This is the one to last chapter, I hope you like it.

Songs used; Every You and Every Me by Placebo (I thought it fitted pretty well)

Chapter 11: Step Out of the Light

Sam was confused and dizzy, for a second he could no longer remember what he was doing and where he was but then he saw the demon with his back turned to him flicking Lena away with the mere gesture of his hand. He heard Dean scream and saw the panic in his eyes when he saw her falling with her head on a rock. He didn't know what to do, he was in doubt to break the formation or stay put until he suddenly heard a husky voice in his head.

Sam let go of Julie's hand who now got scared, as he stepped out of the headlight of the Mustang and traced the beam with his eyes until he saw something odd, he hadn't noticed it before but as the light fell on the angel's back it broke like there was glass disrupting it, when he squinted he could see a gigantic glass wing and when he looked carefully he saw the other as well.

Sam heard Dean fire two shots.

'That tickled,' the demon said grinning widely.

'Clip the wings,' Sam murmured to himself.

'What?' Julie whispered now really scared.

Sam heard Dean call his name but it was too late he was already charging ahead with the knife and in one swift swing he made contact with the wing and they all heard an incredibly loud shattering of glass, like a glass container was being emptied in the back of a truck.

The angel screamed in pain and fury turning on Sam as he still had enough strength, Dean who now understood what Sam had just done ran up to the thing and clipped its other wing making another deafening noise.

The angel fell on its knees screaming in agony and busted out into flames, Sam looked at Julie and a sense of relief came upon all of them, except for Dean who sprinted towards Lena and tried to wake her.

'Call an ambulance,' he yelled but Andy was already on his phone dialling 911.

'Come on hunny, wake up,' He pleaded holding her hand as he felt a light pulse.

He swept her up and put her carefully in the Impala, Dean speeded off while everyone else followed. When they arrived the ambulance was just there.

'How long was she out?' the paramedic asked.

'About 10-15?' Dean guessed.

'Okay, we'll take care of her.'

**********

When Sam and Julie were following the ambulance to the hospital he had the strangest feeling, though he should be worried sick about his friend, he was incredibly relieved that the night had gone fairly well. He was pretty sure Lena was to pull through, though he didn't understand why he was so sure. Was it just because he knew she was strong and could practically survive everything?

All he actually wanted to do was look at his girl.

'Calm down, hunny,' for some reason he loved to say that, like he hadn't said for a long time.

'How can you expect me to calm down, what just happened there? I mean, what the hell and Lena, poor Lena. Oh my God how can you live through this over and over again?' Julie pushed out the words at a maximum speed, tripping over them.

'Julz, easy, you're rambling again, breathe in,'

Julie looked at him and breathed as he breathed, in harmony.

'See!' She yelled.

'What?'

'You can't give up hunting, I knew it!'

'How did you come to that conclusion?'

'I can see it in your eyes, you're happy, you feel powerful and euphoric,'

'Well yeah,' Sam paused, 'you got to admit that was pretty cool,'

Julie smiled shaking her head at this boy who had just discovered a new videogame.

Sam looked at her and sighed, his heart broke when he saw her smile again, he bit his lower lip.

'I love you,' he said.

'I love you too, come on park, we need to get inside,' she said as they turned on the parking lot.

**********

'Dean sit down,' Sam whispered hard at his brother who had been pacing for over two hours in the dull blue waiting room of the ER.

'Dylan family?' A doctor suddenly said looking through a chart.

All seven of them jumped up and crowded the doctor.

'No, no I need to talk to the family first.'

'We're her family,' Dean said, 'I'm her family.'

'And she's my sister, well sort of,' Julie added.

The doctor sighed.

'Fine, she has a serious concussion and she has slipped into a coma but since you were here pretty fast we believe she will come out of it when the swelling goes down. This'll take a few days and we'll know more then.'

'Can we see her?' Julie asked almost jumping out of her skin.

'Only one of you, we can't allow more people in the ICU,'

'Thanks doctor Laurie,' Dean said reaching out his hand and shaking the handsome middle-aged man's.

Sam put a hand on his brother's shoulder and gave it a tiny squeeze to let him know he was there for him.

'I'm going to go up.' Dean said taking a deep breath walking to the elevators like he was walking to his final sentence, leaving behind the three couples who all hugged each other, happy that it was over, happy that they had done something meaningful, happy to have been a part from something bigger, happy that there friend was going to be okay. For some reason they all knew that tonight could have gone totally differently.

