Authour's Note: Hey, Everyone! So here's chapter four!

Chapter 4- Time to Talk

Bella's POV

To my surprise, we managed to get through the burial uneventfully. If that had been Victoria I'd seen she must have left. Billy invited us over for dinner afterwards and that's where we were now. I had insisted that I help with dinner, so now I was in the kitchen with Jacob preparing a salad. We talked amiably as I made the food. Jacob seemed much better than he had been earlier; I guess funerals are hard for everyone.

I knew I needed to talk to him about our relationship, or at least the possibility of a relationship, but with Billy on the other side of the kitchen and my dad not far away I figured it probably wasn't the best time.

By the time I was done with the salad the other food was almost finished too, so I brought the salad to the table and sat down with Jacob.

Amazingly, everyone seemed in a pretty good mood during dinner. It kind of reminded of one of the first times we had stayed for dinner, after Edward left, with the Clearwaters. Of course, they could just be pretending to be happy. That would make sense considering we had just come from a funeral but if they were faking it I didn't notice. Of course, I was a little distracted by the prospect of talking to Jake.

After dinner we all sat there talking for a while until Charlie and Billy went into the other room to watch some sports game. I'm not sure what it was, I wasn't really paying attention. My mind was more focused on what I would say to Jacob. I knew I had to do it and sooner would be better than later. There's no reason to put it off any longer. That didn't keep me from

As we walked outside, Jake was talking and paid a bit of attention, nodding and asking question every now and then. Mostly though I was wondering how I would bring up the topic in conversation.

At some point Jacob must have stopped talking without me realizing it. I glanced over at him; he was looking at me oddly, kind of like he had something to say. He motioned for me to sit down and that's when I realized we had walked all the way to beach. Wow, I must really have been out of it.

I sat down beside him and looked at him inquiringly. He was silent for a moment. It was only a moment but during that moment a million thoughts flashed through my mind. What if he doesn't want me anymore? What if he's given up on me? Maybe he found someone else. What if he imprinted? What am I gonna do?

Then after what seemed like an eternity, he finally spoke.

"Bella, I know I said yesterday that I was okay with us just being friends and I really am. I would never want to lose you as a friend. But I was wondering if maybe your feelings have changed at all..." He faded off.

I stood there for a few moments with my mouth open. It was crazy how much in tune he was with my mind and he didn't even realize it.

When I didn't say anything, he seemed confused and started to take back his words. "But if they haven't then never mind." He started to say, getting up and turning away, obviously disappointed.

I quickly shook my head. "No, no, wait." I exclaimed, grabbing his hand to stop him.

I gently pulled his hand bringing him back down beside me. "I've been wanting to talk to you about that actually."

He looked back at me in surprise, "Really?" He asked quietly, a hopeful look in his eyes.

"Yeah" I nodded my head. "But first I have to explain some things to you, and then you can decide if you still feel the same way."

"Nothing is going to change how I feel about you, Bella." He declared earnestly.

I smiled softly, hoping what he said was really true. "Well, I still want to get this out before you decide anything."

"Alright, if you have to." he agreed, slightly impatient.

I took a deep breath, trying to collect my thoughts before I started. I'd been planning this conversation all day but I still wasn't sure how to start.

"Well, I guess I should start at the beginning, when I first showed up with the motorcycles. Did you ever think it was strange for me to want to ride a motorcycle? It's not exactly normal for me…"

"Yeah it was kind of weird but I was just so happy you wanted to be with me that I didn't really want to question it." He replied sincerely, smiling. "So, why did you get those motorcycles anyways?"

"It's kind of a long story. You know how bad things were after Edward left, right?" He nodded stiffly at me, tense at the mention of Edward.

"While, one day my dad told me he wanted to do something, to stop being a zombie basically. So, to get him off my back, I went to the movies with Jessica. It was all going ok but then I saw these guys who looked so familiar across the street. I started walking towards them then suddenly I heard Edward's voice in my head. Yeah, I know I must be crazy, right?"

Jake smiled faintly at me as if to say maybe.

