Title: One Month - Second Chapter.
Summary: The days following Andy Darden's death and how it was handled. Mostly Kelly Severide, Matthew Casey, but have all.
Disclaimers: The show is property of Dick Wolfe, and NBC. I don't own anything. Just borrowing the characters to practice my writing. Only thing I own is Season 1 DVDs and they are getting well worn. LOL
A/N: Thank you all for the reviews. So cool someone does like this. Well enjoy.
Scenes in bold and Italic are from the show.
At the Firehouse the next morning. Matthew Casey, is the first to get there and park his truck where he usually does. He sits in the truck for awhile just thinking of the past. He gets out and makes sure his truck is locked as he makes his way to the Firehouse.
Matt, turns as he hears a rumble of a car pull up and stop. It is, Kelly Severide. Matt's eyes narrow as, Kelly gets out of his car and starts toward the Firehouse. They both make it to the door at the same time. Matt, stares at, Kelly as he reaches for the door and goes in first. Kelly, has no choice but to follow.
Matt, heads for Chief Boden's office as Kelly follows. Chief Boden, looks up as he hears a knock on his office door. "Good morning Lieutenants. Just head to the common room and relax till everyone gets here." Chief Wallace says, looking at the two. "Yeah, okay." Kelly says, turning around and heading in that direction.
Matt, steps into the common room and sees that the coffee is ready and waiting and goes toward it and pours some into his coffee mug he finds. He finds a seat and sits down. He feels so tired but he couldn't go back to sleep because he didn't want to see his friend, Andy burn in the flames again. He takes a deep breath of air and lets it out slowly. He looks over at, Kelly wondering if today was going to be a better day. Kelly, looks at the donuts, muffins, bagels, and other stuff set out for breakfast. He glances at, Matt and notices him looking and shoots him a look of loathing. Nope, not a good day.
Kelly Severide, took a seat in a chair across the room from where, Matthew Casey sat in his own chair with his coffee. He took in, Matt's appearance. He looked like he didn't get much sleep and was barely holding it together. Matt, liked to be control in situations because his childhood was so out of control. Deep down he still cares about, Matt Casey, but resentment, grief, and anger gets in the way. He was the type to lash out and say what came to mind and how he felt.
Matt, glanced over at, Kelly noticing his dark look on his face, giving away to the fact that it meant leave him alone. As long as he kept his mouth shut and left him alone as well. He took in, Kelly's appearance and he looked about the same.
Kelly, caught, Matt's watchful gaze and ignored him. Tired and not in the mood to say anything. Matt, didn't want to lose the friendship they both had. The three of them were like brothers. They did a lot together. Sometimes, Andrew, Heather, Matthew, Hallie, Kelly, and a current girlfriend would go out on date night. Those times were the good times. Other times they'd go out to get drinks. Always together, friends, brothers till the end until they lost one of their own. Severide, and Casey would clash on the job sometimes but they moved on and Andy helped calm them both when needed or told them both that they were being idiots.
Now the loss of, Andy might tear them apart, instead of bringing them together to deal with it. Which, Matt felt a adrift, away from his friend. Matthew, was the type to internalize things. Go about like everything was okay when they weren't. He has a tendency to blame himself when things go wrong and he doubly did it when someone else noticed, the same issue whether there was one or not.
Matt, looks at, Kelly with his lost puppy dog expression and opens his mouth like he was going to say something but closes it. Kelly, inwardly cringes as he sees, Matt's look. He should charge for that look. It works so well most times. Kelly thought, raising his eyebrows and shoots, Matt a; What do you want? Look. Matt, just shakes his head and keeps his mouth closed. Kelly, shot, Matt a look of annoyance. Matt, looks down at the floor in the space between them. A loss of words to say to him at the moment.
The others started to show up. "Hey, Casey." Christopher Herrmann says, to his lieutenant. "Hey Herrmann." Matt says, looking up. Soon the room is filled up and everyone is chatting with one another and the room gets noisy. "Okay everybody find a seat." Chief Boden says, entering the common room. Everyone does as told. "Okay this is, Dr. Wayne Keller, he is a grief counselor and psychologist and there are others grief counselors here but we are starting here in the common room as a group. Go ahead, Wayne." Chief Boden says, to the psychologist/grief counselor.
