Hi? Ohmygod. I'm so sorry. I was in a kinda crappy place a year ago and had a lot going on. I'm recovering now. I was talking to one of my best friends lady night and she reminded me if writing and I realised how much I missed it. So, I'm back, I guess. I hope.

Now she's gone

And I'm picking up the pieces

I watch you cry

But you don't see that I'm the one by your side

'Cause she's gone

In her shadow is it me you see?

'Cause all that's left is you and I

And I'm picking up the pieces she left behind

I kept my distance from Ty the next day, Lou's words replaying in my head. Maybe he did need space. I hoped that was all it was. So I had to wait for him to come to me... And if was torture. He busied himself with the chores before he finished. I was about to start turning the horses out for a bit while it was fairly nice weather when he finally came.

"Look Amy. I'm really sorry."

i turned around slowly. "I just don't know why you're taking it out on me. What've I done?"

"Nothing. I'm so sorry. I've already lost Kit. I really don't want to lose you as well."

i nodded. "Go and tack Harley up. I'll turn this lot out and we can go for a ride."

He nodded and walked away. I watched him. Had he really said he didn't want to lose me? It was just meant as a friend anyway. I'm fairly sure about it. I led out two horses at a time and was finally leading Spartan out if the barn. I mounted silently and waited. Ty and Harley eventually emerged from the yard and I smiled reassuringly at Ty. I received a small smile in return. It was better than yesterday evening, I guess. We set out on a back trail. It was strange. Yesterday, the silence had been horrible and awkward but today we ride in a comfortable silence. I wasn't complaining or anything. I guess we both needed space.

"Thank you." Ty sighed as we both reached the drive.

"Anytime. Just say when you want to ride." I smiled at him.

"Not just for that. Thank you for dealing with me."

"What? You're my best friend."

I could see him working things in his mind. "Penny for your thoughts?" I said as we dismounted.

"I can tell you want to be more than friends." He sighed. I held my breath, waiting for the 'but'. "But I just can't at the moment. I want to as well but I'm just so afraid to trust anyone again."

I nodded. I understood fully. "Well I'll be here waiting when you're ready." I smiled slightly, touching his arm be of releasing spartan into the barn.

I know. I know. It's not very long but I'm working it up again. And we're nearly at the peak of it. Can't wait! On another note, April this year, I got my first pony. Well, he's on loan to the owner of the yard who's loaning him to me. But no one else rides him and we're practically only paying for livery anyway! So that's exciting. Finally experiencing real horsey experiences! Such as racing one of my horsey friends through an open field yesterday. There was no gate so we were like we not and just went galloping around. It was brilliant!