I'm a little hesitant to post this because I'm not sure how good it is tbh, but I hope it's okay
Peri and Leela sat there in silence for the longest time, the only sounds being heard were Peri's faint sobs; Leela sat holding her without saying a word, just being there, letting her daughter cry.
"Why?" Peri's small voice said all of a sudden.
Peri's voice broke Leela from her haunted thoughts.
"I don't know" Leela whispered more to herself, but she just didn't know why life had been so cruel, she didn't care about herself, she cared about her young daughter who had her life turned upside down, and all because of her.
A tear fell down Leela's cheek as Peri looked up at her.
"I just want Mum and Dad back" Peri sobbed causing more tears to cascade down Leela's cheeks "You did this" Peri shouted suddenly, pulling back from the embrace, she pulled her knees to her chest, hugging herself, trying to get away from the reality that the person she grew up calling Mum wasn't her Mum at all.
"Peri" Leela reached out but Peri quickly shoved her off, she didn't know what to feel; she felt angry, she felt sad, she felt hate and she didn't know how to handle it all, she was only fourteen; life was perfect until it all came crumbling down around her.
"Get off me, I want my Mum" Peri shouted, not really caring if she woke Rose or Tegan.
"I am your Mum" Leela said, trying to keep her voice down but the cries of Rose started to fill the house followed by Tegan's voice.
Peri just started back at Leela as if what she said was feign to her.
"I want to go to sleep" Peri said without showing any emotion as she turned away from Leela.
"Pez..." Leela whispered but she got no reply so she turned out the light and walked out of the room with one last defeated look at her daughter.
She walked into the hallway seeing an angry Tegan standing there holding Rose.
"Thanks" Tegan said sarcastically as she walked downstairs with her baby daughter.
Leela felt terrible; her siblings hated her and who could blame them.
Walking to her room she saw her alarm clock flashing 2:00am so she crawled into bed, however that night she didn't get any sleep as the thoughts of the last 48 hours filled her mind, going around on repeat.
You did this.
She heard Tegan come back upstairs and slam her bedroom door shut.
As she lay there she thought of Cameron and Ziggy but most of all she thought of her daughter, her parents and Ste; Ste who was lying in hospital as a result of her sharp tongue.
The room was deadly silent and pitch black but sleep didn't come, she was tired but no amount of tiredness would bring her sleep so she decided to creep downstairs.
Being extra careful not to wake anyone she made her way downstairs and went to the cupboard under the sink, finding what she wanted she hoped that it would numb the pain and maybe then she could sleep.
Pulling out the unopened bottle of vodka she unscrewed the lid and brought it to her lips, pausing for a brief second before taking a small sip; the liquid burnt her throat but the burning just helped numb her body.
Making her way clumsily to the couch she sat down, just sitting there with her open bottle of vodka, holding it like it was her lifeline; without Peri, without her Mum and Dad, without Ste and Tegan her life was nothing, they all hated her, at least that's what she thought.
Before she knew it the bottle was half empty before finally she drained the whole bottle; she felt better now though she needed more.
She awkwardly lifted herself off of the couch and made her way back to the kitchen, stumbling slightly as she searched the cupboards for more; finding a half empty bottle of vodka in the back of one of the cupboards.
She sat on the chair in the kitchen now as she drank vodka after vodka until it was gone, but the pain was still there, it was never going to go away.
The image of hate in her daughter's eyes filled her mind causing her to cry; she didn't want Peri to hate her forever.
As she laid her head on the cold marble surface she found herself dozing off, next thing she was being shaken awake by someone.
"Go away" Leela mumbled as her head began to pound, looking up slowly she saw Peri looking at her with a small frown on her face.
She watched as Peri picked the empty vodka bottle up and walked over to the bin, dropping it in with as much force as possible.
"Typical Leela, you're such a mess, why has it always got to be about you" Peri said, getting louder and louder "You wanted to be my Mum, well I'm glad you weren't, you..." Peri trailed off as she blinked back the tears before running out of the house.
Leela got up, forgetting her banging headache she went to follow Peri but Tegan stopped her.
"Leela, stop" Tegan sighed "Just leave her"
Leela stared at her sister; she needed to go after Peri.
"She's hurting" Tegan told her older sister "She's upset, she's just lost her Mum and Dad"
"But I'm..." before Leela could finish Tegan put her hand up stopping her "I know but Mum and Dad raised her, they're all she's ever known..."
"And know they're gone" she added after a moment as a tear fell from her eyes; she missed her Mum and Dad so much but she needed to be strong for Rose and for Peri and for Leela, not that Leela would admit it but she was struggling and Tegan knew that, she knew her sister and what she was like; she wasn't the best at handling these things.
Leela sighed as she went upstairs only to return seconds later claiming she needed to see Ste.