"Hi, everyone. How are you today? I'm, Dr. Wayne Keller. I'm, a former firefighter and at the time, I was living in New York city. I, know what you all must be feeling because I, lost family and friends. September eleventh, twenty oh-one, I lost my brother on that day. It took me awhile to move through my grief at the time. Anybody want to start with telling me about, Andy?" Wayne asked, finding a seat and sitting down.
"I, know I'll, miss him. He had a way about him that made people laugh and cheer up when the time called for it. He was loyal and a damn good firefighter." Chris Herrmann says. "He loved what he did. Saving people. He wanted to be a firefighter since he was a child.. When he made up his mind no one could change it." Brian Zvoneuek says, looking over at Kelly. "I, was so sad when I heard Casey on the radio say that Darden was gone. So shocking and I, couldn't believe what I heard. " Gabriela says, wiping the tears from her eyes.
"I know it is at first hard talking about, Andy but it'll get better as time moves on." Dr. Keller says, looking around the room and his gaze landing on, Kelly. Kelly, looks right back at, Wayne not saying a word yet. A low whisper sounds in the room as everyone strains to hear the words. "We were joking on the way over to the scene of the fire. Andy, clowning around…I talked to, Severide on the radio asking him when he could take, Darden off of my hands. Acting normal. When we got there getting our assignments and doing our job. I… I tried to stop him." Matt whispers, looking at the floor. "What do you mean?" Dr. Keller asked, Casey. "I told him to wait but it was to late, he already broke the window to go into the attic. He told me, "We're good." but there were no vents yet. When I heard there were no vents I told, Darden to wait but it was to late he was already inside. I saw him…I saw him… I can't." Matt says, shaking his head to get rid of the memories of the day before.
"It's okay." Dr. Keller says, looking at, Matt who was struggling with the memories' of the event of the day before. "I knew, Andy since we were in kindergarten. I remember him telling me his name." Kelly says, going back into his memories.
Flashback
"Hi, I'm Andy, what is your name?" Andrew Darden asked his classmate. "I'm, Kelly." Kelly says, sitting on the floor playing with a toy fire-truck making the noises for the toy. "Guess what? I saw a fireman last week put out the fire next door. It was so scary seeing the fire. The firemen got everybody out and they shot water on the fire. I saw they weren't scared and I want to be a fireman." Andy says, sitting next to Kelly. "Yeah. My dad is a fireman and he puts fires out." Kelly says, still playing. Andy, sits next to, Kelly and they both become fast friends. Kelly, shared the fire truck with Andy as the teacher came over and gathered up all the children to teach them.
End Flashback
Kelly, finishes his story of meeting, Andy in school, there was a few sniffles and soft crying around the room. For the next forty-five minutes others talked and reminisced about how they met and worked with, Andy.
Everyone than took a break to either go to the restroom, get a drink or just to stand and stretch. Matt headed outside to get some fresh air. He than saw, Heather park her jeep behind his truck. The children were with her. They all got out of the vehicle and headed over to the firehouse. Heather, sees Matt and heads toward him. He gives her a hug. "I'm so sorry for, Andy." Matt says, looking at Heather. "Thank you so much. It's so hard. I'm, here to tell everyone about the funeral." Heathers says, heading inside with the boys and Matthew.
Back in the common room everyone surrounded Heather and the two boys, Griffen and Benjamin. Kelly, hugged the boys to him as they both ran toward him. Condolences were being said from everyone toward Heather. "Thank you all. I'm, here about the funeral. It is next week. It is going to be a firemen's funeral since he died in the line of duty. I just want to honor him and remember all the things about him." Heather says, grabbing a tissue and wiping her eyes. "Thank you, Heather for telling us. I'm, sure all here want to be involved in remembering, Andy that day and to honor his sacrifice." Chief Boden says, looking at Heather. Heather, nods her head tears falling down her face. She turns toward, Matt and lays her head on his shoulder as he puts his arm around her. To support her. Kelly, narrows his eyes at, Matt holding, Heather.
"Hey, Heather may I talk to you?" Kelly asked, walking toward, Heather. "Sure." Heather says, following, Kelly to his office. "Why do you blame me for, Andy? He made his own choices." Kelly says, closing the office door. "It was always you and him together. He always was saying if it wasn't for you he wouldn't be doing what he loves and he died doing what he loves. IT'S YOUR FAULT HE DIED YESTERDAY!" Heather screams, at Severide. "IT" NOT MY FAULT!" Kelly yells, back as Heather opens the door. "IT IS YOUR FAULT HE DIED! I BLAME YOU!" Heather screams, as Matt goes and checks on the two.
