iDiary
A/N: Yayness, I'm back, finally. You would have thought that I would've run out of excuses for my late updates, but this time I have a very sad reason. I took my laptop to school like I usually do, but I was stupid and put my water bottle in there as well. My water bottle leaked in my backpack and my laptop doesn't work. Or it only kinda does- as soon as it turns on it says it can't find the hard drive and that it needs to be replaced (in computer language…I translated the above from my owner's manual.)
Basically I had to write little snippets here and there when my family wasn't using our family computer. Sigh.
I hope everyone had a nice christmahanukwanzakah. I promise you that my other stories will be updated, maybe even 2 chapters each, before my break from school ends. (Jan 5th)
You better have a lot of time to read this, it's 6,660 words!!! EPIC CHAPTER LENGTH!!! Lots of things happen!!!!!!!!
I don't own iCarly. I really should just put that in the description of my story and not have to repeat that. This part is in Sam's POV. This picks up at the end of Briggs' class, which you only read from Freddie's POV in the last chapter. Carly told him to sit at a different table at lunch but he went to the clinic instead...
Briggs dismissed the class. Sam walked over to Carly.
"Hey, Carly? Could you please get Freddie to sit with his AV club geeks during lunch? I'm not talking to him."
Carly looked like she was going to scold Sam for being childish so Sam added, "I'll spill at lunch if he's not around."
Carly smiled and headed over to convince Freddie. He would do so, no doubt. He always did whatever she wanted.
"Uh, sure." Sam watched as Freddie gathered his stuff and headed out the door. Carly was putting a binder insider her backpack. Now was the time to talk to Jake. He was even walking over to her. Sam took a deep breath and muttered, "Let's get this over with."
Jake smiled at her and nodded towards the door. It looked like she was gonna break his heart while they headed to lunch. Sam realized how much she hadn't thought this through. They would be in close proximity during lunch. She couldn't hurt him now.
She had to. She had hurt him, herself, and Freddie enough. But how in the world was she supposed to tell him what happened? She didn't know whether the truth or a lie would be better in this case. She'd never been the braker-upper before. Just a tree-pusher-outer and the rejected one.
And she and Jake weren't really together in the first place, right? She over-dramatized this. Jake might not even feel the same way; she might have incorrectly interpreted his actions.
"Um, well I really don't know what to say…except that if I'm gonna tell you everything I want to, we're gonna have to ditch Carly who's waiting for me in the cafeteria." The words flowed out much easier than she expected. She wasn't planning on not talking to Carly; she would spill. But first Jake had to hear the story.
"What place do you have in mind?" That's it? He didn't ask any other questions? If she would have been in his shoes, she would have at lot more than that one to ask. Maybe she understood him less than she thought.
Interesting how everything builds up and then crashes down at once…the drama and understanding…the not understanding…
"Um, I really don't know. Is there an empty classroom or something nearby?"
"What about in here?" Jake answered Sam's question with a question, pointing to a small, all-purpose (though usually used for teacher-parent confrontations) room on the left side of the hallway.
"That works." Sam opened the door, heart beating fast and dreading what was coming. It would be best to tell the truth and get it over with. She sat down in the cushioned chair, leaving the normal one for Jake. When she realized this she asked, "Oh sorry do you want this chair?"
"It doesn't matter, Sam. I just wanna hear what you have to say."
"Trust me you don't." Sam looked down but continued, "I have to know how you feel about me because I kinda assumed that you were interested in me…as in more than a friend." Sam looked up at Jake. His expression didn't change; he still looked puzzled.
"Yeah, I like you more than a friend. I like a lot of people more than friends. We've moved to the stage of BFFs. Or BFFLs if you want to call it that."
Sam couldn't help it; she laughed. She was stressed out about this and Jake said it in a way that she couldn't be sure if it was a joke or if he was serious, but she laughed anyways. He then smiled at her so Sam knew it was supposed to be a joke.
