I kicked my covers off and sat up rubbing my face.
When I got home last night and spoke to Jasper I felt better about everything. Of course I didn't tell him I had practically fucked Edward on his living room floor in front of his sister and best friend, but I did tell him things got a bit out of hand when Emmett started on the crack. Jasper laughed at me and told me he loved me and to get straight into bed.
I loved him so much; with my whole heart and the last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt him, but I felt connected to Edward. There was something between us, something that was different to how I felt about Jasper and I knew I wouldn't be able to stay away from him.
And today I was going to spend time with Edward. Alone. My heart jumped at the thought and pushed the niggling guilt away.
Edward was here, Jasper's not.
I showered quickly and dressed in black skinny jeans, a white 'don't talk to me' Juicy Couture t-shirt and my knee high Chuck Taylors. I shook my hands through my hair so it sat in tousled waves down my back and shoulders. I spent longer than usual doing my makeup; I kept my eyeliner thick and put a dark eye shadow on my eyes before I put my mascara on. I dug around in my wardrobe for the leather jacket Jasper brought me when he got his bike. I put it on but left it undone and stood back to look at myself.
I looked hot.
I grabbed my keys and bag and leapt down the stairs to get my morning cola.
I popped the lid and brought the can to my mouth when a car horn beeped outside. I jumped and sloshed coke on my jacket.
"Fuck," I mumbled to myself and grabbed a towel to clean it off as I headed for the door.
"Jake, if that was you trying to make me jump then mission accomplished asshole," I shouted through the door as I unlocked it with one hand, my coke still clenched in the other. The horn blared again as I struggled to open the door with one hand. A pet hate of mine – fucking car horns!
"Shut the fuck up!" I shouted as I pulled the door open.
My hand squeezed involuntarily on my coke at the sight before me. Edward was standing there, on my drive, he was leaning back against a shiny silver Volvo with his ankles crossed and his hands shoved into the pockets of his dark jeans. He was wearing a white shirt with a worn leather jacket. He looked like a god – the god of damp panties. The misty rain clung to his hair and pulled it down, making it look darker. I wanted to suck the water from it.
"Is that any way to address your chauffeur?" He smirked at me and I felt the butterflies in my stomach stretch their wings warming up for the day ahead. Edward shook his head, moving the hair from his face and making it stick up wildly.
"What are you talking about?" I leant back against the door frame and called out to him, unwilling to move out into the rain just now.
"I'm driving you to school..."
"You are?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Yes." He nodded once and his hair flopped over onto his face. My fingers twitched with a need to push it back. The electromagnetic pull that seemed to spark between me and Edward made my feet twitch with eagerness to get to him.
"Huh." I raised an eyebrow at him.
"You agreed to let me take you on a tour today, right?" He pushed off from the car and stalked towards me. The butterflies fluttered their wings in anticipation.
"Right." I nodded again and nonchalantly took a sip of my coke.
"So we're taking my car," he concluded as he stepped up close to me, "Are you ready?"
"I just need to grab my bag." I looked up into Edward's electric green eyes and my lips automatically parted; I breathed in through my mouth and tasted Edward in the air. The butterflies in my stomach remembered and recognised his taste and began their dance ready for more. Edward licked his bottom lip and tantalizingly slowly began to lower his mouth to mine.
My heart beat picked up in anticipation and I bit the inside of my cheek to hold myself back. I could feel Edwards' breath on my face and taste the electrical charge in the air. My eyes fluttered closed as his lips brushed gently against mine. A small voice in the back of my head screamed at me to stop, but I pushed her away.
The moment Edwards' lips touched mine my skin caught fire; white hot fire that scorched my body and pooled in my panties. Edward pulled back and I opened my eyes to look at him, he smiled at me with electrified eyes, he plucked the coke can from my hand and balanced it on the railing. I was about to frown at him and demand my breakfast back, when his lips touched mine again.
He pressed his lips softly to mine and my eyes closed again, all thoughts of arguments and sassy comebacks completely gone. My now free hands fisted in his jacket and I pulled him closer to me. Edwards' hands wound around my waist as his tongue slipped out to lick my bottom lip; I opened my mouth all too eager to let him in. As our tongue rolled over each other, I ran my hands over Edwards' chest feeling the toned muscles underneath and wound them around his neck; I twisted my fingers into the hair at the nape of his neck and pulled him closer to me. Edward gripped my hips and pulled them against his and I moaned into his mouth.