When Dean came to her room he almost dared not to enter it, he watched her through the glass window that was in the door, she looked pale, tiny and frail. Suddenly the woman he had always perceived as the strongest and most capable woman alive had disappeared and was now no more than just the normal woman she had always been. He carefully entered the room and pulled out a chair to sit next to her. He didn't feel comfortable and didn't exactly knew what to do but a nurse came in to pull back the curtains and let in the morning light of what was to be a beautiful and sunny day. As the soft light fell on her face he sighed as she was still breath-taking, he took her hand and pressed it against his own face, and for the first time he let all the tension and fear escape through the tears that were streaking his face.

**********

Sam couldn't wait to get him and Julie home, he had taken the Impala back to Dean's house as Julie had followed him with his Volvo.

'Why are you so jittery?' Julie asked.

'I have no idea, I just can't wait to go home and show you how much I love and want you right now.'

Julie had never seen this side of Sam, he had always treated her so nice and respectful to the point she got frustrated with his gentle approach. She had wanted to show him she wasn't breakable for such a long time and now she saw the animal in Sam, he was a cougar waiting to attack, to Sam's surprise she wasn't afraid, she couldn't wait either. As they got out of the car she tried to play coy by sitting on the hood but it was no use as Sam kissed her violently, shocking Mr and Mrs Rose, their next door, 90 year old, neighbours. But after the primarily shock they laughed at each other thinking back to their own youth. They eventually decided not to follow suit as Mr Rose just had gotten a prosthetic hip.

Sam grabbed Julz' ass and lifted her off the hood, they stumbled towards the front door and Sam thanked God that he was in good shape else this would have been impossible without them both crashing to the ground. As they entered their house Julie's jacket was already on the floor and parts of Sam's shirt were flying through the air.

'Bedroom?' He asked barely lifting his mouth from hers.

'Kitchen table!' she replied shaking her head violently, Sam caved easily as they threw everything on the floor, including a news paper and even a vase with withered flowers.

'I love...' Sam tried to say but he was interrupted by Julie.

'Don't, just take me, now!' she pleaded with the biggest smile on her face.

'Yes ma'am' he replied and like any good soldier Sam dove in and went to war, fighting like his life depended on it, he left behind one very, very exhausted and satisfied country.

**********

As the doctor had promised, Lena woke up just twenty-four hours later, Dean was half asleep by her side as she blinked against the light.

'Hey,' she managed to utter, her voice cracking from dryness.

'Hey,' he said jumping up, 'how are you feeling? Let me get you a nurse,' he searched for the button.

'No, no nurse,' she protested, 'a kiss will suffice,'

Dean couldn't deny such a request as it seemed weeks since he last kissed her, and he touched her lips softly as she was too fragile in his mind.

'See, all better,' she added smiling and coughing a bit.

Dean stayed with her, both went silent they just looked at each other, Lena didn't need to ask how the events had ended, for some reason she knew that the dark angel was history and Dean didn't tell her. They were both just happy the way they were, silently enjoying each other.

When the doctor noticed that she was getting stronger he let in two people at the time, not counting Dean who wouldn't have left her if you'd beaten him with a stick.

Christina and Katie came into the room giving Lena a big hug, they were both thrilled that she was going to be okay.

'So how are you feeling?' Chris asked.

'To be honest?' She asked and Chris nodded.

'I feel relieved and pretty stupid,'

'What do you mean?' Katie countered.

'Well I'm glad that everyone is fine, believe me, but well I feel so stupid for being the only one who got blindsided by that thing.'

Both Katie and Chris laughed.

'What d'you expect? Of course it was you! You can barely walk through your own house without knocking something over. You didn't think it would be Katie or me now would ya?'

Even Dean snickered at Chris' comments.

'Hahaha,' she said sarcastically, 'I'm happy my cracked skull at least keeps you lot entertained.'

Katie and Christina left after their short visit because there was someone else who was dying to see her.

Julie burst through the door and hugged her friend tight.

'I'm okay, I'm okay,' Lena said smiling at the love she felt from her friend.

'You look good,' Sam said hugging her after he had practically dragged Julie of the bed.

'I am, I'm fine, you guys shouldn't stay here, you all look worse than me,'

'Well yeah we didn't sleep twenty-four hours straight,' Dean said.

'Seriously guys, go home and sleep, I'm pretty tired anyway, and if the others are still here you should tell them to go home too. I'll be out here in no time.'

'Are you sure, you don't want me to stay?' Julie asked genuinely.

'I'm fine, why doesn't anyone believe me? Seriously I've had worse.'

All three looked at each other, how could she have had worse? But they let it pass as Julie and Sam left the room.

'Say Lena,' Sam asked before shutting the door behind him, 'where are you from anyway?' For some reason he really wanted to know.

'From everywhere and nowhere,' she said smiling, 'I told you that,'

'No seriously, where were you born.'