"Hey what is going on here?" Matt asked, walking over to the two people yelling. "NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS, CASEY!" Kelly yells, at Matt. "It is if everyone can hear you two! I say both of you take a deep breath and calm down and walk away from each other." Matt says, looking at two people he cares about fighting in the time that they should stand together. "MATT, GET OUT OF MY FACE!" Kelly says, grabbing, Matt and shoving him back. He stubbles back but doesn't fall. "What the, hell Kelly." Matt says, as the group from the common room follows the loud shouting, except for Gabby, who stays with the children.
'YESTERDAY WAS HELL! IT"S YOUR FAULT THAT ANDY, DIED! YOU SENT HIM THROUGH THAT WINDOW!" Kelly screams at, Casey. "Shut it, Severide." Matt says, in a deadly calm voice staring, Kelly down. "CAN"T HANDLE THE TRUTH, CASEY?! YOU KILLED, ANDY BY PUTTING HIM THROUGH THAT WINDOW! IT IS YOUR FAULT SO DEAL WITH IT! " Kelly shouts, at Matt who didn't move from his spot with a deadly look on his face. Everyone just stood back watching what was going on in shock, not moving or anything. Heather, took a step away as to not to get in the way of whatever that was going on. "Andy, was my best friend and you killed him." Kelly says, while looking at, Matt his words cutting deep. Are we not best friends anymore? Matt thought, still not moving from his spot. The events of yesterday going through his mind as, Matt saw his friend engulfed in flames before his eyes and there wasn't a damn thing he could have done to stop it.
Before anybody can react, Matt launches toward, Kelly his right arm back as he fires a punch at, Kelly and knocks him to the floor. Matt stares down at, Kelly shaking his right hand and yells back; "I'M SICK OF YOUR BULL, SEVERIDE. YOU SHOULD HAVE VENTED THE BACK! FROM NOW ON SHUT YOUR MOUTH I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT! I'M, DONE!"
Chief Boden, was wondering what had happened between his lieutenants as, Matthew storms out of the firehouse. "Oh shit." Kelly says, slowly sitting up. "It's not like you didn't ask for it." Mouch says, as a dark look is shot his way. "Kelly, I hope you're okay but what you did was uncalled for. I'll see you later." Shay says, walking back to the common room, leaving Kelly on the floor. No one moves to help him up they all look at him in disapproval.
Kelly, slowly stands himself, and grabs a tissue to wipe blood from the corner of his mouth. Christopher Herrmann, takes a step toward, Kelly and looks him in the eye and says "How could you, Severide? You all were friends before yesterday. How can you blame a brother? What you done is so wrong. You both should stand together in your grief but instead of facing what you're going through you are trying to hide from it like the coward you are being now. Don't you realize that, Matt might be blaming himself and you aren't helping much my friend. You're just making things worse than they are."
Kelly, watches as Christopher a family man, of four children, which seems to be growing, walks away shaking his head. "Kelly, what in hell is going on? You both seemed fine yesterday before you went to tell, Heather." Chief Boden says, looking at Kelly. Kelly, just stares back in defiance and refuses to answer. Everyone walks away leaving, Kelly to his dark thoughts.
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Outside, Matt Casey is pacing back and forth very agitated. He gets out his cell phone and calls, Hallie, hoping she would answer her phone. Disappointment rushes over him as she doesn't answer. He leaves a message sounding close to tears, "Hallie, I need you now. I need you. Please come to the firehouse. I need you now." Matt closes the phone still pacing back and forth.
What have I done? I punched, Kelly a friend. Are we still friends? Andy, why? Why? Matt thought, still pacing. He quickly headed for the bushes around the back and threw up. He wiped his mouth and stood up. He heads back out to the front as he sees, Heather and the children leave. Heather, gets into her Jeep and leaves. Matt, just stares after the Jeep as it becomes a tiny dot in the distance. He thinks of, Andy, as he slides down the brick wall and sits on the cold concrete. He wraps his arms around his legs and lays his chin on his knees, thinking and not hearing anyone come up to him a few moments later.