"Seriously, Jake." The smiled on his face disappeared.
"Just tell me why you don't like me and then I'll say we can just be friends." Sam opened her mouth in shock. That was bluntly harsh. He could tell; he knew what she was gonna say before she said it. She wanted to tell him it wasn't true- that she liked him, but she was resolved not to lie.
There was silence as Sam tried to decide exactly how to word her response.
"You can tell me, I won't be mad. I just want to know why." Jake seemed sincere about the absence of his anger. He didn't seem that depressed either. Maybe he felt this coming all along. But Sam did have to admit that they did have a certain spark.
"Okay, well…I feel like a horrible person for saying this, but I used you." Sam purposely avoided his gaze. "I wanted to make…a certain person…jealous. And well, most guys are jealous of you because you're such an amazing person." Sam made sure to emphasize the words 'amazing person'.
And we connected and I realized that you were even more amazing than you seemed. We had chemistry, even. I know that doesn't justify my actions, but…oh and when your crazy, druggy teacher made us hold hands that's when the real problem started. I began to like you, more than I should have. Almost more than…that certain person…and I was confused.
And it's my fault because I gave you those "I like you" signals and you were only returning them at that point. I tried to decide between you and…him. Despite the fact that he probably hates me now, I still like him. I figure since I like him anyways that my feelings are strong enough by themselves. I have to make things happen rather than rely on jealousy.
Now you probably hate me, but I want to thank you for making me realize all of this. I didn't understand half of this until it came out of my mouth just now."
"First of all, I don't hate you. I understand how you feel now. It's a huge mess you made for yourself. But you're correcting it now, I guess. I wish you felt differently, of course but I respect your decision-"
"You're making me hate myself now, Jake!" Sam interrupted. "I could never be this understanding! I would punch someone who did this to me, played with my feelings!" Sam remembered Jonah and the wedgie bouncer mechanism.
"Are you suggesting I hit you?" Jake joked without smiling. "I'm just saying I can see where you're coming from. You can take the blame. You were in the wrong. The thing is that I still like you so I want to forgive you. We can just be friends if that's all you want to be. If you no longer wish to see me-"
"Of course I want to see you! Are you not human? You're putting your feelings so low on your priorities. And no one talks like that, "I respect your decision" and "If you no longer wish to see me". You're making me feel…I don't know what you're making me feel. I'm mad at myself I guess."
"I don't think this will help, but I have to mention that your reaction is cute." Jake smiled at Sam's even more confused expression. "I mean it in the sense that this stems from miscommunication- that's all. You're overreacting. And it's not entirely your fault. We weren't even together; I just assumed we would be. But you're also different than I expected…" Jake paused but didn't say anything further on how he expected her to be.
Sam sighed. This whole open communication thing worked…it was worse than jank, but it worked. "I better head to the cafeteria or else Carly will get mad, I'm keeping her waiting." She got up from her cushioned chair.
"Sam, wait."
Sam turned back to look at Jake.
"Who is this guy? It's none of my business, you don't have to tell me, but I had to ask."
Sam hesitated. She knew she could trust Jake, right? Although, Jake said he wouldn't be offended if she didn't tell. But would he be? Their conversation had been painful enough. She thought it would be right to tell him. She just didn't know if she could. It was hard to say it out loud, after all of her shying away from it. But she and Jake had open communication lines now; she couldn't withhold this information from him.
"It's uh, Freddie." As soon as she spoke those words, she regretted it. That was her secret. Spreading it around wasn't right. She stopped and thought about it. She was headed on her way to the cafeteria to tell Carly. Jake was much more accountable than Carly for safeguarding secrets.
"But I thought Carly and Freddie…" Jake left his sentence open-ended.
"Freddie likes Carly, yes. But Carly doesn't like him back."
"But I saw her give him that kiss…"
"He begged for it. It was a thank you kiss. And it was on the nose anyways. She's never liked him in that way. She's crazy about you actually."
