Part 3.
Damn it! Naruto thinks as he hovers over the toilet again to throw up for the fifth time that morning. What's wrong with me?
The morning after his breakdown Naruto had managed to gather himself up again. It has been over a month since his make-out with Sasuke and he has been throwing up every morning for a couple of weeks. Naruto still didn't return to Konoha since he got so close to Sasuke and didn't want to give up on his search.
Maybe It's best that I do head back... I've never been this sick before and I doubt it's from a broken heart. Baa-chan is gonna get worried to if I stay away much longer. I don't have any lead on Sasuke anymore ether anyway.
Naruto stumbles on his feet to pack his stuff for the way back. He checks out of the inn and skips breakfast, knowing he would only throw it up, as he rushes out of the small town towards Konoha. Once he's in the forest he activates Kyuubi chackra mode. Even with the use of Kyuubi's chakra it will take him another month to get back. Due to the morning sickness and the sudden hunger attacks it takes him even longer to get home. Finally, after a good four and a half month away, Naruto returns to Konoha. Not in the mood for his friends or putting on a fake smile for the villagers, Naruto teleports straight to Tsunade's office.
"Tsunade-baa-chan I'm ba-" Naruto's loud announcement is interrupted as a book hits him straight in his face.
"You're late, brat!" Tsunade says sternly, standing behind her desk. "Three months top, Naruto, it has been nearly five!" Naruto scratches the back of his head and grins nervously as he listens to Tsunade's lecture.
"I'm really sorry, obaa-chan. I just kinda got delayed..." Tsunade notices how Naruto's smile disappears and can see the sadness in his eyes.
"Did something happen?" She asks as she walks around her desk and leans against it.
"Well, T-there were these people who told me they had seen Sasuke. They lured me into a trap b-because they wanted Kurama. T-they said that I was to yo-young and inexp... D-damn it…" Naruto says as he tries to wipe his tears away, but they just keep coming. "Why am I crying?" Naruto chuckles softly in a week attempt to laugh it off.
It pains Tsunade to see him like this. Naruto normally never showed his tears and she can only guess that the reason for these unstoppable tears is that he didn't find Sasuke again. She guides him to a couch in her office and sits down next to him. After a bit Naruto gets to calm down.
"What's wrong with me?" Naruto asks while holding his head in his hands. "I normally have a lot better control over my emotions. I've been throwing up a lot and yet I sometimes can't seem to stop eating. I'm confused. Why am I acting like this?" Naruto looks at Tsunade with his last question and the Hokage can see the desperation in his eyes.
"Hmmm..." Tsunade closes her eyes as she thinks over what Naruto told her. Taken all those symptoms he told me I can only think of one condition but that wouldn't be possible... right? Maybe he's just stressed out. People eat a lot when they do but throwing up isn't a logical combination. Not to mention that Naruto's emotion are a total mess... I've got to examine this better. Tsunade opens her eyes and stands up. "Before I draw any conclusions I want to examine you better. Come." Naruto quickly stands up and follows Tsunade out of her office.
In the halls they pass Shisune who is holding a pile of books and paper.
"Ah, lady Tsunade, Where are you going? These papers need to be signed and preparations for the upcoming Chuunin exams need to be discussed. The raven haired woman says while silently pleading Tsunade to think about her work.
"That can wait. I've got more important things to take care of now."Tsunade answers without slowing her phase or even look at her assistant.
"Lady Tsunade!" Shisune calls out but scowls as she sees that Tsunade had already turned the corner. She sighs deeply as she makes her way to her bosses office with Tonton following her and agreeing with her complains.
"Here." Naruto says as he hand the small, closed bottle with his urine to Tsunade.
"Thank you. Now sit over there and wait till I come back. And don't touch anything!" Tsunade says sternly before she goes to another room.
"I'm not a child." Naruto mumbles and pouts as he sits back in his chair with his arms folded. Alright, he did cause trouble three years ago, but that electronic bed just asked to be played with! And that wind blowing thing felt really good at that hot day. And come on, that bleeping machine just looked as a freaking game console! Anyone would mistake it for that. A devious smile spreads on Naruto's face as he remembers the moments and the historic way the nurses had reacted.
His thoughts are interrupted as the door opens and Tsunade calls him in. She gestures him to take of his shirt and lay to down on a bed with a tv-screen and a laptop next to it.
