Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight…sucks..

*This is changing from T to M rating. Just wanted to warn you guys! 3

A/N: Hi guys. I wanted to thank you all for your patience and well wishes. Some of the drama has dimmed, and I am adjusting back. My best friend, 'theviolinvixen', has been a godsend. A lot has gone on. I won't bore you all with it. Warning, this chapter is a bit of a turning point in the story, so expect commotion. ** Extended A/N at the end!** I won't keep you from the chapter any longer…Enjoy.

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"Bella…" My eyes remained closed as I listened to the sounds of my calming heart. The whooshing sound echoing in my ears and through my veins. I slowly opened my eyes, blinking slightly at the somewhat harsh florescent lights, taking in the room around me.

The room was neatly decorated, abundant in furniture that gave the room its appeal. The walls were painted a tasteful beige with gold and green accent pieces surrounding the room. Good enough for Cullen standards.

I turned my attention to the vampire perked lightly above my shoulders on the bed. Emmett had his gazed turned downward and appeared to be watching me through his lowered lids.

"You okay?" I nodded my head but maintained eye contact with him. His eyes were the same liquid gold color that Edwa….All the Cullens had. It seemed like forever since I had looked into the topaz beauty…Only this time, a different soul peered out of them.

"So, Austin Powers or do you want to see what's on cable?" Emmett snapped back to his cheerful self and jumped up from the bed.

"Well, as much as I love Austin Powers…Can we see what else is on?" Emmett was offering me the remote in a matter of seconds. It seemed one moment his hand was empty, the next it was extended with the remote. I didn't think I'd ever get used to the vampiric speed that the Cullens were capable of.

I sat forward slowly and accepted the remote. While flicking through the channels, Emmett got up and disappeared into the kitchen, returning with a bowl of vanilla ice cream, just as I had settled on a channel.

For a couple of hours Emmett and I sat in a comfortable silence, laughing along with the crazy antics of Family Guy and re-runs of Moonlight.

"Freezers?! Sleep in a freezer, come on! I can just see Alice trying to decorate hers." Although, while I thought lusty thoughts about Mick St. John, Emmett found him to be hilarious, along with the other vampire 'facts' they had wrong.

"God! Why isn't he with Beth? Beth should just ignore him if he's going to act like that. He's so damn petulant. Like Edward. Always so moody about every…." Emmett realized his mistake and abruptly halted.

"Shit, Bella. I'm sorry. I didn't even realize...fuck! I'm a idiot." I sucked in a breathe at the use of his name. As much as it always left a sharp pang in my chest, I couldn't be upset with Emmett.

"It's fine, Em. I'm alright." He didn't look entirely convinced but seemed to accept the answer anyway, focusing his eyes down in shame at his misstep. I doubted I looked complete unaffected by the slip up, and felt mildly angry with myself for disrupting my good time with Emmett, because of his damn name!

With waves of anger flowing through me, I for the first time since he left, thought about it. After all he did to me, it wasn't fine. Every little memory that sharply cut through my mind, instead of leaving pain, left anger. I was infuriated.

"You know what?! It's not fine…Does it hurt him to say my name??!! To hear it?! Does he fucking think about me and get stabbing pain and chills. WHILE HE'S FUCKING HER, DOES HE SPARE ONE DAMN THOUGHT FOR ME?!!!" Emmett looked utterly shocked, more so than I have ever seen, vampire and human alike, to my outburst. But I refused to stop, it felt good to let it out. Like sucking the poison out of heart. My soul.

"ALL THE TIMES HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME! EVERY KISS AND EMBRACE! ALL OF IT!! While it cuts me, I bet he gets to just forget it, to float right over it!" I leapt up from the bed to stand, clenching my fists…but I still wasn't finished. It felt like a volcanic eruption. And I simply couldn't turn it off.

"DAMN HIM! I was going to give up EVERYTHING for him. I gave him my heart, my mind, and my body… And he threw it in my face! LIKE IT WAS NOTHING…HE HURT ME SOO BAD." Gasping, I continued my rant, fueled by thousands of pictures and scenes of him and I in my mind, every little kiss, words, all of it…

"WHY?! Why did he bother to save me from the van, if this is what he was going to do me! If this is how much he cared... URG! Well, FUCK YOU EDWARD!" It was the first time since he left me, that his name had left my mouth.

"Well, Edward was right about some things. HE REALLY HAS NO SOUL. HE IS A MONSTER! And I wouldn't save him if I could. Rose can have him. They both can go RIGHT TO FUCKING HELL!" The shrill of my loud voice reverberated off the room, seeming to echo at me. I stood there panting, my nails digging into the flesh of my palm, and the remnants of my anger coursing through my veins.

Emmett sat there staring at me. Seemingly shocked into immobility, his mouth literally hanging. While I tried to rein in my anger and control my breathing, I recognized the lessening of the painful numb I was so used to.

"Bel…Bella?" Emmett was slowly coming out of is coma like state, gradually processing all that I had just laid out. Within seconds he was up, embracing me in his muscular arms, shuttering slightly. Emmett had burrowed his face into my hair, and was panting too, although it felt rougher coming from his enormous frame.

"They hurt me too." Then it was silent as we held each other, comforting as best as we could against the pain, betrayal, and anger we felt.

A/N: Aww. I love Emmett. This was needed for Bella and Emmett to start their journey on leaving the past pain behind. Hopefully, the next update won't take nearly as long. Please forgive me for typos and mistakes, no beta and just me and Mr. Spell Check. My dad's passing was not entirely expected or unexpected. He didn't really take great care of himself, but my step mother's behavior was like lemon juice and salt on the wound. And it really put me in a writing rut. Anyway, in happier news; Please read Rescue Me and Rescue Me Outakes (which I star in with Seth), By venomous gal *on profile* Also, poll on profile too! Vote for your doctor Cullen! Thanks for reading and reviewing. I truly 3 you all! As always, EmmettsTeddyBear