Flashback
Matt's
cell phone ran when he was at a very risky level on his new
PlayStation game, but when he saw Mello's number blinking on the
display, he took the call and pressed pause.
"Matt? Matt, I've
done something really stupid…"
"Mel? Mel, what's the
matter? Where are you?"
"At the old warehouse. Matt, stay
where you are, I… I'll try to get out of this shit, ok? Only if I…
If I don't make it, I didn't want to leave you again without a
message… I love you, Matty, I really do. Bye."
"Mello?
Mello! What…" But Mello had already put down. "Shit!", Matt
said, he threw the controller against the next wall before he ran
outside to his car and drove much too fast to the warehouse.
Matt
didn't knew anymore how he had found Mello and brought him home.
Even now it was difficult to think properly when his boyfriend was
lying badly burned and unconscious on the couch. What should he do
now? He knew, Mello definitely needed medical help, but a hospital
would most certain call the police. Then he remembered what Mary had
told him when he went away, "You and Mello, you're always
welcome here. If you need help, you can get help from us."
End
of Flashback
Matt closed his
eyes and remained silent, but Mary didn't want to let him off easy.
"That explains why you have brought Mihael here but not why YOU are
looking like a vice had overtaken you."
"Don't wanna talk
about it."
"Mail… You need help, too. Your hand is most
certain broken and you've got a black eye so big one cannot see
your real eye below."
Matt stared at the floor.
"Mail,
please tell me what happened." Mary tried once again.
The
redhead had increasing tears in his eyes.
"Nothing I didn't
deserve, Nobody should help me right now."
Mary took the boy
into her arms. "Don't weep, young man… Schsch… No matter what
happened or what you've done, we'll always be here for you…"
Matt
gulped. "No, not this time… You may not help me, it's all my
own fault…"
Mary smiled not knowing what was oppressing the
boy.
"Mail, if a little child climbs into a tree although being
not aloud to, it's himself to blame when he falls down, isn't it?
But never-the-less, the child will be comforted and given a plaster
to his wounded knee."
But Matt shook his head.
"This is
something else. Ma'am, I really fucked up. Sorry for the
expression, it's really appropriate this time."
"What's
the matter, Mail? Talk with me.", Mary asked him to, but Matt still
hesitated. Then he answered quietly, "I… I've prostituted
myself…"
Mary blinked at him questioningly.
"My… I…
I've been… I've had sex with other men for money… First, only
because… But then… And I didn't know how to get Mello here
otherwise."
He didn't look at her, didn't want to see her
horrified face. Indeed, respiratory was like shocked but then she
said pitying: "Mail…" Matt closed his eyes. "It's my own
fault."
"Who has done this to you, Mail? Who has hurt you so
much?"
"It doesn't matter. It's my own fault. Only got
what I deserved…"
"You could've called, Mail, you could
have… But even if I don't understand why you hadn't ask for
help earlier… Nobdoy has got the right to hurt you like this. And
even if you commited a sin, then only to save Mihael."
Why Mary
didn't see the relationship of Mello and Matt as a sin was unclear,
maybe because she'd always thought Mello'd make a better
girl.
Again she hugged him. "My poor boy…"
Matt cried and
shook his head. "It wasn't the first time, Ma'am, I've…
Before Mello has found me, I've… I've taken… I promised him
never to touch anything of it again, and then…"
Mary slowly
understood what he meant. She took a deep breath before saying, "That
was stupid of you, Mail. Really stupid."
"I know…", he
sobbed. "But… Oh God, I… I had stopped it, I was clean and
then… When I was with them I…" He was yet too quiet to be
understood and then said loudly: "I don't deserve your help,
Ma'am, I've had my chance and I failed it."
"Mail Jeevas!
You'll let me help you to get off from this drug stuff and will
immediately stop blaming yourself, alright?"
Matt nodded with a
lowered head. He knew there was no sense in opposing Mary.
"I'll
talk to the doctor to look for you- And if you want to talk, I take
my time to listen to you."
Again Matt just nodded.
Three
hours later, after the doctor had providen Matt's wounds and bandaged
his broken arm, Mary climbed up the stairs to Matt's room and found
herself exactly in time to prevent Matt from strangling himself with
the bedsheets.
She pulled the sheets off of him. "Mail! What are
you doing?! Oh, you stupid little boy, you…", she shook him and
Matt again started crying.
"lease…
Please let me do it… I'm just a burden to you, I'm ultimately
filthy…"
Smack!
Mary served him a slap into the face full
forced.
"Don't try to do that ever again! You understood?
Never Again!"
Matt held his burning cheek and stared aside.
Then
he said quietly, "Then let me go. I…"
"You stay here until
you're better! And if I have to fix you on the bed personally! None
of my children commits the greatest of all sins! Oh Lord God, what
have I done to deserve this?"
Matt jumped out of the bed. "I'll
go now." He said and ran towards the door, but Mary brought out a
wooden spoon from her apron and gave Matt some rough smacks on his
bottom. "I told you to stay here!"
Then she pushed him back to
the bed. "Alright. And now you WILL tell me what happened and why
you wanted to commit the mortal sin."
But Matt shook his head.
"I can't…"
Mary
sighed.
"Darling… I'm down in the kitchen. I'll look for
you time after time and when you finally come to the conclusion you
have to talk, call me."
Hours later, Matt called Mary who
came immediately. Actually, she thought the boy just had to go to the
toilet. After he had tried to jump out of the window, she'd made
her threat true and fixed him to the bed.
But the redhead
surprised her because he started speaking, after he had warned her
once more she would probably not like him anymore after his
confession and he'd go to hell this way or the other.
A/N:
Thank you to Tama1998, who once again beta'd my translation, and to the ones writing me reviews^^ The next chapter will explain Matt's story furthermore (was a parted chapter in German, too.), so hope you'll read it^^
