Disclaimer: I do NOT own Bleach. Just Shizukesa, Takahiro, Emi and Hina.
Between the non-physical world of spirits,
and our physical world of flesh..I am
I am, and a bit off balance.
Ever longing, for my time to drift about, in peaceful bliss.
Of all matter, weighted down by gravity..I am in the midst.
Ever seeing past the tall buildings, into sea-like skies.
Ever dreaming of weightlessly drifting, I wish..and then I sigh.
Let me fly. I'd like to rise above all that is seen.
I'd like to finally belong, to some place other than between.
(By: Tara Jacoby)
The chains will break
Emotions will flow
And our hearts will once more be connected as one.
The words echoed in my head until it felt like they were etched in stone. To me it sounded more like a chant but I couldn't be sure, I was unconscious.
I awoke with a start my breathing sporadic and a cold sweat ran down my face.
"Those weren't just dreams." I concluded.
"They were memories." My head snapped to the doorway to lock gazes with my intruder. Takahiro stood there, his emotionless expression on as usual but he couldn't mask the concern that shone clearly in his icy blue eyes.
"Nani?"
"Memories. They were erased when we arrived in Karakura Town almost ten years ago." I looked down at my visibly shaking hands. Nothing made sense at the moment.
"Why were they erased?" I asked truly wanting to know.
"I was happy then."
"Yes, but you were also someone of great and terrible power. You were a liability to Soul Society." He replied.
The word 'Soul Society' triggered several more memories and the pain shot, not only to my head, but through my entire body. My breathing went ragged again as the pain subsided but I had the feeling that more was to come.
"H-he did this...to me?" It was a statement of anger more than a question. Takahiro stayed silent.
He had anticipated this attitude for it was pinned up for far too long.
It was odd to feel so much anger ripple through my body but I could understand where it was coming from. To be betrayed by family. That's the worst kind of betrayal in my book.
"Come, Kesa-sama, school starts in a hour." he instructed.
With difficulty I rolled out of bed and took a quick shower. It felt like all my energy had been sucked away leaving me drained and empty. A couple of times I almost collapsed from exhaustion. Luckily by the time we arrived to school some of it had returned.
Takahiro had escorted me to class before going to his own. When I walked in Ichigo and Ishida were already there with a few others scattered around. I walked over to Ichigo and sat beside him at my desk.
"Ohayo Strawberry-kun." I greeted, though, not a cherrily as usual. He noticed right away but didn't push it. He knew I wouldn't have told him even if he had asked.
"You okay from last night?" he asked, I nodded. I really couldn't trust my own voice at that time.
It felt like if I spoke, the wrong words would have slipped past my lips conveying my true confused feelings.
Orihime then chose that moment to walk in and greet us, loudly might I add.
"Ohayo Kurosaki-kun, Shizukesa-chan!" she exclaimed and right behind her, equally as loud, was Hirako.
"Ohayo Ichigo-kun, Shizukesa-chan!" I groaned covering my head. My headache had only mildly gone away that morning and it was steadily getting worse, Chizuru and Keigo definitely weren't helping with their constant bitching about Hirako touching Orihime.
"KEIGO! CHIZURU! SHUT THE HELL UP!!!" I yelled loudly several anger veins popping up on my head as I stood up, slamming my hands on the desk. Everyone went quiet at my outburst not one person moved.
Ichigo chose this silence to take his leave with Hirako and left us in wonder of his actions. I didn't dwell on it though. I had other things to think about.
After school I headed straight home. No one bothered me as I went straight to my room and locked the door. I was confused beyond belief. I was so confused that I couldn't pay attention in class.
Hours passed as I sat in the corner rocking back and forth cradling my aching head. It felt like my brain was going to split in two or explode or something.
Yeah, it hurt that bad.
Images, lots and lots of images, flashed through my mind's eye, both from my life in Soul Society and after.
My entire body shook from the intense pain causing me to go into a cold sweat and my vision to blur. I was scared out of my mind at what was happening. I let out a shrill scream as darkness consumed my vision and passed out.
~Inside the Mind~
Drip.
I opened my eyes slowly, to the sound of dripping water, blinking a few times to clear my vision. My head no longer ached but my body still felt stiff. I sat up with much difficulty and took a look at my surroundings.
"It's like before." I whispered. This scenery wasn't the same as before. A small stream/river flowed gently through the dense forest. The trees seemed to be giving off an ominous glow that made it look awfully beautiful.
"What is this place?"
"Yasuragi no Shinrin. This is what it looks like in your mind." I snapped around at the voice to come face to face with my solidified reflection again. This time instead of a smirk, a soft smile graced her face.
"Yasuragi no Shinrin? Forest of Peace. Beautiful." I commented. She smiled softly.
"You have more questions for me?" She asked. I nodded.
"I've been able to piece some things together like you were the like girl of the past and that our grandfather did this to you and that I was the outcome of the erased memories. But what I want to know is, why? Why get rid of his own granddaughter? I thought he loved you."
"In his eyes love can only go so far. His sense of duty came before family." she said staring fixedly into my eyes with a sad expression.
"I'm starting to remember things, so does that mean you will disappear?" I questioned sadly, she shook her head lightly.
"No, but you must be careful."
The chains have broken
"Huh?"
And the emotions have begun to flow
"Don't let the emotions that you feel take control of you. Things will not go well if you do."
"I understand. Ano...before I go, I have another question." She stayed silent waiting patiently for my question.
"What happens if I do remember everything?" All she did was smile and disappeared into the forest. My world once again turned black but a faint voice pierced the still air.
But our hearts have yet to be connected