Hey heres my new update again sorry for the delay, if anyone has done art as option they will understand! Okay well here's where my fic picks up pace but i hope you like it anyway, I cant wait to write my ending im very excited. Il try and let guess how its going to be concluded...
Ronnie simply stood facing the door for what seemed like hours, it was as if much longed after memories of the past had frozen her solid to the spot amongst her buried iciness and bitter judgments. How dare he just go and do that, after all this time Ronnie angrily thought in the midst of her statued situation, she couldn't believe that the reason he lead her door was to do that and whilst thinking, she accidentally found herself raising her warm wary palm and lightly stroking her lips tenderly. The feelings that were erupting slowly throughout her scared her if she were honest, no one since Jack had made her feel quite like this. No, it was just goodbye kiss - for old times sake, even if it did mean something, which it didn't, it meant more to him than it had for me Ronnie tried her best to shake off these much unwanted feelings before she began heading back through to kitchen.
"You were nice to him weren't you, you said goodbye at least?" questioned a frantic looking Danielle as soon as Ronnie re-entered, "Er yes, of course I was" she lightly laughed "And don't worry we said goodbye" Ronnie added chuckling and she lightly stroked the side of her daughters cheek in reassurance. "Can we go to bed now I'm shattered, especially after that train wreck we were on earlier" Ronnie would've truly loved a tour of Danielle's childhood home but she felt with Andy overlooking them now wasn't the best time. "Yea, Il show you your room - night dad" replied a rather happy looking Danielle and with that she eagerly led Ronnie upstairs.
Two days had passed since her run in with Joel and still Ronnie could not get him off her mind. And it was killing her. I don't feel like this, this isn't how I am - at all Ronnie turned over on her side in frustration at herself and glanced at her alarm clock beside her bed. It was only half eight and already sunlight was seeping through the pale pastel green curtains, this was her last day in this house and for Ronnie it had felt an eternity. She had however surprised herself at how absorbed she had become at looking around anywhere she could and soon little miscellaneous objects had found themselves having questions asked about them. Ronnie sighed as she rose from her bed sheets, packing had to be done and plus there was one more thing she had to ask questions about and this little thing had proven to be quite puzzling even to her. I have to ask, its not that I have or need to know why but I would simply liketoo- that's all Ronnie could no longer wait, she had to get up and resolve this - once and for all, after all this niggling irritation was the one thing coming between her and Danielle . And it was a growing niggling irritation. Since the incident as Ronnie had labeled it two days ago, she had been feeling incredibly uncomfortable and cautious even when she just was standing near Danielle, it was literally as if she wore a huge stamp on her face declaring a seeming betrayal of trust between them.
Quickly getting dressed and wiping her make up from the day before off and generously re-applying it back on Ronnie stroked herself down and scrunched her hair up. There she hopefully thought Already and totally set to face this Ronnie grabbed her coat lying on the end of the bed and scurried down the stairs, "Danielle- which room you in?" shrieked Ronnie hurriedly. She knew it was only nine o clock in the morning but while she had been staying she had noticed Andy and Danielle were always ready and up by seven, so it came to no surprise when she had heard the distant sound of voices chatting away. As Ronnie hastily entered the kitchen at full pelt she darted her eyes for bodies but to no avail. She glanced at the CD radio that was turned on at full blast on the counter, squinting she vaguely make out writing on a post it lying at the bottom of it. Making her way nervously to counter top she began to read the message "Morning Ronnie J hope you slept well, me and dad went to pick up some groceries before we leave, left at nine be back before eleven - Danielle X".
So thought Ronnie as she grabbed the note and placed it somewhere different so Danielle would notice she had read it, if them two are off so am I. Ronnie grabbed her handbag of the oak wood dining table and sprinted through down the hallway, her watch read 10.05am, that gave her ample time she figured. She stopped warily at the giant mirror that lay strategically placed at the main doors entrance, Ronnie looked a little tired and sure her hair could be slightly more shiny and hair nails could've been done, but given the circumstances she looked great. Reaching for the door knob Ronnie sighed as she clicked the catch and the door swung effortlessly open, suddenly she gasped, a blazing thunder of a door bell ringing entered her ears - it was as if she was a prisoner trapped in her own guilt and she'd just been busted.
"Please- please don't let it be Danielle or Andy" Ronnie found herself saying as she braced herself. She opened the porch door in a hurry and almost fell over backwards at the guest facing her "Oh Joel!" Ronnie gasped "I thought we were meeting you at twelve to say goodbye bu-" she was quickly cut off by an anxious sounding Joel "I have the photos Danielle asked for at lunch yesterday, shame, you should've come with us -" he remarked holding up a bulging envelope and taking one step forward " Can I come in I thinks its starting to rain?-". Ronnienodded gently, well if he came to her - sure, this is definitely not a problem she thought to herself cockily and Joel lovingly smiled back as if she had just given him a present.
Ten minutes later and after much silence whilst sitting in the lounge, Joel bravely spoke out his true intentions in coming "So listen I was thinking - or wondering really, was it the fact I kissed you the other day that made you not accompany Danielle - because if it was Ronnie I'm sorry - really I am, its just it's you and you look wonderful by the way-" he paused gesturing his hand up and down at her "-And I know how your returning to Walford today and I was going to suggest I make myself more of a regular over there - you know - to get to know Dani".
"Well er if that's how you feel and if that's what you think would be best who am I to say otherwise" replied Ronnie sheepishly glancing at the clock, she shuffled a bit closer to Joel continuing to smile she had to know how she felt.
"Look Ronnie I've truly -" Joel was instantly cut off by Ronnie effortlessly giving in to temptation, she heavily locked together his lips and hers, Ronnie herself couldn't believe what she was doing. She cautiously opened her eyes mid kiss to see Joel's firmly closed seemingly enjoying the moment just as much as she was, this feels so right, I know it really shouldn't be like this, but - and I know what Roxy or even dad would say - but screw them this man knew me so well all those years ago. Whats the harm?
"Do you want to go upstairs I think we have some time before they get back-" Ronnie whispered warily, not really wanting a reaction back that could possibly reject her.
"Sure" Joel heavily sighed, slightly laughing in shock and a little bit in angst " Although -how much time do we have anyway" he added winking.
Ronnie smiled in response and made it quickly fade and turn serious " Oh erm I think we have just about enough".