A few weeks later:

The sun was shining, it was a relatively warm day in fall.

Matt played football with a few kids outside. Since Mello was better, they had integrated a little into the lives of Wammy's House. That meant, Matt was integrated, he cared for the children, played with them, helped them with their problems…

Almost the whole day Mello sat in the library at a computer containing files of the latest developments in the Kira case. If he wasn't sitting in front of a computer, he looked at Matt when he played with the children. He sighed.

Every time he saw Matt like this he realized it was cruel to even think about going away again. Matt was created for normal life, with children he could look after, a simple task not ending in a bloodbath.

He wasn't the one to go out and hunt down criminals, he had never wanted to become L's successor.

But Mello… Mello was a whole lot different. He thought the life of the orphanage to be barren and boring. He had a job to do he couldn't from here.

Again he sighed. He had to go, there was no other chance. He was drawn by the Kira case, he had to take the risk, he needed challenges, and if it only was to beat Near.

He had to talk about it with Matt soon…

When Matt came to their shared room a few hours later, Mello already sat on the bed. Matt wondered a bit about it, usually he had to attract Mello with chocolate out of the library when the children had gone to bed and he wanted to spend a little time with his lover.

But he didn't say anything, only smiled as he went to the wardrobe.

"Matt… I'll leave Wammy's again.", Mello said. Suddenly, without any warning.

Matt who just was about to get a new T-Shirt from the cupboard, froze.

"Wha… Why?", he asked.

Mello lowered his head. "Kira's still free killing people.", he muttered. The redhead grabbed him by the shoulders.

"Don't say that! You don't plan to risk your head once again in order to catch this lunatic, are you?!"

His voice sounded pleadingly.

But Mello gulped and looked him into the eyes.

"I'm… I'm sorry, Matt… I know you're happy here. But I… I'm not, can you understand this? I have to take my way. I must catch Kira."

"Wasn't it enough to blow yourself up? You after all told me not to throw away my life, what's what you plan to do if not that?"

The blonde hugged his boyfriend.

"But I have you to watch over me.", he said quietly.

Then Matt pressed him to himself.

"I don't want to lose you…"

"I know… I… I don't want to lose you either."

They remained like this quite a while without any of them saying anything.

Then Matt asked:" If Kira's… When we have caught him…"

Mello nodded. "When Kira's caught we'll start a new life. Together. This is a promise."

The redhead nodded.

"Then… Let's get packed."

The blonde looked at him surprised. "You really come with me?"

"Of course! Never once again I'll let you leave me alone. Beside… I need you, remember? I need you to look after me." He grinned.

"Thank you."

Mello knew Matt wasn't lighthearted with this decision.

The redhead wanted a peaceful life, maybe with children, a family.

But apparently he loved him more than this dream.

The next day they left Wammy's, but they left a note because Matt wanted it.

Mello watched his boyfriend while going through the gate. Then, he suddenly looked sad. Matt saw it and was a bit irritated.

"What's going on, Mell?"

"I wish I had taken you before… I'm sorry Matt… Everything which has happened…"

Matt pressed his hand and smiled at him.

"It's alright. Just let's see the future and not look at the past."

Beta'd by xxbeyondxbirthdayxx