I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK AND I CANT THINK OF ANY THING TO FILL IN THE DETAILS WHICH IS WHY IT TOOK SO LONG
BUT IT'S FINALLY HERE AND LIKE I SAID PLEASE DON'T FEEL DISSAPOINTED
I JUST LOST MY BRACES AND NOW Im WEARING RETAINERS. SOUNDS OK RIGHT? BUT UNFORTUNETLY I DIDN'T PUT THEM ON FOR THE WEEK AND MY TEETH MOVED BACK SLIGHTLY.
NOW IT HUUUUUUUUUUUUUURTS.
IM WRITING THIS CHAPTER IN AGONISING PAIN OUUUCH
NEXT CHAPPIE
11
Retesu closed her eyes and let the cool water from the shower run over her body and soak into her hair. She sighed.
For the rest of the night after her announcement to Pai, she avoided him. But she had also been aware of how his eyes had not once left her. They followed her frame as she chatted and mingled and his expression had been flawless but his eyes…oh his eyes…they were…
Retesu turned her face up to the rushing water. The expression on Pai's face flashed through her mind. It was the expression that had appeared after she told him she was going to accept Ryoko's proposal.
He had looked so heartbroken, his eyes so sad, like he was the one being betrayed.
She rested her head against the cool shower wall, why did his expression send a sudden wave of sadness through her heart? She touched her face tears were streaming down her face and mingling with the water from the shower. Did she already love Pai this much? And if she did what was she going to do about it?
Pai banged his head against the wall for the twentieth time. Since Kissu had stolen all his sake to keep him from getting drunk ever again, banging his head against the wall was the next best thing.
"Uggg" he groaned and sagged against the wall of his room "engaged…to another. Could Bridget…No…Retesu really do that?" She had plainly admitted her feelings for him, and it was ripping him apart inside to know that he had completely ruined everything with his stupid temper. For his whole life he had waited for Retesu to come back and now to find out that Retesu was Retesu was just too messed up.
The hurt in eyes had almost broken his heart. Pai didn't even know he had a heart anymore. Apparently he did and it was hurting…A LOT
What was he going to do; he knew what he wanted to do, but how?
"Pai, get your head away from the wall and step away from the hard surfaces" Kissu cried out comically as he and Taruto yanked him away from the wall.
"And how will that help my problem" he wanted to yell, instead it came out as a moan "so what she's getting married to someone else" Kissu said pulling back the drawn curtains "get over it, there are plenty of fish in the sea, get out there and find some other chick, you gotta—"
"She's not a fish Kissu!" Pai yelled from the floor "and she's not a chicken either. She's a living breathing human being who I've lost just because I had to be a jerk who took out his anger on some innocent girl" he gasped for breath "what would you feel like if Ichigo and that guy last year, Masaya, had gone out after all?"
Kissu looked down depressed. Last year some exchange student had tried to charm Ichigo. He nearly got her too, till Kissu exposed him for the play-boy he really was.
"Pai get up" Pai looked up to see Taruto looking down at him seriously. Which surprised him since Taruto never looked serious. "Get up and stop feeling sorry for yourself" he walked over to the window seat and sat down, clutching his knees to his chest "Pudding had a fiancé"
Pai stared at him young friend looking so solemn. "Her father arranged it; his name is Ron Yuebin, a martial artist and ten times better then me. He's one of the reasons why I felt like Pudding was off limits to me"
"If your trying to say—" Pai began but Taruto cut him off "two years ago Ron called the engagement off, said he wanted to dedicate himself to his career. But you know the funny thing, even after that I still didn't go after her."
He looked out the window "it took me two years to realise that what was holding me back wasn't her fiancé or her father or anything like that. It was me and my stubbornness, I was so caught up in my popularity and my outer face I wouldn't let myself be happy.
But I managed to get over myself, and now Im contemplating telling her my feelings, I know she will say yes so now all that's stopping me is myself"
He looked back to Pai who was stunned "I was lucky to come to my senses before I lost her. So get up get over yourself and go do something about her before she accepts that dogfish's proposal"
Half of Pai wanted to laugh 'dogfish?'
"Besides, after so many years of depression, you finally show some interest in a girl. This is way to good to end over some silly comment."
"That caught Pai's attention, he was right, it was stupid, he had barley knew the girl when he said those things, but then Retesu. She had looked so stricken so betrayed, like it had happened before…"
"Taruto, I need to find out as much about Retesu Midorikawa, about her personal background, things that don't appear in the tabloids"
Kissu raised his eyebrow "Why?"
Pai stood up and rubbed his head "Because for the first time in his whole life, Taruto is right" "Hey!!!" Taruto whined. Pai ignored and got out his laptop "Im not giving up on her"
Retesu pulled off the towel from her damp hair as she exited the bathroom. The bath didn't help; usually a bath always helped her feel better.
Oh why wouldn't the hurt in her chest go away? This was too much. Pai's face would not leave her mind. She so desperately wanted to believe him when he had said he loved her.
But the last time she had believed someone, she had ended up with a broken heart. She didn't want go down the same road. So why couldn't she forget.
That afternoon she had tried to accept Ryoko's proposal, but the second the words had fashioned in her mind they would not come out in the form of a voice.
Instead she had just run away. Retesu felt terrible.
She sighed for the twelfth time in two hours. She turned to the window and looked up at the moon, glimmering and gleaming in the dark night sky. The moonlight shone down on her lighting up her pearly white skin.
The sight itself would have been so mystifying were it not for the trail of tears that streamed down girl's cheeks as well as the unbelievable sadness that filled her eyes. "Pai" she whispered "why?"
Pai turned away from his laptop, to shocked at what he saw. According to his research, Retesu had gone out with a man by the name of Kaito Yamanaka. The relationship had lasted three and a half years until for some reason he had broke up with her and sold their story to the press.
Pai growled how someone could let a girl like Retesu go and do something like sell their own personal story to the press.
He closed his laptop. Now there was no escaping it, he wasn't going to just walk away and allow Retesu to think he was the same as Kaito and Ryoko. He was going to prove it to her, that she was good enough.
The next day Retesu awake, to the sunlight's gentle, yet strict rays. She had accidentally fallen asleep by the window in her cream blue bath robe, her cheeks covered in dried up tears.
She sniffed and reached forward to unlock to catch on the window. The window snapped open and allowed her to look down on the beauty. Her mother had had a garden planted just outside her window. Her father had of course advised against it, but in this one fight however, the garden had won the argument, and now here it was
The white, pink and blue orchids, the multicoloured roses the sweet smelling jasmine and beautiful cherry blossoms. Retesu loved her garden. When nothing else worked, the garden would always give her some form of peace.
She sighed (again? Man, this girl had breath to spare) she turned her head to the piano, she wanted to play it, but one glance at the clock told her that banging on a piano this early in the morning would not be a good idea. So instead she just turned to the window, deep in thought and sighed. (AGAIN?)
NOW I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD END THEIR SUFFERING WITH THE BIG FORGIVING SCENE I HAD PLANNED, OR PROLONG IT FOR SUPENCE AND INSTEAD INSERT SOME SAD FLUFFY CUTENESS SCENE'S
PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, I WONT POST ANOTHER CHAPTER UNTILL YOU DO