Yay, chapter three is here! Okay so I've been updating for three days in a row, which is cool because i don't normally have this kind of time. My sleepover party is ending today and i have to go home soon. Its sad. Anyway, I'm here to say that it won't be this way the rest of the week, i know, its okay, you can stop crying now. I have finals all this week. Then its SUMMER BREAK BABY!! Which means i'll be able to update this story and my others All the time!
Edward: Do we finally get answers in this chapter?
emogirlS2: Yes, yes you do.
Edward: Good. But I'm just happy I get to see my Bella after so long.
emogirlS2: Awww! That's so sweet! Anyway, on to the disclaimer!!
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters, Stephenie dose.
Chapter Three
EPOV
I was sitting in the living room with Alice, Jasper, Emmet, Rosalie, and Esme when Carlisle descended the stairs. 'She wants to talk to you.' He told me silently. I nodded and made my way up the stairs, pausing momentarily as Carlisle rested his hand on my shoulder reassuringly.
I continued up the stairs and stopped a few paces away from my bedroom door, cocking my head. She was moving i could tell, but something wasn't right. Then I heard a small gasp and I was in the room in a second. She was tangled in the blankets trying to pull herself free but was failing. She was falling and her head was heading straight for the bedside table. I caught and lifted her into my arms right before her head collided with the table. I shivered when her warm body came into contact with my cold skin.
I sat her quickly upright on the bed and stepped back, almost pressing myself completely against the shelves behind me.
She was very sick looking and I wanted to pull her into my arms and make everything better. I resisted though, I knew i was the cause of her pain. My dead heart ached at the realization. Her skin was very pale, almost gray looking, and she seemed thinner than before. Her hair didn't seem as bouncy and it didn't flow down her back like before, it just sort of hung their, dead like. Her face held no emotion, except for the slight blush had appeared when she fell. The big brown eyes that I had loved so much were empty and had no shine. She was deader than I was.
"Carlisle said you wanted to talk to me." I spoke quietly.
She seemed to pull herself together and took a deep breath before looking at me.
"Yes, I do. I wanted to ask you questions."
I took a deep and unnecessary breath to calm myself and moved to sit on the bed, making sure to leave plenty of space between us. "I will tell you anything you would like to know." I said sincerely.
She paused for a moment, and then spoke what I knew she would say. "Why did you leave me? And what are you doing back here?"
I looked away from her and stared out the glass window as I spoke. "I made my family leave. They never wanted to leave you. So, don't be angry with them. I thought it would be the best thing for you. I hadn't even known you for a year, and I had already put you into so much danger. First with James, and then with Jasper." I shuddered at the memories and continued. "I felt responsible, I still do. I had taken it too far; I should have been able to stay away. But i couldn't, and that was putting you directly in the face of danger. It was hard for me to get over what James did to you, but I let myself somehow. However, when my own FAMILY tried to take a snap at you, I thought leaving would be the best thing for you, but I guess I was wrong." I paused to look at her and she seemed to be taking everything in. But when I looked into her eyes, I saw so much hurt that I had to turn away again. I wasn't sure if I should continue.
"Please continue." She said gently. I nodded, looking back at her.
"Up until the day that I left you, I was trying to prepare myself, so that maybe it wouldn't hurt so much. I even went as far as too practice what I was going to say to you, so that it would sound somewhat believable. I guess i sounded more believable than I thought. The day that I left, you believed every word that I told you." A wave of confusion crossed her face and I had to hold back a smile. "Everything that I told you in the woods that day Bella was a complete lie from start to finish. I was still in love with you; I'm still in love with you. I told you that I didn't want you anymore and that I didn't love you anymore so that you would let me go. I knew that if I let you doubt me, or you saw through my blush, I would never be able to leave you. The worst part about it is, I wanted you to call my bluff, and then it would have given me a better excuse to stay. But regardless, it hurt to see that you believed me and it took everything I had not to blow the whole thing off and stay with you. Since you believed me, I left. Now I see that it was one of the worst mistakes I've made in all my 100 years."
I moved a little closer to her and held her hand gently in mine. "I'm so sorry Bella."
BPOV
I sat silently taking in everything that he had said while his cool thumb rubbed circles over my knuckles. He never wanted to leave me? He still loved me? Everything he had said to me that day was a lie? I shook my head and lay back down onto the bed. I felt like I was going to pass out again.
"Bella, are you okay. Would you like me to go get Carlisle?" His velvet voice came from beside me. He was standing by the side of the bed closest to the door.
I shook my head no turning to face him. He watched me with worried eyes and a small smile crossed my face. He mirrored mine with my favorite crooked grin and stepped closer.
"Sleep then Bella, everything has been taken care of with your father. Alice saw to that earlier." He ran one finger down my cheek and I shivered.
"I love you, Bella."
His words shocked me for a bit but I smiled back at him. "I love you too, Edward."
He turned to leave but I had something else I needed to say. "Edward," he paused and turned to look at me." I can't just forget about the pain from these last months. If you're not going to leave again like you say, I'm going to need time."
"Of course Bella, I understand." He looked at me a little longer than stepped out of the room closing the door behind him.
So, I'm not 100% sure of this chapter. Although I do have to say that I like Edward's explanation. Please review and tell me what you think!!!!! COOKIES FOR ALL MY REVIEWERS!!!!!!!!!!!