"This will be cold but bare with it." Tsunade says as she smears the cold jelly liquid on Naruto's stomach. Tsunade looks at the laptop and frowns, causing Naruto to get uneasy and concerned.
"E-everything alright?" He asks unsure and swallows after. Tsunade can see the concern in his eyes and pulls out a cloth to clean Naruto's stomach while she closes the laptop with her other hand.
"Naruto, I need to ask you something personal and you have to be honest with me." Naruto sits up and sways his legs over the edge of the bed as he cleans the rest of his stomach himself. He fears Tsunade's question, not knowing what to expect, but nods. Tsunade takes a deep breath and looks Naruto straight into his bright blue eyes.
"Have you been intimate with someone?" Naruto's eyes widen as he gasps for air. He doesn't know how to answer or react.
How does she know? Should I admit? If she knows it was Sasuke... No! She can't know that! Naruto panics on the inside and Tsunade can see it.
"Naruto, you can trust me. I might be Hokage but in first place I am a medical-ninja and the patients privacy stands above all. Whatever is said between us, will stay between us." She takes one of Naruto's hands in hers and looks at him determinedly. Naruto nods as he tries to hold back his tears.
"Yes..." He whispers with trembling voice. Tsunade nods and strokes Naruto's hand.
"Can you tell me his name or how this happened?" Naruto shakes his head quickly at Tsunade's question.
"I-I don't remember. I was really drunk so... I don't think I hated it. I just don't remember... Wait, what makes you think it was a guy?" Naruto says, hoping Tsunade will fall for his excuse. Tsunade takes a deep breath and lets go of Naruto's hand while leaning back.
"Naruto what I am about to tell you will be hard to believe. I think you can get more answers out of Kurama but listen to me now. Naruto, it appears that you are pregnant." Naruto can't do anything else then just stare at her. A silence settles between them till it's broken by Naruto's soft chuckling.
"I am what?" He asks unbelievably.
"Pregnant, Naruto. I couldn't believe it ether so I ran the tests over and over again but they all had the same outcome." Tsunade shows Naruto four strips that say he's positive. "Just now I scanned your stomach and it appears your body has adjusted itself on carrying a child. I think Kurama has to do with this." Tsunade looks at the young man in front of her. She knows this must be really hard for him to take in. Especially since he doesn't even know the other guy whom he did it with. As far as she knows he could have raped him. Naruto stares in front of him with many thoughts running through his mind.
I'm pregnant? Is this some kind of joke? From that one time? That one night? I carry another life inside of me? I carry Sasuke's child?! Suddenly the entire meaning of being pregnant and the consequences hit him full force. "But I'm a guy! How on earth am I supposed to give birth?! How am I supposed to take care of a child?! I can hardly take care of myself! I never asked for this! It was just one night! How could this ever happened?! Everyone will think I'm some kind of freak! Why is- How come- This isn't- how am I- Why-!" Naruto lets himself fall to the floor where he cries in his hands. Tsunade quickly kneels down to hold the trembling, shocking and devastated blond in her arms.
"It's going to be alright Naruto. I won't let you go through this alone. When the time comes we will bring your child into this world operationally. I will see to it that nothing bad befalls either one of you. You don't have to worry about your friends. They love you and will always accept you the way you are. I bet they would all be willing to help you take care of this child. Everything will be fine Naruto." Tsunade keeps shushing Naruto to calm him down. Naruto means so much to her. He is like a grandson to her and seeing him so devastated, so lost, awakens her (grand)motherly instincts. At the same time, despite all his overflowing negative emotions, Naruto can feel the love she has for him. Not knowing how his mother would have acted, Tsunade comes close to that title. He cherishes the moment, even when he starts to get a hold of himself again.
"I want to ask Kurama." Naruto says as they let go of each other. Tsunade nods and Naruto sits down on the bed again with folded legs and closes his eyes.
Soon he stands before the grand cage and looks into crimson eyes. The water around him comes to his ankle's and is lukewarm. The bars of the cage look golden as the water reflects on it and on the walls in the room.
"Kurama." Naruto says as greeting and takes a few steps towards the cage.
"Naruto." Kurama's dark voice replays as his red tails softly sway through the air.