As soon as the words slipped out of her mouth, Sam started freaking out. Carly would kill her for this.
"Really? So there was a love triangle here? You like Freddie, Freddie supposedly likes Carly, Carly likes me and I like you…"
Amazed at how calm she was Sam agreed and then added, "I hate love triangles."
"It doesn't have to be one."
"What?" Sam asked confused. Jake was being the vague one now.
"What I'm saying is that I think…never mind."
"Tell me! I've been honest with you. I even told you about Carly. You realize I'm gonna be murdered in my sleep for that slip up, right?"
"I didn't want you to get your hopes up…but I think Freddie likes you back. And if you and Freddie like each other, then it's just the fact that I don't like Carly that's messing up the "love triangle's" happy ending…and I like her as a friend. Friends are a good place to start a relationship…I mean, you and I were just friends and…" Jake didn't need to finish his sentence.
"I don't get you, Jake. Why would you want to be with Carly when you like me?"
"I've always been slightly interested in her. Now that we can't be, I want to get to know her I guess. You and I will still be friends, so I'm not using her to get over you. I don't know. I suppose I like her too. I just never realized it until now."
"That still doesn't make sense to me…don't do it just to "achieve harmony in the love triangle" or something like that."
"I'm not."
"This is gonna sound bad, but I feel slightly jealous of Carly now."
"Love is complicated…" Jake sighed and got out of his seat.
"What should I tell Carly? I mean, how much should I tell her?"
"How much were you going to tell her?" Jake opened the door and held it open for Sam. Sam walked out of the room, noticing his gesture.
"Just that I liked…" Sam looked around to see if anyone was around them. Nobody else was in the hallway. "…Freddie and that I started to like you and was confused. Nothing specific about us."
"We keep saying "us" like we were together." Jake noted.
"It felt like it." Sam shrugged. Jake didn't answer right away.
"You know what? Let me talk to Carly too."
"Don't ask her out just yet."
"Why?"
"We shouldn't explain everything. Just that I, uh, we started to get close. How bout you tell her that we just aren't right for each other."
It was kind of sad. Jake liked Sam and Sam liked him back. Her feelings for Freddie were stronger though. Sam doubted Jake's feelings for Carly. They were just to make her feel better.
"Okay, if you start explaining, I'll just add snippets here and there."
With that agreed, Sam approached her cafeteria table with Jake in tow.
"Where were you?" Carly asked, slightly angry, but more on the pouty side. She brightened up when she noticed Jake was with Sam. When Jake sat down with Sam, Sam could tell she was very happy with whatever brought this about.
"Carly, I have to tell you everything." Sam lied. Of course she wasn't gonna say everything that went on. There was enough information/drama already.
"Can Jake hear it?" Carly eyed Jake, not wanting him to leave, but willing to shoe him away if necessary to hear Sam's spill.
"Yeah, he's involved…kinda." There goes the understatement of the month.
"Okay…start with why you aren't talking to Freddie." Sam froze. How could she forget! Freddie's diary! He hated her. She couldn't talk about that, not with Jake here and his idea of perfect non-triangular love relationships. Especially when he seemed so sure that Freddie liked her. She would have to tell Carly another time about the diary. But how could she not tell Carly with Jake right next to her? Jake would wonder why.
She and Jake were supposed to be "open" with each other. So much for that. She promised to herself that she would tell him later.
"I can't start with that. I have to start with a confession…" Sam went on to tell in a hushed voice that she liked Freddie. Carly was surprised but pleased. Sam liked Freddie and Freddie liked Sam. Sam just told her and she read Freddie's iJournal. They were meant to be, it was perfect. She would try her best not to talk about this in the halls. They were her closest friends; they deserved to find out the truth on their own. Well, not entirely on their own, she would push them in the right direction.
When Sam told Carly about Jake's involvement, Carly was taken aback. How had she not noticed this? Sam finished her story, with Jake's input, and Carly was confused.
