Let Me Love You

Chapter Ten

If you've ever felt the pain of what getting kicked in the stomach while you're already down and left to die, you'd know a fraction of the pain I felt right now.

In front of me, stood Bella with her lips sealed with another's in a rather passionate, heart wrenching, looking kiss. One arm locked around the man's neck, the other that held the door open, and his arms rapped aroundher waist in a way I've only dreamed of doing. It was a sight I'd never have come across my mind before. Of course she had a boyfriend; a lover. How could someone as beautiful and special as her, not? I mentally punched myself for not even thinking if she was already committed or not, before deciding to start and confess my love, my feelings, my un-beating heart to her.

I didn't know whether I was relieved, for not already telling her how I secretly felt for her and embarrassing myself, or completely and irrevocably heartbroken and shattered into the ultimate level of pain—not even the three painfully torturing days could not compare—of what I feel this very moment.

They started breaking away, so I quickly composed my features into a blank hard mask before either one could see the slightest emotion cross visibility.

"Hey Edward, did you forget something?" Just to let you know that I'm in love with you is all; I wanted to say but instead said something more reasonable.

"No, Alice just wanted to know if she could come by and help you pick an outfit for the day." My voice was hard, not letting any emotion pass out of my mouth.

"Oh, okay. Tell her that the whole family can come over; I want you guys to meet someone." She smiled. It didn't take a genius to figure out she was talking about the male still holding her waist.

"Alright." I forced a smile, but from Bella's expression, she could tell it didn't reach my eyes. I turned away and quickly, and noticed for the first time that there was another car parked at the far side of the house near the garage. Must be his car, I mentally insulted myself for not noticing it earlier, before made my way back to my own house.

As soon as I reached the door, Alice came bursting out hugging me, trying to comfort me.

"I'm so sorry! I should've seen it sooner—not after! Please forgive me, PLEASE! I know, I'm stupid for not checking my visions before I let you go off like that! Oh my god, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, so sorry, sorry..." Alice began dry sobbing and mumbling her un-needed apologies to me. I knew she was too busy trying to convince me to admit my feelings, even to myself, then consider looking into the future for me. She couldn't see everything. Truth be told, no one can.

I knew, deep down, I was shedding invisible tears along with her, even if I didn't look it.

"Come on, Bella wants all of us to meet someone." She gave me a knowing looking, before nodding once. Wiping her unshed tears with her right hand, she ran back into the house to let them know of the invitation, as well as my heartbreak, I'm sure.

My siblings began filing through the door, as well as Esme. She looked the most sympathetic for me, and hugged me tightly. Bella and Esme have gotten pretty close, just like the rest of my family, over the past couple of months. [Sorry didn't mention Esme and Carlisle earlier lol

"Are you going to be alright?" she asked in a motherly tone, worry stricken across her pale, smooth face.

"Yeah, I'm okay, I'm not ten." I chuckled, but she could tell I was faking my amusement.

"I have an earlier shift so I can't be over too long." Carlisle broke the tension.

We piled into our cars since we'd end up going to school, back home, or work afterwards.

"Hey, come in!" Bella opened the door.

"Hey Bella." My family hid their true emotions easier that I could, but I still managed to not raise suspicion on Bella's part.

She ushered us all to her living room where the man I saw from earlier, was sitting on a loveseat. Once everyone had a seat, she started introducing us.

"Guys, this is Shane West, my boyfriend. Shane this is Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, Carlisle, Esme, and Edward." she pointed to each of us as she said our names.

Ha! Emmett's better looking that this guy. I don't see why all the girls swoon over him, most of them haven't even seen Emmett before. I should talk to her about her taste in men – Rosalie She through in the last thought for my benefit.

He is pretty good looking...not to mention an amazing actor...OPPS! Sorry Edward! Darn it! I should've seen this coming, I should've seen this coming... – Alice

PSSH! Edward's got a way nicer build then him. I bet he'd make a better underwear model then this guy (pictures a comparison of me and Bella's boyfriend in boxers, him in pink ones, with me in muscles bigger than they really are and him looking on the verge of being obesity– Emmett

'GAY GAY GAY'

That was me this time.

I then looked at him in disbelief...and pretty freaked out. Leave it to Emmett to think of something disturbing at a time like this.

"What?" Emmett whispered, thinking there was absolutely nothing wrong because he was just 'making fun' of this guy.

Poor Edward, I hope he's not feeling too bad about all of this. I was really hoping they'd get together, I hate seeing him always by himself when the kids are all already paired up with each other. – Esme

I wonder if he has any powers. He's obviously a vampire; even if his eyes are green...they must be contacts then...seems reasonable if he continues on his career of fame. - Carlisle

That instantly caught my attention. I was thinking too much of all my depression that I failed to even notice that this guy didn't smell good enough to eat.

"Is...is he human?" I asked in a low voice, confused if he was or not. There was no need to ask that in a normal voice and later find out that he was.

Then something surprising happened; this Shane guy laughed, as if knowing what we were thinking.

"No, I just wear make up to cover any exposed skin, when I'm in public. I just got here from the airport an hour ago. And since I was changed only a couple years ago and it would seem a little suspicious if I all of a sudden turned pale to the extreme." So he was smart. But that still didn't help the fact that it gave Bella all the more reason to be with him, to make me feel more jealous no matter how much I don't want to.

...and my brain couldn't help but screaming 'GAY GAY GAY' at the first part of what he said...never mind, that was just my family's thoughts.

I could hear my family talking with Shane and Bella, but I was too lost in my own thoughts to focus on their words.

The next thing I knew, Bella was tapping me on the shoulder, trying to get my attention.

"Helloooo? Earth to Edward?" I saw her hand wave in front of my face.

"Oh hey, sorry. Just being out of it a little." Just looking at her beautiful face brought an un-needed forced smile in me. As long as she's happy, I thought, I'll still be there for her.

"So you wanna leave for school now?" she grinned.

Before I could answer, Shane cut in.

"Actually, would you mind if I dropped you off, baby? It's been a while and I've missed spending time with you," and spend less time with him, I caught his thought.

"Uh...if it's okay with Edward?" Bella turned to look at me.

"Um, sure, no problem. I'll just go with my siblings," I answered, even though it angered and upset me more than it really should have.

"Great." Shane started leading Bella out the door, but turned his head around and smirked at me before exiting the room.

I was a little shocked...but anger quickly overtook that. I shook it off and followed them out, heading back to my house.

I've never thought this before, or felt the need to,

...but what a son of a bitch.

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Was this okay? I thought it kinda sucked but I had major writers block. I KIND OF know what I want to happen but just the major points LOL. Sorry about not updating in...a long time but a lot of un-wanted drama happened along with all this homework that was suddenly dumped on me before exams which I also had to study for but exam week is finally over :D.

I also started writing the next chapter EXCEPT it got deleted (iunno how I did it, but yea) but the good thing is that I didn't write too much so I can just retype it. I still have major writers block since I can't get this guy out of my mind (hehe)