"What did you do to me?" Naruto looks at him with no emotion. The red beast smirks and his eyes glimmer deviously.
"I took every chance I got to make you pregnant. In order to create life, DNA of two people is needed. With my chakra I made it possible for your and Sasuke's chakra to combine. I can't say I had to little of Sasuke's. You two kept fucking like rabbits. If your pregnancy was like a fox's you could have gotten at least ten kits." Kurama's dark laughter echo's through the room.
"My love-life is none of your concern, so stay out of it!" Naruto yells with a tomato-red face.
"I would love to kid, but the two of you were just too loud. There was no way I could ignore your screams and loud moans. And I am glad that you said 'love-life' and not 'sex-life'. For it is love that you feel for that brat. And you can make him feel the same way about you, if he doesn't do so already." Kurama's eyes soften when he sees the hope return to Naruto's light blue eyes. He cares for the little blond in front of him, though he wouldn't admit that easily. He has seen Naruto grow up, all the hardships he went through and how he handled them. Truth is, though he'd never admit it, Kurama is proud of all the things 'his' kid has achieved. He knows Naruto better than anybody else and can read him like an open book.
Kurama has gotten sick of watching Naruto run in circles to find his Sasuke and he knows that Naruto wouldn't be able to keep himself together if he doesn't get some more hope. Even if Sasuke doesn't give in, Naruto won't be alone anymore with this child.
"You... really think I can?" Naruto asks unsure with hope in his voice and eyes. He already knew his feelings for Sasuke ran that deep. He found out during that night, which was the reason why he didn't want to stop. Why he wanted to make Sasuke enjoy it as much as he did. To Naruto, that night wasn't about having sex. It was about making love. And though the alcohol played it's part in it for the both of them, not once did Naruto regret losing his virginity to Sasuke. He had hoped Sasuke felt the same, but the moment he found the note it had felt as if Sasuke had taken the biggest part of his heart with him. If there were a chance to get Sasuke to love him the same way, Naruto would do anything.
"Kid, you got the leader of the Akatsuki to turn over a new leaf. If you can make friends with such strong enemies, there is no doubt that you can win Sasuke over. Gheh, you could even call it a rivalry match since the brat is nearly as stubborn as you. Make him your mate kid. You carry his child now so you are practically his family. I am sealed inside of you so I can at least have some influence in your life. It's not just sound that I can't block out, it's your body temperature to. Not to mention that it's my chakra that has to heal you up."
Naruto blushes deeply and pouts at Kurama's last mocking words, but smiles inwardly. He knows the red demon cares about him and Naruto cares just as much about him. If I can even get a demon, filled with hatred, to love me, then I'm sure I can make Sasuke love me too. Naruto thinks to himself.
"Thanks, Kurama, for giving me a family. That's all I ever wanted." Naruto says while he leans up against the bars of Kurama's cage.
"I know, kid. Now get lost and let me rest. Make sure not to use my chakra to much since it's used for the health of your and Sasuke's kid. Also, you better find him before this kid is born. It would be better for everyone when he's there when his kid takes in his first fresh breath." Naruto nods determinedly. Just before he goes back to where Tsunade is waiting for him he hears Kurama's last mocking words. "It seems that kiss in class proves you two to be destined."
When Naruto opens his eyes he has a scowl on his face, which worries Tsunade. She had been eagerly waiting, hoping that she was right about Kurama sticking behind it. Though she denies it to herself, Tsunade is rather fascinated by the fact that Naruto, as a guy, is capable of carrying a child. It goes against all laws of nature and as a medical ninja she is highly interested in the cause. But her love and concern for the blond, whom is still just a boy in her eyes, goes above her curiosity. She would never do anything that could possibly harm Naruto. Though the entire situation makes her wonder whether the same could have happened to the other Jinchuriki's. It does actually make sense at some point. The only weakness of the seal is pregnancy after all and if only female Jinchuriki's can get pregnant then only male one's could exist. It seems there has to be a weakness to the seal and since pregnancy is it, it should be possible for male Jinchuriki's to get pregnant to.
"Naruto? Is everything alright?" Naruto quickly looks at her as he hears the concern in her voice and smiles.