"So why aren't you talking to Freddie?"
"That's something I have to tell you alone." Sam looked over at Jake nervously. He got up and moved to a nearby table without a word. It didn't look like he was hurt, but Sam just couldn't tell. They managed an awkward form of an ankle-shake of secrecy from under the table and then Sam continued.
"Well, Freddie has this diary-thing," Sam started. Carly sat up straight. How did Sam know about that? It was hard not to interrupt. Too hard.
"I know, I read it on his laptop. I kinda took his laptop. I'm gonna say I found it and give it to him. But how did you find out that-" Carly stopped mid-sentence.
"What?"
"Freddie's coming over here." She warned Sam. Sam sighed. She was tired of shunning Freddie but she still didn't know how she felt about him. Correction- how she felt about his diary entry. She knew how she felt about him. That was apparent in the fact Jake no longer sat next to her.
Freddie sat down in that spot. Quite symbolic, that he replaced Jake's spot, but Sam wasn't thinking symbolically, she was thinking why he was sitting next to her when she had been so mean to him.
Carly glared at Freddie. Sam knew it wasn't because she sympathized with her about his cruel remarks. She hadn't even had the opportunity to tell Carly about that. It was because he interrupted Sam's part of the spill that Carly was most anxious to hear.
Sam was interested in what Carly thought of Freddie's diary entries, but Freddie told Sam that Mrs. Totters wanted to see her in the clinic.
Sam supposed that was the right thing to do. Mrs. Totters could always help her. This would be one interesting visit…
Jake's POV
A/N: Remember when Freddie was suspicious of Jake because he had been close enough to hear what Carly and Sam would have said and he looked like he had been listening? That was because he was in their conversation until a minute before Freddie came, what you just read. And then Freddie went to his next two classes and then read a text message from Carly saying Jake asked her out. He was confused and plans on confronting Jake. Okay, that was your recap from Freddie's POV. Now we're moving on to Jake's POV!!!
Jake listened as Freddie asked Carly what was going on with Sam. Carly wouldn't blab, so they started making small talk with Carly repeatedly glancing over at him.
After Freddie left, he planned on asking Carly out. He knew that Sam didn't want him to, but if he wanted to completely get over Sam, he had to. The whole thing was a mess. Freddie had always glared at him after he would look at Sam. Just a normal look…maybe just a little longer than normal. Although most guys preferred Carly it wasn't because she was hotter, they were equal in that department. The difference was that you would live after you told Carly you liked her. No one wanted to take a chance with Sam.
But Freddie presented a challenge. And Sam seemed to like Jake. They had quickly become friends. When his crazy science teacher had made them practically hold hands and Sam stalled in front Freddie was when he realized it. It being Freddie's extreme jealousy and Sam purposely instigating it.
He knew he was either being used or that it was a coincidence and Sam really liked him. He kept trying to convince himself that the second was true, but he knew deep down that, despite their chemistry, Sam wasn't right for him.
He still liked her a lot. More than he should. He should have separated himself from her instead of sending her a "Hope you feel better soon" text when she was sick.
He had never met anyone quite like Sam before. He was intrigued by her, captivated almost. They went so well together in most aspects. When she said that she wanted to talk with him after class, he knew something was up. He hoped it was positive. He thought he had been chosen over Freddie.
In class she seemed to be avoiding Freddie. So then Jake had thought he had imagined the possible tensions. It had seemed as if Sam preferred him-that he had won her love and that Freddie had lost.
Not that he was purposely competing with that nerd. It just so happened that things fell into place that way.
He didn't know where he had gone wrong. He was honest. He had been the nice guy, the guy who doesn't say "pick me", but the guy that says "choose whoever you want". That guy always wins. But not this time, not with unpredictable, challenging Sam.
When he first understood what she was about to tell him, it was easy to see in her body language, he tried joking. Prolonging the inevitable bad news didn't work, she got right down to business.