'She was born in Antwerp, city of diamonds,' Dean said not looking away from her, surprising everyone but mostly Lena.

'Okay then,' Sam said as he and Julie left.

'How did you know?'

'You think I'd date a girl without a full background check?' he said scrutinizing her.

'Euhm, yeah I think you would, if she has tits, an ass and no facial hair, you're good to go,'

Dean shook his head smiling, his past will haunt him forever.

'Why haven't you ever said something?'

'I figured if you wanted to tell me you would so I was waiting for you,'

'It's not that I didn't want to tell, it's just that I never saw the need to, it's so futile,'

'I know, you don't have to explain yourself, look I don't tell you everything I have been through, I don't see the need for it either. We have secrets and that's just fine,'

Suddenly Lena clutched her head.

'What's a matter? What's wrong?' Dean said pressing the call-button three hundred times.

'Just a headache that's all,' she said squinting her eyes against the sudden onset of pain.

'You should rest,'

'Only if you go home and do the same,' she replied as a nurse came in.

'Sure, I will. Can you do something against the pain?' he asked the nurse.

'Here you go sugar, say goodnight now,' the dark heavy nurse said.

Lena was out before she had the chance to protest.

'Thank you,' Dean said grateful.

'Your girl is right boy, you don't look too fit,'

'I'll manage,' he said rolling his eyes at the nurse.

Dean stayed on the uncomfortable chair after the nurse left, listening to the steady beeps monitoring her heartbeat. After a few minutes the nurse came back in pushing forward an odd looking chair.

'Here a barcalounger,' she said demonstrating that the ugly thing could lean fully back.

'Waw, thanks, I don't know what to say,' he said taking the seat gratefully.

'Say nothing, just rest and don't tell the others, I had to steal it from the geriatrics department,'

Dean snickered as he leaned back and sighed.

'She'll be fine,' the nurse whispered as she softly stroked his cheek, feeling safe he closed his eyes ending up in dreamless sleep.

**********

Lena was released from hospital only a few days later, all her tests came back and the doctors had insisted on her staying another night but she wouldn't hear of it and asked to be discharged.

'Finally, home,' she said relieved, but as she entered the home everything was pretty dark and looked a bit grim, was this the place she called home?

Dean supported her as she was still a bit weak in the knees, he led her to the couch.

'No,' she said, 'let's go upstairs.' A devilish grin came across her face.

'Are you sure?' He asked concerned for her health.

'Look me in the eye,' she said dead serious.

'Okay than,' he caved.

He led her upstairs and put her on their bed carefully kissing her with all the love he could master, he took of her shirt and pants vigilantly, looking at the bruises caused by the fall, tracing them carefully. He took of his own shirt and let her kiss his abs. Cautiously he picked her up and pushed her more to the middle as he climbed on top, his back muscles moving like a panther on the prowl. He looked into her eyes and she could still see the worry and weariness in him.

Their love-making was different than their usually animalistic behaviour, Dean had never been this careful as he kept a watchful eye on her face for any discomfort, but he could only see how much she enjoyed being one with him.

'I love you,' he whispered as she closed her eyes in pleasure.

'I love you too,'

**********

Dean had been up most part of the night, he had laid awake thinking and he had finally come to a decision.

'Morning,' she said still a bit limping from the stiffness in her hips caused by the fall, she caressed his bare back as she passed him to the kitchen.

'Morning,' he replied with an untouched bowl of cereal in front of him.

She came to sit next to him with her own bowl, as she sat down she grunted at the pain in her back. Dean's heart broke that his girl was in pain.

'Spit it out already,' she said after a few minutes of silence.

'What?' he said absently.

'Come on Dean, I know you, there's something on your mind, just tell me and get it over with,'

'You're right,' he replied looking up but not smiling.

'I think we should break up,' he finally sighed, scared for the things that were going to be flung at his head.

But Lena just nodded, pressing her lips together.

'I figured you were going to say that,' she replied reluctantly, pushing the cereal in front of her away.

'I can't have you in my life, bad things are going to keep finding us...'

'... and you'll keep finding bad things,' she added. 'You can't give up hunting, I know, I have known for a long time and wouldn't want you to.'

'What do you mean, I can give up hunting, I'm tired of it anyway,'

'No you can't Dean, I know you, you need the adrenaline, just like your brother, he has talked about quitting many times but it's in your blood,'

'I don't need hunting, but the bad guys will keep finding us even if we do quit,'

'You're lying to yourself,'

'Either way, I can't quit,'

'How hard it is to admit, I feel safer knowing that you and Sam fight to make the world a better place, I would never ask you for quitting,'

'I can't have you in danger, what happened last week is a one time event, I never ever want to see you unconscious again. It kills me,'

'I know it does,' she replied looking down, ignoring the pain that was coming on so swiftly, but this wasn't from the fall.

