To: ellen o
Let Me Love You
Chapter Fifteen
"Oh it was..." she paused for a moment, seeming to have a battle in her mind whether to tell me or not. She sighed, not willing to meet my eyes, before finishing her sentence, "my manager. He told me that he wanted to schedule a concert, since, well, I haven't done anything with my career in a while, and he wants to bring me 'back on top'" she made air quotes.
"So? Isn't that a good thing?" confusion colored my features.
"I guess...except for the part where I have to go in for rehearsals—which is dead annoying because I already memorized everything, but I have to go in to appear 'normal'—so I can't really spend any time with you." She said the last part in a smaller voice, looking adorable as ever. But that's not what caught my attention; it was the fact that she just told me that she actually liked spending time with me. I suppose I knew she did all along, but hearing her say it, it was...indescribable. I just felt this warmth spread throughout my being, I felt, well, like I was loved. Not just being loved as a brother, or a son, but as if what two lovers would share.
"Oh," was all I could say, without accidentally adding something idiotic like 'well I love you too, will you marry my?' Yeah, I don't think that would be a pretty outcome of the future. She probably just intended it to mean she loved me as a friend—although it pains me to say it—and nothing more.
"Of course you could come along and watch, but I think it'd be awfully boring since we only get so many breaks." She smiled sheepishly.
"I don't mind, as long as I still get to see you." I blurted out, before I could think. Well Edward, way to go and give yourself away.
"Are you sure? The ladies might just start hitting on you." She teased, with a sly grin, poking me playfully in the chest when she said 'you'. I would never tell anyone this, but it felt rather good; similar to a massage.
"I'll just tell them that I have a girlfriend, I mean with this face," I pointed at my face, "they'd easily believe me." I joked.
"Har, har. Very funny Mr. Cullen." she punched me in the shoulder sarcastically.
"I prefer Edward, thanks." I grinned.
Bella just rolled her eyes in response, but kept her gaze down and blushed a faint shade of pink.
"Well rehearsal's on Sunday, so we don't have to think about it till then." She smiled up at me which I returned.
"Well then what do you fancy on doing till oh so dreaded Sunday?" I questioned, amusement dancing in my tone of voice.
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Rehearsal wasn't as bad as Bella had made it sound. Some of the backup dancers tried flirting with me, asking me personal questions that I would rather not bring up again, and asked if I had any plans for some day of the week, but I politely told them I had a girlfriend. It really only half worked.
They still kept up their shameless flirting, twirling their hair, not being able to take a hint, so...I sort of told them I would prefer if they stopped before humiliating themselves further. It was harsh, but it worked, as I saw their faces dropped and sulked away. Thank god.
And all along, Bella had been watching from a distance, on her 'break', and had been silently laughing at my torture. When I finally looked up and noticed, she walked up to me and said in a sing-song voice, "Told ya."
"Shut up." I glared, well as best I could, but the amusement that was visibly desperately trying not to break gave me away, so she just laughed. If it didn't sound so beautiful, I might have been slightly ticked off.
I was slightly confused at some of the dance choreography, but Bella assured me that I'd understand completely as soon as I saw the concert. I doubted it since for one of the routines, they were using things like umbrellas.
"You haven't even heard the song yet." Bella laughed.
"Well then why don't you play the song then?" I suggested, slightly sarcastic, but mostly exasperated. She giggled before replying.
"I told you, because it's a surprise. You won't find the finally of the concert as great if you already know what's going to happen next."
I glared at her, but she just smiled that irresistibly sweet smile, I loved so much, back..
I sighed. "Fine, fine. But I better not find out it's a cover of that Umbrella song from—what's her name—Rihanna. After hearing my Rosalie and Alice play that song a million times for the past month that it came out, its turned into one of my least favorite songs." I twirled one of the umbrellas around my finger.
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It was Saturday; the day of the concert. We took Bella's private jet to New York; leaving the Seattle airport right after school so we could get their while it was still dark. I can't remember if the airport was in Port Angeles or Seattle so sorry if I'm wrong
The past week, kids at the school were continuously asking about the upcoming concert, so it took a long period of time to get from each class. I'm not even going to tell you how the lunch periods were like.