He felt bitter that Freddie- that nobody- was loved by Sam more than he was. What did Freddie have that he didn't have? Um, a higher GPA? Nothing else really. Knowing Sam, that wasn't a factor at all. It was that Freddie and Sam had been friends longer, gotten to know each other longer.
If Jake assigned Freddie's victory to chance rather than skills, talent, good looks, better personality or a superior quality, it made him feel better. He was blunt earlier, almost rude, because he wanted to get to the point.
If the suffering was drawn out, he might have showed some emotion. It was better to let Sam be the surprised one, the one showing emotions.
And then he played the part of the overly-understanding guy. He wasn't sure if Sam knew he had been acting. Of course he really cared about her. That part was real. The dramatic respecting her decision of not choosing him and the "if you no longer wish to see me" were the acted parts. He wanted Sam for himself. He wasn't that amazing, super understanding person Sam believed him to be.
But was that really wrong? He was being that person so Sam would change her mind. It only helped her stick to her former decision.
He had done the best he could have. He had made sure that she knew he didn't hate her; it was the opposite. He also had made sure that she realized she was correcting her problem, but it was both of their faults or just her fault or just his fault- it depended on how the whole mess was viewed. She could take the amount of blame she thought she deserved.
When she said…oh what was it? "You're making me feel…I don't know what you're making me feel. I'm mad at myself I guess." Yeah, that was it. When she said that, he had to tell her how cute her reaction was. She only realized that she was confused and angry at herself and not why. Jake could see that she obviously still liked him. Just not as much as "Fredward". Who names their child Fredward anyway?
The point was that she still liked him. He hadn't totally lost. It was like in a race where two people tie, exactly tie, but then one is declared the official winner. He wasn't completely out of the running. There might be one last leg of the race…
But why was he so set on Sam? It was just a crush, right? What about their differences? Sam was different than he had expected her to be. She wasn't as aggressive as she seemed. It appeared that she left that for Freddie. She was funny and cute and smarter than she let on, but there was just that one little thing in the way…
It was weird, but he felt that they just didn't click personality-wise. Sure there was chemistry, but that's not what he meant. She was the rebel. He was the laid-back hottie of the grade. She enjoyed threatening Gibby with squeeze cheese. He enjoyed singing his self-written songs for those he loved.
He had not expected their differences to matter but they did. They didn't stop him from liking her, but they made everything more complicated. They made it easier to get over her. As if they wouldn't have continued to get along if there had been something more than just a close friendship that developed.
He would have to see how things went with Freddie. He and Sam were very different as well. They were possibly even more different. But they had a history of friendship to fall back on.
He was glad Sam was able to confide in him who he was competing against. He never would have guessed it was Freddie. iCarly segments always showed Freddie showing a preference for Carly. He and Sam would just bicker. He didn't understand Freddie and Sam's bickering relationship.
And what was this about Carly? Sure Carly was nice and pretty, smarter than Sam, and her personality clicked with his. But she wasn't Sam.
If he hadn't liked Sam before, then he might truly be able to say he was interested in Carly.
He was pretty sure that even if Freddie did like Sam (he really wasn't confident in that matter, despite what he told Sam) that they wouldn't last. If they could get together and break it off, then who would Sam turn to?
That's right, her friend Jake. All Jake had to do was convince Sam that Freddie liked her. They wouldn't work. They would crash and burn. And then Jake would be there to help lift Sam up and put her back together. During this process, Sam would realize that it was really Jake that she cared for.
He was pretty convincing earlier, acting as though love triangle harmony, "peace" was the most important thing to him- that and her happiness. Her happiness was important to him, but it had to be her happiness with him.
He was willing to give Carly a chance while he waited for Sam to come around. If he could get over Sam, possibly fall for Carly, than there would be no damage done because there would actually be peace in the love triangle. Or was it more of a square because there were four people involved? Whatever.
