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~Roxanne~

"Hey," Erik smiled brushing my hair back.

"What happened? I feel like I had way too much to drink," I said he looked down at me with the warmest smile.

"Your body was rejecting the blood you were drinking," he said in a gentle voice.

"I'm a vampire that allergic to blood," I said laughing at myself. "I'm never going to hear the end of this from Stark," I said looking up at him.

"I love you, and I just need to tell you something," he said as his eye developed a dark tint.

"Is Zoey okay?" I asked hoping she didn't do something dumb in my absence. "How long was I out?" I asked him.

"Zoey fine and you were just out of it for two day," he said caressing my face. "I understand if you don't forgive me," he said freaking me out.

"What's going on Erik?" I asked sitting up so I could look him straight in the eye.

"Zoey and I kissed," he said not able to look me in the eye.

"Wait what?" I asked confused.

"Zoey and I kissed," he said looking at me this time. "I'm so sorry it just happened."

Erik started apologizing and all I could think of was how wrong that sounded, Erik and Zoey kissing? That was impossible. Maybe I was dead, and this was hell. Erik wouldn't cheat on me, and Zoey wasn't interested in him. Something wasn't right. "Say something," he begged with tears filling his eyes.

I placed my hand on his and through our telepathic connection I searched his mind for truth. I couldn't believe what I found. Zoey kissed Erik, and he kissed her back. I could feel the electricity pass between their lips, and the warm familiarity flutter through his system. I felt his confusion by Zoey's action and the slight anger he felt at her and himself, for becoming what Zoey did to him to me. Nonetheless he still had feelings for Zoey. I felt my chest contracting and I realized I couldn't breathe. Erik was in love with someone else. He could love someone else?

"Roxy calm down," I heard him say but I was lost deep inside myself….

~Zoey~

I couldn't face the world after what I did to Roxanne. I hadn't meant to kiss Erik. Something deep inside of me was slowly changing in response to who Erik was becoming. He wasn't the jerk I knew a few months ago. Erik was the guy that stole my breath away, and now things with Stark weren't working out. Was I only pulling towards Erik, because I was giving up on Stark? I was burning another bridge with another friend. Roxanne was never going to forgive me.

Roxanne always treated me with respect. When everyone whispered about what happened between Erik and I Roxanne stood up for me. She was risking her life to help me protect Aurox and Heath from Neferet. I felt my chest contract when I thought about Roxanne's reaction to what I did. She'd never forgive me.

"Are you okay Zoey?" I heard Beverly ask. She was holding me as I cried on her shoulder. I was hiding in the tech closet, and I was hoping no one would find me here. I had be using the elements to hide myself and block my emotions from Stark. My phone was on silent and I just needed a moment to be a mess. I was sure Stark was going crazy, because he didn't like it when I used the elements to hide my feelings from him.

"I'm fine I just want to be alone," I said taking my arms from around her and trying to calm my tears. I wasn't going to let her see me like this, crying alone in a dark corner. We were supposed to be defeating Neferet, and I was supposed to be a fearless leader even though I didn't feel like one I could look like one.

"It's okay that you're upset about Roxanne. I'm sure she'll be okay," Beverly said petting my head as if I were her little sister. "Erik got to talk to her for a little before she went into shock," she added.

"What are you talking about? Did she wake up?" I asked looking up into Beverly's eyes.

"For a brief moment, then she went into shock, and none of us have been able to see her since," she said and I knew Erik told Roxanne. I couldn't help but loss it. I was making a mess of my life all over again. Every time I take two steps in the right direction I got knocked a mile back.

"Zoey what's wrong? Like I said this is a common thing, Roxanne is going to be okay," Beverly said making me feel worst.

"I know she's going to get better. I just made a terrible mistake," I said getting up and wiping my eyes.

"You know you can talk to me Zoey…right?" Beverly said getting up and meeting my gaze.

I looked at Beverly knowing I was making a mistake. I just couldn't keep lying about this. I was avoiding everyone, and things weren't the same with Stark. I couldn't look him in the eye after what I did. "I need to think," I said throwing on a fake smile.

"Zoey something is bothering, and as your professor I'm not letting you leave until you tell me," she said looking at me with narrowed eyes.

"It's not a school problem. It's very personal one," I said trying not to sound like a bitch, but sure it failed.

"I can help you if you let me," she said keeping a leveled tone, and taking my hand. Something told me Beverly wasn't the right person to confess to, but I certainly wasn't going to talk to Aphrodite and Stevie Rae had her own stuff to deal with.

"I should go find everyone," I said turn to the door.

"Zoey, you are a lot of things, but you're not a coward. Why are you acting like one?" She asked getting to me.

"I'm not acting like anything I'm trying to get ready for rehearsal. Goodbye," I said walking out the room then I felt her grab a hold of my arm.

"Zoey I can see you're in a lot of pain, I have some potions that can help you if I know what's wrong with you," Beverly said making me feel like she can fix this thing.

"I did something that could really hurt Roxanne, and I don't know what to do about it," I said feeling the tears run down my face.

"Zoey you can trust me," She said looking into my eyes. I took a deep breath and I told Beverly the truth. I told her that Erik and I kissed, and that it was one of the worst mistakes I've ever made, and that was saying a lot for me.

"Wow Z, you've really gotten yourself into another mess. I mean poor Roxanne," she said making me feel even lower. "I have something that will calm you a bit," she said taking two vials out of her purse. They were both tiny crystal jars shaped like little crystals with silver lids. "Put two drops of this in some white tea and you'll start to feel better," she said giving me the vial with the pink potion. "This one you take right away and it will help you be able to talk to Roxanne," she said giving me the neon green potion next.

I opened the green potion and it smelt melon like. "Are you sure this will help?" I asked stopping for a second, before taking it.

"Yep, but it might make you a little sleepy, but I'm sure you could use a little rest," she said adding her warm smile to reassure me.

I drunk it and it was like melon flavored medicine. It was thick and way too sweet. And in an instant I felt the side effect. My eyelids felt like boulders. "Wow you weren't kidding about the drowsiness," I said blinking a few times.

"I know," she said in a soothing voice. For a second it felt like I was being hypnotized by her ever word. "Can I tell you something?" she asked.

"Sure," I said finally feeling the side-effects subside a tiny bit.

"If Erik kissed you back and he didn't pull away from you, maybe he's still in love with you. Maybe you should see how he feels about the kiss and if it's even worth telling Roxanne about," she said, and for some reason it made complete sense to me. It was as if she gave me a complete epiphany.

"Yeah, I'll go find him," I said but she stopped me.

"I'm sure he's visiting Roxanne now, and you need to rest before rehearsal. I'll walk you to your room," she said and I laid my head on her shoulder as we walked to the girls' dorm.