"I'm fine. Kurama is indeed the one who made this possible." Naruto looks down at his stomach and lays his hand on it. "...This miracle..." He says while feeling the love for his unborn child. The child he and Sasuke made together. Tsunade is relieved to see how calm Naruto is. She can tell that he has accepted the situation, found peace with it and now cherishes a strong love for his kid.
Naruto will be a great parent. Tsunade thinks and is determined to see to it that these two will be alright. "Naruto, I suggest you tell Sakura about this. It doesn't have to be now, but I think it will be better that multiple medical ninja can keep an eye on you. You know you can trust her and I'm sure, as your team-mate and close friend, she'd be more then willing to help you in any way with this. Also, it's best you don't go on missions. No searching for Sasuke anymore either, understood?"
Naruto's heart beats fast at Tsunade's last words and knows that he can't give up on his search, especially now. Should I tell her it was Sasuke? No, I can't do that. At least not now, not here... I need more time. I've got to think this over. "Yes ma'm..." Naruto says while avoiding the Hokage's eyes. "Can I go home now?" He asks and Tsunade nods.
"Make sure you come to me for check-ups every once a week." Naruto nods as he leaves the room and heads home.
After having some dinner and taking a shower Naruto lies in his bed while looking at the ceiling. He has his hand on his stomach and gently caresses it as many thoughts run through his mind. I still can't believe this is really happening. I have Sasuke's child inside of me... I'm so curious to what he or she would look like. And what gender would it be. I'm fine with both, it's already a miracle that I'm getting a child with Sasuke at all, so I won't complain. I will love our child no matter what. Naruto softly sighs and closes his eyes. I hope I can find Sasuke in time... I miss him. I want to tell him. But what if he doesn't want our child? What if he just thinks I'm some kind of freak and is utterly disgusted with me? Naruto feels a shiver running down his spine and he turns on his side where he crawls up like a ball.
No. Sasuke isn't like that. He will never be like that. The way he touched me... The way he looked at me... He might call it a mistake, but I know that it meant more to him then he lets on to. He... probably just got scared or something. After everything he's been through it's probably hard for him to trust others again... I wonder where he's been all this time and why I couldn't find him. Sasuke... Where are you now? Damn it, you bastard, you can't let me go through this alone. You'd better show your face to me sometime soon and be sorry about leaving me like this or else I swear I'll kick your ass so you'd be the one who can't walk straight up for days! A grin spreads on Naruto's face as he pulls the covers over his head, waiting for sleep to take him over but another thought pops up in his head.
How am I gonna find him if Tsunade forbids me and keeps an eye on me? And I honestly don't feel like going alone... I can defend myself but I can't use Kyuubi's Chakra to much because of the baby. What if such a group shows up again or stronger? What if I can't defend myself well enough? Or make a mistake? It's not just my life I'd be putting on the line anymore. If... If I tell Tsunade... Would she understand? Maybe... But only if I explain it well enough. I also should think about how I'm gonna tell Sakura-chan. There is no way I'm ever gonna tell her it's Sasuke's of course. I mean, she had a crush on him for so long and even though she says she's over him, there is no way I can tell her I slept with her former crush. Hmmm... Now how am I gonna tell Tsunade... While thinking over a strategy sleep slowly start to cloud Naruto's mind. When the sleep finally takes him over his dreams are filled with Sasuke and their child.
"Obaa-chan! Go on a date with me!" Naruto shouts as he walks into the Hokage's office.
"I am not that desperate, brat. Honestly, do you have to be so loud this early in the morning?" Tsunade replies from her desk while massaging her temples. "You were here only two days ago. I said a check-up each day, not each week."
"I know. And I didn't mean a real date. I'm not desperate ether. Just come to my house around six. I'll make us some dinner and then we can talk about... some stuff... Till Sakura comes. Y-you know, it might help if you're there when I tell her... Or let's just say that it's a get together for not desperate people!" Naruto says and grins with his arms folded behind his head. Tsunade sighs as she leans back in her chair.
"Fine, fine. I am the one who suggested you'd tell her after all. But you better make something eatable, and I don't mean ramen." Naruto's grin spreads and he nods before rushing out of the Hokage building.