"Hey, Matt are you okay?" Chief Wallace Boden asked, sitting down beside, Matt. Dr. Wayne Keller, sits on the other side. "I wish in trying situations people would stick together and not drift apart, like some people do. I don't want to lose another friendship because another friend died, and the other decided to walk away, and blame me when I already blame myself." Matt whispered, tears silently falling down his face. "Matt, it isn't your fault. It was just his time. There was nothing anyone could have done." Wallace Boden says, reaching his arm across, Matt's back giving his friend support.
In front of the three men, there was something unseen but still with them in another realm. Andy Darden, is still with them. I can't leave yet. All this fighting isn't doing anyone any good. I have to help them be friends again. Best friends. Andy thought, looking at, Matt Casey and seeing his sadness etched on his face. He knelt in front of his friend and pushed a good memory toward, Matt to make him smile.
Matt's thoughts were drifting around in his head of his friendship, his "brotherhood" with, Andy Darden, and Kelly Severide. The three of them so close for so long. Matt, smiles, when he remembers the first day he met, Andy.
Flashback
"Andy, look another new guy besides us." Kelly says, to his friend. "Isn't he the one that punched, Ted Griffen for badmouthing his family?" Andy asked, thinking back to the academy. "I, think you are right. I sure don't want to get on his bad side." Kelly says, watching the new guy head into the firehouse and go to the battalion chief's office.
The two friends watch and wait as the new guy is introduced around the firehouse. The Chief brings, the new guy over to them. "Matthew Casey, these two are, Andy Darden and Kelly Severide." the Chief at the time says, as he left the three together and leaves. "Hey, I'm Matt Casey." Matt says, sticking out his right hand and Andy and Kelly shake his hand. "Hi, I'm, Andy Darden." Andy says, smiling. "Hi, I'm, Kelly Severide." Kelly says, looking at Matt who looks determined at doing a good job.
"Hey Candidate Casey, Candidate Darden, and Candidate Severide over here to get some work done." the Lieutenant of the firehouse says, as the three head over. The three get put to work and they all work hard. They even go on calls and learn what to do. The two already best friends find their third friend and they stick together.
End Flashback
Matt, realizes someone is in front of him. "Hallie. When did you get here?" Matt asked, looking at Hallie who is lowered in front of him. "Just now. What are you remembering?" Hallie asked, looking at Matt. "The first day I met, Andy and Kelly." Matt says, slowly standing back up as did, Hallie. The two hug as the Chief and the Doctor leave the two alone.
"Oh, Hallie, it seems to get worse. Kelly is blaming me and I punched him. I don't know what to do. I miss, Andy so much. I guess we both do. I'm, so tired." Matt says, still hugging Hallie to him. "Okay. I'll, follow you home." Hallie says. "Okay." Matt says. Matt goes back in and tells everyone he is heading home. He heads back out and spies Kelly and stops. Kelly is rubbing his shoulder like he is in pain. Kelly, looks at him with a dark look. Matt, than moves on and heads home.
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For the next few days the whole team have a few days off before their next shift. Christopher Herrmann, keeps close to his family and cherishes every moment with them all. Joe Cruz, and Otis, go visit their family to see how everyone is and to hear updates in the grape vine. It seems everyone is like mind and go see family. Leslie Shay and Gabby Dawson hang out together and just do what girlfriends do. They shop.
Kelly Severide, is in a dark place in his grief. He misses his best friend so much and wants to go check on Heather and the children whom he saw born, but Heather made it clear that she blames him solely for Andy's death. He doesn't know how to handle his emotions. His reaction is to lash out and hurt those closest to him. Matt Casey, happens to be that target of his, hurt, anger, and grief. The pain of his injury doesn't help any either. Leslie, tries to help but sometimes he wants nothing to do with that. Night time is the worst, Leslie would know since she has woken him a few times. He has nightmares and wakes up with tears on his face. He blames himself for his friends death.
Matthew Casey, is trying to not sink under his grief. Hallie, is the life raft in the churning sea of what he is feeling. She tries to help him stay afloat. She sees the effects of Kelly's blaming Matt. It isn't good. Matt, is having nightmares and blames himself. He doesn't eat much. Hallie, just holds him afterward and reinforces that it isn't his fault but losing one best friend and the one left behind blaming him takes him to a dark place and he doesn't seem to listen to her when he goes there. She is afraid to leave him. His reaction is to put on a faceted of he is fine but suffer silently. He doesn't share with many people. Hallie, is one of the close ones that he does share his feelings with.