Edward walked us back so I was pressed into the wall, he stepped closer to me and with his hands holding my hips still thrust onto me. We both groaned at the contact, but I wanted more. I anchored my hands on his shoulders and jumped up, wrapping my legs around his waist. Edwards' hands clamped onto my ass and I ground my heat onto his growing erection. He made a growling noise in his throat that made me moan and soaked my panties at the same time. I pulled his bottom lips between my teeth and sucked it into my mouth and pushed down harder onto him. I needed to feel more of him and the crazy electrical energy that surrounded us. Edward pushed me back against the wall, pinning me there with his hips and pulled my hands from his hair. He took both of my hands in one of his and held them up above my head; I was completely in his control. My little internal Bella, the one that begged me to stop, padlocked her lips and threw away the key.
I opened my eyes and looked straight into his; we were both panting, breathing in each other's breath. His usually green eyes were flecked with a brilliant blue and I found myself mesmerized by them, until he pressed on my wrists and winked at me. I writhed and pressed myself into him, needing to feel the friction, but he held me still. I tightened my legs around his waist trying to pull him closer to my core, but he held back.
"Edward," I groaned his name, desperate for the friction that only he could give me right now, "Please."
"Please what?" His eyes intensified as he stared at me.
"I want you," I moaned and tightened my legs around him again, digging my heels into his ass. I wished I was wearing actual heels instead of my converse.
Edward nodded with a smile and stepped into me, thrusting up into my heat. He pulled my arms higher, and pressed them into the wall, my head fell back against the wall and Edwards' teeth made contact with my neck. I whimpered as his teeth pressed into my skin, and good Bella perked her head up with a frown. I forgot about her when his hand flipped down between us and began to rub me through my jeans. I thrust into this fingers and bit my lip, trying to stay relatively quiet. With one hand till rubbing me, Edward popped the button on my jeans and pulled the zipper down. His long fingers slipped inside my jeans and ran over my panties. My head banged back against the wall and I slipped my hands down to Edwards' jeans. I ran my hands over the buttons ... I fucking hate fly buttoned jeans!
My fingers worked quickly with the first button and slipped down to the next, Edwards' finger traced my lips over my panties while his thumb pressed on my clit; I pressed my teeth more firmly against my lip. Edward licked my neck .I felt his dick twitch when the second button was open.
"Fuck!" Edward pulled back when a car horn sounded twice. Seriously, what was with all the horn beeping in Forks! Edward leant back and peered around the large fern that stood on the porch. "It's a fucking cop."
"It's my escort," I panted with a small laugh and loosened my grip on Edwards' waist, "Probably Jake."
"You get an escort?" Edward snorted and I pushed on his shoulders to let me down. My inner Good Bella was now jumping up and down and biting her nails in fear. And this time she was right, I shouldn't be caught making out with Edward; not with Jasper coming down in a matter of days.
"Yes, I get an escort." I flashed him a smile, "I'm special."
"Yeah, real special," Edward winked at me and smiled goofily.
"Fuck you," I stepped away from him, smoothed down my clothes and zipped up my jeans. "Hey Jake!" I waved over to him as he got out of the car. Edward was leaning his forward against the wall and taking deep breaths. I laughed at him as I ducked into the house and grabbed my bag. I stopped at the mirror and checked my hair and makeup – removing all traces of our little romp.
When I pulled the door closed behind me I was completely composed and ready to face the world. Or Edward and Jake, at least.
"Officer Black," I tilted my head to Jake, "It seems your services are unneeded again today."
"What's going on Bells?" Jacob glared at me and I took a step back in shock before my inner bitch perked up.
"Er... nothing?"
"Does the Chief know Cullen is here?" I could hear the vitriol in Jacobs' voice and moved closer to him.
"No." I stepped closer. Standing on the porch I was the same the height as Jacob, "And he won't find out."
Jacob stared at me and I met his gaze unblinkingly. I felt Edward move to stand just over my shoulder but I didn't move my eyes from Jacob.
"Yeah, whatever Bella," Jacob finally gave in, his eyes darted up to Edwards' and he shook his head. "It's not like it's any of my business, right."
"Right." I spoke with a hard voice effectively cutting off the conversation, grabbed my coke from the rail and pushed past Jake. I didn't look back to see if Edward was coming; I walked straight for the Volvo and got in the passenger seat. When I looked up Edward and Jacob hadn't moved, I could hear the tones of their slightly raised voices, but I couldn't make out the words. I could see the way Edward's top lip curled up into a snarl though.
I watched in interest as they argued, trying to read Edwards lips but I was never much good at subterfuge. Edward shoulder bumped Jake as he walked down the steps; Jacob stumbled back a few steps and reached for the baton hanging from his belt. My hand was on the handle ready to call out for Edward to watch out when he turned around and muttered something to Jacob. Jacobs' eyes met mine and his hand fell from the stick, he sulked back to his car and drove away before Edward had even reached the Volvo.
"What the fuck was that all about?" I demanded as soon as Edward had pulled the car door shut behind him.
Edward shrugged and gunned the engine, "The police round here have a problem with me."
"Uh huh, well that seemed like a bit more than a police warning." Edward pulled out of the drive.