He was interested to see how compatible he and Carly were. He was starting to like her now that he thought about it. He had lied when he said he wouldn't use Carly to try and get over Sam. Carly kept looking over at him. There were about seven minutes left before lunch period was finished.
He wondered why Sam wanted to go to the clinic- that was weird. Maybe she was talking to that Teeter person again. He had heard a lot of students saying they liked to talk to her.
Maybe he would go and talk to her on Monday. He strummed his fingers on the table. He replayed Sam's words in his head, "This is gonna sound bad, but I feel slightly jealous of Carly now." If that wasn't proof she still liked him, he didn't know what was.
In truth, Sam was simply confused. She had flirted with Jake but chose Freddie. She wasn't used to not "having" Jake at that moment. She had lost his affections because she had chose Freddie. She thought she had been replaced by Carly in the way Jake thought he had been replaced by Freddie.
Jake sensed that her reluctance to let him ask Carly out was only her reluctance to let go of her feelings for him.
He hoped she wouldn't get too jealous. He just wanted to experiment with Carly while he waited for Sam and Freddie to dissipate. Maybe he should even push them together in the meantime. The soon they got together, the sooner they would fall apart…
Freddie and Carly were getting up from their table. It was time to make a move. Jake followed them until Freddie turned down another hallway.
"Carly!" Carly turned around as expected.
"Yeah, Jake?"
"You know when Sam said we realized we just weren't right for each other?"
"Um, yeah."
"That was because I realized I liked you." Carly stopped walking and turned to face him.
"Really?"
"Yes. I really like you a lot. That's why I didn't say too much at lunch, it was kind of awkward with Sam right next to me and all…but I was wondering if you liked me too."
"Are you asking me out?" Carly looked happy enough to burst. Jake feigned nervousness and nodded while avoiding her gaze. "I really like you a lot too, Jake! Of course I'll go out with you; I've liked you since forever!"
They went to their separate classes, Carly glowing and Jake pleased. It felt good to make Carly so happy.
When they headed towards their last class, Carly met up with Jake.
"I'm gonna send out some text messages so everyone will know about us!"
"Why would they want to know?"
"The whole school knew I liked you since forever, Jake! Now they'll congratulate us."
"Are you sure about that?"
"Well Freddie and Sam will."
"You told Sam!" Jake panicked. He had purposely told Carly on Friday, this way the news wouldn't reach Sam until Monday. Sam would be mad with him. He would have to keep her busy, prod her in Freddie's direction.
"I'm just gonna send them texts, chill. Oh and by the way, you should stop by my apartment this weekend; I kinda have some…things…to give you."
"What kind of stuff?"
"Just some things of yours I've found…like your pen and football keychain…that kind of stuff." Jake smiled, so that's where his keychain had gone. Sam was right; Carly was crazy about him. He found her "stalker-ish" obsession cute.
"I wondered where my stuff was disappearing to." Jake joked while Carly blushed.
Back to Sam's POV, earlier in time when she left for the clinic
Sam opened the clinic door.
"Hello, Sam, dear! Come in, we have to talk."
"Can I have some food first, I didn't eat lunch."
"Of course you can, but why haven't you eaten yet? Lunch is more than halfway over."
Sam pulled out a plastic container of cold ravioli. "Can I have a fork?" Mrs. Totters gave her a fork with a questioning stare that Sam couldn't ignore. "I had to talk to Jake. We had a discussion. He kinda liked me, but we ended anything that was starting."
"Oh I had no idea, are you two all right?"
"He's fine. He wants to ask Carly out. You see, he thinks of the whole situation as a love triangle. If he "gets paired up with" Carly, then there's harmony. I don't want Carly to get hurt if he's dating her for the wrong reasons."
"What about Freddie, hon? He seemed to think you were ignoring him."
"I am." Sam stabbed a ravioli with her fork.