Hallie, gets along with Kelly pretty good but if he continues she may have to give him a piece of her mind. Kelly, had better watch out. Since it has only been a few days since, Andy died, she would wait and see what would happen.
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Everyone is back at the firehouse for their shift. They would be getting calls. Everyone is scared and nervous about the first call. It is quiet that everyone would hear a pin drop. Chief Wallace Boden, calls the two lieutenants into his office. They both just stand in front of him with defiant looks on their faces. Matt Casey's blue eyes sparking cold anger. Kelly Severide's blue eyes shooting hostile anger as he glares at Matt. Matt, just freezes him out.
"Whatever is going on fix it. Get along for the sake of the firehouse. Am I clear?" Chief Boden asked, while looking at his two men. "We're fine Chief. We're good." Kelly Severide says, looking at Matt. "Yeah Chief we're good." Matt says, walking out of the office. They both go to their office to finish up some of their paper work. Both working on the report of their last shift of when, Andy, died.
The work keeps them both occupied for awhile. Until it is all finished. Both head to Chief Boden's office and hand off their reports to him. He looks at the reports and notices that the report of the last shift is finished by both of them. Matt's report reflects what did happen and that he seems fine while in truth he is blaming himself. Chief Boden reads, Kelly's report and hands it back to him. "Kelly, redo your work." Chief Boden simply replies, handing it back to Kelly. Kelly, storms out of the office and heads back to his. He balls up the report and tosses it in the trash can.
Matt, heads to the common room where everyone is and decides that everyone is going to do a drill. "Okay everyone, lets head to the bay we're doing drills." Matt Casey says, to everyone in the common room. For the next hour and a half everyone is doing drills and feeling pretty good about it. Kelly Severide, wonders why it is so quiet and heads to the bay himself.
Kelly, sits at the squad table watching everyone do drills. He has a smirk on his face as, Matt looks over at him. "It's a good thing you're doing drills with your men. So no one else dies under your watch." Kelly says, sneeringly toward, Matt. Matt, gets a cold look on his face as his team stop doing the drills and gather around him. "You should practice your venting than." Matt says, coolly. "Squad doesn't vent. That is your job." Kelly says, his arms crossed on the table. "What responsibly do you take Severide?" Matt says, turning back to his men. The men cleaned up the things that they were doing drills with. "Good job men. Remember I'm here if you ever need to talk." Matt says, to his team as he glanced over to, Kelly.
"What are you looking at?" Kelly asked the other lieutenant. "Nothing much." Matt replies, still looking over at Kelly. "Well take a picture it'll last longer." Kelly says, getting hostile. "I'd be afraid to take your picture. My camera might break." Matt says, turning back to his team. Kelly, gets up from the table as the alarm tone sounds.
A call is coming in. "Truck 81...Ambulance 61...Squad 3...Engine 51...House fire at…" Everyone runs and gets into their gear and heads out. At the scene of the fire everyone is doing their jobs and listening to the Chief and the Lieutenants. The venting is being done and hoses are at the ready as some firefighters are doing search and rescue to find the two children that are left in the fire. "Fire department call out!" Lieutenant Casey yells out. "Under here! Help us." a child's voice calls out. He goes over to the bed and looks under it and find a boy and a girl hiding together. "Okay lets go. I'll help you." Matt says. The two children crawl out from under the bed and run to Matt.
His radio crackles to life. "Casey, don't go down. Go out the window." Chief Boden says. "Copy Chief. Come with me children." Matt says, going over to the window and opening it. The ladder is there with Otis, waiting. Matt, helps the two children out the window and hands them off to Otis. Matt, goes out the window and climbs down the ladder. The Engine 51 team turns on their hoses and shoots water on the fire.
Matt, is with his team as the little girl runs up to Matt and tugs on his fire coat. He turns around and sees her. She is a cute six year old girl with blond hair. He crouches down to her level.. "Thank you so much. My name is, Abigail." the little girls says, giving Matt a kiss on the check and giggling. "You are welcome." Matt says, liking the little girl. She hugs him and runs back to her parents. Matt, just smiles as he stands up and helps his team put things away.