"His girlfriend came to one of our parties once and I guess she got a bit carried away." He shrugged again and looked at me before turning his eyes back to the road.
"You and Leah?!"
"Fuck no! I wouldn't touch anything that had been near that mutt!" Edward looked at me in complete disgust.
"Then what's his problem ... apart from being called a dog?"
"Hey, if the shoe fits," he turned to wink at me. "I guess he thought seeing as it was my party I should have been keeping an eye on everyone."
I nodded and turned to look out the window.
"You and Jake seemed to know each other?"
"Yeah, we grew up together." I turned back to Edward.
"Did you and Black ever, you know?" Edward killed the engine in the school lot and turned to face me.
"Did we fuck?" Edward nodded with a frown."Nope," he smiled, "Not for lack of me trying though." Edward's brow pulled back down. "I kinda had a crush on him when I was younger."
"Jealous?" I teased him.
"No, I know you want me now." He winked at me and got out of the car. I followed him.
"Why are we at school?" I asked as I jogged to catch up to him.
"We have class dork."
"What about my tour?" I pouted.
"It doesn't start 'till after school." I frowned at him. If I knew I had to sit through a whole day of classes I would have had something a little stronger than cola for breakfast.
I reached the Volvo first at the end of the day, mainly because I decided to skip gym. In Phoenix we only had to take gym for two years; here it was all four. Fuck you Forks! I jumped up onto the hood and slipping my jacket off, I leant back on the windshield and closed my eyes, enjoying the faint rays of sun that were the best I was going to get. I fished a cigarette from my bag and popped the can of coke I got at the cafeteria; I crossed my legs and my ankles and relaxed.
"Damn, I could get used to seeing this every day." I opened my eyes to see Edward leaning against the hood smiling at me.
"Yeah, well don't. I'll be driving my baby again tomorrow." Edward mock pouted and I laughed at him. He held his hand out and I let him help me slip from the car.
"So do you wanna go home and change?" he asked when we were in the car.
"I don't know... where are we going?"
"We are going to The Hole," he turned and beamed at me.
"The Hole? Am I meant to be impressed by that?"
"You will be." He winked at me.
"Do you think I need to get changed?" I didn't know the dress code for this place.
Edwards' eyes skimmed over my body for longer than necessary, and certainly for longer than was safe while he was driving. "No," he shook his head and turned back to the road.
The Hole was a dark hidden back alley club that looked like a warehouse from the outside. Edward parked his car outside and pulled me to the club door with a smile on his face.
"Seriously Edward?" I asked him before he pulled the door open.
"What?"
"You want me to go in there? I'm gonna need a shot just from touching the door." I looked at the dirty rusty handle on the heavy metal door with a grimace.
"Don't be such a girl," he pulled the door open and stepped through. "Come on, you're going to love this."
The door slammed closed behind me and we were blanketed in darkness, I moved closer to Edward and clung to his arm. He walked forward confidently. I grabbed my iPhone from my pocket and shone it around the building; it didn't light very far – just far enough to show me where we were walking.
"I want you to know my tetanus is not up to date," I muttered as I walked as close to Edward as I could. "In case I have to go to the ER."
"Don't be such a baby," Edward laughed at me, but his hand tightened around mine.
"You won't be laughing when Jason Voorhees jumps out at us, I'm pretty sure his second home is right around here somewhere. And I have no problem telling you that I will not be saving your ass!"
Edward snorted, "You couldn't find your way back out." I elbowed him in the chest and he laughed. "Anyway, we're here now."
He pulled back a thick curtain and I blinked when light spilled into the room.
Edward let the curtain drop back behind us and I stood there in amazement at the hidden gem. The room was dark, only lit from wall sconces and candles on the tables. The walls were painted a deep red and the floor was black, lending to the dark atmosphere. There was a bar against one wall with a guy with a Mohawk working it. The opposite wall had a lightly raised stage complete with black plastic chair and microphone. A few customers sat at the tables but the air was still heavy with the smell of smoke. There were ashtrays on every table and smoke danced around the people at the tables.
"Can I have my arm back now? I need to get some circulation back," Edward muttered.
"Jerk," I pulled my arms away from his and he grinned at me while flexing his fingers. I stalked towards the bar and Edward followed me.
I crossed my arms on the bar and leant forward catching the bartenders' attention.
"Hey there, beautiful." He smiled and walked over to me, "What can I get you?" he asked with a wink. I smiled widely at him and was about to answer when two large arms leant on the bar on either side of mine and a hard chest was pressed into my back. I knew who it was instantly; the electrified butterflies began their rumba.
"Hey Joe." Edward rested his chin on my shoulder.
"Edward, I haven't seen you here in a while man, how are you?" Bartender Joe reached under the counter and placed three shot glasses in front of us.
