Witch-Bitch

Disclaimer: Only the strangers herein are mine.

Author's Note: this is complete AU

Author's Note: I'm going to be adding more 1st POVs, so names will be used from now on.

Note on Fonts:

Bold- definitions, TBC, Text (Mobiles/Cell phones, Books, Signs, etc)

Italic- present thoughts, dreams, emphasis, lyrics, memories

Underlined- chapter title, POV, etc

Chapter 13: Words Don't Really Mean Anything

Kai's POV

her arms went around my neck, her legs wrapped around my waist, scooting herself closer so that our chests touched. This left my hands free to move up her thighs and rest on her hips, and then around her back till I was holding her in a tight embrace. I could taste the faintest trace of chocolate on her lips.

It was enough to keep holding them with mine, to feel this sensation of surrounding the uneven bows and tracing them with my tongue. But then just as I opened my mouth again, hers opened, and we entered a new level of heaven. I held her tighter, feeling my fingertips dig into her skin, and hers pushing in my neck.

And then it suddenly stopped. It was like her body had seized up, the second before an electric shock because she broke away, unwrapping her legs and putting her hands on my chest, pushing me away weakly.

"no, this isn't right," she said breathlessly. I was taken aback.

"what?" I said in disbelief. She shook her head slowly, closing her eyes.

"this isn't right," she repeated. "it's not true. This is… this is just, the confusion, the relief at the peace we found yesterday. we don't really feel…" she pushed against my chest again.

"we don't feel? How can you say you don't feel this?" I demanded, trailing the skin of her hips with my thumbs. She shivered at the touch.

"this can't be happening," she said anxiously, her fingers gripping my shirt. I leaned into her space and she drew back immediately, looking like a cornered animal.

"it is, Becky. There is something happening between us, right now. don't deny it-"

"no!" she cried out, shoving me back with frenzied strength. She half-fell, half-stumbled off the counter, and then she was running, slipping on the tiles, and I heard her rapid steps up the stairs and across the floor, and her door slamming closed.

I stood there frozen. I didn't know what to do. Not about this. I picked up the bowl of dough and put it in the fridge. I started cleaning up.

Rei's POV

"what?" I asked, completely doubting what I had just heard. Maybe I was hallucinating. What was Tessa doing here anyway?

"seriously Rei. I thought you knew the rules, I thought that you knew our purpose well enough… Gods, I should have seen this," she said in exasperation, squeezing the bridge of her nose with her fingers. She started to walk away from me. I stood there, still shocked.

"come on, Rei. I don't have a lot of time." I hurried after her.

"Tessa, I –"

"I am not Tessa. This girl is Tessa, my temporary conduit. What were you thinking?" she asked me, abruptly spinning round to halt me in my tracks. "you directly involved yourself in her future, theirs! Do you realize how that's affected the balance? And now, you've totally closed yourself from seeing and she's hurting, as well as Kai." She started walking again.

"but-" I tried to object, but she stopped me with a held-up palm.

"don't try to justify this, especially not to me. You knew! How are you going to fix this? You know the time is drawing close…" she trailed off in thought. How could I object to the things she said? They were all true, and I knew that I shouldn't have done it, knew I shouldn't have acted on it. But…

"we all know she's special, Rei. But you signed up for this." She sighed, stopping in front of my car. She turned to face me and leaned against the bonnet. "you have to rectify this. I'm at a loss." And then she started fading, slowly turning transparent.

"and you have to do it now. can't you hear her pain?" she was gone. At her last word, I shoved aside my anger and opened my inner soul outwards. It hit me like a fist in the stomach and I had to hold myself up by the hood of the car.

Becky's POV

That didn't just happen... But it did! I pressed the pillow tighter around my face. Just when things were slowly starting to work, make sense… another barrier to my life. his feelings… what had I done to have the two major characters in my life feel that way about me? I kicked my mattress in frustration, feeling the tears soak the pillow.

I wasn't sad, I was angry, confused, frustrated, because I didn't know what to do. I couldn't talk to anyone, because no-one else knew me like Rei did, no-one understood what I gone through, seen it all. How could we get past it? And I groaned in my head as I thought about Kai, and what we had done…

they're great kissers. I jerked my head away from the pillow, shoving myself upright. Great, now my thoughts were against me? I punched the pillow, feeling no satisfaction. My ears suddenly perked up at the faint sound of knocking on my door. it can't be, I heard him go outside.

"Becky?" I looked up and sighed. You're really jerking my chain, aren't you? "can I come in? I understand if you don't want me to." He was silent on the other side, and so was I. I preferred the barrier of wood, then he couldn't see my face red with tears, and I wouldn't see those gold eyes of his.

"how did you get in?"

"I climbed over the fence and snuck in," he answered immediately. Where's Kai hiding? I rubbed my eyes irritably. "Becky? We need to talk."