Since it was fairly cloudy for the rest of the day after we arrived at the city, Alice insisted that she drag the whole family to the various designer stores, grabbing Bella before walking out the door so she could show her where the best shopping areas were located.
"I really don't know that many, Alice. I don't go shopping remember? Heidi used to just buy the clothes for me," she complained, muttering "and still does; online now." under her breath. I chuckled at her attempt to get away from my sister's wrath.
She glared at me and I quickly covered it up as a pathetic cough, slightly scared, putting my two cents into the conversation. "Alice, why don't you just use your visions to find the stores? I mean, it'll give you more time to waste money-I mean shop without Bella whining the whole way."
Alice thought about it, and then realization dawned on her, before she started clapping while jumping up and down, sqealing, "You're right! Good idea Edward!"
"I am?" Bella punched me, sending daggers at me, "Oh, right, I am. What are brothers for?" I tried to laugh it off, although it didn't come out as I planned, but Alice didn't seem to catch it as she grabbed Rose' hand and they started running quickly (as humanly possible) after Alice came back from a vision, that I'm sure had many expensive clothes in it.
"Thanks." Bella let out a sigh in relief.
"Anytime." I replied, flinching slightly as I remembered that was the name of the song I had written for her, my feelings for her.
After several hours, I was waiting outside of Bella's change room as she was getting her makeup applied and what not for the show that was about to start in ten minutes.
About two minutes later, the door opened and I looked up, my breath taken straight out of my lungs, literally taking my breath away. She was beautiful. No gorgeous, angelic, striking...no words could come close to describe how incredible she looked right now. She normally didn't wear any makeup, some lip-gloss and mascara was it, if any.
She was wearing a slightly baggy white dress, but still hugged her perfect curves, ending mid-thigh, with her hair slightly curled into long waves, blue eye-shadow adorning her eyes along with some mascara and black eyeliner, a coat of pink lip-gloss, a light coat of blush (although unneeded), and some light blue glitter spread around her eyes and prominent cheekbones.
"You...l-look...amazing." was my lame compliment. I mentally kicked myself for not being able to think straight.
She blushed slightly looking down at her diamond studded heels before she looked back up into my eyes and smiled, and I thought I would die (you know what I mean), and still feel my most happiest even if I did go to hell as planned for my damnation.
"Thank you." She replied quietly.
"You're welcome." I breathed, not able to talk any louder in fear my voice would give me even more away then I'm sure it already was.
Then the most surprising thing happened; she took my hand. My eyes almost rolled back at how good it felt. I know we've touched (obviously) before, but to be able to walk hand-in-hand and at least pretend we were a couple—the word sent nearly sent chills down my spine—was beyond pleasurable.
She led me through the back door that lead to behind the stage, with many loud fans talking animatedly while waiting for the show to begin; where we met the rest of my family (we were given V.I.P passes). I was shocked when I noticed Aro talking with Carlisle enthusiastically with Markus and Caius standing quietly behind him, as usual, and almost stopped to a hault.
"DADDY!" Bella squealed and sprinted to Aro's awaiting arms, that he opened up immediately after hearing Bella's voice. I was faintly saddened that Bella's hands' presence wasn't still enclosed with mine, as I walked to stand beside my own family, while they embraced each other in a hug.
They began talking happily, but I tuned them out to let them have some privacy, as well as my family when they turned to talk to one another.
I was lost in my thoughts when I felt Bella tap me on the shoulder.
"Daddy, this is Edward, my best friend (oh how I longed for more), Edward, this is my dad, Aro."
"Mr. Volturi, it's been a while since we last met." I extended my hand out for him to shake. He chuckled, and I became confused, before he replied.
"I would much rather let you be in the privacy of your own thoughts." Oh, right. "And please, my boy, call me Aro. 'Mr. Volturi' makes me feel all old." I laughed along with him this time.
"So, Bella's been talking non-stop about you almost everyday when we're on the phone together. I feel as if I've known you like a close friend of my own, and I see from what I already knew, not much has changed about you."