Back at the firehouse everyone is glad everything went okay on the last call. They all clean up and, Herrmann goes to make dinner for everyone. A scary thought. Chief Boden , steps into the common room and looks around at everyone and says, "Good job everyone." He goes back to his office. The squad team are at their table playing a card game. So for now there is peace since the two lieutenants are not in the same room.
The rest of the shift goes well for the men. There are a few calls but everyone seems back in their game. Matt Casey, is in the locker room at his locker. Looking at a picture of, Kelly Severide, Andy Darden , and himself. It was taken not to long ago at a picnic. It was a fun day of just hanging out as friends like to do. He shuts his locker with a little more force than necessary and stands up and walks out of the locker room right into, Kelly who was heading in.
Matt, holds his hands up, he doesn't want to fight, Kelly. He misses him, even though he is right there in front of him. He looks at his friend and takes in how he looks. He looks like he is in pain. Grief shadows his face, at losing, Andy his childhood friend. "Are you alright?" Matt asked, in concern looking at, Kelly noticing him rubbing his shoulder. Kelly, looks back at, Matt and sees a deep sadness in his eyes. He looks like he is losing weight and not sleeping well. "Step off. I, don't need your help. Andy, was my childhood friend. He would be here if it wasn't for you." Kelly replies, in a whisper. Kelly, walks into the locker room leaving, Matt where he stood.
Matt, takes his one hand and places it on his brow, covering his eyes as he leans back on the outside wall of the locker room. Tears silently fall down his face. I should have stopped Andy. Tried harder. Instead losing just one friend it looks like I lost two. Matt thought, crying softly. On the other side of the wall, Kelly hears Matt's soft cries. Guilt seeps in at how he is treating, Matt. I shouldn't be treating him the way I am. At times I just can't help it! Kelly thought, leaning back against the other side of the same wall, where, Matt is.
Leslie Shay, is walking toward the locker room when she sees, Matt crying. She goes over to him and holds him. Matt, wraps his arms around, Leslie still crying. "Oh, Matt. I'm so sorry." Leslie says, rubbing his back in soothing circles to calm him. "Andy, is gone. I don't want to lose, Kelly's friendship. It might already be to late." Matt says tears still flowing down his face.
"Awe…Matt, just give him time." Leslie says, as they step away from each other. Matt, nods his head wiping his eyes dry. "Andy, should still be here. Not me." Matt says, walking away. Inside the locker room, Kelly hears it all. What did he mean by that last part? Kelly wonders, as Leslie steps into the locker room.
"Kelly, I know you lost, Andy. I get that. How you're treating, Matt isn't right." Leslie says, knowing that Kelly heard everything. "I'm trying here." Kelly states, looking at Leslie. "Here." Leslie says, reaching her hand out to Kelly as he takes what she is giving him. Toradol for the pain in his shoulder. He gives his friend a grateful look as she leaves the locker room.
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After shift the whole team went to a local bar to have a drink in memory of, Andy Darden and to just hang out together. Matt Casey, went to just make a appearance, have a drink to, Andy then leave. He doesn't know if, Hallie would come over for the night like she has been or not. He knew he could depend on her forever to be there for him but maybe not as a couple but friends. Unless things got worked out between them.
He is sitting at the bar when he sees, Kelly Severide, Leslie Shay, and Gabriela Dawson come in together. Leslie and Gabby wave and smile at him. He waves back and smiles at the two women. He looked at, Kelly but he didn't even look, Matt's way. Matt, looks down at the bar, a lost and hurt look on his face.
Leslie, saw what happened and hit, Kelly on his left arm hard. "Kelly, go talk to him." Leslie says. "OW! What are you my mother?" Kelly says, rubbing his arm and shooting Leslie a look. "At times I feel like it since you act childish most of the time." Leslie says.
Kelly, looks over at the bar but he wasn't making any promises and he found that, Matt wasn't there. "Go after him." Leslie says, giving Kelly a look. Matt, is heading out as, Chief Boden is coming in. "Hey, where are you going?" Wallace Boden asked, in concern as, Matt rushes past him. "I can't Chief, I just can't" Matt simply states, heading for his truck. Chief Boden, follows Matt to his truck as he slams his hand on his truck. "Matt, what is it?" Chief Boden asks, again. "I'm, fine. It's nothing. I'm, fine." Matt says. The Chief knew that Matt is hiding something because his fine wasn't fine.