Chapter Two: Decisions
Jacob and I were once so very happy together, I guess things just changed. I remember the first time I met Jacob. My sister Rosalie and I were on our way to get a cup of coffee when this strapping man walked right into me. Of course he spilled his coffee all over me, as I'm such a klutz. So I offered to buy him a new coffee. I remember we sat in that coffee shop for hours just talking about everything and nothing.
"By the way my name's Bella Swan"
"Nice to run into you Bella. I'm Jacob Black" His laugh was so adorable and something so innocent about it. I didn't want this conversation to end. I was enjoying it way too much.
"I'm sorry that I have to go, but I was wondering if I could get your number"
What! This guy really wants my number, am I dreaming or something. I know this is seriously not happening right now. I can't believe a man like his wants to have my number.
"Sure, its 555- 0129"
"Thanks, I'll call you. It was really nice to meet you Bella. Thanks for running into me, literally."
We just hit it off right away. He wasn't like one of those guys that said he would call you and never do. To my surprise he called me the next day and asked if I wanted to go see a play with him. Yes I know, going to see a play isn't the most romantic date but it was the best date I've ever had. Since then we just started to hang out all the time.
Jacob was my first and only love and a part of me still misses that love. But I couldn't be completely honest with him and that's the reason for our split.
I have dark secrets that I don't want anyone to know, especially not Jacob. I love him way too much to let him in on my troubles. If Jacob knew who I really am, what I really am he would never speak to me.
I couldn't live with myself knowing that someone I love hated me so. So I told him that I couldn't see him ever. No explanation, just a goodbye and have a nice life.
So every time I see him at work, I always wonder if this is the day I come clean. Seeing him just brings back all my feelings for him and I don't know how much longer I can handle it.
"Bella can I see you in my office?" I completely forgot what I was doing, I was so spaced out today. I cant get Jacob off my mind today. I wonder what he wants to talk to me about.