Left speechless, Karma had been standing in the same spot in Amy's room for about twenty minutes. The occasional tear would slide down her face when her thoughts became too intense. Why did Amy hide her feelings from me all this time? Why couldn't I see them? Why does she have feelings for me, of all people?
Her legs were starting to give out from the combination of wearing heels and emotional stress, so she decided to change into a pair of Amy's pajamas and lie down on her bed. She looked up at the stars on her ceiling that reminded her of how badly she needed Amy's friendship. Amy had been the only person she could trust throughout her entire life. Ten years of friendship being compromised because I wanted to be popular. Her mind wanders back to the same sentence over and over. "With a name like Karma, you should be more cautious of your schemes," the blonde's voice echoed in her head over and over. Why didn't I listen?
Amy's feelings weren't the only thing that could compromise their friendship. Karma knew she could only withhold the fact that she slept with Liam for so long. Besides, it just felt wrong lying to Amy, even if it was to protect her. Technically, she didn't know she was doing anything wrong. She didn't know she was hurting her best friend. That won't make it any less painful for Amy when she finds out. Shit, Liam's still here. Honestly, Liam was the last person Karma wanted to deal with right now. Her relationship with Liam was physical and exciting, but if it would hurt the only person on the planet that she has a true, genuine connection with, then she could put him on the backburner. At least until her friendship with Amy was no longer in extreme danger.
She made her way downstairs with smudged makeup and puffy eyes to search out Liam. She saw him across the room, sitting at a table, bottle of champagne in hand. Great, he's drunk, I guess breaking this off will have to wait until tomorrow. She makes her way over to him.
"Hey, Liam, I had a really great time tonight, but I think it's best if you leave now. Amy wasn't so cool with you sneaking into her mom's wedding"
"Oh, I'm sorry, does your fake girlfriend not like me?"
Karma was completely taken aback. How could he have possibly found out about this?
"Liam… what?"
"Enough with the lying Karma! Jesus, everything about you is one big lie! Do I even know who you are at all?"
"I'm sorry," Karma says defensively, "but shouldn't you be happier that, you know, I'm not a lesbian?"
"Get over yourself Karma. Yeah, at first I was into you because you were a lesbian, and of course it was every guy's fantasy to sleep with a lesbian. I get it. I get how douchey that was. But then I connected with you. At least I think I did, that could have been a fucking lie too for all I know. God dammit, who ARE you?"
"I know you're upset and you have every right to be. But I swear, that was the only thing I lied about. Everything else was true! I did it all for you… You wouldn't have noticed me if I didn't pretend to be a lesbian." What am I saying? This is a lie too. Of course I wanted him, but he just came with the popularity. This should not even be my main focus right now. I just feel so bad. How many other people have I hurt?
"How could you even go along with it, knowing she had feelings for you? Isn't she supposed to be your best friend?"
Karma was speechless. She just looked at him with her jaw on the floor, confusion written all over her face.
"Yeah, that's right, Shane told me everything. I don't want to be here anymore. All of this makes me sick. You know, you're the only girl I've ever had genuine feelings for, and it turns out, that girl doesn't even exist. It was all just one big lie."
"I didn't know" Karma weakly murmurs out. Either Liam didn't hear her or just ignored it, because he was gone in the next ten seconds. And that's when Karma lost it. Her breathing was short as she sobbed uncontrollably. Tears ran down her face as she realized all the irreversible pain she caused. Amy was right, Karma had opened a box, and she was feeling the consequences of her actions.
She sat down at the table Liam had been at and put her head down to cry. She knew her friendship with Amy would never be the way it was, and she knew she was going to have to really break Amy's heart eventually. She was just too broken right now to even consider the fact that she could possibly have feelings for Amy. She knew she had just hurt the guy she had been trying to win since this whole ordeal started. Sure, he was douchey, and her feelings for him were purely sexual, but he was still a person, and she had still caused pain.
She heard a clunk in front of her as she raised her head in surprise. She saw a plate with a single piece of cake sitting in front of her. She looked up to see that Lauren had placed it in front of her.
"Cake always makes me feel better," she says
"Is it poisoned?" Karma says in a raspy voice, not realizing how much of a toll this night had taken on her throat.
"Look, Karma, I know you think I hate you and Amy. I don't. You two just annoy me sometimes. A lot of times. Okay, all the time. But Amy is still my family, and you're Amy's family, so I guess that makes us related in some way or another. I heard what happened upstairs and I heard what happened just now. It just really sounds like you need some cake."
Karma managed a weak smile at Lauren and took a bite of the first thing she's eaten in hours. She was grateful that Lauren was here for her, because she hadn't done anything to hurt Lauren. She was one of the only people she could look at and feel guilt free. They ate their pieces of cake in comfortable silence.