"But why would you be? Now that you have chosen Freddie over Jake…am I correct in assuming you have?" Mrs. Totters paused and Sam nodded. "The whole jealousy thing can fade and you can give Freddie some clues that you want him to ask you out, since you won't directly tell him you like him. Why would you be ignoring him when you should be spending time with him and growing closer?"
"Freddie has a diary…and I found it saved on a pendrive. From reading it, I could tell he hates me. Hates me! He doesn't even like me as a friend! And I can't stop liking him anyways! And that was interfering with me liking Jake! So now I just like Freddie and Freddie hates me!"
Mrs. Totters shook her head at this outburst. It would be so easy to tell Sam that Freddie loved her. But if she had learned anything over the years, it would be that the kids had to do everything, well almost everything, on their own.
"He doesn't hate you, dear. I don't know what you read, but he doesn't hate you, rest assured."
"But his diary-"
"Sam, why don't you just forget the diary? Think about his actions. Actions speak louder than words. Now how has he been acting?"
"Well…I guess he's confused about why I'm ignoring him. That's understandable. He doesn't know I read his pendrive…although I did hand it back to him so he may have some clue. Then again, he hasn't noticed I like him for two years, so he might not have noticed that. Um, other than that, he's been too nice…like he just wants to figure out what's up with me and not getting mad at me for ignoring him."
"Do you think someone who hates you would act like that?"
"I guess not." Sam sighed. "It doesn't make sense though. Wait a second! You talk to him and you talk to me! Why don't you just ask him how he feels about me and then you can tell me?"
"Sweetie, all of my conversations are confidential."
"It would make things easier."
"Sam, if you want to solve this puzzle, just ask him. Do it yourself and find out."
Sam put the empty ravioli container on the counter and grumbled to herself. She wanted to save herself the heartbreak of Freddie refusing her. Then again, Mrs. Totters seemed so sure that Freddie didn't hate her.
"If Freddie doesn't hate me, then why would he write that he did?"
"I can't tell you any guesses I have because I have not read what you have, hon. There seems to be a miscommunication somewhere along the lines. Think of how you solved your problem with Jake. It was out of control until you talked. Then things were sorted out. You need to talk to Freddie."
"It's almost time for me to go." Sam sighed. "Can you use your psychic powers to predict what'll happen next?"
Mrs. Totter chuckled. "I'll try my best dear. Let's see…" She put her fingers on her temples in a joking manner. "You'll tell Freddie after class and he'll explain everything and you'll ride off into the sunset, all things forgiven."
Sam looked at Mrs. Totters. Her eyes weren't twinkling. "You're not serious; you're just trying to convince me to tell, aren't you?"
"I had to try. Now let's see for real…oh dear, another miscommunication is on it's way, and you'll be angry soon, but not with Freddie…yes, things will only get better with Freddie…But you'll need to talk to me on Monday, so don't hesitate to come in. And please don't interrupt Carly when she talks about computers on Saturday." Mrs. Totters' eyes sparkled in a tired way, as if there was still something to overcome.
"I think I'm kinda scared."
"I wouldn't be if I were you. I would be happy that things will improve."
"No, I mean how do you do that?"
"It's a secret. Now I think it's time for you to leave, sweetie." Sam left, pondering over Mrs. Totters' magical clairvoyance-ness. Mrs. Totters waved goodbye.
She did have a gift of foresight, but she had never tried to purposely use it like she had just done. She hoped she was right. Well, realistically, there probably would be another miscommunication, so no magic there. And Sam, being Sam would get frustrated with her feelings as always, no magic again. Sam would probably have come in on Monday by herself.
There were obviously two (or more) versions of Freddie's diary somehow, resulting in an ignored Freddie and confused Sam. She had no way of knowing if things would get better with Freddie, but if Sam believed they would, then she would take a course of action that would most likely lead to "Seddie" relationship repairment. Once Sam and Freddie were friends again, it would be easy for them to go to the next step.