'Look, Sam has a lead on a possible hunt, I'm leaving in a couple of hours, I wont come back, I wont disrupt your life. You keep the house, it's full of your things anyway.' He said sighing and looking around, swiftly trying to memorize every small detail.

'No, you lived here twice as long as I did, it's your home, not mine. I'll be gone before you get back from wherever.'

She looked up again and was startled when he saw his eyes peering into hers, she couldn't believe how much she loved this man, she didn't understand how in hell she had let it come this far? She loved him with all her heart and now she had to leave him. She swallowed the bile that was clogging her airway. She reached out to touch his cheek, he closed his eyes leaning against the loving hand.

'You think you'll ever find another woman, someone you feel like you can spend the rest of your life with?'

The words hit him hard, he hadn't seen this coming, he went through all the possibilities of his future in his mind but he couldn't find an answer for her.

'No, I don't think I'll ever meet someone like you again, I don't think I'll ever be the guy that gets married and settles down.'

'I hope you are wrong, 'cause you do deserve it, despite what you think of yourself,' she said, 'I hope you find what you are looking for,' she added, kissing him hard on the lips before running towards the stairs ignoring the pain in her body.

Dean put on the shirt that was lying on the chair beside him and his already made duffle was waiting by the door. He grabbed something from the coat hanger and left his house.

**********

Lena tried to stay strong when she heard the door fall into its lock and the Impala skidding off the driveway. She got cleaned up and started packing, her suitcases were under the bed and she actually smiled when she pulled them out. She couldn't believe how long it had been since she last used them, they were probably now out of fashion. As she was putting her clothes in neatly she realized she had accumulated too much stuff and that she would never be able to take everything.

It took Lena three days to figure out what was going with and what she was leaving behind, it took her three days to separate her life from his. In the end she put all the remaining stuff in boxes and carried them to the basement they had never used. She managed to divide her CDs from his and take them with her. She stood in front of the table behind their couch where all their pictures were standing. She didn't want to take the best ones, and eventually decided to take one from their trip to the Grand Canyon about a year ago and one she took of him while he wasn't paying attention and just looking straight ahead. Looking at the pictures she realized how happy they once were and how easy it was. She wished she had never answered that phone call now over a month ago. The other photos of only her, she piled into a box and carried them to the basement, next to all the other stuff.

She had called Julie after she knew for sure that Sam and Dean would be on their way, Julie hadn't guessed it and was shocked and started to cry at the news, she offered to come by, but Lena pleaded not to and said she would come by before she left. And after a long phone call Julie had finally promised not to come over as Lena was sorting things out. So that's what Lena did, the Mustang loaded with her stuff, she went to say goodbye to her best friend.

Julie, hearing Jared pull up, stood in the doorway when Lena stepped out and she ran up to her jumping in her arms.

'Why do you have to go? Why can't he go?' She said furious and angry.

'It' better this way, Julz, you know me, I was never bound to stay here for ever,'

'Why not?'

'You really thought you were going to marry Sam and I Dean and be a happy foursome for the rest of our lives?'

'What's wrong with that?' she said through the tears.

Lena smiled and shook her head.

'Nothing, I guess, it's just not for me.'

'I thought you loved him?' she said analysing Lena's words and looking her in the eyes.

'Don't ask that of me Julie,' she replied getting free from the suffocating hug and turning her back on Julie.

'Didn't you? Aren't you going to fight for him?' she yelled at her friend.

'I still do!' she yelled, 'don't you see, I'm doing this for him! The thought of me getting hurt pains him, I can see it in his eyes every day, if I am not there I take that pain with me!' Lena yelled, finally breaking down into tears, Julie rushed over trying to support her but she wouldn't have it, she kissed Julie goodbye and got behind the steering wheel. Before she pulled out she rolled down the window.

'I'm still your bridesmaid, don't worry.' And she mastered a tiny smile as she looked back and pulled out of the driveway.

She tried to see the road through the tears but they disappeared quickly, she felt alive behind the wheel and she was angry with herself, she had been stuck in that little town for far too long. She needed the road and she couldn't wait to travel again. How could she have fallen in love? How did she let it come that far? She shook her head and put on her shades as the sun was coming in low. She turned up the tunes and let the music take her grief away.

Sucker love is heaven sent.

You pucker up, our passion's spent.

My hearts a tart, your body's rent.

My body's broken, yours is spent.

Carve your name into my arm.

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.

No other box I choose to use.

Another love I would abuse,

No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.

Too much poison come undone.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every, Me...he

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