"Wait, you two know each other?" Bella interrupted, furrowing her brow in confusion.
"Ah, yes. He's visited Voltera once with Carlisle a couple decades ago. You weren't...with us at the time." Aro filled her in, then turned back to me. "My offer always stands, if you're still interested in joining my coven."
"Daddy." Bella swatted him on the shoulder, in annoyance, glaring at him. "Do you always have to pester every vampire you come in contact with, with a 'unique' power to join us? Not everyone is interested you know."
"I know, I know," he raised his hands in innocence, "I'm just offering, Bella. No harm done in that."
"Sure, sure, whatever you say." She rolled her eyes, and I couldn't help but laugh in amusement at their little argument. "What?"
"Nothing." I tried to compose myself but my eyes still held humor in the situation.
"Anyway, their about to announce my presence in ten seconds, bye!" she kissed Aro on the cheek, and turned and hugged me.
I was still slightly stunned as I watched Bella's retreating form running up the stairs as a voice announced, "Ladies and gentlemen! Wait no longer as I present to you, Isabella-OW!-I mean Bella Volturi!"
"HELLO NEW YORK! GOOD EVENING! ARE YOU READY-"
I was suddenly snapped out of my attention when Aro spoke up. "You love her, don't you?" Well that took me by complete surprise.
"How'd you know?" I didn't mean to sound rude, but I was shocked. He didn't even lay a finger on me! How could he have read my mind?
"I can see it in your eyes, the way you look at her. It's one of inevitable love and adoration; one that that Shane fellow never showed. I don't even know why she's still with the imbecile!" he sighed, "I can't even read his thoughts, Isabella won't allow it, but I'm sure there's something wrong with him, just by the way he acts. He thinks I don't notice, but I do, I just don't say anything," he sighed and then mumbled in an irritated tone, "because I'm not 'allowed'."
I didn't know what to say to that. All I could do was look at him in silence. But apparently I didn't need to talk, as he continued.
"You know she loved you too." Was he joking? Probably, to spare my feelings.
"But how could she? She has Hi-I mean Shane to love; the famous, handsome, actor. What more could she ask for? I've seen the way she acts around him, and it's clear she at least likes him." I looked down at the end.
"I'm a hundred percent sure more then a 'friend'. Not to sound—what to you lads call it these days—gay" he held up a hand, reassuring me cautiously, as if thinking I would back away (which I probably would if he didn't add that bit in after what I hear next) "but you're a pretty handsome young boy yourself, and didn't Bella mention to me that you have a talent in music?" he looked at me knowingly, so I couldn't lie to him, "You should play for her. I've never seen her act so happy and content, it would impress her more then she already is. And don't even get me started on about talking about someone so much, not even with Shane, never mind her other boyfriends." He spat, and I flinched as the word 'boyfriend' stung painfully. She was with others? Apparently that he noticed, because he added, "sorry, didn't mean for that to come out."
"It's okay, I mean she's just so beautiful, who wouldn't love her?" I sighed.
"No one as much as you," I looked up shocked, but his gaze was unwavering of absolute seriousness. I checked his thoughts, but I couldn't find a single hint as to proving that he was speaking anything, except the truth. "I'll see you later, Edward, my boy. You should go watch the show." And he turned and left.
I watched the concert the rest of the night, in awe the whole time, at how graceful and captivating Bella performed, how she danced, how her melodic voice sounded over the loud speakers.
"Alright everybody, how'd you enjoy the show tonight?" Bella had just finished a song. The crowd cheered, and with my sensitive ears, I could pick up some 'amazing's, 'oh my god Bella, I love you!'s and so on. "Great? I'm sorry to say that this will be the last song for the night, BUT!" she interrupted as the crowd started sulking, "I have a brand new song for you! It'll be one of my hit singles from my new album that will be released in July this summer!" she crowd was louder then ever as the music began to play, and Bella was suddenly handed an umbrella from one of the many dancers, dressed in a plain black t-shirt and matching shorts (or pants in the males' case), that came out from backstage.
