CHAPTER TWO
Vale…
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Meg: I wore black to my Nanna's funeral…my Dad wore a shirt that was, like, olive green…no fashion sense, just like all men…
Sunstreaker: Hey!
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We arrived at the cemetery at ten to ten.
I was wearing a black dress, and one black shoe – the other leg was wrapped up in bandages, and I was swinging along on my crutches. Bee and Bia walked on either side of me. Opti walked next to Bia.
Behind us were Zikya and 'Jack, followed by the twins and Andy, and Jazz. Arcee and Elita1 followed behind them with Ratchet and Ironhide.
Leveret was walking along beside me.
People stared at us as we walked towards the funeral house, and I kept my eyes glued ahead of me, not caring who stared.
We walked into the funeral house, and everyone trickled in after us. I sat up the front, on the right, with Bia and Bee on either side of me. Opti, Zikya and 'Jack also sat in the front row. The others sat behind us, and Leveret sat on my lap, staring at the two beautifully flower-decorated caskets at the front of the room.
My eyes misted over. Bee and Bia each grabbed one of my hands, and held them, as the minister walked up, and began the oration.
"Dearly beloved…" He began, in a sombre voice, and I stared up at the ceiling light, not daring to look anywhere else.
This was torture, and my body was numb. If not for Bee's and Bia's hands, then I might have fled. Oh, and the crutches.
Halfway through the entire ordeal, I got up to say a eulogy. Bee and Bia came with me, and stood on either side. I made my way slowly up to the lectern, with Leveret on my shoulder. I faced the other people, and kept my gaze on the ceiling above Optimus' head.
"I
love Nenona and Jerome so much, my guardians, my parents, my
teachers." I whispered into the microphone, and Bia put her hand on
my other shoulder. My voice shook as I went on: "I…I wouldn't
be half the person I was today without them. They gave me so much…"
And this is what I
give them in return – I let the Decepticons destroy them.
"So…in turn…I want them to hear this…somehow…" I took a
deep breath. "Couldn't
save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul
Can you
forgive me for trying again
Your silence makes me hold my
breath
Time has passed you by
Oh, for so long I've tried to
shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the freedom on
your own
Here I am left in silence
You gave up the
fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll
always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven
I
watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my
face
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for
the great escape
To chase your demons away
Oh, for so long
I've tried to shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the
freedom on your own
And here I am left in silence
You gave
up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's
forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's
done's forgiven
I've been so lost since you've gone
Why not
me before you?
Why did fate deceive me?
Everything turned out
so wrong
Why did you leave me in silence?
You gave up the
fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll
always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven…"
I hope.
I don't know how I managed to get through the whole song, but I did.
At the end, though, everything just set in, and as I said: "I'm sorry…" I started to cry, and turned, and buried my face in Bee's black jacket. "I'm so sorry…" I whispered, as he put his arms around me.
*
The burial took place outside, and I cold breeze began to blow as the caskets were lowered in to the ground, side-by-side.
I was holding the petals of a white rose in my hand, and I suddenly opened my hand, and the petals scattered in the breeze.
The only family I had left now was crowded around me, for support and for comfort. Whoever said robots were unfeeling creatures…never met the Autobots.
I didn't look at any of them, or at Zikya, as the caskets were finally placed in the ground…and my guardians, Nenona and Jerome, who had given their lives because of me, were finally lied to rest.
"I love you…" I whispered. "Vale…"
*
Rowan and Cray were waiting for us outside of the cemetery.
The first thing Rowan did was give me a sort of half-hearted hug, like he was embarrassed to do so.
The next thing he did, or rather said, made me want to scream. "Your's and Zikya' new foster family I waiting over there for you."
I looked, and he pointed…to Nenona's sister, her husband, and Cassie and Sara.
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Meg: At least no one fainted.
Ratchet: I would have been right there.
Meg: What if it was Sunny or 'Sides?
Ratchet: Except them.