"But anyways he was trying to stop me from going up to them. I kept going, hearing his voice the whole time. Once I got to them his voice stopped though."

I stopped for a second to catch my breath and gauge Jacob's response. So far, he didn't seem too freaked out but maybe he's used to weird things like this.

"After that I kept trying to figure out why it happened and, being the crazy person I am, trying to figure out a way for it to happen again. Then I got it, it must happen when I doing something reckless, you know that could put me in danger? Once I understood that I was trying to find a way that I could reckless in Forks. It's not the easiest thing to do. "

"That's when I found the motorcycles; someone was giving them away for free. I figured it was perfect. But they were broken and mechanics cost way too much. Then I remembered you, you were building a car, maybe you could fix the motorcycles. "

"It all started out as a way for me to hear Edward's voice, that's what was always in the back of my mind. But please don't think that's the only reason I hung around. I really do like you, a lot. Being with you is probably what kept me from going crazy." I said, looking at my hands, not sure if I wanted to know what Jacob thought.

But once again, I glanced up at Jacob to try and see what he was thinking. His face was an emotionless mask. I knew he must be upset but I had to finish before I gave up.

"The motorcycles worked too. When I was riding them I could hear his voice clearly, that's how I crashed the first time actually because I wasn't paying attention. But after a while I got better with the motorcycles and his voice faded away. "

"I went for a while without hearing Edward's voice after that. But then with you away all the time trying to catch Victoria, I was going crazy. That's why I thought of cliff-diving, that's why I had to do it even if you couldn't. It worked just like I knew it would, I heard his voice and saw him too. But then I started drowning and almost died because I just didn't care."

"That got me thinking, well that and Harry dying, what would happen if I had died or you had when you're out chasing vampires. I was thinking about it a lot last night, when you were driving me home. That's when I heard Edward's voice for the last time. You see, I was thinking about the possibility of us because I don't know if I could live without you. Then I heard his voice as clearly as the other times, he said 'Be Happy'. "

"I know it's not really Edward talking, probably just my subconscious, but then I thought maybe it was time to let go. Maybe it's time to give up on the crazy recklessness just to hear my own subconscious talking to me, time to hold on to something real, to someone real. Edward's not waiting for me so why am I holding out for him?"

I looked up at him then, "So what do you think?" I asked quietly, unsure.

He looked confused, maybe not sure how he felt or what he thought. "So all that time, it was all about him…" He muttered under his breath, looking out into distance not really talking to me.

I stayed quiet for a minute, letting him sort out his thoughts. I sighed inwardly, I knew it could upset him but I had to get it before we started anything. Maybe it would be okay anyways even if he didn't feel the same way after hearing that maybe he'd at least still want to be friends…

I hesitantly turned to look back at Jacob "If you don't feel the same way anymore I understand" I started to say, and then saw smile breaking out on his face. Suddenly, I felt his arms around me picking me up and spinning around. After a few spins, he put me down and moved back a bit so he could look at me.

"You want to know what I think; I think this is the best day of my life!" He said, his eyes shining.

"So, it's really all okay? You don't mind?" I asked, still a little unsure.

He pulled me in close and with his face right by my ear whispered "As long as you want to be me with you I don't mind."

I turned my face to look up at him. "Thanks." I said, breathless with happiness.

He moved his face closer to mine. "So, does this mean we are officially going out?"

"Yes, Jacob Black, this means we are officially going out." I said, smiling. Just then I realized how close our faces were, I could feel his hot breath against my face and I suddenly felt a force pulling us closer. The space between us was slowly starting to disappear.

As our lips were about to meet, I heard something that made me jump back slightly.

"Bella! Jacob! Where are you? We have to leave soon." Charlie called from a distance.

Jacob slowly moved back. He leaned forward and kissed my forehead, sighing. Then he reached over to hold my hand "Well, we better go."

I smiled softly, feeling the happiest I had for a long time.

Authour's Note: -Gasp!- Bella and Jacob are finally together! But will it last? What if Edward comes back? And was that really Victoria at the funeral? Review and tell me what you think!