hey guys. loving some of your reviews.... Yes most of you seem to have gotten it!!! Some of you from memory started getting the clues at the end of Omissions. Well done to those of yu who did!!! But is she really pregnant?

Chapter 4

"Abby! No I am not pregnant."

"How do you know? have you done a test or something?"

"Well, no, but that is just something I would know."

"Come on Ziva, your crazy food choices…"

"Arh, arh, arh," Ziva shook her finger in disagreement. "it was once, the yogurt and chocolate burrito was once, and it wasn't that bad."

"what about the sour worms in ice-cream?"

"Tony told you about that? And you remembered? I didn't even remember that."

"...and this morning when I knocked you as I stood up… you've come up against some pretty big guys Ziva, you've been pretty seriously hurt before but no one has really been able to tell how much pain you've been in. But I brush past your chest and that's when you scream out in pain?"

"I did not scream!"

"You screamed Ziva."

"So?"

"So you've got sensitive breasts Ziva. It's another symptom of pregnancy."

"You are crazy Abby."

"Ziva, you have tender breasts, you have strange cravings and your throwing up at the smell of food."

Ziva gave Abby her patented 'I love you but your crazy' look. "I am sure I am not," and with that Ziva slid past Abby and left her suspicious and perplexed.

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As the day went on, Ziva became more concerned about Abby's accusation. Like most women in this position Ziva kept telling herself that she wasn't pregnant, that she couldn't be pregnant. However Ziva couldn't help but wonder. Was it possible? And what would happen if she was? What would happen between her and Tony, would they get back together just for the child and be eternally unhappy? Or would the child resent them for not being together? Would it be easier to raise a child back in Israel? If she did that Tony might not even need to know. It seemed insane that in the same second she could be convincing herself she wasn't pregnant she was also preparing herself for the fact she could be. She had been throwing up a lot recently, but it was the food poisoning from the cafeteria at the hospital, the shock of her husband betraying her and the lack of sleep taking its toll on her and weakening her body. Her lack of sleep and needing to go to the bathroom all the time, it was starting to make sense. She found it curious that she could amit that there was a possibility and be speculating about her future and her child's yet she was adamit that it was all in her head and there was no way she really could be.

"What?" Tony asked growing tried of her starring at him. He couldn't work out what the deep in thought looks were all about, and why they'd suddenly appeared. It concerned him that he wasn't able to read her, he had no idea what she was thinking.

"what?" Ziva replied.

"that was my question. What are you thinking? Oh god, I don't have something on my face do I?" Tony spun around on his chair and grabbed the mirror he stored in his filing cabinet. "What? What is it? where is it?" Tony turned back around to look to Ziva for guidance. He was surprised to see that she had moved, instead of sitting behind her desk she was sitting on his. He lowered the mirror and a smile grew on his face. Ziva hadn't been this close to his desk in a long time. She rarely moved out from behind hers. "Well hello there stranger." She looked at him, not really knowing what to think, but giving him a dirty look.

"I simply do not see why you are so vain."

"I'm not vain."

"you are Tony." McGee butted in

"Stay out of this McNosy." turning his attention back to Ziva he continued, "So what can I do for you?"

She looked at Tony slyly "nothing." She said as she sauntered back to her desk a bounce in her step to drive him wild. She couldn't help but turn her head slightly to see if he was looking. He was, and that made her happy. She sat down behind her computer, contemplating what her life would be like as a mother and imagined two scenarios, one with Tony, and one without. There was no denying that she loved him, that she needed him, and that he would be a fantastic father, but would she be going back to him just for the baby? Or would she be going back out of love. She almost had to slap her face, and remind herself she couldn't be pregnant. She sat and watched Tony work, she loved to watch him concentrate, he looked so serious and so genuine.

She started to type, 'what are you having for dinner tonight?' she typed into an IM box. She heard Tony's computer chime alerting him to the message and couldn't help but smile herself when she saw how happy it made him to receive a message from his beautiful wife. 'I was going to have Sweet and Sour Pork, I can pick up something extra if I think I might be having company,' he replied. Ziva nearly gagged at the thought of pork, after smelling that bacon today she didn't want anyone around her to touch anything that wasn't kosher like pork. Seeing Ziva's reaction, Tony quickly changed his mind. 'I could make you something else, anything you like.' Ziva sat and contemplated for a minute, while Tony watched and waited eagerly for her reply. Finally she started to type and Tony waited with baited breath to see what she would say. 'I will come round after dinner. We will take it from there.'

Tony broke the silence, "You mean it?"

Ziva just smiled in his directions and nodded her head "I will be there at 9."

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Ziva finished putting her clean clothes on. She straightened her hair and wore it loose then. She looked at herself in the mirror of her hotel room. She glanced down to the pregnancy test and considered more symptoms she had displayed, she'd been desperate for sex, she couldn't say she had received her monthly reminder that she wasn't pregnant and she had a pimple, she never got pimples. She opened the draw and pushed the box into it. She wasn't ready to find out, she needed to know what she thought first. What she wanted to do about Tony.

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