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OK SO BEEN TRYING TO TALK TO MY MOM ABOUT GETTING ME JB TIXS FOR JULY 28TH SHOW IN CINCINNA OH. THEY R ALOT OF MONEY ABOUT 800 (FOR TRIP AND ALL) AND I AM ALMOST 18 SO APPARENTLY I AM AT MY SEXUAL PEEK. I BEEN HAVING STRANGE SEX DREAMS AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT HOW SEXY JOE AND OTHER CELBS I THINK ARE HOT I BEEN GETTING ORGASMS AND MAN AM I LIKING IT. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE SEX BUT APPARENTLY MY MIND AND BODY DISAGREE. WELL ANYWAY I DON'T NEED TO WORRY ABOUT THAT CASE NO GUYS WANT ME CASE I DON'T WANT TO HAVE SEX AND THEY THINK I AM FAT. I LIKE TO EAT IS THAT A CRIME? I KNOW I AM PATHIC I MEAN I AM ALMOST 18 AND NEVER BEEN KISSED, HAD A BOYFRIEND, OR BEEN ON A DATE. MY 3 CLOSES FRIENDS 1 IS COMPLETE OPPISTE BUT KOOL WE HANG OUT EVERY KNOW AND AGAIN. THE OTHER 2 ARE 12 YEARS OLD GIRLS WHO I NEVER MET BUT WE HAVE A LOT IN COMMON AND TALK A LOT ON THE NET. I WISH I CAN GO BACK TO WHEN I WAS 12 THE BIGGEST CONCERN WAS WHICH BOY BAND IS BETTER. BTW I LIKED NSYNC THE BEST. MY BEST FRIEND WANTS TOO MUCH IN A GUY BUT THATS JUST MY OPTION. SHE WANTS HIM TO SIGN A PRENUP AND WON'T MARRY HIM UNLESS HE DOSE EVEN IF SHE LOVES HIM AND WON'T MARRY ANY CELBS. SHE THINKS I AM A GOLD DIGGER CASE I WANT TO MARRY JOE JONAS BUT TOTAL NOT TRUE. I JUST WANT A THE FLOWING IN MY DREAM GUY AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS JOE FITS IT WELL MOST OF IT ANYWAY. I WANT A GUY WHO LIKES ME FOR ME. I WANT HIM TO SURPISSE ME WITH THE LITTLE THINGS LIKE OPENING DOORS FOR ME OR SEND ME FLOWERS OR SAY I AM BETIFUL. I WANT A GUY WHO DOESN'T NEED ANYONE BUT ME TO MAKE HIM HAPPY. I AM WANT A GUY WHO DOESN'T HIT ME WHEN HE GETS MAD. I WANT A GUY WHO WON'T TRADE ME IN FOR A YOUNGER MODEL. I WANT A GUY WHO IS NICE TO MINE AND HIS FAMILY. I WANT A GUY WHO WON'T FORCE ME INTO ANYTHING I DON'T WANT TO DO (SEX IMPTULAR). I WANT A SOMEONE WHO RESPECTS ME AS AN EQUAL. I WANT A GUY THAT DOSE NOT DO THE FOLLOWING LIE, CHEAT, STEAL, DRINK, OR DO DRUGS. I DON'T CARE WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE AS LONG AS HE TREATS ME RIGHT AND THATS WHAT I WANT IN MY GUY. DO YOU THINK IT IS TOO MUCH TO ASK? IDK. I JUST WANT MY HAIRSPRAY FAIRE TALE BUT I AM LIVING IN MY CARRIE NIGHTMARE. ON THE OUTSIDE I MAY SEEM FINE AND HAPPY BUT ON THE INSIDE I AM NOT. I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO LIKE ME. I TRY TO TREAT EVERYONE THE WAY I WANT TO BE TREATED BUT IT DOESN'T SEEM TO WORK. I JUST WANT WHAT GIRLS MY AGE SHOULD HAVE BUT INSTEAD I DON'T. Y? I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. I JUST GET UPSET CASE I WANT TO FEEL SPECIAL BY SOMEONE WHO ISN'T RELATED AND THEY DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME BUT WANTS TO GET TO KNOW THE REAL ME. BUT IT SEEM GUYS DON'T CARE ALL THE SEE US (GIRLS) AS IS A PIECE OF MEAT THAT THE WANT TO TAP. I WANT SOMEONE TO TREAT ME LIKE A PRINCESS AND I WILL TREAT HIM LIKE A PRINCE. THE WAY IT SHOULD BE. HOPEFULLY MY MR RIGHT IS OUT THERE. I JUST DON'T WANT TO END UP OLD AND ALONE WITH CATS. I WANT SOMEONE TO GROW OLD WITH ME AND WILL BE THERE FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING ALONE. I WANT TO SPEND WEEKENDS WITH SOMEONE THATS NOT RELATED AND I DON'T WANT TO DREAM ABOUT JOE JONAS ALL WEEKEND MAYBE EVERY NOW AND AGAIN BUT NOT ALL THE TIME. I KNOW I MAY BE ASKING FOR A LOT BUT I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I LISTEN TO BOY BAND STILL LIKE JONAS BROTHERS (JOE JONAS IS SO SEXY) AND NEW KIDS BTW THEY R SO SEXY NOW THAT THEY HAVE GROWN UP AND I REALLY LIKE JORDAN KNIGHT FROM NEW KIDS. ANYWAY I LISTEN TO THEM CASE IT REMINDS ME OF A TIME WHERE BOYS WASN'T ON MY MIND BUT NOW I AM GROWING UP. I AM CHILD AT HEART AND I LIKE TO HAVE FUN. I MAY FOLLOW THE RULES BUT I STILL LIKE TO HAVE FUN LIKE OTHER GIRLS. HOPEFULLY IT WORKS OUT. WELL I AM GONNA WATCH A JOE VID ON UTUBE BYE FROMKAYLA JONAS