After doing some shopping for dinner, Naruto walks over the streets of Konoha till he sees a baby shop. He holds still before it's window and looks at the stuff behind it. He smiles when he sees the stuffed animals, baby toys, baby car, clothes diapers and food. Naruto wavers whether he should walk in and buy something till a couple walks out of the shop. They talk and smile at each other while holding hands and Naruto can tell that the woman is highly pregnant. He feels a sharp pain in his chest as he watches them walk away and turns around to head home again, wishing Sasuke were with him so they could prepare for their baby together.
"I'm coming!" Tsunade hears after knocking on Naruto's door. She's glad to see him so cheerful as he opens the door for her and she can smell the delicious scent of their dinner hanging through Naruto's cozy home. When they enter the Kitchen Tsunade is relieved to see two plates with rice, meat and sauce instead of Naruto's usual instant ramen.
"I didn't know you could cook." She says as she sits down at the table in front of Naruto.
"Two years ago I started to try things out. I'm glad I did cuss it's better for the baby." Naruto says and grins before taking a bite.
"Glad that you finally figured that out." Tsunade says after swallowing her bite and grins at the now pouting blond.
During the rest of their dinner they talk about casual thing like; what is needed and important for rising a child, how the surgery would go and of course, how the others will react.
"Baa-chan... There is actually a reason why I called you over so early." Naruto confesses after putting their dishes in the sink.
"Tel me, brat." Tsunade says as Naruto sits down on his chair again. She had figured as much, taken that he wouldn't call her over for just dinner. Naruto sighs deeply as he gathers his courage while sliding his hand in his pocket to hold Sasuke's note.
"I actually lied when I said that I didn't know who did this to me." Tsunade raises a brow but doesn't interrupt Naruto's explanation. "I-I was the one begging him for more. I yearned for him and I know now that I love him. I loved and enjoyed every second of it and I know he did the same. We didn't confess but I know that it had meant more than just a good fuck to us. I... regret that I didn't confess to him. I-I want to find him, Tsunade, so I can tell him my true feelings and that I carry his child, his family." Naruto has a hard time fighting his tears back and swallows hard as he pulls out Sasuke's note to let Tsunade read it. Tsunade's eyes widen when she reads the name at the bottom of the note while Naruto continues. "Sasuke had plenty reasons for his actions, good reasons. I don't know where he has been all this time but he has changed. In a good way. Please, let me search for him, Tsunade. I need to tell him about our child who need him. I need him... I... Can't live without him... I-I miss him... so much..."
Tears are flowing down Naruto's cheeks as his shocking shoulders accompany his devastated sobs. Tsunade looks at the blond worried while she thinks over his request. It remains quit for a bit which gives Naruto the change to get a hold of himself again. He looks up when he hears Tsunade sigh.
"Even if I didn't approve, you would still keep looking for him right? I can tell that you truly love him and that you would do anything to be with him. Then who am I to tell you that you can't? Everyone in Konoha can tell that you two had a strong bond and nobody can say for sure that it isn't there anymore." A bright smile spreads across Naruto's face and he can't help himself, though the side effects of his pregnancy is partially to blame, from hugging the blond woman.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you, Tsunade-baa-chan! Thank you so much!" Naruto says and Tsunade can't help but smile inwardly.
"Now hold on a minute. I wasn't done yet, you brat!" Tsunade says as she pushes Naruto off so she can breathe again. Naruto's smile drops a little as he looks at her with concern in his eyes. "I will allow you to keep searching for Sasuke, but I won't let you go alone. Your condition is to unpredictable and you mean to much to me and this village to take the risk of letting you leave unprotected. I also won't allow you to leave the village for longer than a month. And I do think It's best not to tell anyone that Sasuke is the father of the child you carry." Naruto nods. He understands and agrees with all her conditions. They talk about Sasuke's possible whereabouts, who should take part in the search team, how Sasuke might react which brings them how the others might react. Naruto is extremely happy to know that Tsunade approves and is willing to help him find Sasuke. He feels their bond growing with each word that is spoken and regrets distrusting and pushing her away for so long. Their conversation comes abruptly to an end when they hear knocking on Naruto's front door. Naruto gulps, knowing who is standing behind his door, and nervously opens it to invite his pink haired teammate.
Ah, right... so this is what i've got till now.
I'm wondering, should I also switch to where Sasuke is now (Though I honestly don't know where that is...) Or should I just stay with Naruto?
Leave me some reviews, critics, what you like, what you don't like or wishes.