"not now, Rei."

"yes, now. I need to explain why…I did what I did," he said softly. I sighed again. There was no way of getting rid of him, he was as stubborn as a boulder in a river.

"fine." the door opened slowly, and then he stepped hesitantly into my room, shutting the door behind him. I steeled myself for any sudden movement on his part.

"may I?" he said, indicating my desk chair. I nodded and he squeezed himself into the small chair that was normally huge to me. And then there was total silence. Awkwardly, I broke it.

"so why did you?" I asked quietly.

"isn't it obvious?" he sighed. "that's not what I meant to say." I hugged the pillow to my chest.

"then what did you mean? you have to explain, Rei, because I was just the Truman in your show, okay? I've never seen that part of you, you've always been my... " I knew my next words were going to hurt, but I had to say them. "…brother." He winced, just like I knew he would.

"I know. I just…" he ran his fingers through his long fringe, looking like he was thinking long and hard about what to say. "I just…" he started again.

"what?" he looked up at me.

"I care about you. and… I do love you, Becky." My heart skipped a beat. He turned his gaze away, looking at the sunlit blinds. "and yesterday, when you were so helpless , it overwhelmed me, this… feeling of wanting to protect you, hold you, show you that someone cared. And my emotions got the better of me, and I got carried away." He looked back at me. I knew my eyes were wide in amazement, or shock, I didn't know which one was better.

"I know you'll never see me as anything more than a big brother. And I can live with that, as hard as it's going to be. I just want you to know that I'm here for you. I still want to be your friend, I still want to care for you and protect you, and make sure you find what's best for you. please forgive me. Don't shut me out, please," he begged, leaning forward in the chair.

What should I say? I didn't know if I would only ever see him in the same light again. Was it never going to happen again? What if I wanted it to? I pulled my fringe with one hand.

"Becky?" I heard him ask in worry. I looked up at him and smiled thinly.

" you don't decide what I do, Rei. I can forgive you, because you were there for me, all these years. And I won't shut you out. But you don't get to decide what I feel…" feel… that stupid word was back again to haunt me and my decisions. I rubbed my eyes furiously. I heard him exhale loudly.

"but I won't let you act on them, alright? There's someone better than me waiting for you," he said sadly. And that just set off the tears again. He got up and sat next to me, putting his arm around my shoulders.

"tell me what happened."

"let me finish crying, alright? And then I'll talk," I said, sounding as defeated as I felt.

Kai's POV

I heard them talking as I entered my room. I don't know how he got in, and I didn't really care. I felt the green bite of jealousy as I grabbed up my clothes and toiletries. How could they make up so easily, and I was left in the dark? Feeling completely frustrated, I started downstairs to use the ground-floor bathroom.

I had nothing to do, nothing to stop my thoughts fighting what was happening. What was going on in my head? Why had I lost control then… I mean, why- I shook my head. Was she right? Was it just an extreme reaction to last night? I slammed my stuff down onto the counter. I didn't believe it.

She had responded to me, I could feel it. There had been feelings involved, we had connected. For god's sake, she had trapped me with her arms and legs! I didn't know… if there was anything further to it. I looked at my reflection for a while, just staring at myself and considering what I could give her, if I pushed it and she let me.

Picture it, Kai. You and her, on a date. What Tala's expression would be. What everyone would do. Would you really risk a possible future for what you felt just now? I rubbed my neck at the tension I could feel building. Both sides of my reason were telling me to go for both. I sighed, forcing the air through my teeth. I stared at my reflection.

You have to choose, Kai. And soon… or else the chance is going to slip through your fingers.

Rei's POV

Inside, I was forcing my anger aside. They had done it… they were on the path, at least. Forgiven each-other of the hurts of the past. And then Kai made the first move. If only Becky wasn't so terrified of being close to anyone. I made to pull a wet strand of hair away from her cheek, and there was a slight flinching back from me, but she let it.

Don't slip back there, Becky.

"Rei? I don't know if… he was genuine last night, I'm sure of that. But… you tell me, because my brain feels like sludge right now." she sighed, wiping her eyes with her sleeves. "are you sure…?" she asked timidly. I shook my head.

"no," answering the silent question, knowing exactly what she was referring to. She sighed again.

"you know , it would be so much easier with you. I know how you feel, and your intentions-"

"no Becky. We've talked about this already." she huffed at me.

"spoilsport."

"no, big brother." Gods, it hurt saying that.

"fi-ne. give me your take on this mess I got stuck into." I sighed. I'm stuck in this mess too, you know.

"you had feelings for him, before that day," I said bluntly. "and he must have feelings for you, because I remember the days before the party, and he was the Kai I remembered." She knuckled the exhaustion from her eyes.

"great…"

To be continued…

PO: bad ending, I know, but it was getting long-winded and really annoying

Zicky: yeah, save her from annoyance of herself