Mrs. Totters had no idea why she had mentioned Carly, but she trusted herself on those mystical matters. After all, she had predicted Jake would be involved, right? And how right she had been.
Maybe Sam and Freddie would end up together on Tuesday. But for all she knew, they could have another fight. These kids always made things confusing, murky futures they all had.
If she managed to see this correctly- if Sam and Freddie ended up together and were happy next Tuesday- then she would go out and buy a lottery ticket. It couldn't hurt, right?
Sam was walking to her locker right after her last class when her phone made its special "you just got a text message" ring. Sam checked it and wanted to scream. Mrs. Totters was right! Here was the big miscommunication coming up. Jake had asked Carly out! What had happened to their open communication? Mrs. Totters was also right about her anger. She was seething.
If Jake passed her by, he would have to crawl home. However, she didn't see Jake. She saw Freddie walking down the hallway. She went the other way.
Mrs. Totters was also right that Sam wouldn't tell Freddie how she felt. Sam decided she would talk to him again, but not this moment. Sam wondered how quickly things could get better with Freddie.
She would find out on Saturday…
A/N: PLEASE review!!! I hope things weren't too confusing. That was super long, but I couldn't stop, I kept feeling that it wasn't the right ending, so I kept adding to it. I still don't like this ending, but oh well. Next chapter is Saturday and the filming of an iCarly episode. Carly also tells Sam what she read when she read Freddie's iJournal. Carly and Jake become one of those mushy-gushy couples, much to Sam's annoyance. (She'll have some fun with them, you'll see.)
That whole "confession"/ "recap" of events in Sam's POV, her little monologue to Jake, was really hard to write, so if you could leave any feedback on that in particular, that would be much appreciated! Also, any feedback on Jake's take on things and his feelings…do they make sense for the way his character has acted?
Jake's POV was interesting for me. He's not the "totally amazing" guy that Sam thinks he is, but is he really wrong for thinking like he does? Hmmm…anyways, he and Sam are friends, close enough that Sam would go to him if something was wrong. And he's not completely over Sam, just keep that in mind.
I need your opinion!!! Okay, I was going to have a sequel to this story called iJournal. (Yes, I know that Freddie calls his writings an iJournal not an iDiary even though the story title is iDiary. There is a reason.) Should I just continue iDiary and make the story longer? Because iJournal picks up where it leaves off…
Please vote for one of the choices and help me! Thank you!
Choice A: Continue iDiary, it'll be long but it'll all be in one place
Choice B: End iDiary and then make iJournal into the sequel.
Choice C: I don't really know right now, I think I'll be able to decide better when what was going to just be iDiary is finished.
I'm so excited for Jan 3rd! That's the iKiss episode where Sam and Freddie kiss!!! I can't wait to see how everything falls into place. I'm so happy because this season has seemed leaning towards Creddie and now there's SEDDIE!!! YAY!!! I've read some predictions and I have to say I agree that it will be something that Sam and Freddie ignore, unfortunately. Like they go back to their bickering selves, despite their "history". If they got together all of a sudden it would be too quick, speaking in terms of episodes and seasons.
I think Sam has always liked Freddie, hence the teasing. I think Freddie sincerely liked Carly before, but for some reason he's moving on. For example, in the Christmas episode, when Sam comes in the room to see Carly hugging Freddie, Freddie pulls away like he doesn't want Sam to see them hugging!!! Maybe I'm looking too hard for Seddie, but I'm seeing a lot more Seddie now.
I know this is setting a record for longest A/N ever, but I wanted to tell you about my rating-thingy on my profile. I rated all of my complete stories and my in progress ones as well. There's also a summary and how good I think it is. Check it out if you want to.
This is the last paragraph, I promise! I wanted to tell anyone who hasn't read my fluffy, oneshot songfic; i'm Crazy for This Girl, to please read it because I love it so much and it doesn't get that much attention because it is a oneshot.
With all my purple fuzzleness,
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