It took 3 boys to pull Bellamy off Finn, and by the time they had, Finn was unconscious with a broken nose.

Bellamy doesn't remember almost any of it. He remembers Clarke pulling on him and screaming, he remembers Raven in hysteria. But… It's not like he was there.

It was very odd for him, he only felt that kind of rage and out of body experience three times in his life. The day Octavia was arrested, the day he shot the chancellor, the day Charlotte jumped. Other than that of course he got mad, of course he was violent. But, he always had control of what he was doing, he was him, and he knew how to stop. But this had been the fourth time. Everything was a huge blur, he was not himself, and he had absolutely no idea how to stop.

And what scared him most was that like the other times, he had no regret. He didn't feel like a monster, he was one.

But Bellamy didn't care and he wasn't in the least bit sorry. Clarke had been examining Finns nose as they all waited for him to wake up.

"Definitely broke" she said with a sigh.

Bellamy was silent as Raven turned and pushed him screaming. He couldn't blame her for being angry or pissed but he wasn't sorry. He glad he fucked pretty boys face up.

She kept screaming and pushing until he had had it "God dammit Raven quit! You know he fucking deserved it! You know he had it coming! For what he did to you! For what he did to Clarke! For how he lead you both along! You want me to say I'm sorry?! I'm fucking not! His stupidity keeps getting people hurt. His stupidity nearly got Clarke's throat slit on Unity Day! It's amazing I didn't beat the shit out of him sooner! I may be an asshole but at least I know I am! I don't play the poor fucking victim like that asshole!"

Even Raven was silent after that. It was extremely quiet all the way back to camp after Finn woke up. On the bright side, Finn stayed away from Clarke, and Raven and everyone. And everyone stayed away from him. Bellamy was pretty sure that they all feared Bellamy blowing up again and beating Finn unconscious for the second time that day.

Next few days were quiet, Bellamy was more than certain word had spread through the whole damn camp. Everyone always respected him, but it was times like this that everyone feared him.

It was fine by him, it wasn't the first time everyone had been scared of him and it wasn't going to be the last time. Besides, work was easier this way, everyone was especially careful not to fuck up around him…. He had to admit tho…. he was lonely. Raven haven't had talked to him since then made it worse. Everyone was avoiding him, He didn't tell anyone what finally made him beat up Finn, didn't want Clarke to get embarrassed. So Octavia was pretty pissed at him for beating up Finn without a reason… Even Clarke hadn't talked to him. He guessed she was scared too.

Oh well he thought to himself. It was cold that night. He was cold. But it was his turn to guard outside the gate.

Crunch. He points his gun at the noise only to drop it as soon as he sees who it is. "Shit Clarke, trying to get shot?" he breathed.

She puts an orange blanket on him silently and stands next to him silently for awhile.

He can hear her shaking a bit. "If you are that scared of the big bad wolf, go back inside princess."

She laughs. "Big bad wolf? Is that what you think you are? More like a chihuahua."

"A chihuahua…. weren't those like little half rat dogs or something?" He asks in thought with his first smile in days. "No I'm a doberman or rottweiler." Thing were quiet has he looked over to her.

"Whatcha doing out here Clarke." he asked, he hadn't had wanted to because he was afraid she'd go back inside.

She didn't answer as she walked in front of him and gently kissed him on the lips and unzipped her jacket revealing she was wearing absolutely nothing underneath.

He was utterly shocked and confused to say the least. So much to the point that he dropped his gun. But he be damned if he was stupid enough to say anything to make her cover back up. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kept kissing him.

And of course, he kissed back. Not as gently as she had been tho. His kisses were rough like his lips against her softness and full of hunger as he ran his hands up her bare stomach and groped her breast. The jacket was starting to piss him off as he tried to get it off her.

"If that comes off so does your shirt" she breathed against his lips.

"Deal," he said huskily pulling back to yank his shirt over his head and take it off.

He helped her slip off her jacket. She was pink as she looked around. She was worried about being seen, that's why she hadn't taken off the jacket sooner, she hadn't had wanted too.

He smiled, she was so modest, even when she was blatantly trying not too be.

He gently pinned her against a tree and covered her body with his.

"Don't worry fair princess. I won't let anyone see you…." he said smiling, her shyness was so damn adorable he couldn't help covering her up from others.

"Fair princess?" She breathed with a small laugh. "Careful, if someone hears you, they may think you're being affectionate instead of condescending."

"Heh I'll keep that in mind princess." He said as he kissed her neck roughly. Biting and nipping as he trailed down to her breast enjoying all the cute little noises she tried to hold in. She gasped as he gently licked her nipple.

Smiling he takes her nipple into his mouth and sucks, reveling in the delicious little mewls he gets out of her.

This had been the first time he really got to play with her boobs, and he was definitely enjoying it. And she definitely was too by the noise she was making.

"Aren't you wondering why I'm out here?" she breathes.

He sighs and stops, "You mean this isn't just a "You're doing a great job of guarding let's fuck" kind of thing?"

"I know you're not that dumb Bellamy." she replies.

"No, I should have known, you princess always have conditions….What do you want?" He breathes on her neck and presses against her. She can feel his cock straining against his jeans.

"Finn…" She whispers.

Well if that wasn't the biggest boner killer on earth.

"Not him princess, even tho that should be pretty obvious." he replied more than a bit mad. He picks back up his gun and moves to walk away.

"I want… you… to hit him again for me." She says grabbing his arm before he can go.