Bella
Edward is my everything. We have been through so much together. He can be very stubborn sometimes, but I love him with all my heart. When we first met I thought he hated me, now I realise he tried to stay away because he loved me and didn't want to kill me. Mike tries to get me to like me, and in a way I feel sorry for him, but I just don't feel the same way about him as I do with Edward. Its sort of the same with Jacob, I know he was with me the whole time Edward left me, but I don't think of him like he thinks of me, and I feel sort of cruel. When Edward wanted to kill himself because he thought I was dead, my heart stopped. If he died, I couldn't live. I found it difficult enough knowing he was somewhere on the earth, let alone not with us at all. I love him, end of story.
Alice has to be the most amazing girl I have ever met. She is my best friend. There must be something about me; I either attract danger or monsters. But life sucks because I can't be friends with Jacob and be in love with Edward, because they both hate each other and Charlie has ungrounded me so that I can spend more time with Jacob, so it makes life very difficult, but I just cannot stop seeing Edward because it tears me apart, I love him too much. But then again I keep seeing Jacobs pained face when Alice turned up at my house, and it hurts me. I just have no idea what to do.
So there it is, I love Edward so much and I just wish that stupid treaty didn't say you are not allowed to bite another human, because if that wasn't there I would be able to be a vampire, and that is my hearts desire, to be with Edward forever and ever, but somehow Jacob cannot see that.
Bella xxx