"I've been busy," I could hear the smile in Edward's voice and resisted the urge to turn and look at him. Joe poured tequila into the glasses and slid a bowl of lemons and a salt shaker towards us.
"This your girl? She the reason you've been so busy?" Joe asked with a smile and a wink. He held his hand out to Edward, who was playing with the salt shaker. Edward also salted my hand and his own. I grabbed a shot and turned around in Edwards' arms.
I held my hand up to Edward and handed him the shot, with a smirk and bent down and caressed the salt from my skin. While he threw the shot back I reached behind me for a lemon. Edward's lips closed around my fingers when he bit and sucked the lemon with his eyes locked on mine. I pulled the lemon from his mouth and threw it on the counter and quickly necked my own shot.
"Ok, I'm gunna take that as a yes!" Joe laughed; neither I nor Edward corrected him. He popped open two beers and slid them to us.
"So you here to sing man? We've had a lot of requests for you... from the ladies." He winked at Edward and I felt him laugh behind me.
"You sing?!"
"Nah, I'm not here to sing man. And yes Bella, occasionally I sing."
"You have to sing for me!" I turned my head to look back at Edward.
"You haven't heard him sing?" Joe looked between us in shock.
"No," I pouted and looked up at Edward.
"And you're not going to."
"Why not?"
"Because," he grinned at me.
"That is not an answer." I scowled at him.
Edward shrugged and grabbed our beers and started to walk to a table; I didn't move from my spot at the bar.
"Bella come on." He turned back to me.
"Nope," I winked at Joe.
"Bella." There was a dominance in Edward's tone that made me rub my thighs together.
"Sing for me?" I turned around on the bar and leant back on my elbows. Edwards' eyes fell on my chest. "My eyes are up here fuckward!"
"Yeah, but your tits are down there."
"Fuck you."
"You wish."
"Don't go getting us confused." I winked at him.
"Sing for me?" I asked again and Edward rolled his eyes. "Please?" I pouted, letting my hair fall over part of my face and looked up at him from under my eyelashes.
"Joe," Edward looked over my shoulder, "I'm gonna need the spare guitar."
"You held out longer than I would have dude." Edward moved forward to take a red guitar case from Joe.
"Here take these," Edward handed me the two beers and steered me towards a table directly in front of the stage. "Sit."
"Yes sir," I replied, mocking his commanding tone.
Edward took a long drink from his beer and leant down into my ear, "I think I like you calling me sir, Bella." Edward pressed his lips just below my ear before he jumped up onto the stage.
I sat back in my chair and watched Edward tune up the guitar and set up the microphone and felt a strong stabbing of guilt. Jasper used to play in Phoenix. I loved watching him set up the stage and tune his guitar; I loved hearing him sing. Somehow, doing this with Edward felt worse than kissing him. My inner angel crossed her arms and nodded her head in victory.
All of my guilt and worry left as soon as Edward's voice drifted out from the stage.
"Hi, I've kinda been forced to sing to you all today, so don't throw anything at me if I fuck up. So I'm dedicating this song to a very special pain in my ass, if I knew her mom I would give her kiss and thank her for kicking her out and sending her here to me. Bella, you better enjoy this!" He spoke into the microphone before pulling it over to the chair and making it smaller.
Edward sat on the chair and rested the guitar on his knee; my eyes were drawn to his fingers as he began to strum. I looked up to see a bright passion shining in his eyes as he focused on the cords he was playing. When he began to sing I gasped in shock. His voice was nothing like I expected it to be, his voice caressed me and I found myself smiling.
I'll be your man
I'll understand
I'll do my best to take
good care of you
You'll be my queen
I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
Yeah yeah
My guilt increased as I listened to the words of Edward's song and I felt the smile slipping from my face as images of Jasper playing and singing to me danced through my mind; Jasper singing with his band, staring into my eyes as he sang of love and fucking; Jasper naked, apart from his guitar, singing Kings of Leons' "Revelry" for me; fucking next to Jasper guitar. I closed my eyes against those images, telling myself that Edward was not singing this to me; he was just singing the first song he thought of.
Yes I will
Derry down green
Color of my dream
A dream that's daily coming true.
And ohhh when the day is through
I will come to you and take you on
Your many charms
yeah
When I had deluded myself into believing the song was not for me I opened my eyes and looked directly into Edward's. There was a frown on his face as he looked at me and sang, he raised an eyebrow in a silent question and I nodded that I was fine.
And you'll look at me
With eyes that see
And we'll melt into each others arms.
You'll be my queen no no
I'll be your king
And I'll be your lover too
When Edward sang the last line his eyes bore into mine and I had the feeling he was seeing more than just my eyes. I knew then, without any doubt, that no amount of delusional hopes would convince me that this song was not being sung to me.
I was so screwed.
I loved Jasper, but I lusted after Edward.
AN:
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