Can't stop the rain – Cascada
How, how am I supposed to feel
When everything surrounding me
Is nothing but a fake disguise
Bella slowly slipped off her dress revealing a similar outfit as the others on stage, but in blue with a tank top instead (clearly making her stand out) but the same matching cotton shorts, throwing it article of clothing into the crowd as they all grabbed for it like their lives depended on it. She was walking as equally slow up to the front of the stage, touching hands with some of the screaming fans.
I don't know,
I don't know where I belong
It's time for me to carry on
I'll say goodbye
I can't stop the rain from falling
To my shock, after that line, sprinklers above started showering the stage with water, but Bella and the rest of the backup dancers quickly whipped open the umbrellas in hand over their heads, not stopping their movement in the process, to the sudden upbeat music blasting out. So that's what they were for, I realized.
I'm drowning in these tears I cry
Since you left without a warning
I face the dawn with sleepless eyes
Bella lifted her hand to the top of the inside of the umbrella, the dance team following her lead not a second after, closing it while the sprinklers stopped spraying water at the same time.
No I can't go on
When clouds are pushin' down on me, boy
I can't stop, I can't stop the rain
From falling
The dancing slowed down before she began to sing into her microphone again.
So, tell me where I went wrong
I'm stuck inside a dream long gone
It's hard to reveal the truth
Your love,
Is nothing but a bitter taste
She turned around, walking slowly to the back of the stage, our gazes locked and she smiled, making my heart flutter, if possible, more then it already was at the moment.
It's better if I walk away,
Away from you
The sprinklers came back on, everyone opening their umbrellas a millisecond before the water could hit them, but this time, there were waterworks shooting all around the stage in a computerized timing to the beat.
I can't stop the rain from falling
I'm drowning in these tears I cry
Then to everyone's surprise, Bella closed her coverage from the 'rain' and threw it into the always eager crowd that all, once again, dodged for it like animals, while Bella just tilted her head back while spreading her arms, spinning in circles, but somehow still dancing to the beat, letting the rain cascade down her flawless face, looking more like a goddess then ever before.
Since you left without a warning
I face the dawn with sleepless eyes
No I can't go on
When clouds are pushin' down on me, boy
I can't stop, I can't stop the rain
From falling
"THANK YOU EVERYBODY!" Bella bowed, breathing heavy (for the sake of the humans) her hair flipping gracefully when she brought her head back up and looking like she was doing a shampoo commercial, "I LOVE YOU ALL, AND HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!" she jogged off the stage in my direction, making it unbearably hard not to grab her, lifting her off her feet, and passionately kissing her.
She was looking right at me, smiling the whole way, as she headed in my direction, but then her gaze fell to something behind me and her eyes grew wide in shock. Was it just me, or was there a lot of shock and surprise going on today?
I then began to turn around to where her gaze was still lying and couldn't believe what I saw.
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Okay SORRY it took a while, but if you read my other story, in my A/N it explained that I was busy this week with an essay, homework, and unit test(s). AND I was working on a chapter for my other story since I haven't been updating it as much as I have for this one for a time period. This would've came out earlier but my internet went out on Saturday and didn't come back till later Sunday so I didn't bother going on the computer cause for some reason I can't write when I don't have other sources of entertainment. Don't ask why, I just blank out and can't brain storm what to write next (yea, I know it's weird, shut up xD) BUT I made this over 3000 words! :D
So reviews would be appreciated! I don't have any homework today, btw, so I'll be starting on chapter 16, and remember more reviews equals faster updates xD
Anyway,
To: ellen
o.O "I knew, deep down, I was shedding invisible tears along with her, even if I didn't look it."
It's in chapter ten if you want to double check. Here's another example if you really need it.
"Wiping her unshed tears with her right hand, she ran back into the house to let them know of the invitation, as well as my heartbreak, I'm sure."
So...I'm getting a little confused here :S Care to tell me what you were referring to (specifically)?
Okay, I think that's all for now, catch ya later!
PS: Sorry the last chapter was so shit -.-"